Chapter 207: The End of the Night
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Chapter 207: The End of the Night
Tali didnt have any specific duties during this part of the feast. This was a time for potential Pillars to talk with those whom they might hold sway over. It was a time to be seen, and a time to bury old grudges, so that whomever rose to the position, they would not feel a need toremove any members below them.
It was not a time for Eskau, candidates or otherwise. Throughout the conversations, the candidates either stood silently behind and to the left of their masters or moved at their masters bidding so that the other ranking members of the House of Blood could examine their physique and magics.
Tali had to fight to keep a smirk off her face when one lesser member tried to pinch her bicep to test for muscle density, and he had to use body strengthening magics to make more than the slightest impression.
True, she was flexing at the time, but it showed that the purple man was properly ranked within the House structure.
Too weak to ever amount to much. Are you satisfied with my candidacy, Elder?
He had nodded quickly, not meeting her gaze before he moved off.
Her Master had given her a smile for the display. That particular member of the House had been trying to undermine her Master for nearly a year, even before her Master had returned with her and announced his intentions.
There were several other attempts to test her suitability, but they all failed utterly.
The only one of true note came from a simple Mature member of the House, her orange aura announcing her low status.
Tali had several hue folk around her at the time, two were feeling her forearms, when she felt a slight prick.
Talis gaze immediately snapped to the green skinned woman who was on her left. A small pin had been pushed through Talis skin, which was actually fairly impressive, as far as feats go.
The poison on the needle was more so. Nonetheless, it proved utterly ineffective against her enhanced biology.
The woman had a triumphant look in her eyes until Tali smiled maliciously.
With quick motions, Tali trapped the hand holding the needle and forcibly pushed it further into her own arm.
Her voice was clear, even as the others who were around her stepped back in alarm at her quick movements. You wouldnt want to deliver too small of a dose, would you?
Once the needle was mostly driven in, Tali pulled it back out, still trapped within the womans hand.
With a quick twist, Tali broke her attackers wrist. A laughably weak kick to the inside of the green womans right leg dropped her to her knees before Tali.The origin of this chapter's debut can be traced to N0v3l--B1n.
Her Master turned from his conversation with a raised eyebrow.
Everythings a test. Revered Pillar, I do not have the authority to issue judgment on this member of the House.
+Wait. Whats she doing? The threat is neutralized. It wasnt even a real threat to begin with.+
-You know whats shes going to do, Tala. Do you want to stop her?-
+II dont know.+
The Pillar turned from the group he had been talking with and took in the scene.
After a long moment, he nodded. I give you the authority.
+I cant stop herwell, I can but If we show weakness, here, it would be decidedly out of character for Tali. Even if it wasnt, either Sanguis or Be-thric would kill me for showing weakness unbefitting of an Eskau.+
-Do you even want to stop her? These people are our enemies. We can stop her, if you want. Do you want control?-
+ No.+
As Revered Sanguis turned away from her, Tali looked to her Master. He simply nodded as well, though he didnt turn away. Instead, he watched to see how she would proceed.
The woman was still kneeling before Tali, quietly whimpering as she clutched her distorted hand.
Talis voice was clear through the hall, even though most conversations didnt stop entirely. Will you reveal who put you up to this attack?
Its obviously the bird-woman, but such an accusation would be pointless. Even if this woman were her closest friend, that isnt evidence of collaboration. Tali almost didnt wait for the womans answer. Honestly, she probably shouldnt have asked. If this had been well planned, the woman would now implicate some other enemy of her associates, and Tali would have just given them that opportunity.
Blessedly, the attacker just looked up with a glare. Id rather die.
Tali gave a moments consideration. Crushing the woman would be both symbolic and demonstrative of her abilities, but by that same token, it would give away some of what she could do.
There were similar issues with using her morphic weapon. A simple solution would be best.
Wish granted.
Tali simply grabbed the womans chin and gave a quick, one-handed jerk sideways, snapping her neck.
The green woman collapsed to the side, her elegant dress falling in a rather artistic cascade around her unmoving form.
Two servants came forward stoically to remove the body, but Tali waved them away. Leave her. The remains of the feast should not be removed until the celebration is complete.
The servants withdrew, her Master nodded appreciatively, and the evening continued.
