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Published at 23rd of August 2021 07:33:04 PM


Chapter 46

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Chapter 46: The day I had a talk with Tosaki Yui.

The time is 8 o’clock in the evening.

I’m leaning my back on the nursery school’s gate waiting for someone.

And of course I didn’t make an appointment with that certain someone.

Since there’s no other way for me to contact her, so here I am waiting for her.

I know the time she’s going to pick Yui-chan up from the nursery school teacher, and so I got out of my room matching with that time. Normally at this time I’d be at the public bathhouse with Misaki,

……It’s so quiet.

When I came here during the day, I’d always hear the voice of those energetic kids. Right now however, although I can still see the lights from the inside of nursery school, there’s no voices at all. Even if you try to listen very carefully, the only thing you can here are just the sound of winds and swaying plants.

The sidewalk in front of the gate. It’s wide enough for an adult and a kid to walk side by side, me and Misaki walks on this sidewalk everyday.

And maybe, she too walks on this sidewalk. Or maybe she comes here by car.

When I closed my eyes and focus on just my ears. I can faintly hear the sound of a car. And it’s coming here fast.

While I’m listening to that sound, I asked myself. What and why are you here for.

I’m here because I see Yui-chan being lonely. That irritates me. Because that person is in the wrong here. I want to correct her mistakes…… And if she’s alone, then I guess she couldn’t think of something like this by herself.

I don’t like this reality in front of me.

I want to do something about it.

That’s why, I’m going to talk with her.

That is why I am here.

I calm my breath down, and open my eyes. a taxi appeared. And the person who come out of that taxi, I’ve seen her face for several times by now.

She closes the door, and the taxi starts driving away quietly. While I listen to the sound of car’s tire frictioning against the ground, I look at her in the eyes.

She’s wearing a suit. Seeing such a dignified standing posture like that, it makes my throat dried instantly with just that. Well if anyone have to confront someone who’s clearly more outstanding than you, you’ll just feel dwarfed. That’s just how much both her personalities, and also the atmosphere she created, impacted you.

But I know things about her. I know that she’s the kind of parent that thinks about her daughter all the time. I know that when she ate the breakfast made by her daughter, she’d brag about it to her acquaintance without thinking which is a cute side of her. Tthat she’s a kind person that’ll lend a hand to a weak person. And I also know, how painful and difficult it is to do something by yourself.

“I want to have a talk.”

My voice came out lower than I thought.

“If you’re going to talk about that, that has been concluded already in front of that swimsuit store.”

She said without a change in her expression. Seems like she already knows what I’m going to talk about. Then this is convenience.

“And, did you tried consulting with someone?”

I asked her, and she answered back with a slight movement in her eyebrows. My gut tells me that it’s not like she didn’t get what I just said, but more like her genuine reaction to such unexpected words.

“The pool thing, I thank you very much for that. Yui was also happy.”

But the words she replied, it’s as if she’s telling me that she don’t want to talk about it.

“Well I’ll receive your thanks. Teaching Yui-chan how to swim was pretty hard.”

“Isn’t it that your ways of teaching is just bad?”

“You told me that but you’ve not seen how she is yourself……”

I get my back off the wall and,

“Wellー anyway, I want to have a talk. In the next fun festival, I want you to participate.”

“That’s impossible.”

“Don’t just answer immediately, give me the reply after you give it a little thinking.”

“I’ve already thought about it, much more than anyone else.”

“I know that. But, I guess you never did try to consult with anyone.”

The word that I’ve never said before, I man up and say it. This time she couldn’t ignore it, and close her eyes slightly.

“What’re you trying to say?”

“Dunno.”

“Hah?”

A genuinely disappointed voice.

“My bad, but I really don’t know.”

“……It was foolish of me to even try to listen seriously even for a little.”

“But if it’s the reason then I know that. It’s because I saw Yui-chan’s lonely face.”

Those eyes that showed the color of disappointment just a moment ago, now regain its sharpness that’ll give you shiver down your spine.

I swallowed down the words that’re in my mouth, before taking a short breath.

The real thing starts now.

“Honestly it’s just painful to look at. Yui-chan is my Misaki’s precious friend after all. That’s why, I did my best to make Yui-chan have fun. But, no matter how hard I tried it’s just impossible. I couldn’t erase that lonely look of her…… Well it’s naturally. Just like how Misaki is the best for me, it’s just that I’m not the best for Yui-chan.”

She keeps her thorny atmosphere up, staring right into me. That look of her, it’s so pressuring that if I let down my guard even a little I’ll be crush under it.

First I’ll return that stare back.

Next I stood firm on the ground.

Lastly I put all my strength into my stomach, forcing the words out.

