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Copy of Resentment - Chapter 46

Published at 13th of January 2023 08:57:24 AM


Chapter 46

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Behind the Scenes

 

This year’s Theatrical Night was arranged in the gymnasium as usual, it had been decorated many days in advance, and looked quite majestic.

“Shengjian, let’s go through the back door.”

This time, a girl named Xiao Hui was in charge of putting on makeup for him, and was also an art committee member of their class. Although Bian Shengjian was not very used to dealing with girls, Xiao Hui had a good personality and liked to laugh, therefore the atmosphere of communicating with her was not too awkward.

Bian Shengjian nodded while carrying the gig bag on his back. “Okay.”

However, when he slipped in through the back door, Bian Shengjian still subconsciously looked left and right, for fear that someone would come out from some corner and scream at him… It wasn’t because he was narcissistic, it’s just that Bian Shengjian had been a little afraid of those enthusiastic girls these past two days. According to Zhou Li, at present, the price of a handsome photo of him shooting a basketball on the school post bar had been raised to more than 300, some people even threatened to go to their class to kiss him in public…

Sisters, just leave me alone.

Bian Shengjian was a little depressed.

“From here is the dressing room.” Xiao Hui raised her head and smiled at him, her eyes shining brightly. “Student Shengjian, you look so handsome when you run this morning!”

“Haha, thank you.” Bian Shengjian responded with a polite smile.

“I didn’t expect that you are not only good at sports, but also you play music.” Xiao Hui said and opened the makeup box, “Really amazing.”

“Average, third in the world.” Bian Shengjian paused for a moment and felt that it was a little bit hard to bluff in front of a girl. “How long will this take?”

“Soon, don’t worry.” Xiao Hui smiled, looked at his face closer and praised, “Your skin is so good, I feel like you don’t even need to wear a foundation.”

“Better to put on even just a little bit.” Bian Shengjian turned his head to avoid her sight. “…someone would take pictures.”

“That’s right.” Xiao Hui was stunned for a moment, and after thinking about it, she couldn’t help covering her mouth with her hands and said with a smile. “There must be many girls taking pictures of you tonight, right?”

“Probably.” Bian Shengjian sighed.

“Close your eyes.” Xiao Hui took a look at his facial features and began to smear on his face, while saying in a soft voice, “I’ll put some eye shadow on you later? Don’t worry, it won’t be too thick.” 

“Well, okay.” Bian Shengjian closed his eyes and responded, feeling that the tip of his nose was itchy.

“Don’t move, it will be over soon.” Xiao Hui said, took the brush and began to brush back and forth on his eyelids, but because he didn’t take a nap at noon today, and as someone rubbed his face back and forth at this moment, soon it made Bian Shengjian a little sleepy. He leaned back on the chair and lazily responded, and the whole person became a little dazed.

The brush felt quite comfortable on the eyelids, so comfortable that he didn’t even hear what Xiao Hui whispered to him later.

“Okay, let’s take a look.”

It wasn’t until Shengjian heard these words that he suddenly woke up, and when he opened his eyes to see himself in the mirror, he was almost taken aback: “Oh shit.”

“How is it? I think this makeup is very suitable for you.” Xiao Hui said with a smile.

“It’s……..very suitable.” Bian Shengjian gritted his teeth, staring at the slightly strange person in the mirror in a daze.

 

For a while, he didn’t know what words to use to describe this makeup, including those strange eyes outlined by light eyeshadow and eyeliner. The whole person looked full of inexplicable wildness, that kind of beauty full of desires.

A second look would seem to be able to suck people in.

“Thank you.” Bian Shengjian took a deep breath and stood up, only to find that the face of Xiao Hui, who was staring at his face, was a little red.

“What’s wrong?” Bian Shengjian looked at her, but she was a little afraid to look at his own face in the mirror.

“No…it’s nothing.” Xiao Hui quickly withdrew her gaze, lowered her head and began to clean up the cosmetics on the table: “I think this really suits you.” 

“Mn, thank you for your hard work. Your skills were quite good.” Bian Shengjian held back for a long time and only managed to say this.

At this moment, there were not only the two of them in the dressing room backstage, there were also people from other classes performing various shows who were also putting on makeup together. As soon as he stood up, several pairs of eyes looked over, staring at Bian Shengjian, making him a little uncomfortable all over. Especially when he thought of the appearance he saw in the mirror just now, he wanted to just immediately escape from such a crowded place first.

“Shengjian?” Someone called him from behind.

Fuck, don’t call me please.

Bian Shengjian gritted his teeth and turned around. He immediately spotted a boy in a costume……oh, it should be an ancient costume with a wig on his shoulders, it looked like he would be acting a court play or something later…….perhaps an emperor?

“Who are you?” Bian Shengjian looked at him.

“My name is Mu Xiao, the one beside you at the 1500 race this morning.” Mu Xiao smiled and stretched out his hand to him. “Remember me?”

