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Chapter 39: The day I went to summer festival. (3)
The appearance that the firework has illuminated, is the appearance that I’ve seen before from somewhere.
Beautiful facial features, short trimmed hair. And her slender figure, is wrapped around by a deep purple yukata.
The first thing that came into my mind is, the memory of when that figure chased me with all her might in the alley. And the next thing that came into my mind is, what Yui-chan has described as “A very attractive woman.”
……The only thing that matches, is only her appearance.
“Mumumu? Mama what’s wrong?”
Yui-chan pulled her sleeve, and just for a moment she seemed to be in a panic. But immediately she makes a smile, and speaks in a very model-like manner.
“Nice to meet you. Thank you for always taking care of my daughter.”
Hohー, so we gonna pretend like everything never happened?
Very well. I want to avoid anything troublesome too.
“No no, I have to thank you too for having such a gentle girl like Yui-chan playing with Misaki while wearing sport shoes like this, knowing that makes me feels at ease unlike the person who dangerously runs full speed ahead wearing a high heel.”
Though I do said that I wants to avoid troublesome things, but funny things are always welcome.
Fu, it seems to work wonders. Maybe if someone heard this they’ll just think that they’re just meaningless words, but in this place and time there’s no other words that’re more effective than this.
Honestly I don’t hold any grudges toward her though.
It’s just that there’s a bit of pent-up feelings in my heart from getting involved in her nonsenses.
……Just take a look at that face, she’s pretending to be calm but her cheeks are twitching like crazy man. Uhyahahahaha that’s so funny.
Well! What’cha gonna do!?
“Ryo-kun!”
“What’s up, Yui-chan.”
“I think there’s no honesty in what you just said right now!”
Eh, what, did I just got scolded?
“Yes, I think so too. I completely do not understand what you just said at all.
God dammit you got the nerves to be taking the opportunity like that!
“If you want to get mama’s attention, then you have to use a more gentlemanly-words than that!”
“Yes that’s exactly right. If you want to attract my attention then, please do speak in a more gentlemanly manner.”
The parent is hiding behind her stuffy daughter while sneering and grinning.
This is completely cheating! How dare you used your own daughter as a shield like that!
It’s Misaki turn now! Please become my shield…… No I can’t do that!
To do something like using Misaki as a shield, I cannot do that!
I’m so sorry Misaki. Please forgive this Ryo-kun of yours for having the thought of using you as a shield even for a moment Misaki…… Wait, where’s she looking at…… oh the fireworks huh.
Well I’ve already expected this since the time I was looking at the starry sky, but this sure is really beautiful. If only there’s no hinderances here it’d have been perfect but…… It can’t be helped. Just seeing Misaki being happy like that is already enough for me.
That aside, they said I have to speak more gentlemanly right. So all woman likes being spoken to in that manner huh? Well then let’s try it, I’ll try it out on Misaki by saying something like you’re even more beautiful than the fireworks…… No no she’s just a five years old there won’t be any effect on her, you sure are a dumb one me.
“Fumufumu, I see.”
At my feet, Yui-chan is holding her ear with her hand while also nodding. What’s she doing?
“Mama! Ryo-kun said that the fireworks are beautiful!”
“Yes. These fireworks, anyone who see this would think that they’re beautiful no matter what kind of person they are.”
“But he also said that Mama is even more beautiful!”
I didn’t say that at all though!?
Wait hold up did she just read my mind!?
……I think something similar to this has happened before right. So both the parent and the child are espers huh.
“Haha, that’s so ridiculous.”
She’s smiling mockingly at me who’s still expressionless, suddenly she sighed. And in the next moment she wears a gentle smile instead, and while using that mask of her she look at Misaki. I reflexively stretch my hand out to hide Misaki behind it.
“What is it for?”
“Nothing really. How about you look up instead of looking down? The fireworks are beautiful you know.”
“Ryo-kun! You shouldn’t say how about you look up but instead you should say how about you look at me instead? You know!”
“Yui, please be quiet for a moment.”
“Yui-chan, can you please shut up for a bit?”
“Yaーy! Your voice overlapped perfectly!”
” ” ……. ” “
This look like it has gone off the rail somewhat. Actually I didn’t mean to be hostile toward this suspicious person from the start, it’s just that I want to make fun of her because it seems funny that’s all there is to it…… No matter how hard I think about it it feels strange after all. How does it turned into this kind of mood? Is it because of the festival that her tension raises this high?