“That’s why, I want to talk with you.”

For Yui-chan to truly enjoy herself her presence is necessary. And of course, she probably understands her more than I do. I don’t know the reason behind her choosing this current choice. I couldn’t imagine her circumstances that led up to this either. That’s why I want to have a talk.

“Your work, you won’t really take a break from that?”

“……”

I was expecting an instant reply, however I couldn’t hear anything. She look downward, she sighed as if she’s enduring something. But in the next moment, she raise her head up as if nothing happened.

“There is anything else you want to say as well?”

Those cold-as-ice words of her, it gradually shakes the air.

Because there’s no other sound around us, that voice of her keeps echoing inside me.

And each time it rings inside me, I feels like my body is getting hotter.

“Yui-chan is important to you isn’t she.”

“Yes she is. More than anything else.”

I already knew that. That she treasures Yui-chan a lot.

“Then at least take a day off from your work.”

“That is something I cannot do.”

I already knew the reason. Something like people won’t trust a person that they didn’t know when he/she is going to be absent, I think I remember her saying that.

“You’re getting your priority wrong aren’t you……”

“My first priority is always Yui. That’s why money is necessary.”

“Are you really that troubled with money?”

“Yes. Because having no money, is a cruel thing after all.”

“Just taking a break from work for a day won’t change anything much. Can’t you just think of it as buying time to be with Yui-chan with that money.”

“And what do I do if I lose my job instantly on that day.”

“If that company won’t allow you to take a day off for your daughter’s sake then you should quit that job already.”

“If there’s such a dream-like company that has higher salary than this one, and also allow you to rest freely as you wishes, then I’d have already change my job a long time ago.”

Gradually, I realized that I can’t suppress my emotions anymore.

Yet at the same time, I also felt that there’s no difference in temperature between me and her.

“Then how about you loosen up your condition? Sacrifice a little bit of your salary, and give the time a top priority sounds great isn’t it.”

“A little bit? Just how much is your little bit means exactly. Just how much salary need to be sacrificed, so that I could join a company that allow you to spend your time as you wishes.”

“I don’t know how much you’re getting paid right now but, among the companies that let you rest on weekends, there are some company that you can earn about three million in a year. I think earning three million is already more than enough.”

“That won’t do. That’s not even one in ten of what I earn currently isn’t it.”

“You earn thirty million a year!? That’s already plenty enough isn’t it!”

“There’s no way that is the case.”

……I’ve lose all of my heat just now. What’s with that thirty million of her.

“If that’s not enough for you doesn’t that mean you have a problem in your life isn’t it?”

“…… I’m going to endure until my limits.”

“Is that so…… Anyway, I think that’s more than enough. Even if you rest for a few days, in the worst case scenario if your salary got cut by half that’s still already more than enough isn’t it.”

“…………”

……Eh, why is there such a difference in our temperature right now?

“……Annoying.”

For a moment, I didn’t even know who’s speaking that.

“Annoying, ANNOYINGANNOYINGANNOYING!!”

I’m stunned at the sudden loud voice.

In contrast to me, she speaks even more violently.

“Can’t you just please shut up! What will a person like you ever understand!? The likes of you, that never know how cruel it is to not have money! You don’t know anything at all so please don’t talk like you already understand everything!!”

……

“If it’s just living day by day then a one tenth of my currently salary is already more than enough. But what about ten years later? What will happen twenty years later? What if I get sick and can’t move an inch? What will Yui do then? When that happened, do you know how your child will feels? Seeing your child being like that, do you know how the parent will feels? And when your child finds out about it, do you ever know how that child will feels!? I bet you don’t know even a thing!!”

As she shouted, there are tears in her eyes.

But, I don’t understand why at all.

I didn’t say anything. I can’t come up with anything to reply at all.

“……What, what will happen to Yui by then? If I’m not there anymore, if I can’t move anymore, what will happen to Yui? In order for Yui to lives happily when that happens, for her to live a normal life, just how…… how much is enough? Just how much money should I have to call it enough…… Ten million? One hundred million? More than that? I don’t know. I don’t that at all…… It’s not enough, no matter how much I earn it’s not enough…… Not enough, not enough……”

She didn’t even try to hide her tears that’s coming out one after another, and keeps repeating the word not enough. Just by hearing that voice makes my chest felt painful. Even though I don’t know even a bit of her circumstances, but that painful feeling is transmitted to me so much so that it also hurts me.