“Oh, I have no impression.” Bian Shengjian shook his hand perfunctorily and was about to turn around and leave. “Sorry, I still have something to do.”

“Wait.” Mu Xiao grabbed him, but before he could speak, Shengjian slapped his hand away very rudely. “Don’t touch me.”

“……I’m sorry.” Mu Xiao was a little embarrassed, but he still insisted, “That I…….”

“Won’t add WeChat, won’t chat, and don’t make random appointments.” Bian Shengjian said.

The expression on Mu Xiao’s face suddenly froze.

“Goodbye.” Bian Shengjian turned around.

As soon as he got out of the backstage dressing room, Bian Shengjian saw a person sitting on the steps not far away. When the other heard the footsteps, he immediately turned his head like he had some radar sensor.

“How on earth do you know where I am?” Bian Shengjian walked over angrily. “You……”

Lu Shen didn’t speak, he even held his breath the moment he saw him approaching, and just stared at him stupidly.

“Hey, earth to Lu Shen!” Bian Shengjian stretched out his hand and slapped him on the head. “Take it easy, and be careful of saliva dripping down.”

“There should be nothing?” Lu Shen hurriedly wiped his chin, then raised his head and continued to stare at him. “Third brother…who transformed you like this?”

“Just the cultural committee in the class.” Bian Shengjian quickly moved away after meeting his gaze, and coughed lightly. “What are you doing here? Shouldn’t you go in and take a seat first?”

 

“I’ve already grabbed a seat in the first row.” Lu Shen smiled, “I’m just waiting to see you.”

“Stop flattering,” Bian Shengjian clicked his tongue and put down the gig bag he was carrying, “It’ll take a long while before I go up the stage.”

“It’s okay, I’ll just wait below.” Lu Shen said immediately.

Bian Shengjian suddenly didn’t know what to pick up, therefore he also sat down on the steps. “Okay.”

“Third brother…” Lu Shen said, with a strange light in his eyes. “I think you look so beautiful today…”

“Don’t exaggerate, praise me a little longer and you’ll really go to heaven.” Bian Shengjian looked at him and raised one eyebrow. 

Lu Shen smiled and didn’t speak, after a while, he slowly moved his peripheral vision to Bian Shengjian’s hand that was propped up on the steps. His knuckles were curling up and down on the tiles, looking a little anxious.

Lu Shen lowered his eyes, and slowly moved his palm over calmly, trying to touch his knuckles—

“Shengjian!”

Someone suddenly shouted from behind. “Come in and get ready!”

Lu Shen quickly withdrew his hand, and forced a smile when he met Bian Shengjian’s puzzled gaze. “It’s nothing, you should go quickly.”

“En.” Bian Shengjian stood up and looked down on him. “I’m leaving.”

“Go.” Lu Shen looked up at the mottled tree shadow printed on his shoulder, “I’ll wait for you.”

****

“Now, let’s welcome Bian Shengjian, a sophomore from Class 4, to bring us his original song “Walking in the Wind”!” 

As soon as the host finished speaking, there was a long series of screams and whistles, accompanied by a warm applause. The lights on the stage gradually dimmed, leaving only two small lights.

Bian Shengjian walked up with the guitar on his back.

The audience gradually quieted down.

Bian Shengjian walked to the center of the stage, lightly pressed his fingertips on the strings and raised his head.

It seemed that he was subconsciously looking for someone, but the time left for him was limited. If he couldn’t find it, it was still fine……..Oh, nevermind, found it.

Sitting in the first row, Lu Shen smiled as his gaze met his.

Bian Shengjian took a deep breath, hooked the corners of his mouth, lowered his head, and slowly pulled out the first note.

Go with the wind.

I just hope that no matter where I go in the future, I can be as free as the wind.

 

After the accompaniment sounded, the audience became silent. Even the hands of the girls who were frantically taking pictures with their mobile phones stopped, and after putting down their mobile phones, they showed surprised faces.

Lu Shen sat in his seat and listened quietly. The sound of his heart beating even overwhelmed the accompaniment on the stage, and was beating in his eardrums. The light from the stage slanted on Bian Shengjian’s side face, making the shadow casted by his eyelashes more intense when he lowered his eyes. The whole figure seemed to be standing at a dividing point where light and shadow intertwined.  Behind him was darkness, while in front was the light.

I pushed through the fog and heard the palpitations in the wind…

 Bian Shengjian’s voice was low and a little hoarse, sounding a bit lonely.

I walked forward and saw the broken starry sky falling one by one……

I opened my eyes, and there were raindrops falling on the crossroads in front of me…it was a dream I could never wake up from…

Lu Shen held his breath.

The tune of the first half of the song was very sad, but as Bian Shengjian plucked the strings with his fingertips, the speed gradually increased, and the rhythm slowly became more radical, like sparks gradually evolving into a raging fire.

I want to tear up those darkness and step through the dawn, and run against the wind before dawn……

Everyone present couldn’t help being shocked when they heard this line of lyrics, and stared at the singing boy on the stage with wide eyes.

