Chapter 226: (Choon-hee POV)
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The next day, when the sun shyly peeked through the window. I woke up and looked to the side, my husband was still sleeping very soundly. Our activities were indeed very enjoyable after a few days of not seeing each other. I gently rubbed his face, he still looks comfortable snoring. Maybe I won't wake him earlier, just let Edwards sleep well today.
I tried to get out of bed, this hospital feels like a five star hotel. I couldn't taste the difference if I didn't smell a bit of medicine. When these feet hit the floor, I felt like I was floating. My stomach also feels nauseous and my head hurts so bad, why? Am I tired from making love without stopping? But not usually.
I tried to sit down first, massaging my forehead which was really dizzy. ahh.. I think I have to ask Doctor Lita for vitamins later, I was just thinking about her. She had come knocking on the door and went inside, she came with the servant and brought a lot of food.
"Hi, good morning. Am I interrupting? Looks like you guys really got through a lot of longing." Doctor Lita told me, I just laughed. Then choose to walk towards the sofa.
I walked slowly, because I still felt nauseous and dizzy. I sat on the sofa, and Lita's doctor sat down with me. "I brought healthy food for you and Edwards, this afternoon Edwards must be checked again. See if the wound is still wet or not." Doctor Lita said, hearing this I just realized one thing. That Edwards was still hurt.
"Oh my gosh, I forgot! I even took her in a warm bath yesterday afternoon. And I didn't think about the wound? How is it? Will it get infected?" I panicked, I was about to get up from my seat. But when I woke up, at that moment my stomach felt churning.
"Ahh.. why do I feel so nauseous and dizzy?" I said quietly, I sat back down. try to calm down and choose to breathe properly.
"You're not feeling well?" Lita asked me.
"A little bit I think I'm too tired maybe. Do you have any vitamins? I think I need vitamins." I said without looking at her, some of the maids who had been in front of me. now told to go by Lita, I don't know why. I didn't mean to ask either.
"Why?" I was confused.
"You drink this potion first, okay?" Lita told me, I saw a pretty big glass. Inside it looks like a tea-like drink, but I don't think it's some kind of tea.
"What?" I asked again, I smelled the aroma. Feels warm from the scent I smell.
"Warm tea, I added some soursop leaves to make it a good concoction." Lita's words made me a little confused, why add another leaf? ahhh. She loves to experiment with the tea I'm about to drink.
I kept silent, drinking warm tea which tasted bland but a little strange when touched on my tongue. When I drank it, I just smelled the aroma of herbal medicine which I think Lita deliberately put in this drink. I swallowed it down, after it was finished. I put the glass back on the table, tasting it a few times. The warm feeling and the herbal aroma make me feel better.
"Good enough to warm my very nauseous stomach." I tell her, she nods and smiles a little.
"You will drink twice a day, I will prepare a maid who will serve this drink. Good for pregnant women." She said slowly, I heard that, yes, yes. After all, whatever she gives must be good for the body, she's a doctor. so she knows better what my body needs.
"Oh yes, Doctor Lita. I was curious about why I was rushed here. Did something serious happen to me? Or to Edwards? but I don't think so. Because we both look fine." I've been wanting to ask this since yesterday, but I've only had the chance to ask now. Doctor Lita looked at my face closely, she really looked into my eyes and sighed softly.
"You think something's wrong? I just wanted to introduce you and Edwards." Doctor Lita said again.
"You're lying, I'm sure something happened? What's wrong?" I still insisted on asking her, and she just shook his head slowly.
"Are you sure? Don't hide anything from me, I have a bad feeling about all this." I held her hand, looked into her eyes and asked Doctor Lita to tell her what had happened.
She was reluctant to answer, but she glanced briefly at the bed. looked at Edwards who was still sleeping soundly.
"Are you sure you want to know?" She asked again.
"Yes, what?" I started whispering softly, I think this has something to do with Edwards. because she had glanced at my husband, gosh. I beg of you that nothing serious will ever separate me from Edwards again.
"You have cervical cancer." The four words Doctor Lita said so quietly, made me pause. I looked into her eyes more and more, confirming that she wasn't joking, but I'm sure she really wasn't. see how her eyes make it clear all the things I'm thinking.
"Is it bad?" I asked again.
"No, it's not that serious yet. We'll have to look into it further, but for now. I haven't told Mr. Edwards, I didn't want to tell you either." She said honestly.
"Don't tell Edwards he has no right to be sad because his wife is sick." I said very confidently, I held his hand again. "Please, keep this a secret from everyone. I will do all the treatment, but I don't want anyone else to be sad. Can you keep this a secret?" I asked quietly, then we both glanced at Edwards who was still asleep.
"He feels too much Sadness, I don't want him to feel it any deeper." I say again, I feel like this is a dream. But I'm sure this isn't an ordinary dream, it's a nightmare that will kill the real me. I didn't want Edwards to find out and that made him even more sad and down. Our problems are already so many, I don't want to add any more burden to them.
"What if you need surgery and other things?" Lita asked me.
"I'm sure, I will be fine. Don't worry Doctor Lita, I will be fine.. My son and I will be healthy and we will build a small house in a beautiful place. Me, Edwards, and our children You have to believe in the power of prayer and hope." I said again, I took my hand off her. then take the fruits that are in front of me, get rid of the fear that slowly lands on the deepest side of my heart
I'm scared?
"Honey? You're awake? Why didn't you wake me up?" Edwards' voice made Lita and I both look, I tried to smile and went towards him. Holding back the feeling of nausea and dizziness that is still very clearly felt.
"Hi, you slept well. I woke up because Doctor Lita brought us Breakfast. Do you want to eat together?" I asked casually.
"Sure, good morning doctor Lita. You must be impressed to see that my wife is fine, right." Edwards said with a laugh I couldn't help but laugh along and pretend to be happy of course.