“Misaki-chan, thank you for always play with Yui.”
Hold up this person just since when!?
“……Who?”
“I’m Yui’s mama.”
“……Who?”
Fuhahaha serves you right!
Good job Misaki! Do it more!
“Misaki! So Misaki has come to see the festival too!”
Dammit, that’s a damn nice follow-up isn’t it Yui-chan. Surely you’ll grow up to be an important person in the future.
“……Mama?”
“Un! She’s my mama!”
After hearing what Yui-chan said, Misaki stares at the suspicious person’s face.
Then she takes a step back, before bowing her head.
“Misaki, nice meet you.”
Good job Misaki! But we’ll have to fix your greeting for a bit soon!
“Yes, nice to meet you as well. Misaki-chan, you’re very mature for your age.”
She said that, and then she glances at me.
Unlike the parent, I felt like I heard that.
“Mama look! Fireworks shower!”
“Yes, It’s very beautiful. Yui really likes the fireworks shower aren’t you.”
I also look up at the sky as they mentioned it. And there it is, as if the night sky has been covered by seven-colored curtains the light spectacle spread far. Countless light spots slowly falls down over the wide sky, it is exactly as if it’s a shower. Its naming is very cute just like Yui-chan’s name.
“……”
Unlike her parent, I look at the back of her head when I thought that and immediately she glares back at me. As I thought she’s an esper for sure.
That aside, I’ve met this suspicious person many times by unpleasant coincidence, and this time as well that I’ve heard her talking by another unpleasant coincidence…… But somehow her impression this time is different. How should I put this, she’s in a good mood. Is it because the kids are here? Maybe I’m also the same, that’s why I can understand it a little bit.
And while I’m thinking about stuff, Misaki and Yui-chan and also her mother are standing alongside each other watching the fireworks together. Yui-chan is between the two, yelling yayー yayー energetically. And every time she yells Misaki would only respond with a small nod, but on contrary the suspicious person would always give her a big nod, and then smiled at Yui-chan, just by looking at her like this made my cheeks loose on its own.
Just by looking at these two you can see just how close their relationship as parent and child is. And that is exactly why I always have a question in my mind, about why she prioritize her works first rather than attending the sports meeting or any other events that was meant for her precious daughter.
To be refusing all of the events like that…… Maybe they’re actually not that sweet after all.
“……I’m very surprised.”
And while the kids are being fascinated by the fireworks, the suspicious person separated from the two and walks over next to me.
“Eh, what? Sorry, I didn’t listen to that.”
“I said I was surprised. I can’t believe it, to think, that you’re Misaki-chan father like this.”
“I’m going to reply you back with the same thing you just said to me.”
“……That makes sense. Yui doesn’t look like me in one bit after all.”
Is that so? If you thinks really hard about it your face look about the same isn’t it?
Well sure the face doesn’t look exactly like her, but she’s still just a kid though.
“Did your wife run out on you?”
And suddenly she asked for the confirmation of such a difficult topic and with the worst possible choices of words like that. As I thought I can’t ever be friend with this person after all.
“The same goes to you too, did your husband deserted you?”
“Yes, he has deserted me. I’ve never met him even once since I started living together with Yui.”
This is just her replying half-assedly right. She doesn’t feel like wanting to answer that or something?
“I’m just like yours. She has deserted me quite splendidly.”
“I see. Then, I have something to consult with you.”
You’re going to consult me with this setting……?
No, that’s…… No no, but still, eh, ehhhhhhh……
“Well, I’ll at least listen to what you have to say.”
Dammit, even though I don’t have any romantic feelings toward her at all but it’s because of her good-looking face that made my heart throbs…… Well, just kidding. I’m sure she just wants to consult about something business-related.
“Misaki-chan, does she ever have behaved in a manner that indicates she’s still thinking about her mother?”
……Seems like, it’s not about business after all.
“Who knows, Misaki isn’t the type to show her emotions that much too so I don’t really know. But, I think she still thinks about that…… Is it that, Yui-chan is also the same?”
“No, I feel like she doesn’t really thinks about it that much.”
After inhaling a deep breath, she speaks in a lower tone.
