Chapter 361: Contemplative Silence
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Chapter 361: Contemplative Silence
Tala spent the next few minutes conveying what shed seen to Master Aman, Mistress Spiora, and Rane who had been waiting while she delved stoneward.
Alat reached out to Mistress Ingrit, and the Librarian assured them that the creatures were known, and generally not dangerous.
That information seemed to frustrate Mistress Spiora and Master Aman.
The man shook his head ruefully, That would have been good to know, but I suppose weve not only never inquired about creatures living away from our layer of reality, nothing weve done would have been done differently if we did have the knowledge.
Mistress Spiora sighed. There is too much information on any subject to garner expertise with it all. Even so, the fault lies with us for not inquiring more broadly. We will remedy that.
Rane didnt have much to add, as made sense, and he didnt seem to feel the need to interject. So, he remained mostly silent as the three Refined discussed various things.
Eventually, Tala decided that she needed more information before she did any further experiments.
-For what its worth, Mistress Ingrit expressed her apologies for not mentioning the creatures. They are generally non-hostile, and even when they act aggressively, all that they do is pull off minute amounts of power. Again, across the board they are not considered dangerous or even bothersome, just oddities.-
Because Mages dont work with iron, they wouldnt have the same issue we did.
-Precisely. Mistress Ingrit has updated their records with that added information.-
Rane and Tala bid the Refined couple goodbye after thanking them.
While they hadnt been necessary in order to save her, Tala had felt better for having had them with her, just in case.
-Mistress Ingrit really does seem to feel bad about what happened. She wanted to assure you that the city defenses heavily discourage the creatures from coming through the superficial layer. It doesnt happen often, and they dont spend enough time to be harmful to anyone.-
As they came back out into the street in front of the Archon Compound, Rane turned to Tala. You know, as exciting as that was, it really didnt take that long.
Tala glanced up at the sky, where the sun was still quite a bit above the horizon. Oh, yeah. Huh.
Is there anything else that you want or need to do?
She thought for a long moment. I had some questions for Master Boma Let me send him an Archive message.
-Done.- Alat was only silent for a moment before continuing. -Oh. Hes a bit cross.-
Oh? Tala frowned, and she and Rane stepped to the side of the street to not be in the way.
-Yeah. He says hes right in the middle of something, and such a question will take at least a day or two of research. He also is frustrated that he hadnt thought of that idea, himself, though I got that from subtext. He was ranting a bit, likely due to the haste of his reply.-
Did you ask what we talked about?
-Yes, I asked him if soul-binding an entity with a dimensional space characteristic causes the same issues as soul-binding a pure inanimate storage.-
Well, if he doesnt know the answer, we can do our own research Tala considered for a moment. Can you ask Mistress Ingrit?
Alat laughed within Talas head at the contradiction, but she still did as Tala had requested. -Done.-
Tala turned back to Rane who had been waiting patiently. Though, he had pulled out his Archive slate and was reading through something as shed been trying to coordinate things. Well, it seems like Ive nothing pressing at the moment. It might be nice to swing through and say Hi to Mistress Holly, though.
He looked up and smiled, tucking away his slate. That could work, sure. Its a bit anti-climactic. We go into an underground testing room, learn about creatures who live all around us, possibly flitting through us at any given moment to drain bits of power and now were going to go visit a friend.
Tala chuckled. Yeah I was hoping to test a few more things, then pull off a fun combination of what I had learned at the end, but I dont really want to go diving in infested waters again so soon. It seems like my iron will be a detriment this time around.
He nodded, but clearly had a question in his eyes.
Dont get me wrong, as soon as I can get my head around it, Ill sequester my iron and try again but Then, she hesitated. Wait Rust That would just be putting it around me in the dimension of magic, which is part of no, wait. It would be around Flow, and I can just tuck Flow into Kit.