"Yes.. I thought you woke up late because you were still sick, it turned out to be very healthy and fine. Then I'll excuse myself, please eat breakfast. And we'll meet again later for further checks." She said so calmly, she immediately got up from her seat and chose to leave.
I who saw her departure could only be silent, hopefully Doctor Lita can keep this secret well.
"Honey? Let's eat, I just realized that since yesterday afternoon I haven't eaten anything. I'm really hungry now." Edwards said again, I immediately smiled and took his hand to go to the sofa. I rested my head briefly on the side of his arm, causing us to stop walking.
"Honey? What are you doing? You're getting spoiled, I'm curious how our baby will look when he comes to this world. I'm sure he's as adorable as you are." Edwards immediately picked me up, led me to the sofa and then he took me on his lap.
We stared at each other for a long time. I love the smell of his body when he wakes up. I love it when he looks into my eyes and gives that sweet smile. Can I be okay when I have to lose all this?
"Honey? Are you daydreaming again? Is there something I don't know? Did we say something? What's wrong? Your face is very pale too. Are you sick?" He said a little worried, hearing this I immediately shook my head quickly.
"No, I'm not sick. I'm just a little confused, why do we have to stay at the hospital? Even though we're not sick." I said evasively, and he just pouted his lips playfully.
"Because we were sick before, so we have to be in the hospital. But I promise, we will only be here for a while. After this we will return to a new home, I prepared a new home for you. In a very beautiful and calm country, we will build a new world in that place. with our children, you'll be delighted to see what I gave you." His words add a burden of pain in the recesses of my heart, his words are very beautiful. If only I didn't have other thoughts currently churning clearly in my little brain.
Edwards? If only there was a second chance to get to know you longer, I would love to meet you in my next life. Maybe we can get acquainted as lovers in school? or lovers who often fight and fall in love. must be so adorable, I wish I could feel all that longer. feel your scent Every day, without a problem and without a reason to leave.
Edwards? your face is so handsome, this handsomeness makes me wonder what the future will be like for us and our children.
"Honey.. are you so quiet? Why? Am I mad at me? You've always kept silent on all the questions you asked." He said again, I just smiled and hugged him. I just want to feel this closeness a little longer, before I... before I.. before I.. Leave this world forever.
"I just miss you, until I think that you are part of a dream that will disappear, thank you very much Edwards. You want to give me things that I never get in this world. you are such a perfect man, everything you gave me and our children later. It must be something extraordinarily great. Do you want to fulfill one by one the wishes that I have?" I asked quietly, and I could feel a soft nod from behind my back.
"Tell me, what do you want?" Edwards asked again.
"Do you have time to rest this month?" I asked again.
"I can take time off whenever and for as long as you want, what are you planning?" Edwards asked again.
"Let's go around the world." I let go of the hug from his body, then looked into his eyes intently. "Let's travel the world, enjoy one country after another that I've never been to. Let's make a photo album and video about our happy journey. So one day, our children can see how happy we are. Do you want it?" I asked in a gentle tone, looking into his already sparkling eyes.
"Sure, we will travel the world. How long do you want to go? We will go around each country and create memories there. Every corner of this world will give a romantic impression. I will see the world in a different way now, with love in your eyes. My dear? We're going on vacation together and creating beautiful moments, you have plenty of time to do this. But since you're asking now, I'll give it to you. So? Which country would you like to visit first?" Edwards asked again.
"Emmmm.. Maybe Switzerland? Do you want to go there? I see that the country is very beautiful and charming. I really want to stay in a villa in front of which there are mountains and lakes. Wow.. it must be fun, the air must be very cold too. Come on. over there!" I said enthusiastically.
"Sure, we're going on vacation there! Now what's more important is that we eat. Can I eat and charge? after that we chat again." Hearing Edwards' words I immediately laughed, I forgot that he had been starving for a long time. I was about to get up from his lap. But he immediately restrained me quickly.
"I want to eat while you feed it, so just sit down like this. and feed your husband this my dear." He said so spoiled.
"You want to become a father but you are still spoiled. well, before our child is actually born into this world. then you will become a big baby who I will take very good care of. So.. my adorable baby, you want What do you want to eat?" I asked again.
"Eat your lips baby." He was mocking me.
"Ya!! you want to die?" I chuckled and he laughed, in the end I took him some food and fed him lovingly. We spent breakfast with all the sweet talk and about the future. Yes.. leave it like this, as if we never had a problem. I will make sure that Edwards gets all the sweet memories of me, so that someday if I go. he will see me in every corner of the earth.
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If there is one corner of the earth that can make me find you, then there is a memory that will bring us together. If there is one love that can last a thousand full moons, it is my love for you.
If there's one smile that lasts through the ages, it's the smile on my lips that sees you smile too.
The heart that I slowly want to close, to the facts and facts that slowly freeze. Can I feel and see things again in a different way? If only, this heart was created from many shapes and questions. There may not be a satisfactory answer and result.
I set one heart and mind on one name, who? of course your name. What's the name again? I wouldn't think of another name, of course I wouldn't. I only focus on one person.
Ahhh .. discussing love, you, and the heart, it is a unity that can make me die. It can make me sad, and it can destroy me. But there is one thing that can keep me happy.
You know? Sometimes I want to feel the night breeze and hug you until I'm bored, but is there still a word for bored? when it comes to your perfect self? ahhh.. it seems the word bored is not a word that I want to talk about properly. I just want to say that this love, this feeling is something that will never die. Even though my body has become a corpse and my breath has stopped.
The smell of Citrus made me realize that Edwards had just come out of the bathroom, his wet hair and part of his body only covered by a towel made me smile a little. see? I just saw him finish showering and I immediately smiled without knowing why.
