Chapter 270
In that brief moment of pause, Ed pulled her by the waist and Lil fell directly onto his chest. As Ed started to move underneath her, an overwhelming surge of pleasure caused her lower abdomen to tremble. Lil momentarily gasped for air after having held her breath, while her partner’s hot lips pressed against her forehead and temples. Ed’s arms wrapped further around Lil’s waist and his hands grabbed her buttocks. The two, now completely overlapping, rose and fell in unison along with the thrust of Ed’s hips. Long-suppressed moans began escaping Lil’s lips one after another. In between them, she kept calling for Ed with a clear sob in her voice. Not being able to stand the pressure any longer, Lil buried her face in the crook of Ed’s neck but was taken aback by a force that lifted her up.
By the time she realised what was happening, her back was already pressed against the bed and Ed rushed in again. His thrusts were so deep and heavy that Lil’s mind went blank. It heated her brain to the point where it felt like it was going to melt and she threw her head in the back of her neck.
Despite the dim lighting, Lil could sense his intense gaze on her and soon his warm hand brushed her messed-up hair off her forehead. Lil, who felt like she was falling from somewhere, desperately grabbed his arm and whispered for him to hurry. Ed, however, moved neither quick nor slow and kept meticulously hitting a specific place deep inside her belly over and over again.
As time passed, the intensity escalated. The pace quickened as the pair pressed their foreheads together and mixed their breaths. Lil, aching for the release that appeared to be within reach but couldn’t be obtained, bit his lip. However, the moment she expressed her impatience, a surge of pleasure rushed in like a tide and her racing breath stopped. At the same time, her mind wandered while her body was met by an explosive feeling that spread like a spasm. Heightened pulses seemed to be jumping out of her skin creating goosebumps all over her body. No sound was heard as though her vocal cords were paralyzed. The same appeared to be true for Ed as his body draped over her. He remained motionless, still deeply touching her body as if he were sinking indefinitely into her.
After what seemed like an eternity of nothingness, the invisible light flickered before Lil’s eyes and darkness slowly returned. Lil embraced Ed’s shuddering body in the afterglow of their pleasure and Ed, in return, hugged her back and kissed her. They locked lips for a while and exchanged affectionate whispers.
From time to time, as his voice mixed with fatigue laughed, her heart would tingle anew…
***
Ed spoke, flipping the side of her soaked hair.
“How do you feel?”
Lil unconsciously looked at the scar on her abdomen.
“Oh, it’s okay.”
“Then I’m glad…”
“I think we could go for another round.”
“..?”
“Shall we start again?”
It was only for a short moment, but confusion spread across Ed’s face before it was replaced with relief after realising it was only a joke. Lil, on the other hand, found it rather amusing to make fun of Ed’s obsession with her recovery, especially how he had been treating her like a sack of wheat for what felt like forever. Ed narrowed his eyes as if he could guess what was going on inside her head, but Lil only innocently raised her eyebrows.
Ed soon shook his head slightly and raised himself.
“I hope you’re not thinking about overdoing it for the time being… And I think we should wash up first…”
“…”
He suddenly realised he still had his shirt on, unsure if he had even tried to take it off or not. After all, during the peak of their activity, Ed thought that most of his garments had been removed.
After taking off his badly crumpled shirt, he put on a robe.
“Hm… So, you like uniforms and tying people to a cembalo. Your tastes are a bit peculiar, don’t you think?”
Lil, who had been lying down lazily, knelt on top of the bed. Liking the rough yet soft feel of the blanket, she wiggled her calves back and forth.
“Are they?”
“…”
Lil pondered on her own sexual preferences as she absentmindedly stroked the shirt that Ed had just taken off.
‘Well… I don’t know. I never cared about such things before… But I did indeed ask Ed to not take his clothes off… Not even his crimson uniform that’s now being crumpled beneath my knees… It gave me a strange sense of conquest. I still feel unfamiliar with this version of myself, but I also seem more vividly myself than ever before…’
“…It wasn’t like this before.”
Buried in her thoughts, she didn’t realise Ed had come back with a towel and was wiping her and himself.
“Does this mean your requests might be more diverse?”
“I didn’t mean it like that…”
“Anything. Whatever you order me.”
Ed smiled as he imagined the range of possibilities. Lil, looking at the expression on his face which clearly showed that he liked it, went into the blanket she had pulled. She then opened the end of the blanket so Ed could come in as well.
“Aren’t you tired?”
“I’m never tired when I’m with you.”
“Again with the nonsense.”
Ed shook his head with an unwavering expression.
“It’s true though. This is what love is.”
“…”
“I guess I need to try harder because you still don’t know true love.”
“How? How will you try harder?”
“What’s the fun in telling you in advance?”
Ed lifted his chin confidently.