Rane grinned. It sounds like youre still thinking through all that you learned. It also sounds like youve learned a few things that I dont know, yet? Do you want to go find somewhere to sit and think for a bit before we drop through Mistress Hollys workshop?
She felt herself relax at the suggestion. You know, that would be really nice. I think I remember a tea place a few blocks from here in the right direction.
He raised an eyebrow, giving a small, mischievous smile. You think you remember?
She waved him off, though she felt a smile tug at her own lips as well. Its a turn of phrase. Its this way.
They spent about an hour enjoying a couple of pots of tea in companionable silence while Tala and Alat processed through all that they had seen and experienced during their experiment.
Tala did take the time to tell Rane what shed learned that he hadnt been aware of before bouncing a few ideas off of him, but whenever she fell back into contemplative silence, he easily left her to it.
As they finished the last of their tea, he looked to her questioningly, and she nodded with a smile. Thank you. I think Im ready.
They thanked their servers and departed, heading toward Mistress Hollys workshop.
As they entered the incredibly familiar building, Tala felt the expected tickle of magic interfacing with Alats inscriptions.
-Oh, that tingles. Huh. I didnt think its been that long since we were here but-
Child! Mistress Hollys voice resounded from the back.
The receptionistlikely yet another aspiring Inscriptionist who probably wouldnt be around for very longsighed and gestured for them to head on back. She clearly knows you and wishes to see you.
Tala opened her mouth, then closed it and shook her head. As you wish, then.
The Inscriptionist turned on Rane. Now that thats out of the way: Youre here; lets check up on you for your readiness to Refine.
Ranes eyes widened, and he stood up hurriedly. Yes please. He glanced toward Tala. Do you mind?
Tala smiled and shook her head. Of course not! Thats pretty important to get right, and youve been more than patient with me today.
Thus, Tala was the one who ended up sitting in the chair while Rane was tested over the next couple of hours.
When they were done, Mistress Holly shooed them out, simply telling Tala that shed have a proper analysis of her inscriptionsand how they were meshing with her changing mental models and natural magicsin a few days.
Oh, you can give me access to that when its ready?
Mistress Holly raised one eyebrow once again and simply waited.
Tala cleared her throat. Ill be back in a few days, I suppose.
That sounds excellent. Goodbye now.
Rane and Tala left, exiting onto the lit streets in the dark, early-winter evening.
They headed toward Lyns house, and only walked in silence for about a block before Tala spoke up. So, just about two months before your first session?"
He nodded. "Yeah. Honestly, while Im excited, Im also a bit nervous. My magics werent very physically oriented, and now I have all these inscriptions slowly changing me, and the actual Refining will do even more, building on the foundation those workings are establishing.
What is your concern?
He shrugged, clearly feeling a little self-conscious.
She lightly bumped him with her shoulder. What is it, Rane? You can tell me.
He smiled, glancing her way before returning his eyes to the street ahead.
After a moments silence, Tala added, But you dont have to say anything if you dont want to.
I know. He looked up to the sky, then shook his head. Its silly.
If its concerning you, it matters, even if you think its silly.
He huffed a laugh. Thats kind.
Thats true.
They walked another block or so before he broke the silence, This is me. This is who I am. Theres good and bad. I have capacities, strengths and weaknesses. Im not perfect, but Im me.
Tala nodded, not interjecting verbally, somehow knowing that that would cause him to close up.
Refining will change me. I will no longer be me, not as I think of myself.
She frowned, but he clearly wasnt done, so she simply waited.
After a long moment, he continued, Im not married. He colored, not looking her way. Ideally, I will be at some point, but Im not married now. What if
He was quiet for a long time.
They were almost to Lyns house before he barely whispered, What if whoever I marry wouldnt have married me as I am now? What if they only want to be with me because Ive changed?
Tala frowned but didnt answer immediately.
Ranes face was a rather noticeably bright red, but he seemed to have said what he was going to say, and that was relieving some of his embarrassment.