Don't you know? The scent of Citrus Known as a "natural medicine", Citrus, often referred to as limes (citron) or thuja conifers (conifers), is a genus of flowering trees and shrubs in the citrus tree family (Rutaceae). Citrus literally has more connotations of 'fruit with a refreshing sour aroma and taste' giving a clearer, fresher, elegant and optimistic impression.
Brazilian researchers conducted an experiment on several people to inhale three scents of essential oils such as orange essential oil, tea essential oil and rose essential oil. The experiment has proven that people who inhale orange oil have less anxiety during the test, and a beneficial effect on the psyche, even for a long time after the experiment is over.
That's why I know why sometimes Edwards uses this scent as a special soap that he always uses every time he takes a shower. Either I just realized or I have never really understood the meaning of the things that are in my husband. In the morning she smells of citrus, in the evening she smells of cinnamon and roses. Then the expensive perfume whose fragrance sometimes changes, but not too much difference. The point is he still smells good with unique characteristics.
"Why are you looking into my eyes like that?" Edwards asked, he took the T-shirt and trousers I had prepared. We really wanted to take a walk around the park this afternoon. Edwards said that we should be exposed to the sun often so that our skin does not get diseased. I laughed a little at what he said. How can he say that without a fact? But it is true, if we are too long in the room. That's not good either.
"You are so handsome. When you finished showering, I thought. The moment you finished bathing was a very adorable moment. I will remember this moment in my little brain, and don't force me to forget this one beautiful moment. Ahhh.. You can make me not blink." my words made Edwards laugh again, he wasn't my eyes when he put his pants on. I sat for a while on the bed and put on the facial moisturizer the maid brought. I don't know where the waiter came from, the facial moisturizer I usually use everyday.
"You're also very beautiful, when you wear that short yellow dress. You look fresher on a day like this. Your silky hair that you put on is beautiful, I also like it.. ahhh... everything in your body I really like, I love you. will remember this moment too." He tried to follow what I said earlier.
"Yeah!! How can you copy and paste what I said? ish! you're not creative." I said a little annoyed, and once again he laughed. he starts putting on perfume then takes a comb to comb her hair.
"Edwards? Come here.. Let me comb your hair, take a small stool over there and sit across from me." I told him, he just went along with what I said. He took a stool and sat across from me, handing me the comb in his hand.
I smiled a little as I inhaled his scent up close. "You smell so good, does your back still hurt? Sorry about yesterday, my appetite made you a little sick. I forgot that you were sick." I said feeling guilty.
"Don't be like that, I'm fine." He said slowly.
I heard very soft words from him, he never really blamed anything that happened. rather he never really blamed me, as long as I've known him. During that time I also knew that he was a man who was not rude, he was too loving and perfect.
I started to brush his hair in slow motions, enjoying every moment that might not be repeated, who knows when Edwards and I would really part. Because I know, every time there is a meeting there must be a farewell. Whether it's death, divorce, or other things that can be categorized as separation.
I gently stroked her slightly wet hair, Still wanting to comb her soft hair for a long time. "You know? I once heard a friend of mine who came from Turkey, he once told me that if a wife combs her husband's hair. Then she will get a reward. You know the reward?" Edwards asked, I who heard the story could only be silent and then shook my head.
"No, what is it?" I asked not knowing anything.
"I don't know for sure what reward is, it's just that in the religion that my friend follows. A woman or a wife has an important role in her husband's life. He also said that a woman who combs her hair and cuts her husband's nails will be given heavenly wine which has never been specially opened. for him, the water of the heavens will be given, and Allah will lighten his sakaratul maut, his grave will be like a garden of paradise.
Then he also said, A woman who pleases her husband, her reward is like the repentance of a servant who cries. That is, she is forbidden from the fire of hell. In the religion she professes, the relationship between husband and wife and the degree of a wife is very high. That's why I always want to glorify my beautiful wife, so that you go to heaven later." Edwards' words touched my heart, even though his words were part of his friend's words.. But I know, I know whatever Edwards said it all came from his heart.
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The next day, when the sun shyly peeked through the window. I woke up and looked to the side, my husband was still sleeping very soundly. Our activities were indeed very enjoyable after a few days of not seeing each other. I gently rubbed his face, he still looks comfortable snoring. Maybe I won't wake him earlier, just let Edwards sleep well today.
I tried to get out of bed, this hospital feels like a five star hotel. I couldn't taste the difference if I didn't smell a bit of medicine. When these feet hit the floor, I felt like I was floating. My stomach also feels nauseous and my head hurts so bad, why? Am I tired from making love without stopping? But not usually.
I tried to sit down first, massaging my forehead which was really dizzy. ahh.. I think I have to ask Doctor Lita for vitamins later, I was just thinking about her. She had come knocking on the door and went inside, she came with the servant and brought a lot of food.
"Hi, good morning. Am I interrupting? Looks like you guys really got through a lot of longing." Doctor Lita told me, I just laughed. Then choose to walk towards the sofa.
I walked slowly, because I still felt nauseous and dizzy. I sat on the sofa, and Lita's doctor sat down with me. "I brought healthy food for you and Edwards, this afternoon Edwards must be checked again. See if the wound is still wet or not." Doctor Lita said, hearing this I just realized one thing. That Edwards was still hurt.
"Oh my gosh, I forgot! I even took her in a warm bath yesterday afternoon. And I didn't think about the wound? How is it? Will it get infected?" I panicked, I was about to get up from my seat. But when I woke up, at that moment my stomach felt churning.
"Ahh.. why do I feel so nauseous and dizzy?" I said quietly, I sat back down. try to calm down and choose to breathe properly.
"You're not feeling well?" Lita asked me.
"A little bit I think I'm too tired maybe. Do you have any vitamins? I think I need vitamins." I said without looking at her, some of the maids who had been in front of me. now told to go by Lita, I don't know why. I didn't mean to ask either.