+that was brutal.+
-Effective though. It should also be a deterrent to anyone else trying something similar.-
+Oh, theres no doubt of that. I justI dont know if I could have done it like that. I dont know if I could kill someone so casually, for such a little thing, and then leave their body out for all to see.+
-...You know, tomorrow youre going to have to kill at least a few of the candidates.-
+Yes, but my life will be on the line, then.+
Once or twice during the feast, while glancing through the crowd, Tali saw odd motion from near some of the other candidates. The movements could have indicated attempts on the lives of her opponents, but she didnt pay too much attention, regardless. If assassins succeeded, shed have fewer competitors, but if they succeeded, those candidates would never have been real competition for her in any event. So, in the end, it was just meaningless posturing.
It was nearly midnight when Revered Sanguis called an end to the feast and made the pivotal announcement. I have heard all the potential Pillars petitions, he paused to grin at the alliteration, before he continued, his smile still in evidence, And I am pleased to announce that I can honor them all.
The Pillar paused, then glanced towards Tali and grimaced. One thing, first: As one of the candidates is a collared, I must state that there will be absolutely no tampering, or interacting, with that collar under any circumstances. I will immediately kill anyone who even attempts it.
A wave of mutters passed through the hall, and Tali fought the desire to hang her head in shame.
+Yes, be ashamed for being a slave. That makes sense.+
-I wish that was why she felt shame.-
-Thats why I pretend most of the time. What a polite fiction we maintain, eh?-
Tala glowered at the ceiling. Anyways. I know you havent restored some key parts of my memories.
-I wasnt trying to hide that fact from you.-
Then why not give them back?
-Because worrying about certain things would distract you.-
So, I have people that I should be worried about? But you think I cant afford the distractions?
-Yes, and companions.-
Wait some of them arent people?
Alat was silent for a long moment. -I assume you are against me modifying your memory of this exchange?-
Not funny, Alat.
-Yeah- Alat did sound remorseful. -That was a bit in bad taste.-
Even so, bad jokes will not distract me.
-Tomorrow will be difficult enough without you worrying about things you cant affect. Let me return them to you, tomorrow night.-
But if I ask for the memories back now?
-Then, I will give them back, but I feel like that is not wise.-
Tala considered that for a moment before asking another question. So, you really think I shouldnt remember?
-Repression is kind of our thing.-
Well, Id say look at how thats worked out. But I dont actually know, now do I? I just feel like it hasnt worked out well, with no memories supporting it. Do you know how infuriating that is? How terrifying? You are keeping me from being fully me, Alat. Youre acting more like Be-thric than you are acting like me.
-Thats not fair.- The alternate interface sounded genuinely hurt by the comparison.
Isnt it, though? Youre manipulating my mind to get me to act in the way you want me to. Its not to the same extent, obviously, but it is more like him than it is like me.
-II did not think of it like that.- Alats voice was incredibly small within Talas head.
Yeah I assumed you didnt. Youve never had any ill will towards me, nor malicious intent.
-Im sorryHere.-
Suddenly, Tala jerked, memories within her head unlocking.
She gasped. Oh.
Tears filled her eyes, and she felt a sob shudder through her. She couldnt afford to be loud. There shouldnt be anyone nearby, but there was always the chance.
My siblings. She felt tears start to pour from her eyes, down past her temples an onto the pillow behind her head. Nalac and Illie are at the Academy, they were asking for my input on their fundamental understandings. I never got a chance to reply. She had missives from some of her other siblings, but she hadnt been talking with anyone as much as those two and Nalac more than Illie.
Mistress Odera. Will I come back to find her gone? Her Archon star finally complete and her mortal form shed in favor of a fount?
Lyn is probably just fine, though Im sure shes worried sick.
Rane was doing a loop of the cities on his own. I know I dont have the right count of days, but that should be finishing up soon, if he continued after I went missing He has to know Im gone, right? Mistress Odera would have told him.
She sat up and blew her nose, her mind fixating on one friend in particular. Terry? He was near me when Be-thrictook me. Is hedid Terry die?
Alat had no response. Neither they, nor Tali, had memories of Talas capture. Alat had been keeping their mental map up to date in the Archive, but when they were taken, that was cut off. Alat, herself, was cut off.