As they stopped in the small front yard, Tala turned to him, Should a child remain a child, for fear that the woman he eventually marries wouldnt love him as the child he once was?
What? Rane frowned. Are you saying that the un-Refined are as foolish and naive as a child?
What? No. Tala shook her head. Not at all. Its to make a point.
He scrunched his face, then shrugged. Well, then I suppose not? A man must grow up in order for marriage to be appropriate. Therefore, he is leaving that childhood behind. He is no longer a child. So, his future wifes opinion about his past only matters in that context. He shouldnt care if shed love him as he was when he was younger or not, because he will never be like that again.
Tala smiled. See? You already took it to the logical conclusion.
He huffed, grimacing slightly, I know it doesnt make sense, but It still doesnt feel great.
Oh. She looked down. Im sorry. I wasnt trying to say you were being foolish. I was just trying to help.
He shrugged one shoulder, not meeting her eyes. I know. I also know its silly, but I still feel it. He let out a long breath. It sometimes feels like I feel a lot of silly things.
As he turned back toward Lyns door, he was stopped by Tala placing her hand on his shoulder, Rane. It isnt silly to have concerns. No matter how much sense they make to someone else. How you feel matters. Let me know if I can help, otherwise please know that Ill be here, regardless.
He smiled tiredly, but her words did seem to help, even if only just a bit. I know. I really do. Thank you, Tala.
She let her hand fall back to her side, and they took the last few steps up to Lyns door and knocked.
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Chapter 361: Contemplative Silence
Tala spent the next few minutes conveying what shed seen to Master Aman, Mistress Spiora, and Rane who had been waiting while she delved stoneward.
Alat reached out to Mistress Ingrit, and the Librarian assured them that the creatures were known, and generally not dangerous.
That information seemed to frustrate Mistress Spiora and Master Aman.
The man shook his head ruefully, That would have been good to know, but I suppose weve not only never inquired about creatures living away from our layer of reality, nothing weve done would have been done differently if we did have the knowledge.
Mistress Spiora sighed. There is too much information on any subject to garner expertise with it all. Even so, the fault lies with us for not inquiring more broadly. We will remedy that.
Rane didnt have much to add, as made sense, and he didnt seem to feel the need to interject. So, he remained mostly silent as the three Refined discussed various things.
Eventually, Tala decided that she needed more information before she did any further experiments.
-For what its worth, Mistress Ingrit expressed her apologies for not mentioning the creatures. They are generally non-hostile, and even when they act aggressively, all that they do is pull off minute amounts of power. Again, across the board they are not considered dangerous or even bothersome, just oddities.-
Because Mages dont work with iron, they wouldnt have the same issue we did.
-Precisely. Mistress Ingrit has updated their records with that added information.-
Rane and Tala bid the Refined couple goodbye after thanking them.
While they hadnt been necessary in order to save her, Tala had felt better for having had them with her, just in case.
-Mistress Ingrit really does seem to feel bad about what happened. She wanted to assure you that the city defenses heavily discourage the creatures from coming through the superficial layer. It doesnt happen often, and they dont spend enough time to be harmful to anyone.-
As they came back out into the street in front of the Archon Compound, Rane turned to Tala. You know, as exciting as that was, it really didnt take that long.
Tala glanced up at the sky, where the sun was still quite a bit above the horizon. Oh, yeah. Huh.
Is there anything else that you want or need to do?
She thought for a long moment. I had some questions for Master Boma Let me send him an Archive message.
-Done.- Alat was only silent for a moment before continuing. -Oh. Hes a bit cross.-
Oh? Tala frowned, and she and Rane stepped to the side of the street to not be in the way.
-Yeah. He says hes right in the middle of something, and such a question will take at least a day or two of research. He also is frustrated that he hadnt thought of that idea, himself, though I got that from subtext. He was ranting a bit, likely due to the haste of his reply.-
Did you ask what we talked about?