“That girl, she isn’t really concerned about it. That is why, I feel uneasy about it.”
It’d be better if her daughter didn’t think about it, but it seems like that she thinks otherwise. As for me until a while ago, I’ve always thought that Misaki isn’t really concerned about her mother at all. But that’s a mistake. And since then, Misaki has never show her emotions that she’s concerned about her mother, but that shouldn’t be the case at all. Surely even if she doesn’t show it outside, but surely sometime somewhere, the thought of her mother has flashed into her mind once even if it’s just for a moment.
And she too, maybe she’s thinking the same thing as me.
“……Is that so.”
She look at me for a moment, and then muttered as if to reply to me.
“Wait, did I say something just now?”
“No, you didn’t say anything.”
“I see. By the way, can I ask you about something too?”
“Yes, go ahead.”
“About your work, are you that busy?.
I was finally able to ask the question that was in my mind for a long time.
She looks into my eyes with serious expression before speaking.
“Just, what kind of face has Yui made?”
“Same as now.”
I prompt her to take a look at Yui-chan who’s talking with Misaki energetically while watching the fireworks together.
“But, sometimes she looks like she’s lonely.”
“…………”
She didn’t reply back. And when I look at her, she’s casting her eyes downward. I lost all of my words in such atmosphere. I don’t really understand the reasons but, I felt the heaviness in her heart.
I want to say something out.
But should it be a question, an answer, or a consolation.
But all in all, nothing came into my mind.
In my head is just pure white, and the sound of fireworks rang inside my head one after another.
I absolutely have to say something, I at least can understand that much. That’s why, I tried to forcibly open my mouth and try to make a voice. But, as if to remind me ‘are you really going to speak it out even though you know it’s such an obscure thing’ or something like that, an incredibly loud noise interrupted me.
“Oh～my oh my～, Isn’t that Tosaki-san over there～”
It’s Sato.
“Sato-san, it has been a long time.”
“Yes. And about your work, great work on your work～”
“And today, you’re with your family?”
“I’ve had my husband to take care of the children already. As for me, I came here because I saw Tosaki-san after all.”
“My my. I’m also the same, today I bring my daughter here as well.”
“Oh my～, Yui-chan, surely she must be very happy.”
As I thought the way this obaa-san talks is really irritating.
But the suspicious person-san, she’s very calm indeed as expected of how the normal member of the society behaves. But compare to how she behaves just now this one feels like it’s very business-like and it feels very uncomfortable but…… Well, maybe it’s just my imagination.
“Oh that’s right, are you able to attend the next parents meeting?”
“I’d like to but, I already have an appointment on that day.”
“That is very unfortunate. Tosaki-san. Even though you loves your daughter so much that you gives her the same name as yours, but you’re not going to attend the meeting that’s for your daughter sake? Oh dear, that’s so silly of me to say something sarcastic like that. I never meant for it to have that kind of meaning you know?”
That’s a lie, that’s absolutely a sarcasm right there.
But wait so this suspicious person’s name is Yui1 huh. But to think that the mother that gives her daughter the same name actually exists like this it surprised me.
“I’ve to deeply apologize about that, but I’m still a new comer in the company, so I’m not in the place to freely rest as I see fit.”
“Oh my, that reminded me you’re really young aren’t you. Was it twenty three yes?”
You gotta be kidding me!?
Eh, this person is at the same age as me!? That’s the most shocking thing of today!!
“Yes. I also did wishes to participate but…… It is truly unfortunate.”
“I see. And Tendou-san, you’re going to attend the next one as well yes?”
“Eh, ah, oh, no, yes. of course.”
Crap, that was too sudden for me.
“Well then, I wish to meet you again soon.”
“Yes, same here.”
See you then～, said Sato before leaving.
……What a storm-like obaa-san she is.
Then there’s only me and the suspicious person left. After I see Sato off, I sighed and become relaxed. And as if that was a signal of some kind, the suspicious person opens her mouth.
“Let us get back to Yui soon”
“……Yeah right.”
I nodded,
“Wait the Yui you said just now, did you mean yourself?”
“I mean my daughter, just what kind of context leads you to that thought.”
She denied with a slightly harsh tone, before swiftly walks ahead of me. And while I’m walking behind her, I thought, aren’t we kinda sort of getting along somewhat?