The last thing they could recall was Be-thric saying Found you.
Whats happening with all of them?
-I dont know, and we cant know. But, Tali has seen a terror bird occasionally in the city. I dont know if its Terry, after all Terror birds arent that uncommon either as pets or pests.-
Tala easily called up the memories from Talis experiences, seeing increases in the number of terror birds around the city every so often.
The coloring didnt look quite right to be Terry, but that might have been her fear talking. After all, Tali had never really gotten a good look, she had only noticed it because on those days there seemed to be more terror birds about than usual.
Tala shuddered, wiping at her eyes.
-So?-
II think its better to remember. Its better to know what I need to get back for.
-Huh. It seems Imisunderstood what your reaction would be.- Something in Alats tone caught Talas attention.
Alat? Whats wrong?
-II did not realize that Id drifted so far from you already.-
We are a bit distinct. And not just because you were hiding bits of myself. She didnt intend the words as an attack, so Alat didnt take it that way.
-We are.-
Even with my own memories, you are a passenger. Watching through my eyes is not the same as taking the action. That difference shapes us differently.
Alat seemed to perk up a bit. -It is amazing how our experiences shape us, isnt it.-
Indeed it is. Tala blew her nose one last time, feeling complete for the first time in well, six months or so.
She needed rest. Her mind needed sleep to reorganize and process through all that had happened. It was time for the end of the night. I think I need to sleep.
-That is probably wise, yes. Good night, Tala.-
Good night, Alat.
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Chapter 207: The End of the Night
Tali didnt have any specific duties during this part of the feast. This was a time for potential Pillars to talk with those whom they might hold sway over. It was a time to be seen, and a time to bury old grudges, so that whomever rose to the position, they would not feel a need toremove any members below them.
It was not a time for Eskau, candidates or otherwise. Throughout the conversations, the candidates either stood silently behind and to the left of their masters or moved at their masters bidding so that the other ranking members of the House of Blood could examine their physique and magics.
Tali had to fight to keep a smirk off her face when one lesser member tried to pinch her bicep to test for muscle density, and he had to use body strengthening magics to make more than the slightest impression.
True, she was flexing at the time, but it showed that the purple man was properly ranked within the House structure.
Too weak to ever amount to much. Are you satisfied with my candidacy, Elder?
He had nodded quickly, not meeting her gaze before he moved off.
Her Master had given her a smile for the display. That particular member of the House had been trying to undermine her Master for nearly a year, even before her Master had returned with her and announced his intentions.
There were several other attempts to test her suitability, but they all failed utterly.
The only one of true note came from a simple Mature member of the House, her orange aura announcing her low status.
Tali had several hue folk around her at the time, two were feeling her forearms, when she felt a slight prick.
Talis gaze immediately snapped to the green skinned woman who was on her left. A small pin had been pushed through Talis skin, which was actually fairly impressive, as far as feats go.
The poison on the needle was more so. Nonetheless, it proved utterly ineffective against her enhanced biology.
The woman had a triumphant look in her eyes until Tali smiled maliciously.
With quick motions, Tali trapped the hand holding the needle and forcibly pushed it further into her own arm.
Her voice was clear, even as the others who were around her stepped back in alarm at her quick movements. You wouldnt want to deliver too small of a dose, would you?
Once the needle was mostly driven in, Tali pulled it back out, still trapped within the womans hand.
With a quick twist, Tali broke her attackers wrist. A laughably weak kick to the inside of the green womans right leg dropped her to her knees before Tali.The origin of this chapter's debut can be traced to N0v3l--B1n.
Her Master turned from his conversation with a raised eyebrow.
Everythings a test. Revered Pillar, I do not have the authority to issue judgment on this member of the House.
+Wait. Whats she doing? The threat is neutralized. It wasnt even a real threat to begin with.+
-You know whats shes going to do, Tala. Do you want to stop her?-
+II dont know.+
The Pillar turned from the group he had been talking with and took in the scene.
After a long moment, he nodded. I give you the authority.