Let’s go, if you want to go, don’t look back!

As Bian Shengjian sang the lyrics, he waved his hand upwards and drew a huge semicircle.

Let’s go, go to the place where the wind blows! 

“Okay!”

Eventually, someone in the audience couldn’t help shouting.

Bian Shengjian smiled slightly with the corner of his mouth curled up. With the sound of the accompaniment drum, he put one hand on the strings and played a long tail note, and at the same time roared very explosively.

 Follow the wind, that’s where I’m going!

Follow me! 

Bian Shengjian suddenly pointed down the stage, several people rushed up excitedly, and the scene became chaotic. Those who didn’t know thought it was an interactive link between the one performing and the fans. The security guards who were called to maintain order were even hesitant to step forward when they saw this.

“Hey, big brothers.” Old Tan, who had been standing by the side smiling and applauding, reached out to stop them, with fine lines of laughter appearing in the corners of his eyes. “They’re all children, let them be unrestrained for a while, it’s okay.”

“But…” Several security guards hesitated.

“This is the youth of the young people,” Old Tan said with emotion, “how wonderful.”

Several security guards looked at each other, looked in the direction of the stage, sighed and then smiled. “…..Ah, indeed.”

 

Lu Shen stared intently at Bian Shengjian who was fully in the mood on the stage. The necklace on his neck swayed in the air, and there was a thin layer of sweat on his face, But it did not affect that he was attracting everyone’s attention at the moment, just like a diamond shining in the night, dazzling and compelling.

As the song neared its end, and the rhythm had gradually slowed down, but the aftertaste was no longer sad, but with the free and easy and enthusiasm of a wandering poet, which made people feel itchy. As if the desire that had been suppressed for a long time was lifted up layer by layer from the chest, and finally broke through the shackles and burst out.

Lu Shen endured, and finally stood up before Bian Shengjian finished singing the last line of the lyrics, and walked around to the steps of the stage from the other side.

“Thank you everyone.” Bian Shengjian lowered his hands and bowed deeply to the audience, while panting a little, “My performance is over.”

The audience was silent for two seconds before bursting into warm applause, and someone could even be heard crying.

The corner of Bian Shengjian’s mouth just raised an arc, but he couldn’t help frowning when he saw that Lu Shen’s seat was empty. 

Where is he? Did he leave before the song was finished?

Bian Shengjian resisted the momentary sense of disappointment in his heart, gritted his teeth and bowed again before turning around and walking towards the backstage. 

Bastard, just you wait.

But as soon as his figure disappeared behind the curtains, Bian Shengjian felt that someone grabbed his wrist suddenly in the darkness—Damn it!

“You……” The veins on Bian Shengjian’s forehead throbbed violently and he was forced to take a few steps forward after a stagger. But before he could see what the person that grabbed him looked like, he was quickly pressed firmly against the wall on one side, and only heard a thud from above his head—as a hand was propped on the wall.

“Lu Shen?” Bian Shengjian’s eyes widened. When he saw the beating flames in Lu Shen’s eyes, his heart also jumped wildly. “Are you…”

There was no chance for the remaining “sick” word to be uttered. 

Lu Shen squeezed his chin with one hand and pressed his lips on him. Without waiting for Shengjian to react, the tip of his tongue immediately followed suit, sweeping back and forth between Bian Shengjian’s lips and teeth, creating out a sticky sound–

“Hmmph………” Bian Shengjian’s whole body went into shock. When Lu Shen tried to deepen the kiss, the nerve that had been numb for a long time finally came back. He immediately grabbed the clothes on his back with his hands, wanting to pull him off, and finally gasped in a low voice, “Are you fucking sick……”

“Ah!” 

Suddenly there was an exclamation from behind. It seemed that a passing girl accidentally saw the scene of the two of them. She took a few steps back and blushed.

Lu Shen immediately turned sideways to block Bian Shengjian tightly, and looked back at the girl.

Although he didn’t say a word, the girl was still frightened by Lu Shen’s eyes. She covered her mouth, lowered her head and ran away quickly.

Lu Shen turned his head again, and when he met Shengjian’s vicious eyes that seemed to kill him, he suddenly smiled, leaned forward again and bit his lips.

“Go…….Go away!” Bian Shengjian put a hand on his shoulder with a force strong enough to even crush the bones, but looking at it like this now, he could taste a little bit of refusal and acceptance at the same time.

“Third Brother,” Lu Shen leaned on his shoulder and smiled, his voice was very low, “I don’t want to bear it anymore.”

“Don’t want to bear my ass……” Bian Shengjian’s voice became hoarse, but the remnant touch on his lips was still vivid, and the replay of the kiss in his mind seemed to constantly poke his most sensitive nerve.

He’s going crazy.

Lu Shen kept this posture still, just looking directly into his eyes and said word by word, “Can I pursue you?”





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