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Thank you very much for your support!
Chapter 39: The day I went to summer festival. (3)
The appearance that the firework has illuminated, is the appearance that I’ve seen before from somewhere.
Beautiful facial features, short trimmed hair. And her slender figure, is wrapped around by a deep purple yukata.
The first thing that came into my mind is, the memory of when that figure chased me with all her might in the alley. And the next thing that came into my mind is, what Yui-chan has described as “A very attractive woman.”
……The only thing that matches, is only her appearance.
“Mumumu? Mama what’s wrong?”
Yui-chan pulled her sleeve, and just for a moment she seemed to be in a panic. But immediately she makes a smile, and speaks in a very model-like manner.
“Nice to meet you. Thank you for always taking care of my daughter.”
Hohー, so we gonna pretend like everything never happened?
Very well. I want to avoid anything troublesome too.
“No no, I have to thank you too for having such a gentle girl like Yui-chan playing with Misaki while wearing sport shoes like this, knowing that makes me feels at ease unlike the person who dangerously runs full speed ahead wearing a high heel.”
Though I do said that I wants to avoid troublesome things, but funny things are always welcome.
Fu, it seems to work wonders. Maybe if someone heard this they’ll just think that they’re just meaningless words, but in this place and time there’s no other words that’re more effective than this.
Honestly I don’t hold any grudges toward her though.
It’s just that there’s a bit of pent-up feelings in my heart from getting involved in her nonsenses.
……Just take a look at that face, she’s pretending to be calm but her cheeks are twitching like crazy man. Uhyahahahaha that’s so funny.
Well! What’cha gonna do!?
“Ryo-kun!”
“What’s up, Yui-chan.”
“I think there’s no honesty in what you just said right now!”
Eh, what, did I just got scolded?
“Yes, I think so too. I completely do not understand what you just said at all.
God dammit you got the nerves to be taking the opportunity like that!
“If you want to get mama’s attention, then you have to use a more gentlemanly-words than that!”
“Yes that’s exactly right. If you want to attract my attention then, please do speak in a more gentlemanly manner.”
The parent is hiding behind her stuffy daughter while sneering and grinning.
This is completely cheating! How dare you used your own daughter as a shield like that!
It’s Misaki turn now! Please become my shield…… No I can’t do that!
To do something like using Misaki as a shield, I cannot do that!
I’m so sorry Misaki. Please forgive this Ryo-kun of yours for having the thought of using you as a shield even for a moment Misaki…… Wait, where’s she looking at…… oh the fireworks huh.
Well I’ve already expected this since the time I was looking at the starry sky, but this sure is really beautiful. If only there’s no hinderances here it’d have been perfect but…… It can’t be helped. Just seeing Misaki being happy like that is already enough for me.
That aside, they said I have to speak more gentlemanly right. So all woman likes being spoken to in that manner huh? Well then let’s try it, I’ll try it out on Misaki by saying something like you’re even more beautiful than the fireworks…… No no she’s just a five years old there won’t be any effect on her, you sure are a dumb one me.
“Fumufumu, I see.”
At my feet, Yui-chan is holding her ear with her hand while also nodding. What’s she doing?
“Mama! Ryo-kun said that the fireworks are beautiful!”
“Yes. These fireworks, anyone who see this would think that they’re beautiful no matter what kind of person they are.”
“But he also said that Mama is even more beautiful!”
I didn’t say that at all though!?
Wait hold up did she just read my mind!?
……I think something similar to this has happened before right. So both the parent and the child are espers huh.
“Haha, that’s so ridiculous.”
She’s smiling mockingly at me who’s still expressionless, suddenly she sighed. And in the next moment she wears a gentle smile instead, and while using that mask of her she look at Misaki. I reflexively stretch my hand out to hide Misaki behind it.
“What is it for?”
“Nothing really. How about you look up instead of looking down? The fireworks are beautiful you know.”
“Ryo-kun! You shouldn’t say how about you look up but instead you should say how about you look at me instead? You know!”
“Yui, please be quiet for a moment.”
“Yui-chan, can you please shut up for a bit?”
“Yaーy! Your voice overlapped perfectly!”
” ” ……. ” “
This look like it has gone off the rail somewhat. Actually I didn’t mean to be hostile toward this suspicious person from the start, it’s just that I want to make fun of her because it seems funny that’s all there is to it…… No matter how hard I think about it it feels strange after all. How does it turned into this kind of mood? Is it because of the festival that her tension raises this high?