‘He’s always been just like that. He always knows what I want and what I like. Thanks to that, I’m always happy, and I enjoy every moment I spend with him. That’s why, like he said, my feelings for him keep getting deeper and deeper… But if I think about it the other way around, I still have no idea what Ed wants or what he would like. Ed never asks for anything, apart from the occasional expressions of affection like hugs and kisses, and he never tries to correct my words or actions…’
Lil chose to not keep her questions to herself and asked what she was thinking about.
“What do you want me to do for you?”
“I told you, I don’t want anything…”
“I don’t really want anything from you either, but looking back on our relationship, from the very beginning, you already knew how to treat me in a way I liked.”
“Did it seem schemed?”
“Not at all. I never saw it that way.”
“…”
“I’m still thinking about what it can be. But there’s something coming to mind…”
“..?”
Lil extended her hand towards Ed, who stayed still for no reason. Reaching for his face, her fingers caressed his cheek and earlobe soothingly.
“Shall I tell you my story?”
“..!”
She shifted her gaze to watch his reaction.
“Not just the stories you’ve heard from rumours or the things you can guess. But about my real self.”
“That… won’t be very pleasant for you.”
“You guessed that right.”
“Then no, I will never want to force it out of you. I can’t enjoy something I demanded.”
“But it’s not just for you. You said it yourself. That it was hard for you to think like me. The way this world has taught you is so different from mine. And yet you orient yourself towards my perspective. So, yes, it’s for me, but it can also be for your research. Because in the end, you and I are so similar. I want to speak out loud about the life I couldn’t tell anyone about. And it isn’t just my life. It’s a life of sorrow and humiliation, where tens of thousands, even millions of people die with rotting hearts. It’s for you, for me but also for them…”
“…”
Still, Ed couldn’t agree easily.
‘When I acted as a doctor on the Bell Rock, I would badger Liloa to “tell me the captain’s story” whenever I got the chance. However, even though we’ve become closer after landing in Roahn, I couldn’t bring myself to utter that line again… I just can’t… Probably because I don’t view Liloa as a mere object of my curiosity anymore. It’s now difficult for me to delve into Liloa’s past and uncover the source of the “non-existent concept” she speaks of…’
“Someday… Won’t it be better if I tell you someday, just out of the blue? Because you’re right, I still need time. The reason I’m telling you about it now is because I want you to at least know how I feel. That my lo… love is this much.”
Chapter 270
In that brief moment of pause, Ed pulled her by the waist and Lil fell directly onto his chest. As Ed started to move underneath her, an overwhelming surge of pleasure caused her lower abdomen to tremble. Lil momentarily gasped for air after having held her breath, while her partner’s hot lips pressed against her forehead and temples. Ed’s arms wrapped further around Lil’s waist and his hands grabbed her buttocks. The two, now completely overlapping, rose and fell in unison along with the thrust of Ed’s hips. Long-suppressed moans began escaping Lil’s lips one after another. In between them, she kept calling for Ed with a clear sob in her voice. Not being able to stand the pressure any longer, Lil buried her face in the crook of Ed’s neck but was taken aback by a force that lifted her up.
By the time she realised what was happening, her back was already pressed against the bed and Ed rushed in again. His thrusts were so deep and heavy that Lil’s mind went blank. It heated her brain to the point where it felt like it was going to melt and she threw her head in the back of her neck.
Despite the dim lighting, Lil could sense his intense gaze on her and soon his warm hand brushed her messed-up hair off her forehead. Lil, who felt like she was falling from somewhere, desperately grabbed his arm and whispered for him to hurry. Ed, however, moved neither quick nor slow and kept meticulously hitting a specific place deep inside her belly over and over again.
As time passed, the intensity escalated. The pace quickened as the pair pressed their foreheads together and mixed their breaths. Lil, aching for the release that appeared to be within reach but couldn’t be obtained, bit his lip. However, the moment she expressed her impatience, a surge of pleasure rushed in like a tide and her racing breath stopped. At the same time, her mind wandered while her body was met by an explosive feeling that spread like a spasm. Heightened pulses seemed to be jumping out of her skin creating goosebumps all over her body. No sound was heard as though her vocal cords were paralyzed. The same appeared to be true for Ed as his body draped over her. He remained motionless, still deeply touching her body as if he were sinking indefinitely into her.
After what seemed like an eternity of nothingness, the invisible light flickered before Lil’s eyes and darkness slowly returned. Lil embraced Ed’s shuddering body in the afterglow of their pleasure and Ed, in return, hugged her back and kissed her. They locked lips for a while and exchanged affectionate whispers.
From time to time, as his voice mixed with fatigue laughed, her heart would tingle anew…
***
Ed spoke, flipping the side of her soaked hair.
“How do you feel?”
