"Ha..."
When Aina came back to the room she had been given, sighing, walking to the side of the bed, she slammed straight into the bed.
Thanks to the unusual softness that has graciously received Eina's body, there is almost zero impact transmitted to her body.
But now Aina can't afford to enjoy the feeling or think she doesn't deserve it.
Moving only his thighs and neck, he turned to the side, exhaling a great sigh again.
"I can't do this anymore... it's been tough knowing what I don't know"
The difficulty of learning was meant to be fully understood in the college, but apparently it was only meant to be.
Most of all, if it's the whole city, there's no class in the college where stories that could be pulled off instantly by heretical inquisitors pop up, so it's probably natural to take it for granted.
Still, the Somas didn't see me tired, so I'm not even comforted when I said that.
Is there an opportunity to be here at this rate to help in any way?
With that in mind, I accidentally leaked a third sigh.
"It's just a bit of a snag, though I knew it to some extent..."
It was to Hildegard in Soma, God, who was in the same place.
I'm a little unsure what God meant by being in the same place or something, but I guess I'm definitely God.
Only those who had the same experience knew it, but the moment they saw it, they instinctively understood it.
To such an extent that I can assure you that there is no such thing as a mistake.
Besides, Soma and the others admitted it.
Then it must have been true.
Or that's not a problem in the first place.
There may be a lot of problems if you think sacramentally, but Eina is not even a believer.
Where there was a problem, it's not what I found out.
So it's more of a problem.
"... what, begging for teachings directly from God"
One way or another, the momentum seems to be that we can create a new religion as it is.
That's unlikely, and whoever you talk to will only be treated like a makeover.
Imagine what it would be like to talk about it in Radius.
"... that? You're starting to feel surprisingly incredible..."
Everyone in my imagination had a glimpse in their faces, but if you put it in words, yeah, you finally got to that realm, something like that.
There are no negative colors there.
And even if I were on the side of being heard, I could easily imagine that I would react the same way.
Because it's that soma.
Where that degree has happened, there is no wonder.
But to put it the other way, that's because Soma was there.
If it had been just me... or if Hildegard had been with us, we wouldn't have believed it.
The look on everyone's face may have been the same shame, but what it means is, I don't believe that, something like that.
... No, but if it's soma, only soma reacts differently -
"That's why I said soma is good..."
As Aina shrugged in her own thoughts, she buried her face in the pillow.
The story is getting out of the way in the first place.
Let's fix it.
"Uh... I can't believe I'm begging you to teach directly from God, could I?"
Rolling around, lying on your back and looking up at the ceiling, you keep thinking.
What would you think if you found out yesterday that you had God, that you could speak as if you were on par with God, and teach all sorts of things from God?
If I had known that before I left as a messenger from Diment, I would have...
"... No, if that's all, why don't you come?"
Even if you cower, you wouldn't have pulled, I think so.
To my home country... to help where I became my home country, for Soma's sake... no, maybe I can pay back my debts to Soma.
There is no reason not to come.
"... I just got here, and I can't tell you what it meant to be like this."
I have thus tried to mislead with my thoughts in my mouth, and there is still a different word going around in my head than my thoughts.
Demons to demons, demons to magic, spells to magic, wicked gods to the world, fathers, great disconnection.
The information I had just learned today was still running around indigestion.
- And most importantly, I lost to Soma without a hand or a leg.
I didn't think I could win.
Losing is just as expected.
But to that point, there was no way I could have thought that they would defeat me without even using the magic of fate.
They poked at the reality that it was far less than they could have imagined.
I wasn't distracted for a moment enough.
Focus was interrupted, which is why there is a pure lack of power.
It is such a complete defeat that there is no excuse.
For a long time, I hadn't even taken one step forward.
Or maybe it meant that Soma walked faster than that, but that's no excuse.
In Soma's role… If we're going to pay back Soma, we have to keep up with the power of Soma today.
Otherwise, instead of paying back the debt, all I see is a future that creates further debt.
In an attempt to lend wisdom, Soma and the others said they were flat, but Eina was hopeless at such a different point in time.
"Ma... that's why I'm not even going to give up and run back at all"
Is that really what we should do?
I guess so.