-Yes, I asked him if soul-binding an entity with a dimensional space characteristic causes the same issues as soul-binding a pure inanimate storage.-
Well, if he doesnt know the answer, we can do our own research Tala considered for a moment. Can you ask Mistress Ingrit?
Alat laughed within Talas head at the contradiction, but she still did as Tala had requested. -Done.-
Tala turned back to Rane who had been waiting patiently. Though, he had pulled out his Archive slate and was reading through something as shed been trying to coordinate things. Well, it seems like Ive nothing pressing at the moment. It might be nice to swing through and say Hi to Mistress Holly, though.
He looked up and smiled, tucking away his slate. That could work, sure. Its a bit anti-climactic. We go into an underground testing room, learn about creatures who live all around us, possibly flitting through us at any given moment to drain bits of power and now were going to go visit a friend.
Tala chuckled. Yeah I was hoping to test a few more things, then pull off a fun combination of what I had learned at the end, but I dont really want to go diving in infested waters again so soon. It seems like my iron will be a detriment this time around.
He nodded, but clearly had a question in his eyes.
Dont get me wrong, as soon as I can get my head around it, Ill sequester my iron and try again but Then, she hesitated. Wait Rust That would just be putting it around me in the dimension of magic, which is part of no, wait. It would be around Flow, and I can just tuck Flow into Kit.
Rane grinned. It sounds like youre still thinking through all that you learned. It also sounds like youve learned a few things that I dont know, yet? Do you want to go find somewhere to sit and think for a bit before we drop through Mistress Hollys workshop?
She felt herself relax at the suggestion. You know, that would be really nice. I think I remember a tea place a few blocks from here in the right direction.
He raised an eyebrow, giving a small, mischievous smile. You think you remember?
She waved him off, though she felt a smile tug at her own lips as well. Its a turn of phrase. Its this way.
They spent about an hour enjoying a couple of pots of tea in companionable silence while Tala and Alat processed through all that they had seen and experienced during their experiment.
Tala did take the time to tell Rane what shed learned that he hadnt been aware of before bouncing a few ideas off of him, but whenever she fell back into contemplative silence, he easily left her to it.
As they finished the last of their tea, he looked to her questioningly, and she nodded with a smile. Thank you. I think Im ready.
They thanked their servers and departed, heading toward Mistress Hollys workshop.
As they entered the incredibly familiar building, Tala felt the expected tickle of magic interfacing with Alats inscriptions.
-Oh, that tingles. Huh. I didnt think its been that long since we were here but-
Child! Mistress Hollys voice resounded from the back.
The receptionistlikely yet another aspiring Inscriptionist who probably wouldnt be around for very longsighed and gestured for them to head on back. She clearly knows you and wishes to see you.
Tala opened her mouth, then closed it and shook her head. As you wish, then.
The Inscriptionist turned on Rane. Now that thats out of the way: Youre here; lets check up on you for your readiness to Refine.
Ranes eyes widened, and he stood up hurriedly. Yes please. He glanced toward Tala. Do you mind?
Tala smiled and shook her head. Of course not! Thats pretty important to get right, and youve been more than patient with me today.
Thus, Tala was the one who ended up sitting in the chair while Rane was tested over the next couple of hours.
When they were done, Mistress Holly shooed them out, simply telling Tala that shed have a proper analysis of her inscriptionsand how they were meshing with her changing mental models and natural magicsin a few days.
Oh, you can give me access to that when its ready?
Mistress Holly raised one eyebrow once again and simply waited.
Tala cleared her throat. Ill be back in a few days, I suppose.
That sounds excellent. Goodbye now.
Rane and Tala left, exiting onto the lit streets in the dark, early-winter evening.
They headed toward Lyns house, and only walked in silence for about a block before Tala spoke up. So, just about two months before your first session?"
He nodded. "Yeah. Honestly, while Im excited, Im also a bit nervous. My magics werent very physically oriented, and now I have all these inscriptions slowly changing me, and the actual Refining will do even more, building on the foundation those workings are establishing.