"Why?" I was confused.
"You drink this potion first, okay?" Lita told me, I saw a pretty big glass. Inside it looks like a tea-like drink, but I don't think it's some kind of tea.
"What?" I asked again, I smelled the aroma. Feels warm from the scent I smell.
"Warm tea, I added some soursop leaves to make it a good concoction." Lita's words made me a little confused, why add another leaf? ahhh. She loves to experiment with the tea I'm about to drink.
I kept silent, drinking warm tea which tasted bland but a little strange when touched on my tongue. When I drank it, I just smelled the aroma of herbal medicine which I think Lita deliberately put in this drink. I swallowed it down, after it was finished. I put the glass back on the table, tasting it a few times. The warm feeling and the herbal aroma make me feel better.
"Good enough to warm my very nauseous stomach." I tell her, she nods and smiles a little.
"You will drink twice a day, I will prepare a maid who will serve this drink. Good for pregnant women." She said slowly, I heard that, yes, yes. After all, whatever she gives must be good for the body, she's a doctor. so she knows better what my body needs.
"Oh yes, Doctor Lita. I was curious about why I was rushed here. Did something serious happen to me? Or to Edwards? but I don't think so. Because we both look fine." I've been wanting to ask this since yesterday, but I've only had the chance to ask now. Doctor Lita looked at my face closely, she really looked into my eyes and sighed softly.
"You think something's wrong? I just wanted to introduce you and Edwards." Doctor Lita said again.
"You're lying, I'm sure something happened? What's wrong?" I still insisted on asking her, and she just shook his head slowly.
"Are you sure? Don't hide anything from me, I have a bad feeling about all this." I held her hand, looked into her eyes and asked Doctor Lita to tell her what had happened.
She was reluctant to answer, but she glanced briefly at the bed. looked at Edwards who was still sleeping soundly.
"Are you sure you want to know?" She asked again.
"Yes, what?" I started whispering softly, I think this has something to do with Edwards. because she had glanced at my husband, gosh. I beg of you that nothing serious will ever separate me from Edwards again.
"You have cervical cancer." The four words Doctor Lita said so quietly, made me pause. I looked into her eyes more and more, confirming that she wasn't joking, but I'm sure she really wasn't. see how her eyes make it clear all the things I'm thinking.
"Is it bad?" I asked again.
"No, it's not that serious yet. We'll have to look into it further, but for now. I haven't told Mr. Edwards, I didn't want to tell you either." She said honestly.
"Don't tell Edwards he has no right to be sad because his wife is sick." I said very confidently, I held his hand again. "Please, keep this a secret from everyone. I will do all the treatment, but I don't want anyone else to be sad. Can you keep this a secret?" I asked quietly, then we both glanced at Edwards who was still asleep.
"He feels too much Sadness, I don't want him to feel it any deeper." I say again, I feel like this is a dream. But I'm sure this isn't an ordinary dream, it's a nightmare that will kill the real me. I didn't want Edwards to find out and that made him even more sad and down. Our problems are already so many, I don't want to add any more burden to them.
"What if you need surgery and other things?" Lita asked me.
"I'm sure, I will be fine. Don't worry Doctor Lita, I will be fine.. My son and I will be healthy and we will build a small house in a beautiful place. Me, Edwards, and our children You have to believe in the power of prayer and hope." I said again, I took my hand off her. then take the fruits that are in front of me, get rid of the fear that slowly lands on the deepest side of my heart
I'm scared?
"Honey? You're awake? Why didn't you wake me up?" Edwards' voice made Lita and I both look, I tried to smile and went towards him. Holding back the feeling of nausea and dizziness that is still very clearly felt.
"Hi, you slept well. I woke up because Doctor Lita brought us Breakfast. Do you want to eat together?" I asked casually.
"Sure, good morning doctor Lita. You must be impressed to see that my wife is fine, right." Edwards said with a laugh I couldn't help but laugh along and pretend to be happy of course.
"Yes.. I thought you woke up late because you were still sick, it turned out to be very healthy and fine. Then I'll excuse myself, please eat breakfast. And we'll meet again later for further checks." She said so calmly, she immediately got up from her seat and chose to leave.
I who saw her departure could only be silent, hopefully Doctor Lita can keep this secret well.
"Honey? Let's eat, I just realized that since yesterday afternoon I haven't eaten anything. I'm really hungry now." Edwards said again, I immediately smiled and took his hand to go to the sofa. I rested my head briefly on the side of his arm, causing us to stop walking.
"Honey? What are you doing? You're getting spoiled, I'm curious how our baby will look when he comes to this world. I'm sure he's as adorable as you are." Edwards immediately picked me up, led me to the sofa and then he took me on his lap.
We stared at each other for a long time. I love the smell of his body when he wakes up. I love it when he looks into my eyes and gives that sweet smile. Can I be okay when I have to lose all this?
"Honey? Are you daydreaming again? Is there something I don't know? Did we say something? What's wrong? Your face is very pale too. Are you sick?" He said a little worried, hearing this I immediately shook my head quickly.
"No, I'm not sick. I'm just a little confused, why do we have to stay at the hospital? Even though we're not sick." I said evasively, and he just pouted his lips playfully.
"Because we were sick before, so we have to be in the hospital. But I promise, we will only be here for a while. After this we will return to a new home, I prepared a new home for you. In a very beautiful and calm country, we will build a new world in that place. with our children, you'll be delighted to see what I gave you." His words add a burden of pain in the recesses of my heart, his words are very beautiful. If only I didn't have other thoughts currently churning clearly in my little brain.