“I just, I just want Yui to be happy! I don’t want her to go through hardship even a little! I don’t want to make her feels sad, I just…… just wants her to be happy forever! And to do that, to be able to do that, there is nothing else I can do but saving money isn’t it! When something happened to Yui, when that girl wants to do something, what will she do at that time if she didn’t have any money!? If there’s anything I can do for Yui, there’s only that option isn’t it. So that she doesn’t have to go through hardship, saving up money is the only choice out there isn’t it…… What if tomorrow I can’t move at all, with only the money I have right now, there’s just…… just no way for Yui to live happily for forever isn’t it…… It’s just, really not enough for her isn’t it……!”

I know what she’s trying to say. Never once I did thought about myself dying or unable to move but, if by chances that happened to me, just what will happen to Misaki at that time? I can understand that anxiety. If you give it too much thought you’ll never be able to get out of that thought.

For me――

“Well, I bet you don’t have any friends right?”

“……Hah?”

“For me, the reason I’m able to come here today is because I entrust Misaki to Kohinata-san.”

“……What, what’re you trying to say.”

“Dope right, entrusting your precious daughter to someone else is pretty ballsy. But, that give me peace of mind. Because I can trust that other person, that’s why I can come here to talk with you without anything dragging my mind down.”

One step, I got closer to her.

“Please be friends with me.”

“……”

This time, it’s her that’s looking at me with stunned expression.

There’s a lot of things I’ve yet to understand but, I understand that she’s trying so hard so desperately that it hurts. Understand that she had been thinking about it over and over, and still couldn’t do anything about it, always feeling frustrated.

Against such a person, I won’t say something like you can rely on someone else. Even if my mouth is split apart, I will never say something that’ll trample on the fact that she’d been trying her best alone all this time.

That’s why I asked of her.

Please let us do our best together, I said something like that.

“If I’m not wrong you’re Tosaki Yui right? I’m Tendou Ryuusei. Misaki’s parent.”

I reach my hand out, directly to her.

And immediately after, there is a hitting sound.

“……Just what’s up with you. Really, just what’s with you…… Why, why are you so similar……”

“I don’t know what to say after I’m in shock as my handshake got rejected but, for now I’ll say please don’t joke around. Read the atmosphere please.”

“Read the atmosphere!”

And then there is a strike sound.

“That is unforgivable!”

It’s Yui-chan.

She spread her little arms wide, standing in between me and Tosaki Yui.

“Don’t make my mama cry!”

“……Uh well, this is you know.”

“I’ll tell Misaki of this!”

“Please nothing but that!”

Ah, crap, I already did a dogeza unconsciously.

To be doing a dogeza with a nursery school kid in front of me like this what the hell am I even doing……

“Yui, there’s no such thing as mama crying……”

What are you saying with those tears still in your eyes.

“This is just…… magic. It’s one of water magic that you can use after you’ve become a full-fledged lady.”

Uh, I think there’s no way that’s going to wor……

“Mama’s amazing!”

Seriously!?

“That’s a lie. This is actually because I’ve heard something.” (Yui)

……Yui-chan is pretty awesome herself. To be able to interrupt in between two adults and take control of the situation like this.

“Mama, I’m fine you know.”

“……Yui?”

“Mama, you only have to think about yourself.”

……This atmosphere isn’t something I can just interrupt in huh.

“For me, the thing I loved the most is, seeing mama having fun.”

“……”

Without speaking anything Tosaki Yui crouch down, and hugged Yui-chan.

Yui-chan gently pat on her mother’s back――

“That’s why, I hate Ryo-kun who makes my mom cry.”

――Very well. I’m thinking about providing them the time to be together with no outsiders but, if that’s what you want then I’ll have to interrupt.

“Yui-chan, in the next fun festival, your mom’s going to participate in it too you know.”

“Really!?”

Where’s that adult-like atmopshere of her just before has gone now.

Yui-chan happily said so with her eyes all shiny and her expression bright.

“……”

As for Tosaki Yui, who receives both my and Yui-chan’s gaze――

“……Tendou-san.”

With the same eyes as when we met in the town several times.

“For me, I don’t like you at all.”

And she said only that.

“I hate you too!”

Although Yui-chan said that, there’s a hint of happiness in her eyes.

“Yui, let us get back home.”

“Yes!”

Leaving me who’s still doing dogeza just like that, both of them started walking hand in hand.

As for their speed, it’s pretty slow, maybe because she has to match her pace with Yui-chan’s.

After a while, Tosaki Yui said something without turning around.

“The next parent meeting, when is it going to be?”

Upon hearing those words, Yui-chan jumps up and down expressing her joy.

Seeing that, I think that there’s nothing I need to worry anymore.

There’s no need for me to speak anything anymore, Yui-chan’s words might already be enough for her.

……But, if you ask me the meaning behind my worrying then there’s one.

I gave her a short laugh, before replying to my friend’s back――





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