“Misaki-chan, thank you for always play with Yui.”
Hold up this person just since when!?
“……Who?”
“I’m Yui’s mama.”
“……Who?”
Fuhahaha serves you right!
Good job Misaki! Do it more!
“Misaki! So Misaki has come to see the festival too!”
Dammit, that’s a damn nice follow-up isn’t it Yui-chan. Surely you’ll grow up to be an important person in the future.
“……Mama?”
“Un! She’s my mama!”
After hearing what Yui-chan said, Misaki stares at the suspicious person’s face.
Then she takes a step back, before bowing her head.
“Misaki, nice meet you.”
Good job Misaki! But we’ll have to fix your greeting for a bit soon!
“Yes, nice to meet you as well. Misaki-chan, you’re very mature for your age.”
She said that, and then she glances at me.
Unlike the parent, I felt like I heard that.
“Mama look! Fireworks shower!”
“Yes, It’s very beautiful. Yui really likes the fireworks shower aren’t you.”
I also look up at the sky as they mentioned it. And there it is, as if the night sky has been covered by seven-colored curtains the light spectacle spread far. Countless light spots slowly falls down over the wide sky, it is exactly as if it’s a shower. Its naming is very cute just like Yui-chan’s name.
“……”
Unlike her parent, I look at the back of her head when I thought that and immediately she glares back at me. As I thought she’s an esper for sure.
That aside, I’ve met this suspicious person many times by unpleasant coincidence, and this time as well that I’ve heard her talking by another unpleasant coincidence…… But somehow her impression this time is different. How should I put this, she’s in a good mood. Is it because the kids are here? Maybe I’m also the same, that’s why I can understand it a little bit.
And while I’m thinking about stuff, Misaki and Yui-chan and also her mother are standing alongside each other watching the fireworks together. Yui-chan is between the two, yelling yayー yayー energetically. And every time she yells Misaki would only respond with a small nod, but on contrary the suspicious person would always give her a big nod, and then smiled at Yui-chan, just by looking at her like this made my cheeks loose on its own.
Just by looking at these two you can see just how close their relationship as parent and child is. And that is exactly why I always have a question in my mind, about why she prioritize her works first rather than attending the sports meeting or any other events that was meant for her precious daughter.
To be refusing all of the events like that…… Maybe they’re actually not that sweet after all.
“……I’m very surprised.”
And while the kids are being fascinated by the fireworks, the suspicious person separated from the two and walks over next to me.
“Eh, what? Sorry, I didn’t listen to that.”
“I said I was surprised. I can’t believe it, to think, that you’re Misaki-chan father like this.”
“I’m going to reply you back with the same thing you just said to me.”
“……That makes sense. Yui doesn’t look like me in one bit after all.”
Is that so? If you thinks really hard about it your face look about the same isn’t it?
Well sure the face doesn’t look exactly like her, but she’s still just a kid though.
“Did your wife run out on you?”
And suddenly she asked for the confirmation of such a difficult topic and with the worst possible choices of words like that. As I thought I can’t ever be friend with this person after all.
“The same goes to you too, did your husband deserted you?”
“Yes, he has deserted me. I’ve never met him even once since I started living together with Yui.”
This is just her replying half-assedly right. She doesn’t feel like wanting to answer that or something?
“I’m just like yours. She has deserted me quite splendidly.”
“I see. Then, I have something to consult with you.”
You’re going to consult me with this setting……?
No, that’s…… No no, but still, eh, ehhhhhhh……
“Well, I’ll at least listen to what you have to say.”
Dammit, even though I don’t have any romantic feelings toward her at all but it’s because of her good-looking face that made my heart throbs…… Well, just kidding. I’m sure she just wants to consult about something business-related.
“Misaki-chan, does she ever have behaved in a manner that indicates she’s still thinking about her mother?”
……Seems like, it’s not about business after all.
“Who knows, Misaki isn’t the type to show her emotions that much too so I don’t really know. But, I think she still thinks about that…… Is it that, Yui-chan is also the same?”
“No, I feel like she doesn’t really thinks about it that much.”
After inhaling a deep breath, she speaks in a lower tone.