Edwards? If only there was a second chance to get to know you longer, I would love to meet you in my next life. Maybe we can get acquainted as lovers in school? or lovers who often fight and fall in love. must be so adorable, I wish I could feel all that longer. feel your scent Every day, without a problem and without a reason to leave.
Edwards? your face is so handsome, this handsomeness makes me wonder what the future will be like for us and our children.
"Honey.. are you so quiet? Why? Am I mad at me? You've always kept silent on all the questions you asked." He said again, I just smiled and hugged him. I just want to feel this closeness a little longer, before I... before I.. before I.. Leave this world forever.
"I just miss you, until I think that you are part of a dream that will disappear, thank you very much Edwards. You want to give me things that I never get in this world. you are such a perfect man, everything you gave me and our children later. It must be something extraordinarily great. Do you want to fulfill one by one the wishes that I have?" I asked quietly, and I could feel a soft nod from behind my back.
"Tell me, what do you want?" Edwards asked again.
"Do you have time to rest this month?" I asked again.
"I can take time off whenever and for as long as you want, what are you planning?" Edwards asked again.
"Let's go around the world." I let go of the hug from his body, then looked into his eyes intently. "Let's travel the world, enjoy one country after another that I've never been to. Let's make a photo album and video about our happy journey. So one day, our children can see how happy we are. Do you want it?" I asked in a gentle tone, looking into his already sparkling eyes.
"Sure, we will travel the world. How long do you want to go? We will go around each country and create memories there. Every corner of this world will give a romantic impression. I will see the world in a different way now, with love in your eyes. My dear? We're going on vacation together and creating beautiful moments, you have plenty of time to do this. But since you're asking now, I'll give it to you. So? Which country would you like to visit first?" Edwards asked again.
"Emmmm.. Maybe Switzerland? Do you want to go there? I see that the country is very beautiful and charming. I really want to stay in a villa in front of which there are mountains and lakes. Wow.. it must be fun, the air must be very cold too. Come on. over there!" I said enthusiastically.
"Sure, we're going on vacation there! Now what's more important is that we eat. Can I eat and charge? after that we chat again." Hearing Edwards' words I immediately laughed, I forgot that he had been starving for a long time. I was about to get up from his lap. But he immediately restrained me quickly.
"I want to eat while you feed it, so just sit down like this. and feed your husband this my dear." He said so spoiled.
"You want to become a father but you are still spoiled. well, before our child is actually born into this world. then you will become a big baby who I will take very good care of. So.. my adorable baby, you want What do you want to eat?" I asked again.
"Eat your lips baby." He was mocking me.
"Ya!! you want to die?" I chuckled and he laughed, in the end I took him some food and fed him lovingly. We spent breakfast with all the sweet talk and about the future. Yes.. leave it like this, as if we never had a problem. I will make sure that Edwards gets all the sweet memories of me, so that someday if I go. he will see me in every corner of the earth.
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If there is one corner of the earth that can make me find you, then there is a memory that will bring us together. If there is one love that can last a thousand full moons, it is my love for you.
If there's one smile that lasts through the ages, it's the smile on my lips that sees you smile too.
The heart that I slowly want to close, to the facts and facts that slowly freeze. Can I feel and see things again in a different way? If only, this heart was created from many shapes and questions. There may not be a satisfactory answer and result.
I set one heart and mind on one name, who? of course your name. What's the name again? I wouldn't think of another name, of course I wouldn't. I only focus on one person.
Ahhh .. discussing love, you, and the heart, it is a unity that can make me die. It can make me sad, and it can destroy me. But there is one thing that can keep me happy.
You know? Sometimes I want to feel the night breeze and hug you until I'm bored, but is there still a word for bored? when it comes to your perfect self? ahhh.. it seems the word bored is not a word that I want to talk about properly. I just want to say that this love, this feeling is something that will never die. Even though my body has become a corpse and my breath has stopped.
The smell of Citrus made me realize that Edwards had just come out of the bathroom, his wet hair and part of his body only covered by a towel made me smile a little. see? I just saw him finish showering and I immediately smiled without knowing why.
Don't you know? The scent of Citrus Known as a "natural medicine", Citrus, often referred to as limes (citron) or thuja conifers (conifers), is a genus of flowering trees and shrubs in the citrus tree family (Rutaceae). Citrus literally has more connotations of 'fruit with a refreshing sour aroma and taste' giving a clearer, fresher, elegant and optimistic impression.
Brazilian researchers conducted an experiment on several people to inhale three scents of essential oils such as orange essential oil, tea essential oil and rose essential oil. The experiment has proven that people who inhale orange oil have less anxiety during the test, and a beneficial effect on the psyche, even for a long time after the experiment is over.
That's why I know why sometimes Edwards uses this scent as a special soap that he always uses every time he takes a shower. Either I just realized or I have never really understood the meaning of the things that are in my husband. In the morning she smells of citrus, in the evening she smells of cinnamon and roses. Then the expensive perfume whose fragrance sometimes changes, but not too much difference. The point is he still smells good with unique characteristics.
"Why are you looking into my eyes like that?" Edwards asked, he took the T-shirt and trousers I had prepared. We really wanted to take a walk around the park this afternoon. Edwards said that we should be exposed to the sun often so that our skin does not get diseased. I laughed a little at what he said. How can he say that without a fact? But it is true, if we are too long in the room. That's not good either.
"You are so handsome. When you finished showering, I thought. The moment you finished bathing was a very adorable moment. I will remember this moment in my little brain, and don't force me to forget this one beautiful moment. Ahhh.. You can make me not blink." my words made Edwards laugh again, he wasn't my eyes when he put his pants on. I sat for a while on the bed and put on the facial moisturizer the maid brought. I don't know where the waiter came from, the facial moisturizer I usually use everyday.
"You're also very beautiful, when you wear that short yellow dress. You look fresher on a day like this. Your silky hair that you put on is beautiful, I also like it.. ahhh... everything in your body I really like, I love you. will remember this moment too." He tried to follow what I said earlier.