Keeping your feet from pulling like that is a smart choice.
But Hate and Aina were not wise.
I don't mind being an idiot, and I prefer an idiot.
If you mean to be smart about running back here because you don't want to pull your leg off, then Eina is glad she's stupid.
"... I wonder what I was mistaken about"
To my mistakes, I divulge a self-derisive bitterness.
It is true that Aina had excellent grades there at the College, and in her spare time she was trained by Sofia and became treated like a Sofia apprentice.
I finally get word from God today that those things have worked, that they have just the power to be Sophia's cauldron... but if you think about it a little, you'll see.
What happened to such a thing?
How did you think that degree would make you proud and confident?
The person who walks far in front of himself and is about to pay back his debts is that soma.
It was only natural that such things were not enough, etc.
"... switch your head, me"
As I tell myself, I remember.
Yes, I used to understand that very well.
It was only natural that I knew that I couldn't possibly extend to Soma.
And still, I was walking behind Soma.
Because there was something I could do.
Soma is not omnipotent, if not invincible.
Sometimes you look like you can do anything at first glance, but you're missing out in strange places, or you do something abruptly weird.
There were many, many things I could do.
I think, of course there is.
There's no way.
But that's it.
It is the privilege of those with strength to be able to speak of discontent.
If you can only have the strength that you can't reach, then you have to do what you can.
Besides, I'm sure... if you say it with simple strength, there shouldn't even be enough Hildegards.
There's no way she doesn't understand that.
But still, she's over there.
He stands next to Soma and walks with the same gaze.
At least, I wanted to, and I was scratching my feet.
Then... there's no reason Eina can't do it either.
"... you won't lose."
I don't tell you what I'm talking about, I don't have anything on my mind, I squeal.
I knew best myself that if I became weird conscious, it wouldn't be a lot of things, etc., that no one would tell me.
So Aina keeps her eyes closed before she thinks strange words.
Not to sleep, but to cool your head and gain vitality.
If I open my eyes like that... Well, what shall I do?
For now, though it would only be certain to go to the next room.
Thinking a little further and… much further, Eina only loosened her mouth a little bit.
"Ha..."
When Aina came back to the room she had been given, sighing, walking to the side of the bed, she slammed straight into the bed.
Thanks to the unusual softness that has graciously received Eina's body, there is almost zero impact transmitted to her body.
But now Aina can't afford to enjoy the feeling or think she doesn't deserve it.
Moving only his thighs and neck, he turned to the side, exhaling a great sigh again.
"I can't do this anymore... it's been tough knowing what I don't know"
The difficulty of learning was meant to be fully understood in the college, but apparently it was only meant to be.
Most of all, if it's the whole city, there's no class in the college where stories that could be pulled off instantly by heretical inquisitors pop up, so it's probably natural to take it for granted.
Still, the Somas didn't see me tired, so I'm not even comforted when I said that.
Is there an opportunity to be here at this rate to help in any way?
With that in mind, I accidentally leaked a third sigh.
"It's just a bit of a snag, though I knew it to some extent..."
It was to Hildegard in Soma, God, who was in the same place.
I'm a little unsure what God meant by being in the same place or something, but I guess I'm definitely God.
Only those who had the same experience knew it, but the moment they saw it, they instinctively understood it.
To such an extent that I can assure you that there is no such thing as a mistake.
Besides, Soma and the others admitted it.
Then it must have been true.
Or that's not a problem in the first place.
There may be a lot of problems if you think sacramentally, but Eina is not even a believer.
Where there was a problem, it's not what I found out.
So it's more of a problem.
"... what, begging for teachings directly from God"
One way or another, the momentum seems to be that we can create a new religion as it is.
That's unlikely, and whoever you talk to will only be treated like a makeover.
Imagine what it would be like to talk about it in Radius.
"... that? You're starting to feel surprisingly incredible..."
Everyone in my imagination had a glimpse in their faces, but if you put it in words, yeah, you finally got to that realm, something like that.
There are no negative colors there.
And even if I were on the side of being heard, I could easily imagine that I would react the same way.
Because it's that soma.
Where that degree has happened, there is no wonder.
But to put it the other way, that's because Soma was there.