+I cant stop herwell, I can but If we show weakness, here, it would be decidedly out of character for Tali. Even if it wasnt, either Sanguis or Be-thric would kill me for showing weakness unbefitting of an Eskau.+
-Do you even want to stop her? These people are our enemies. We can stop her, if you want. Do you want control?-
+ No.+
As Revered Sanguis turned away from her, Tali looked to her Master. He simply nodded as well, though he didnt turn away. Instead, he watched to see how she would proceed.
The woman was still kneeling before Tali, quietly whimpering as she clutched her distorted hand.
Talis voice was clear through the hall, even though most conversations didnt stop entirely. Will you reveal who put you up to this attack?
Its obviously the bird-woman, but such an accusation would be pointless. Even if this woman were her closest friend, that isnt evidence of collaboration. Tali almost didnt wait for the womans answer. Honestly, she probably shouldnt have asked. If this had been well planned, the woman would now implicate some other enemy of her associates, and Tali would have just given them that opportunity.
Blessedly, the attacker just looked up with a glare. Id rather die.
Tali gave a moments consideration. Crushing the woman would be both symbolic and demonstrative of her abilities, but by that same token, it would give away some of what she could do.
There were similar issues with using her morphic weapon. A simple solution would be best.
Wish granted.
Tali simply grabbed the womans chin and gave a quick, one-handed jerk sideways, snapping her neck.
The green woman collapsed to the side, her elegant dress falling in a rather artistic cascade around her unmoving form.
Two servants came forward stoically to remove the body, but Tali waved them away. Leave her. The remains of the feast should not be removed until the celebration is complete.
The servants withdrew, her Master nodded appreciatively, and the evening continued.
+that was brutal.+
-Effective though. It should also be a deterrent to anyone else trying something similar.-
+Oh, theres no doubt of that. I justI dont know if I could have done it like that. I dont know if I could kill someone so casually, for such a little thing, and then leave their body out for all to see.+
-...You know, tomorrow youre going to have to kill at least a few of the candidates.-
+Yes, but my life will be on the line, then.+
Once or twice during the feast, while glancing through the crowd, Tali saw odd motion from near some of the other candidates. The movements could have indicated attempts on the lives of her opponents, but she didnt pay too much attention, regardless. If assassins succeeded, shed have fewer competitors, but if they succeeded, those candidates would never have been real competition for her in any event. So, in the end, it was just meaningless posturing.
It was nearly midnight when Revered Sanguis called an end to the feast and made the pivotal announcement. I have heard all the potential Pillars petitions, he paused to grin at the alliteration, before he continued, his smile still in evidence, And I am pleased to announce that I can honor them all.
The Pillar paused, then glanced towards Tali and grimaced. One thing, first: As one of the candidates is a collared, I must state that there will be absolutely no tampering, or interacting, with that collar under any circumstances. I will immediately kill anyone who even attempts it.
A wave of mutters passed through the hall, and Tali fought the desire to hang her head in shame.
+Yes, be ashamed for being a slave. That makes sense.+
-I wish that was why she felt shame.-
-Thats why I pretend most of the time. What a polite fiction we maintain, eh?-
Tala glowered at the ceiling. Anyways. I know you havent restored some key parts of my memories.
-I wasnt trying to hide that fact from you.-
Then why not give them back?
-Because worrying about certain things would distract you.-
So, I have people that I should be worried about? But you think I cant afford the distractions?
-Yes, and companions.-
Wait some of them arent people?
Alat was silent for a long moment. -I assume you are against me modifying your memory of this exchange?-
Not funny, Alat.
-Yeah- Alat did sound remorseful. -That was a bit in bad taste.-
Even so, bad jokes will not distract me.
-Tomorrow will be difficult enough without you worrying about things you cant affect. Let me return them to you, tomorrow night.-
But if I ask for the memories back now?
-Then, I will give them back, but I feel like that is not wise.-
Tala considered that for a moment before asking another question. So, you really think I shouldnt remember?
-Repression is kind of our thing.-
Well, Id say look at how thats worked out. But I dont actually know, now do I? I just feel like it hasnt worked out well, with no memories supporting it. Do you know how infuriating that is? How terrifying? You are keeping me from being fully me, Alat. Youre acting more like Be-thric than you are acting like me.
-Thats not fair.- The alternate interface sounded genuinely hurt by the comparison.