What is your concern?
He shrugged, clearly feeling a little self-conscious.
She lightly bumped him with her shoulder. What is it, Rane? You can tell me.
He smiled, glancing her way before returning his eyes to the street ahead.
After a moments silence, Tala added, But you dont have to say anything if you dont want to.
I know. He looked up to the sky, then shook his head. Its silly.
If its concerning you, it matters, even if you think its silly.
He huffed a laugh. Thats kind.
Thats true.
They walked another block or so before he broke the silence, This is me. This is who I am. Theres good and bad. I have capacities, strengths and weaknesses. Im not perfect, but Im me.
Tala nodded, not interjecting verbally, somehow knowing that that would cause him to close up.
Refining will change me. I will no longer be me, not as I think of myself.
She frowned, but he clearly wasnt done, so she simply waited.
After a long moment, he continued, Im not married. He colored, not looking her way. Ideally, I will be at some point, but Im not married now. What if
He was quiet for a long time.
They were almost to Lyns house before he barely whispered, What if whoever I marry wouldnt have married me as I am now? What if they only want to be with me because Ive changed?
Tala frowned but didnt answer immediately.
Ranes face was a rather noticeably bright red, but he seemed to have said what he was going to say, and that was relieving some of his embarrassment.
As they stopped in the small front yard, Tala turned to him, Should a child remain a child, for fear that the woman he eventually marries wouldnt love him as the child he once was?
What? Rane frowned. Are you saying that the un-Refined are as foolish and naive as a child?
What? No. Tala shook her head. Not at all. Its to make a point.
He scrunched his face, then shrugged. Well, then I suppose not? A man must grow up in order for marriage to be appropriate. Therefore, he is leaving that childhood behind. He is no longer a child. So, his future wifes opinion about his past only matters in that context. He shouldnt care if shed love him as he was when he was younger or not, because he will never be like that again.
Tala smiled. See? You already took it to the logical conclusion.
He huffed, grimacing slightly, I know it doesnt make sense, but It still doesnt feel great.
Oh. She looked down. Im sorry. I wasnt trying to say you were being foolish. I was just trying to help.
He shrugged one shoulder, not meeting her eyes. I know. I also know its silly, but I still feel it. He let out a long breath. It sometimes feels like I feel a lot of silly things.
As he turned back toward Lyns door, he was stopped by Tala placing her hand on his shoulder, Rane. It isnt silly to have concerns. No matter how much sense they make to someone else. How you feel matters. Let me know if I can help, otherwise please know that Ill be here, regardless.
He smiled tiredly, but her words did seem to help, even if only just a bit. I know. I really do. Thank you, Tala.
She let her hand fall back to her side, and they took the last few steps up to Lyns door and knocked.