If it had been just me... or if Hildegard had been with us, we wouldn't have believed it.
The look on everyone's face may have been the same shame, but what it means is, I don't believe that, something like that.
... No, but if it's soma, only soma reacts differently -
"That's why I said soma is good..."
As Aina shrugged in her own thoughts, she buried her face in the pillow.
The story is getting out of the way in the first place.
Let's fix it.
"Uh... I can't believe I'm begging you to teach directly from God, could I?"
Rolling around, lying on your back and looking up at the ceiling, you keep thinking.
What would you think if you found out yesterday that you had God, that you could speak as if you were on par with God, and teach all sorts of things from God?
If I had known that before I left as a messenger from Diment, I would have...
"... No, if that's all, why don't you come?"
Even if you cower, you wouldn't have pulled, I think so.
To my home country... to help where I became my home country, for Soma's sake... no, maybe I can pay back my debts to Soma.
There is no reason not to come.
"... I just got here, and I can't tell you what it meant to be like this."
I have thus tried to mislead with my thoughts in my mouth, and there is still a different word going around in my head than my thoughts.
Demons to demons, demons to magic, spells to magic, wicked gods to the world, fathers, great disconnection.
The information I had just learned today was still running around indigestion.
- And most importantly, I lost to Soma without a hand or a leg.
I didn't think I could win.
Losing is just as expected.
But to that point, there was no way I could have thought that they would defeat me without even using the magic of fate.
They poked at the reality that it was far less than they could have imagined.
I wasn't distracted for a moment enough.
Focus was interrupted, which is why there is a pure lack of power.
It is such a complete defeat that there is no excuse.
For a long time, I hadn't even taken one step forward.
Or maybe it meant that Soma walked faster than that, but that's no excuse.
In Soma's role… If we're going to pay back Soma, we have to keep up with the power of Soma today.
Otherwise, instead of paying back the debt, all I see is a future that creates further debt.
In an attempt to lend wisdom, Soma and the others said they were flat, but Eina was hopeless at such a different point in time.
"Ma... that's why I'm not even going to give up and run back at all"
Is that really what we should do?
I guess so.
Keeping your feet from pulling like that is a smart choice.
But Hate and Aina were not wise.
I don't mind being an idiot, and I prefer an idiot.
If you mean to be smart about running back here because you don't want to pull your leg off, then Eina is glad she's stupid.
"... I wonder what I was mistaken about"
To my mistakes, I divulge a self-derisive bitterness.
It is true that Aina had excellent grades there at the College, and in her spare time she was trained by Sofia and became treated like a Sofia apprentice.
I finally get word from God today that those things have worked, that they have just the power to be Sophia's cauldron... but if you think about it a little, you'll see.
What happened to such a thing?
How did you think that degree would make you proud and confident?
The person who walks far in front of himself and is about to pay back his debts is that soma.
It was only natural that such things were not enough, etc.
"... switch your head, me"
As I tell myself, I remember.
Yes, I used to understand that very well.
It was only natural that I knew that I couldn't possibly extend to Soma.
And still, I was walking behind Soma.
Because there was something I could do.
Soma is not omnipotent, if not invincible.
Sometimes you look like you can do anything at first glance, but you're missing out in strange places, or you do something abruptly weird.
There were many, many things I could do.
I think, of course there is.
There's no way.
But that's it.
It is the privilege of those with strength to be able to speak of discontent.
If you can only have the strength that you can't reach, then you have to do what you can.
Besides, I'm sure... if you say it with simple strength, there shouldn't even be enough Hildegards.
There's no way she doesn't understand that.
But still, she's over there.
He stands next to Soma and walks with the same gaze.
At least, I wanted to, and I was scratching my feet.
Then... there's no reason Eina can't do it either.
"... you won't lose."
I don't tell you what I'm talking about, I don't have anything on my mind, I squeal.
I knew best myself that if I became weird conscious, it wouldn't be a lot of things, etc., that no one would tell me.
So Aina keeps her eyes closed before she thinks strange words.
Not to sleep, but to cool your head and gain vitality.
If I open my eyes like that... Well, what shall I do?
For now, though it would only be certain to go to the next room.
Thinking a little further and… much further, Eina only loosened her mouth a little bit.