"Yeah!! How can you copy and paste what I said? ish! you're not creative." I said a little annoyed, and once again he laughed. he starts putting on perfume then takes a comb to comb her hair.
"Edwards? Come here.. Let me comb your hair, take a small stool over there and sit across from me." I told him, he just went along with what I said. He took a stool and sat across from me, handing me the comb in his hand.
I smiled a little as I inhaled his scent up close. "You smell so good, does your back still hurt? Sorry about yesterday, my appetite made you a little sick. I forgot that you were sick." I said feeling guilty.
"Don't be like that, I'm fine." He said slowly.
I heard very soft words from him, he never really blamed anything that happened. rather he never really blamed me, as long as I've known him. During that time I also knew that he was a man who was not rude, he was too loving and perfect.
I started to brush his hair in slow motions, enjoying every moment that might not be repeated, who knows when Edwards and I would really part. Because I know, every time there is a meeting there must be a farewell. Whether it's death, divorce, or other things that can be categorized as separation.
I gently stroked her slightly wet hair, Still wanting to comb her soft hair for a long time. "You know? I once heard a friend of mine who came from Turkey, he once told me that if a wife combs her husband's hair. Then she will get a reward. You know the reward?" Edwards asked, I who heard the story could only be silent and then shook my head.
"No, what is it?" I asked not knowing anything.
"I don't know for sure what reward is, it's just that in the religion that my friend follows. A woman or a wife has an important role in her husband's life. He also said that a woman who combs her hair and cuts her husband's nails will be given heavenly wine which has never been specially opened. for him, the water of the heavens will be given, and Allah will lighten his sakaratul maut, his grave will be like a garden of paradise.
Then he also said, A woman who pleases her husband, her reward is like the repentance of a servant who cries. That is, she is forbidden from the fire of hell. In the religion she professes, the relationship between husband and wife and the degree of a wife is very high. That's why I always want to glorify my beautiful wife, so that you go to heaven later." Edwards' words touched my heart, even though his words were part of his friend's words.. But I know, I know whatever Edwards said it all came from his heart.
The next day, when the sun shyly peeked through the window. I woke up and looked to the side, my husband was still sleeping very soundly. Our activities were indeed very enjoyable after a few days of not seeing each other. I gently rubbed his face, he still looks comfortable snoring. Maybe I won't wake him earlier, just let Edwards sleep well today.I tried to get out of bed, this hospital feels like a five star hotel. I couldn't taste the difference if I didn't smell a bit of medicine. When these feet hit the floor, I felt like I was floating. My stomach also feels nauseous and my head hurts so bad, why? Am I tired from making love without stopping? But not usually.I tried to sit down first, massaging my forehead which was really dizzy. ahh.. I think I have to ask Doctor Lita for vitamins later, I was just thinking about her. She had come knocking on the door and went inside, she came with the servant and brought a lot of food."Hi, good morning. Am I interrupting? Looks like you guys really got through a lot of longing." Doctor Lita told me, I just laughed. Then choose to walk towards the sofa.I walked slowly, because I still felt nauseous and dizzy. I sat on the sofa, and Lita's doctor sat down with me. "I brought healthy food for you and Edwards, this afternoon Edwards must be checked again. See if the wound is still wet or not." Doctor Lita said, hearing this I just realized one thing. That Edwards was still hurt."Oh my gosh, I forgot! I even took her in a warm bath yesterday afternoon. And I didn't think about the wound? How is it? Will it get infected?" I panicked, I was about to get up from my seat. But when I woke up, at that moment my stomach felt churning."Ahh.. why do I feel so nauseous and dizzy?" I said quietly, I sat back down. try to calm down and choose to breathe properly."You're not feeling well?" Lita asked me."A little bit I think I'm too tired maybe. Do you have any vitamins? I think I need vitamins." I said without looking at her, some of the maids who had been in front of me. now told to go by Lita, I don't know why. I didn't mean to ask either."Why?" I was confused."You drink this potion first, okay?" Lita told me, I saw a pretty big glass. Inside it looks like a tea-like drink, but I don't think it's some kind of tea."What?" I asked again, I smelled the aroma. Feels warm from the scent I smell."Warm tea, I added some soursop leaves to make it a good concoction." Lita's words made me a little confused, why add another leaf? ahhh. She loves to experiment with the tea I'm about to drink.I kept silent, drinking warm tea which tasted bland but a little strange when touched on my tongue. When I drank it, I just smelled the aroma of herbal medicine which I think Lita deliberately put in this drink. I swallowed it down, after it was finished. I put the glass back on the table, tasting it a few times. The warm feeling and the herbal aroma make me feel better."Good enough to warm my very nauseous stomach." I tell her, she nods and smiles a little."You will drink twice a day, I will prepare a maid who will serve this drink. Good for pregnant women." She said slowly, I heard that, yes, yes. After all, whatever she gives must be good for the body, she's a doctor. so she knows better what my body needs."Oh yes, Doctor Lita. I was curious about why I was rushed here. Did something serious happen to me? Or to Edwards? but I don't think so. Because we both look fine." I've been wanting to ask this since yesterday, but I've only had the chance to ask now. Doctor Lita looked at my face closely, she really looked into my eyes and sighed softly."You think something's wrong? I just wanted to introduce you and Edwards." Doctor Lita said again."You're lying, I'm sure something happened? What's wrong?" I still insisted on asking her, and she just shook his head slowly."Are you sure? Don't hide anything from me, I have a bad feeling about all this." I held her hand, looked into her eyes and asked Doctor Lita to tell her what had happened.She was reluctant to answer, but she glanced briefly at the bed. looked at Edwards who was still sleeping soundly."Are you sure you want to know?" She asked again."Yes, what?" I started whispering softly, I think this has something to do with Edwards. because she had glanced at my husband, gosh. I beg of you that nothing serious will ever separate me from Edwards again."You have cervical cancer." The four words Doctor Lita said so quietly, made