“That girl, she isn’t really concerned about it. That is why, I feel uneasy about it.”
It’d be better if her daughter didn’t think about it, but it seems like that she thinks otherwise. As for me until a while ago, I’ve always thought that Misaki isn’t really concerned about her mother at all. But that’s a mistake. And since then, Misaki has never show her emotions that she’s concerned about her mother, but that shouldn’t be the case at all. Surely even if she doesn’t show it outside, but surely sometime somewhere, the thought of her mother has flashed into her mind once even if it’s just for a moment.
And she too, maybe she’s thinking the same thing as me.
“……Is that so.”
She look at me for a moment, and then muttered as if to reply to me.
“Wait, did I say something just now?”
“No, you didn’t say anything.”
“I see. By the way, can I ask you about something too?”
“Yes, go ahead.”
“About your work, are you that busy?.
I was finally able to ask the question that was in my mind for a long time.
She looks into my eyes with serious expression before speaking.
“Just, what kind of face has Yui made?”
“Same as now.”
I prompt her to take a look at Yui-chan who’s talking with Misaki energetically while watching the fireworks together.
“But, sometimes she looks like she’s lonely.”
“…………”
She didn’t reply back. And when I look at her, she’s casting her eyes downward. I lost all of my words in such atmosphere. I don’t really understand the reasons but, I felt the heaviness in her heart.
I want to say something out.
But should it be a question, an answer, or a consolation.
But all in all, nothing came into my mind.
In my head is just pure white, and the sound of fireworks rang inside my head one after another.
I absolutely have to say something, I at least can understand that much. That’s why, I tried to forcibly open my mouth and try to make a voice. But, as if to remind me ‘are you really going to speak it out even though you know it’s such an obscure thing’ or something like that, an incredibly loud noise interrupted me.
“Oh～my oh my～, Isn’t that Tosaki-san over there～”
It’s Sato.
“Sato-san, it has been a long time.”
“Yes. And about your work, great work on your work～”
“And today, you’re with your family?”
“I’ve had my husband to take care of the children already. As for me, I came here because I saw Tosaki-san after all.”
“My my. I’m also the same, today I bring my daughter here as well.”
“Oh my～, Yui-chan, surely she must be very happy.”
As I thought the way this obaa-san talks is really irritating.
But the suspicious person-san, she’s very calm indeed as expected of how the normal member of the society behaves. But compare to how she behaves just now this one feels like it’s very business-like and it feels very uncomfortable but…… Well, maybe it’s just my imagination.
“Oh that’s right, are you able to attend the next parents meeting?”
“I’d like to but, I already have an appointment on that day.”
“That is very unfortunate. Tosaki-san. Even though you loves your daughter so much that you gives her the same name as yours, but you’re not going to attend the meeting that’s for your daughter sake? Oh dear, that’s so silly of me to say something sarcastic like that. I never meant for it to have that kind of meaning you know?”
That’s a lie, that’s absolutely a sarcasm right there.
But wait so this suspicious person’s name is Yui1 huh. But to think that the mother that gives her daughter the same name actually exists like this it surprised me.
“I’ve to deeply apologize about that, but I’m still a new comer in the company, so I’m not in the place to freely rest as I see fit.”
“Oh my, that reminded me you’re really young aren’t you. Was it twenty three yes?”
You gotta be kidding me!?
Eh, this person is at the same age as me!? That’s the most shocking thing of today!!
“Yes. I also did wishes to participate but…… It is truly unfortunate.”
“I see. And Tendou-san, you’re going to attend the next one as well yes?”
“Eh, ah, oh, no, yes. of course.”
Crap, that was too sudden for me.
“Well then, I wish to meet you again soon.”
“Yes, same here.”
See you then～, said Sato before leaving.
……What a storm-like obaa-san she is.
Then there’s only me and the suspicious person left. After I see Sato off, I sighed and become relaxed. And as if that was a signal of some kind, the suspicious person opens her mouth.
“Let us get back to Yui soon”
“……Yeah right.”
I nodded,
“Wait the Yui you said just now, did you mean yourself?”
“I mean my daughter, just what kind of context leads you to that thought.”
She denied with a slightly harsh tone, before swiftly walks ahead of me. And while I’m walking behind her, I thought, aren’t we kinda sort of getting along somewhat?