Lil unconsciously looked at the scar on her abdomen.
“Oh, it’s okay.”
“Then I’m glad…”
“I think we could go for another round.”
“..?”
“Shall we start again?”
It was only for a short moment, but confusion spread across Ed’s face before it was replaced with relief after realising it was only a joke. Lil, on the other hand, found it rather amusing to make fun of Ed’s obsession with her recovery, especially how he had been treating her like a sack of wheat for what felt like forever. Ed narrowed his eyes as if he could guess what was going on inside her head, but Lil only innocently raised her eyebrows.
Ed soon shook his head slightly and raised himself.
“I hope you’re not thinking about overdoing it for the time being… And I think we should wash up first…”
“…”
He suddenly realised he still had his shirt on, unsure if he had even tried to take it off or not. After all, during the peak of their activity, Ed thought that most of his garments had been removed.
After taking off his badly crumpled shirt, he put on a robe.
“Hm… So, you like uniforms and tying people to a cembalo. Your tastes are a bit peculiar, don’t you think?”
Lil, who had been lying down lazily, knelt on top of the bed. Liking the rough yet soft feel of the blanket, she wiggled her calves back and forth.
“Are they?”
“…”
Lil pondered on her own sexual preferences as she absentmindedly stroked the shirt that Ed had just taken off.
‘Well… I don’t know. I never cared about such things before… But I did indeed ask Ed to not take his clothes off… Not even his crimson uniform that’s now being crumpled beneath my knees… It gave me a strange sense of conquest. I still feel unfamiliar with this version of myself, but I also seem more vividly myself than ever before…’
“…It wasn’t like this before.”
Buried in her thoughts, she didn’t realise Ed had come back with a towel and was wiping her and himself.
“Does this mean your requests might be more diverse?”
“I didn’t mean it like that…”
“Anything. Whatever you order me.”
Ed smiled as he imagined the range of possibilities. Lil, looking at the expression on his face which clearly showed that he liked it, went into the blanket she had pulled. She then opened the end of the blanket so Ed could come in as well.
“Aren’t you tired?”
“I’m never tired when I’m with you.”
“Again with the nonsense.”
Ed shook his head with an unwavering expression.
“It’s true though. This is what love is.”
“…”
“I guess I need to try harder because you still don’t know true love.”
“How? How will you try harder?”
“What’s the fun in telling you in advance?”
Ed lifted his chin confidently.
‘He’s always been just like that. He always knows what I want and what I like. Thanks to that, I’m always happy, and I enjoy every moment I spend with him. That’s why, like he said, my feelings for him keep getting deeper and deeper… But if I think about it the other way around, I still have no idea what Ed wants or what he would like. Ed never asks for anything, apart from the occasional expressions of affection like hugs and kisses, and he never tries to correct my words or actions…’
Lil chose to not keep her questions to herself and asked what she was thinking about.
“What do you want me to do for you?”
“I told you, I don’t want anything…”
“I don’t really want anything from you either, but looking back on our relationship, from the very beginning, you already knew how to treat me in a way I liked.”
“Did it seem schemed?”
“Not at all. I never saw it that way.”
“…”
“I’m still thinking about what it can be. But there’s something coming to mind…”
“..?”
Lil extended her hand towards Ed, who stayed still for no reason. Reaching for his face, her fingers caressed his cheek and earlobe soothingly.
“Shall I tell you my story?”
“..!”
She shifted her gaze to watch his reaction.
“Not just the stories you’ve heard from rumours or the things you can guess. But about my real self.”
“That… won’t be very pleasant for you.”
“You guessed that right.”
“Then no, I will never want to force it out of you. I can’t enjoy something I demanded.”
“But it’s not just for you. You said it yourself. That it was hard for you to think like me. The way this world has taught you is so different from mine. And yet you orient yourself towards my perspective. So, yes, it’s for me, but it can also be for your research. Because in the end, you and I are so similar. I want to speak out loud about the life I couldn’t tell anyone about. And it isn’t just my life. It’s a life of sorrow and humiliation, where tens of thousands, even millions of people die with rotting hearts. It’s for you, for me but also for them…”
“…”
Still, Ed couldn’t agree easily.
‘When I acted as a doctor on the Bell Rock, I would badger Liloa to “tell me the captain’s story” whenever I got the chance. However, even though we’ve become closer after landing in Roahn, I couldn’t bring myself to utter that line again… I just can’t… Probably because I don’t view Liloa as a mere object of my curiosity anymore. It’s now difficult for me to delve into Liloa’s past and uncover the source of the “non-existent concept” she speaks of…’
“Someday… Won’t it be better if I tell you someday, just out of the blue? Because you’re right, I still need time. The reason I’m telling you about it now is because I want you to at least know how I feel. That my lo… love is this much.”