me pause. I looked into her eyes more and more, confirming that she wasn't joking, but I'm sure she really wasn't. see how her eyes make it clear all the things I'm thinking."Is it bad?" I asked again."No, it's not that serious yet. We'll have to look into it further, but for now. I haven't told Mr. Edwards, I didn't want to tell you either." She said honestly."Don't tell Edwards he has no right to be sad because his wife is sick." I said very confidently, I held his hand again. "Please, keep this a secret from everyone. I will do all the treatment, but I don't want anyone else to be sad. Can you keep this a secret?" I asked quietly, then we both glanced at Edwards who was still asleep."He feels too much Sadness, I don't want him to feel it any deeper." I say again, I feel like this is a dream. But I'm sure this isn't an ordinary dream, it's a nightmare that will kill the real me. I didn't want Edwards to find out and that made him even more sad and down. Our problems are already so many, I don't want to add any more burden to them."What if you need surgery and other things?" Lita asked me."I'm sure, I will be fine. Don't worry Doctor Lita, I will be fine.. My son and I will be healthy and we will build a small house in a beautiful place. Me, Edwards, and our children You have to believe in the power of prayer and hope." I said again, I took my hand off her. then take the fruits that are in front of me, get rid of the fear that slowly lands on the deepest side of my heartI'm scared?"Honey? You're awake? Why didn't you wake me up?" Edwards' voice made Lita and I both look, I tried to smile and went towards him. Holding back the feeling of nausea and dizziness that is still very clearly felt."Hi, you slept well. I woke up because Doctor Lita brought us Breakfast. Do you want to eat together?" I asked casually."Sure, good morning doctor Lita. You must be impressed to see that my wife is fine, right." Edwards said with a laugh I couldn't help but laugh along and pretend to be happy of course."Yes.. I thought you woke up late because you were still sick, it turned out to be very healthy and fine. Then I'll excuse myself, please eat breakfast. And we'll meet again later for further checks." She said so calmly, she immediately got up from her seat and chose to leave.I who saw her departure could only be silent, hopefully Doctor Lita can keep this secret well."Honey? Let's eat, I just realized that since yesterday afternoon I haven't eaten anything. I'm really hungry now." Edwards said again, I immediately smiled and took his hand to go to the sofa. I rested my head briefly on the side of his arm, causing us to stop walking."Honey? What are you doing? You're getting spoiled, I'm curious how our baby will look when he comes to this world. I'm sure he's as adorable as you are." Edwards immediately picked me up, led me to the sofa and then he took me on his lap.We stared at each other for a long time. I love the smell of his body when he wakes up. I love it when he looks into my eyes and gives that sweet smile. Can I be okay when I have to lose all this?"Honey? Are you daydreaming again? Is there something I don't know? Did we say something? What's wrong? Your face is very pale too. Are you sick?" He said a little worried, hearing this I immediately shook my head quickly."No, I'm not sick. I'm just a little confused, why do we have to stay at the hospital? Even though we're not sick." I said evasively, and he just pouted his lips playfully."Because we were sick before, so we have to be in the hospital. But I promise, we will only be here for a while. After this we will return to a new home, I prepared a new home for you. In a very beautiful and calm country, we will build a new world in that place. with our children, you'll be delighted to see what I gave you." His words add a burden of pain in the recesses of my heart, his words are very beautiful. If only I didn't have other thoughts currently churning clearly in my little brain.Edwards? If only there was a second chance to get to know you longer, I would love to meet you in my next life. Maybe we can get acquainted as lovers in school? or lovers who often fight and fall in love. must be so adorable, I wish I could feel all that longer. feel your scent Every day, without a problem and without a reason to leave.Edwards? your face is so handsome, this handsomeness makes me wonder what the future will be like for us and our children."Honey.. are you so quiet? Why? Am I mad at me? You've always kept silent on all the questions you asked." He said again, I just smiled and hugged him. I just want to feel this closeness a little longer, before I... before I.. before I.. Leave this world forever."I just miss you, until I think that you are part of a dream that will disappear, thank you very much Edwards. You want to give me things that I never get in this world. you are such a perfect man, everything you gave me and our children later. It must be something extraordinarily great. Do you want to fulfill one by one the wishes that I have?" I asked quietly, and I could feel a soft nod from behind my back."Tell me, what do you want?" Edwards asked again."Do you have time to rest this month?" I asked again."I can take time off whenever and for as long as you want, what are you planning?" Edwards asked again."Let's go around the world." I let go of the hug from his body, then looked into his eyes intently. "Let's travel the world, enjoy one country after another that I've never been to. Let's make a photo album and video about our happy journey. So one day, our children can see how happy we are. Do you want it?" I asked in a gentle tone, looking into his already sparkling eyes."Sure, we will travel the world. How long do you want to go? We will go around each country and create memories there. Every corner of this world will give a romantic impression. I will see the world in a different way now, with love in your eyes. My dear? We're going on vacation together and creating beautiful moments, you have plenty of time to do this. But since you're asking now, I'll give it to you. So? Which country would you like to visit first?" Edwards asked again."Emmmm.. Maybe Switzerland? Do you want to go there? I see that the country is very beautiful and charming. I really want to stay in a villa in front of which there are mountains and lakes. Wow.. it must be fun, the air must be very cold too. Come on. over there!" I said enthusiastically."Sure, we're going on vacation there! Now what's more important is that we eat. Can I eat and charge? after that we chat again." Hearing Edwards' words I immediately laughed, I forgot that he had been starving for a long time. I was about to get up from his lap. But he immediately restrained me quickly."I want to eat while you feed it, so just sit down like this. and feed your husband this my dear." He said so spoiled."You want to become a father but you are still spoiled. well, before our child is actually born into this world. then you will become a big baby who I will take very good care of. So.. my adorable baby, you want What do you want to eat?" I asked again."Eat your lips baby." He was mocking me."Ya!! you want to die?" I chuckled and he laughed, in the end I took him some food and fed him lovingly. We spent breakfast with all the sweet talk and about the future. Yes.. leave it like this, as if we never had a problem. I will make sure that Edwards gets all the sweet memories of me, so that someday if I go. he will see me in every corner of the earth.