Isnt it, though? Youre manipulating my mind to get me to act in the way you want me to. Its not to the same extent, obviously, but it is more like him than it is like me.
-II did not think of it like that.- Alats voice was incredibly small within Talas head.
Yeah I assumed you didnt. Youve never had any ill will towards me, nor malicious intent.
-Im sorryHere.-
Suddenly, Tala jerked, memories within her head unlocking.
She gasped. Oh.
Tears filled her eyes, and she felt a sob shudder through her. She couldnt afford to be loud. There shouldnt be anyone nearby, but there was always the chance.
My siblings. She felt tears start to pour from her eyes, down past her temples an onto the pillow behind her head. Nalac and Illie are at the Academy, they were asking for my input on their fundamental understandings. I never got a chance to reply. She had missives from some of her other siblings, but she hadnt been talking with anyone as much as those two and Nalac more than Illie.
Mistress Odera. Will I come back to find her gone? Her Archon star finally complete and her mortal form shed in favor of a fount?
Lyn is probably just fine, though Im sure shes worried sick.
Rane was doing a loop of the cities on his own. I know I dont have the right count of days, but that should be finishing up soon, if he continued after I went missing He has to know Im gone, right? Mistress Odera would have told him.
She sat up and blew her nose, her mind fixating on one friend in particular. Terry? He was near me when Be-thrictook me. Is hedid Terry die?
Alat had no response. Neither they, nor Tali, had memories of Talas capture. Alat had been keeping their mental map up to date in the Archive, but when they were taken, that was cut off. Alat, herself, was cut off.
The last thing they could recall was Be-thric saying Found you.
Whats happening with all of them?
-I dont know, and we cant know. But, Tali has seen a terror bird occasionally in the city. I dont know if its Terry, after all Terror birds arent that uncommon either as pets or pests.-
Tala easily called up the memories from Talis experiences, seeing increases in the number of terror birds around the city every so often.
The coloring didnt look quite right to be Terry, but that might have been her fear talking. After all, Tali had never really gotten a good look, she had only noticed it because on those days there seemed to be more terror birds about than usual.
Tala shuddered, wiping at her eyes.
-So?-
II think its better to remember. Its better to know what I need to get back for.
-Huh. It seems Imisunderstood what your reaction would be.- Something in Alats tone caught Talas attention.
Alat? Whats wrong?
-II did not realize that Id drifted so far from you already.-
We are a bit distinct. And not just because you were hiding bits of myself. She didnt intend the words as an attack, so Alat didnt take it that way.
-We are.-
Even with my own memories, you are a passenger. Watching through my eyes is not the same as taking the action. That difference shapes us differently.
Alat seemed to perk up a bit. -It is amazing how our experiences shape us, isnt it.-
Indeed it is. Tala blew her nose one last time, feeling complete for the first time in well, six months or so.
She needed rest. Her mind needed sleep to reorganize and process through all that had happened. It was time for the end of the night. I think I need to sleep.
-That is probably wise, yes. Good night, Tala.-
Good night, Alat.