Chapter 361: Contemplative SilenceTala spent the next few minutes conveying what shed seen to Master Aman, Mistress Spiora, and Rane who had been waiting while she delved stoneward.Alat reached out to Mistress Ingrit, and the Librarian assured them that the creatures were known, and generally not dangerous.That information seemed to frustrate Mistress Spiora and Master Aman.The man shook his head ruefully, That would have been good to know, but I suppose weve not only never inquired about creatures living away from our layer of reality, nothing weve done would have been done differently if we did have the knowledge.Mistress Spiora sighed. There is too much information on any subject to garner expertise with it all. Even so, the fault lies with us for not inquiring more broadly. We will remedy that.Rane didnt have much to add, as made sense, and he didnt seem to feel the need to interject. So, he remained mostly silent as the three Refined discussed various things.Eventually, Tala decided that she needed more information before she did any further experiments.-For what its worth, Mistress Ingrit expressed her apologies for not mentioning the creatures. They are generally non-hostile, and even when they act aggressively, all that they do is pull off minute amounts of power. Again, across the board they are not considered dangerous or even bothersome, just oddities.-Because Mages dont work with iron, they wouldnt have the same issue we did.-Precisely. Mistress Ingrit has updated their records with that added information.-Rane and Tala bid the Refined couple goodbye after thanking them.While they hadnt been necessary in order to save her, Tala had felt better for having had them with her, just in case.-Mistress Ingrit really does seem to feel bad about what happened. She wanted to assure you that the city defenses heavily discourage the creatures from coming through the superficial layer. It doesnt happen often, and they dont spend enough time to be harmful to anyone.-As they came back out into the street in front of the Archon Compound, Rane turned to Tala. You know, as exciting as that was, it really didnt take that long.Tala glanced up at the sky, where the sun was still quite a bit above the horizon. Oh, yeah. Huh.Is there anything else that you want or need to do?She thought for a long moment. I had some questions for Master Boma Let me send him an Archive message.-Done.- Alat was only silent for a moment before continuing. -Oh. Hes a bit cross.-Oh? Tala frowned, and she and Rane stepped to the side of the street to not be in the way.-Yeah. He says hes right in the middle of something, and such a question will take at least a day or two of research. He also is frustrated that he hadnt thought of that idea, himself, though I got that from subtext. He was ranting a bit, likely due to the haste of his reply.-Did you ask what we talked about?-Yes, I asked him if soul-binding an entity with a dimensional space characteristic causes the same issues as soul-binding a pure inanimate storage.-Well, if he doesnt know the answer, we can do our own research Tala considered for a moment. Can you ask Mistress Ingrit?Alat laughed within Talas head at the contradiction, but she still did as Tala had requested. -Done.-Tala turned back to Rane who had been waiting patiently. Though, he had pulled out his Archive slate and was reading through something as shed been trying to coordinate things. Well, it seems like Ive nothing pressing at the moment. It might be nice to swing through and say Hi to Mistress Holly, though.He looked up and smiled, tucking away his slate. That could work, sure. Its a bit anti-climactic. We go into an underground testing room, learn about creatures who live all around us, possibly flitting through us at any given moment to drain bits of power and now were going to go visit a friend.Tala chuckled. Yeah I was hoping to test a few more things, then pull off a fun combination of what I had learned at the end, but I dont really want to go diving in infested waters again so soon. It seems like my iron will be a detriment this time around.He nodded, but clearly had a question in his eyes.Dont get me wrong, as soon as I can get my head around it, Ill sequester my iron and try again but Then, she hesitated. Wait Rust That would just be putting it around me in the dimension of magic, which is part of no, wait. It would be around Flow, and I can just tuck Flow into Kit.Rane grinned. It sounds like youre still thinking through all that you learned. It also sounds like youve learned a few things that I dont know, yet? Do you want to go find somewhere to sit and think for a bit before we drop through Mistress Hollys workshop?She felt herself relax at the suggestion. You know, that would be really nice. I think I remember a tea place a few blocks from here in the right direction.He raised an eyebrow, giving a small, mischievous smile. You think you remember?She waved him off, though she felt a smile tug at her own lips as well. Its a turn of phrase. Its this way.They spent about an hour enjoying a couple of pots of tea in companionable silence while Tala and Alat processed through all that they had seen and experienced during their experiment.Tala did take the time to tell Rane what shed learned that he hadnt been aware of before bouncing a few ideas off of him, but whenever she fell back into contemplative silence, he easily left her to it.As they finished the last of their tea, he looked to her questioningly, and she nodded with a smile. Thank you. I think Im ready.They thanked their servers and departed, heading toward Mistress Hollys workshop.As they entered the incredibly familiar building, Tala felt the expected tickle of magic interfacing with Alats inscriptions.