~~~~If there is one corner of the earth that can make me find you, then there is a memory that will bring us together. If there is one love that can last a thousand full moons, it is my love for you.If there's one smile that lasts through the ages, it's the smile on my lips that sees you smile too.The heart that I slowly want to close, to the facts and facts that slowly freeze. Can I feel and see things again in a different way? If only, this heart was created from many shapes and questions. There may not be a satisfactory answer and result.I set one heart and mind on one name, who? of course your name. What's the name again? I wouldn't think of another name, of course I wouldn't. I only focus on one person.Ahhh .. discussing love, you, and the heart, it is a unity that can make me die. It can make me sad, and it can destroy me. But there is one thing that can keep me happy.You know? Sometimes I want to feel the night breeze and hug you until I'm bored, but is there still a word for bored? when it comes to your perfect self? ahhh.. it seems the word bored is not a word that I want to talk about properly. I just want to say that this love, this feeling is something that will never die. Even though my body has become a corpse and my breath has stopped.The smell of Citrus made me realize that Edwards had just come out of the bathroom, his wet hair and part of his body only covered by a towel made me smile a little. see? I just saw him finish showering and I immediately smiled without knowing why.Don't you know? The scent of Citrus Known as a "natural medicine", Citrus, often referred to as limes citron or thuja conifers conifers, is a genus of flowering trees and shrubs in the citrus tree family Rutaceae. Citrus literally has more connotations of 'fruit with a refreshing sour aroma and taste' giving a clearer, fresher, elegant and optimistic impression.Brazilian researchers conducted an experiment on several people to inhale three scents of essential oils such as orange essential oil, tea essential oil and rose essential oil. The experiment has proven that people who inhale orange oil have less anxiety during the test, and a beneficial effect on the psyche, even for a long time after the experiment is over.That's why I know why sometimes Edwards uses this scent as a special soap that he always uses every time he takes a shower. Either I just realized or I have never really understood the meaning of the things that are in my husband. In the morning she smells of citrus, in the evening she smells of cinnamon and roses. Then the expensive perfume whose fragrance sometimes changes, but not too much difference. The point is he still smells good with unique characteristics."Why are you looking into my eyes like that?" Edwards asked, he took the T-shirt and trousers I had prepared. We really wanted to take a walk around the park this afternoon. Edwards said that we should be exposed to the sun often so that our skin does not get diseased. I laughed a little at what he said. How can he say that without a fact? But it is true, if we are too long in the room. That's not good either."You are so handsome. When you finished showering, I thought. The moment you finished bathing was a very adorable moment. I will remember this moment in my little brain, and don't force me to forget this one beautiful moment. Ahhh.. You can make me not blink." my words made Edwards laugh again, he wasn't my eyes when he put his pants on. I sat for a while on the bed and put on the facial moisturizer the maid brought. I don't know where the waiter came from, the facial moisturizer I usually use everyday."You're also very beautiful, when you wear that short yellow dress. You look fresher on a day like this. Your silky hair that you put on is beautiful, I also like it.. ahhh... everything in your body I really like, I love you. will remember this moment too." He tried to follow what I said earlier."Yeah!! How can you copy and paste what I said? ish! you're not creative." I said a little annoyed, and once again he laughed. he starts putting on perfume then takes a comb to comb her hair."Edwards? Come here.. Let me comb your hair, take a small stool over there and sit across from me." I told him, he just went along with what I said. He took a stool and sat across from me, handing me the comb in his hand.I smiled a little as I inhaled his scent up close. "You smell so good, does your back still hurt? Sorry about yesterday, my appetite made you a little sick. I forgot that you were sick." I said feeling guilty."Don't be like that, I'm fine." He said slowly.I heard very soft words from him, he never really blamed anything that happened. rather he never really blamed me, as long as I've known him. During that time I also knew that he was a man who was not rude, he was too loving and perfect.I started to brush his hair in slow motions, enjoying every moment that might not be repeated, who knows when Edwards and I would really part. Because I know, every time there is a meeting there must be a farewell. Whether it's death, divorce, or other things that can be categorized as separation.I gently stroked her slightly wet hair, Still wanting to comb her soft hair for a long time. "You know? I once heard a friend of mine who came from Turkey, he once told me that if a wife combs her husband's hair. Then she will get a reward. You know the reward?" Edwards asked, I who heard the story could only be silent and then shook my head."No, what is it?" I asked not knowing anything."I don't know for sure what reward is, it's just that in the religion that my friend follows. A woman or a wife has an important role in her husband's life. He also said that a woman who combs her hair and cuts her husband's nails will be given heavenly wine which has never been specially opened. for him, the water of the heavens will be given, and Allah will lighten his sakaratul maut, his grave will be like a garden of paradise.Then he also said, A woman who pleases her husband, her reward is like the repentance of a servant who cries. That is, she is forbidden from the fire of hell. In the religion she professes, the relationship between husband and wife and the degree of a wife is very high. That's why I always want to glorify my beautiful wife, so that you go to heaven later." Edwards' words touched my heart, even though his words were part of his friend's words.. But I know, I know whatever Edwards said it all came from his heart.