Chapter 207: The End of the NightTali didnt have any specific duties during this part of the feast. This was a time for potential Pillars to talk with those whom they might hold sway over. It was a time to be seen, and a time to bury old grudges, so that whomever rose to the position, they would not feel a need toremove any members below them.It was not a time for Eskau, candidates or otherwise. Throughout the conversations, the candidates either stood silently behind and to the left of their masters or moved at their masters bidding so that the other ranking members of the House of Blood could examine their physique and magics.Tali had to fight to keep a smirk off her face when one lesser member tried to pinch her bicep to test for muscle density, and he had to use body strengthening magics to make more than the slightest impression.True, she was flexing at the time, but it showed that the purple man was properly ranked within the House structure.Too weak to ever amount to much. Are you satisfied with my candidacy, Elder?He had nodded quickly, not meeting her gaze before he moved off.Her Master had given her a smile for the display. That particular member of the House had been trying to undermine her Master for nearly a year, even before her Master had returned with her and announced his intentions.There were several other attempts to test her suitability, but they all failed utterly.The only one of true note came from a simple Mature member of the House, her orange aura announcing her low status.Tali had several hue folk around her at the time, two were feeling her forearms, when she felt a slight prick.Talis gaze immediately snapped to the green skinned woman who was on her left. A small pin had been pushed through Talis skin, which was actually fairly impressive, as far as feats go.The poison on the needle was more so. Nonetheless, it proved utterly ineffective against her enhanced biology.The woman had a triumphant look in her eyes until Tali smiled maliciously.With quick motions, Tali trapped the hand holding the needle and forcibly pushed it further into her own arm.Her voice was clear, even as the others who were around her stepped back in alarm at her quick movements. You wouldnt want to deliver too small of a dose, would you?Once the needle was mostly driven in, Tali pulled it back out, still trapped within the womans hand.With a quick twist, Tali broke her attackers wrist. A laughably weak kick to the inside of the green womans right leg dropped her to her knees before Tali.The origin of this chapter's debut can be traced to N0v3l--B1n.Her Master turned from his conversation with a raised eyebrow.Everythings a test. Revered Pillar, I do not have the authority to issue judgment on this member of the House.+Wait. Whats she doing? The threat is neutralized. It wasnt even a real threat to begin with.+-You know whats shes going to do, Tala. Do you want to stop her?-+II dont know.+The Pillar turned from the group he had been talking with and took in the scene.After a long moment, he nodded. I give you the authority.+I cant stop herwell, I can but If we show weakness, here, it would be decidedly out of character for Tali. Even if it wasnt, either Sanguis or Be-thric would kill me for showing weakness unbefitting of an Eskau.+-Do you even want to stop her? These people are our enemies. We can stop her, if you want. Do you want control?-+ No.+As Revered Sanguis turned away from her, Tali looked to her Master. He simply nodded as well, though he didnt turn away. Instead, he watched to see how she would proceed.The woman was still kneeling before Tali, quietly whimpering as she clutched her distorted hand.Talis voice was clear through the hall, even though most conversations didnt stop entirely. Will you reveal who put you up to this attack?Its obviously the bird-woman, but such an accusation would be pointless. Even if this woman were her closest friend, that isnt evidence of collaboration. Tali almost didnt wait for the womans answer. Honestly, she probably shouldnt have asked. If this had been well planned, the woman would now implicate some other enemy of her associates, and Tali would have just given them that opportunity.Blessedly, the attacker just looked up with a glare. Id rather die.Tali gave a moments consideration. Crushing the woman would be both symbolic and demonstrative of her abilities, but by that same token, it would give away some of what she could do.There were similar issues with using her morphic weapon. A simple solution would be best.Wish granted.Tali simply grabbed the womans chin and gave a quick, one-handed jerk sideways, snapping her neck.The green woman collapsed to the side, her elegant dress falling in a rather artistic cascade around her unmoving form.Two servants came forward stoically to remove the body, but Tali waved them away. Leave her. The remains of the feast should not be removed until the celebration is complete.The servants withdrew, her Master nodded appreciatively, and the evening continued.+that was brutal.+-Effective though. It should also be a deterrent to anyone else trying something similar.-+Oh, theres no doubt of that. I justI dont know if I could have done it like that. I dont know if I could kill someone so casually, for such a little thing, and then leave their body out for all to see.+-...You know, tomorrow youre going to have to kill at least a few of the candidates.-+Yes, but my life will be on the line, then.