-Oh, that tingles. Huh. I didnt think its been that long since we were here but-Child! Mistress Hollys voice resounded from the back.The receptionistlikely yet another aspiring Inscriptionist who probably wouldnt be around for very longsighed and gestured for them to head on back. She clearly knows you and wishes to see you.Tala opened her mouth, then closed it and shook her head. As you wish, then.The Inscriptionist turned on Rane. Now that thats out of the way: Youre here; lets check up on you for your readiness to Refine.Ranes eyes widened, and he stood up hurriedly. Yes please. He glanced toward Tala. Do you mind?Tala smiled and shook her head. Of course not! Thats pretty important to get right, and youve been more than patient with me today.Thus, Tala was the one who ended up sitting in the chair while Rane was tested over the next couple of hours.When they were done, Mistress Holly shooed them out, simply telling Tala that shed have a proper analysis of her inscriptionsand how they were meshing with her changing mental models and natural magicsin a few days.Oh, you can give me access to that when its ready?Mistress Holly raised one eyebrow once again and simply waited.Tala cleared her throat. Ill be back in a few days, I suppose.That sounds excellent. Goodbye now.Rane and Tala left, exiting onto the lit streets in the dark, early-winter evening.They headed toward Lyns house, and only walked in silence for about a block before Tala spoke up. So, just about two months before your first session?"He nodded. "Yeah. Honestly, while Im excited, Im also a bit nervous. My magics werent very physically oriented, and now I have all these inscriptions slowly changing me, and the actual Refining will do even more, building on the foundation those workings are establishing.What is your concern?He shrugged, clearly feeling a little self-conscious.She lightly bumped him with her shoulder. What is it, Rane? You can tell me.He smiled, glancing her way before returning his eyes to the street ahead.After a moments silence, Tala added, But you dont have to say anything if you dont want to.I know. He looked up to the sky, then shook his head. Its silly.If its concerning you, it matters, even if you think its silly.He huffed a laugh. Thats kind.Thats true.They walked another block or so before he broke the silence, This is me. This is who I am. Theres good and bad. I have capacities, strengths and weaknesses. Im not perfect, but Im me.Tala nodded, not interjecting verbally, somehow knowing that that would cause him to close up.Refining will change me. I will no longer be me, not as I think of myself.She frowned, but he clearly wasnt done, so she simply waited.After a long moment, he continued, Im not married. He colored, not looking her way. Ideally, I will be at some point, but Im not married now. What ifHe was quiet for a long time.They were almost to Lyns house before he barely whispered, What if whoever I marry wouldnt have married me as I am now? What if they only want to be with me because Ive changed?Tala frowned but didnt answer immediately.Ranes face was a rather noticeably bright red, but he seemed to have said what he was going to say, and that was relieving some of his embarrassment.As they stopped in the small front yard, Tala turned to him, Should a child remain a child, for fear that the woman he eventually marries wouldnt love him as the child he once was?What? Rane frowned. Are you saying that the un-Refined are as foolish and naive as a child?What? No. Tala shook her head. Not at all. Its to make a point.He scrunched his face, then shrugged. Well, then I suppose not? A man must grow up in order for marriage to be appropriate. Therefore, he is leaving that childhood behind. He is no longer a child. So, his future wifes opinion about his past only matters in that context. He shouldnt care if shed love him as he was when he was younger or not, because he will never be like that again.Tala smiled. See? You already took it to the logical conclusion.He huffed, grimacing slightly, I know it doesnt make sense, but It still doesnt feel great.Oh. She looked down. Im sorry. I wasnt trying to say you were being foolish. I was just trying to help.He shrugged one shoulder, not meeting her eyes. I know. I also know its silly, but I still feel it. He let out a long breath. It sometimes feels like I feel a lot of silly things.As he turned back toward Lyns door, he was stopped by Tala placing her hand on his shoulder, Rane. It isnt silly to have concerns. No matter how much sense they make to someone else. How you feel matters. Let me know if I can help, otherwise please know that Ill be here, regardless.He smiled tiredly, but her words did seem to help, even if only just a bit. I know. I really do. Thank you, Tala.She let her hand fall back to her side, and they took the last few steps up to Lyns door and knocked.