+Once or twice during the feast, while glancing through the crowd, Tali saw odd motion from near some of the other candidates. The movements could have indicated attempts on the lives of her opponents, but she didnt pay too much attention, regardless. If assassins succeeded, shed have fewer competitors, but if they succeeded, those candidates would never have been real competition for her in any event. So, in the end, it was just meaningless posturing.It was nearly midnight when Revered Sanguis called an end to the feast and made the pivotal announcement. I have heard all the potential Pillars petitions, he paused to grin at the alliteration, before he continued, his smile still in evidence, And I am pleased to announce that I can honor them all.The Pillar paused, then glanced towards Tali and grimaced. One thing, first: As one of the candidates is a collared, I must state that there will be absolutely no tampering, or interacting, with that collar under any circumstances. I will immediately kill anyone who even attempts it.A wave of mutters passed through the hall, and Tali fought the desire to hang her head in shame.+Yes, be ashamed for being a slave. That makes sense.+-I wish that was why she felt shame.--Thats why I pretend most of the time. What a polite fiction we maintain, eh?-Tala glowered at the ceiling. Anyways. I know you havent restored some key parts of my memories.-I wasnt trying to hide that fact from you.-Then why not give them back?-Because worrying about certain things would distract you.-So, I have people that I should be worried about? But you think I cant afford the distractions?-Yes, and companions.-Wait some of them arent people?Alat was silent for a long moment. -I assume you are against me modifying your memory of this exchange?-Not funny, Alat.-Yeah- Alat did sound remorseful. -That was a bit in bad taste.-Even so, bad jokes will not distract me.-Tomorrow will be difficult enough without you worrying about things you cant affect. Let me return them to you, tomorrow night.-But if I ask for the memories back now?-Then, I will give them back, but I feel like that is not wise.-Tala considered that for a moment before asking another question. So, you really think I shouldnt remember?-Repression is kind of our thing.-Well, Id say look at how thats worked out. But I dont actually know, now do I? I just feel like it hasnt worked out well, with no memories supporting it. Do you know how infuriating that is? How terrifying? You are keeping me from being fully me, Alat. Youre acting more like Be-thric than you are acting like me.-Thats not fair.- The alternate interface sounded genuinely hurt by the comparison.Isnt it, though? Youre manipulating my mind to get me to act in the way you want me to. Its not to the same extent, obviously, but it is more like him than it is like me.-II did not think of it like that.- Alats voice was incredibly small within Talas head.Yeah I assumed you didnt. Youve never had any ill will towards me, nor malicious intent.-Im sorryHere.-Suddenly, Tala jerked, memories within her head unlocking.She gasped. Oh.Tears filled her eyes, and she felt a sob shudder through her. She couldnt afford to be loud. There shouldnt be anyone nearby, but there was always the chance.My siblings. She felt tears start to pour from her eyes, down past her temples an onto the pillow behind her head. Nalac and Illie are at the Academy, they were asking for my input on their fundamental understandings. I never got a chance to reply. She had missives from some of her other siblings, but she hadnt been talking with anyone as much as those two and Nalac more than Illie.Mistress Odera. Will I come back to find her gone? Her Archon star finally complete and her mortal form shed in favor of a fount?Lyn is probably just fine, though Im sure shes worried sick.Rane was doing a loop of the cities on his own. I know I dont have the right count of days, but that should be finishing up soon, if he continued after I went missing He has to know Im gone, right? Mistress Odera would have told him.She sat up and blew her nose, her mind fixating on one friend in particular. Terry? He was near me when Be-thrictook me. Is hedid Terry die?Alat had no response. Neither they, nor Tali, had memories of Talas capture. Alat had been keeping their mental map up to date in the Archive, but when they were taken, that was cut off. Alat, herself, was cut off.The last thing they could recall was Be-thric saying Found you.Whats happening with all of them?-I dont know, and we cant know. But, Tali has seen a terror bird occasionally in the city. I dont know if its Terry, after all Terror birds arent that uncommon either as pets or pests.-Tala easily called up the memories from Talis experiences, seeing increases in the number of terror birds around the city every so often.The coloring didnt look quite right to be Terry, but that might have been her fear talking. After all, Tali had never really gotten a good look, she had only noticed it because on those days there seemed to be more terror birds about than usual.Tala shuddered, wiping at her eyes.-So?-II think its better to remember. Its better to know what I need to get back for.-Huh. It seems Imisunderstood what your reaction would be.- Something in Alats tone caught Talas attention.Alat? Whats wrong?-II did not realize that Id drifted so far from you already.-We are a bit distinct. And not just because you were hiding bits of myself. She didnt intend the words as an attack, so Alat didnt take it that way.-We are.-Even with my own memories, you are a passenger. Watching through my eyes is not the same as taking the action. That difference shapes us differently.Alat seemed to perk up a bit. -It is amazing how our experiences shape us, isnt it.-Indeed it is. Tala blew her nose one last time, feeling complete for the first time in well, six months or so.She needed rest. Her mind needed sleep to reorganize and process through all that had happened. It was time for the end of the night. I think I need to sleep.-That is probably wise, yes. Good night, Tala.-Good night, Alat.
