Chapter 515
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Chapter 515
After apologizing for my earlier outburst and handing over my gift of hand-made vegetarian buns (albeit ones made by hands other than my own), our conversation falls into an awkward lull as I organize my thoughts while the Abbot looms overhead. Beside us, bald Jorani makes an attempt to slip away unseen, but is foiled by the attention-starved Aurie whose paws cling tightly to the half-rats leg, mewling emphatically in demand for more head pats. Conflicted between my jealousy over Auries affection and the joy of not having to continue this conversation alone, I make no effort to help Jorani and ignore his pleading looks until he heaves a sigh and goes back to scritching the kitten.
Its weird how far weve come in little more than a year. When we first met, I was a newly-minted Warrant Officer out on my first assignment while Jorani was just a lookout for some obscure bandit group, but look at us now. I became the youngest Second Grade Warrant Officer in recorded history, the publicly accepted Number One Talent in the Empire, an Imperial Consort, and a Peak Expert for all of a minute before succumbing to my injuries and being reduced to little more than a cripple. In contrast, Hangman Jorani all but disappeared from the public eye, going from the leader of the Mothers Militia and one of the heroes of Sanshu to a lowly Captain-equivalent in my retinue. Unlike me, his star is still on the rise, having recently Formed his Natal Palace to become a hidden Expert of the Empire and a budding scholar of Theology, though he still has the same gaunt, angular features which straddles the line between duplicitous and dignified.
Much as I hate the man, Daxian is undoubtedly the more handsome of the two, but its not entirely because of appearances. If Jorani straightened his back, grew his hair back out, looked people in the eyes while they talked, wiped away his perpetual sneer, and did something about his folksy, bandit vernacular, then Id be hard pressed to choose between his goofy charm and his brothers chilling magnetism.
...Why would I ever need to choose?
Oh yea... Jorani has a Natal Palace now, which means... Hey, Ive been studying the milestones along the Martial Path lately, but I have precious few examples to go over. If you dont mind, could you explain in your own words how you Formed your Natal Palace?
Sure, but there aint much to say. Fighting a losing battle to keep Aurie from falling asleep in his lap, Jorani shrugs and explains, Cant even rightly say how it actually happened. One second Im lost in a dreamworld havin lunch in the dining hall, and the next Im chattin with the Old Healer in the void. Then I realized the chair under me ass was gone and I went a tumblin through nothingness.
Huh.
What?
Belatedly realizing my comment might be construed as bragging, I reluctantly voice it for the sake of gathering more information. I cant say Ive ever had the same problem. The void always shaped itself to my whims, allowing me to stand, sit, swim, or fly with merely a thought.
Ye never... I dunno, accidentally thought about falling and just fell? I mean, I told ye how the Old Healer got away, right? Me mind slipped and then his bindings were just... gone.
Yea, but I figured that was more because the Healer guy was tricksy, not because of stray thoughts. If that were the case, then my Natal Palace wouldve been filled with naked women, adorable animals, and just random junk from memory.
Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. Such lust, such sin. On the heels of his judgmental statement, the Abbot explains, Though this monk would be hard pressed to claim it the norm, Brother Joranis difficulties are common among Martial Warriors, and mastering ones thoughts is an essential step before Natal Palace Formation.
Think it, believe it, and it shall be so, Jorani declares, with the confidence of a man quoting someone smarter than they are.
Yea... my mind jumps from one thought to the next, but I dont think my idle musings have ever affected my Natal Palace. Aside from that one big thing where I created a native, warrior persona to manage my murderous thoughts and ward off full Defilement. Is it weird that I miss Baledagh? I cant help but believe that if he were here, or rather if my mindset was more like his, then Id have already figured out the answer to all my problems by now, or at least would be working towards a goal instead of floundering in place. If we can figure out why, then it might help other Warriors on the cusp of becoming Experts. Like Bulat and Lang Yi, whove yet to put their newly Condensed Auras to good use. Scratching my head, I voice my thoughts out loud just to fill the silence. It cant be because of how I Formed my Natal Palace, because like Jorani, I also had outside help, except instead of Kukku, I had the Demon formerly known as Vivek Daatei.This chapter is updated by nov(e)(l)biin.com
Well, in my case, it was a matter of separating the dream from reality, ye know? With a wistful look in his eye, Jorani curls his arms around Auries head and hugs the happy kitten, subconsciously seeking comfort as he reflects on his time spent Dreaming. He misses it, that much is clear, and I completely understand, because he looks the way I feel when I think about my happy mountain village life. The Dream wasnt perfect, but it felt so real that even now, after weeks of knowin the truth, I keep fergettin I spent less than two weeks in the monastery proper and most of my memories come from a fake dreamworld.
Mhm. I know how that feels. Or do I? Thinking back on the Dreams conjured up by Demon Vivek, I dont think I ever truly believed they were real, not for more than a few seconds. I desperately wanted them to be real, did my best to lose myself in the illusions, but even though I experienced snippets from thousands upon thousands of lives, I knew them all for what they were: a fantasy. It was like watching a television show of what my life couldve been like, one which changed based on my whims. The only real things to come from the experience were the lessons I learned along the way, to stop hiding behind my anger and worrying about things I cant control, though to be fair, the latter didnt really stick.
Oh, and also I couldnt suppress my feelings for all my lovely, but too-young betrotheds anymore. Im still not too proud of that, but my true mental age is a secret Ill bring with me to the grave. Luckily, having been a man-child in my previous life, all I have to do is be myself and no one will ever suspect me of being more mature than my age would suggest, at least not anymore now that Im twenty.
Anyways, Jorani drawls, his smile a match for Auries contented grin, I didnt really Form my Natal Palace intentionally, not really, but after demanding a face to face meetin with the Old Healer, I had some time alone in the void. I didnt like starin off into nothingness, so I pictured meself back in me room at the monastery, and just like that, I was there. Frowning in annoyance, he adds, Wasnt the best location fer a Natal Palace, I see that now, but I aint about to start over from nothin.
...Why wasnt it the best choice? I dont get it. You dont feel safe there?
Dont get me wrong, the monastery was nice and all, and I liked me cozy little room, but it aint exactly spacious and its a pain in me ass resizing everything so I gots room to practice.
...So why dont you tack on another room?
Both Jorani and the Abbot shoot me the same look, their expressions flickering through surprise, disbelief, and acceptance in the blink of an eye. It aint so easy fer us untalented folk. Chuckling beneath his breath, Jorani smiles and shakes his head with a weird mixture of pride and resignation.
Right. I keep forgetting Natal Palaces take time to grow. Mine started off as my room in the village, and it was months before I expanded it to the entire manor courtyard, albeit with multiple customized rooms to keep Baledagh entertained. It wasnt long before I had the entire village packed in there with Baledaghs room overlooking it all, but back then, I didnt really use my Natal Palace for much besides sightseeing and chatting with my split personality slash Natal Soul. Then I razed it all to the ground and built up my new, mishmash Natal Palace, complete with Keystones which I might never be able to use again. That reminds me... If youre willing to gamble on your future progress, I might have something you could try. Dastan, Sahb, and a few others added one or two more milestones to the Martial Path, but while it appears to be working for Dastan and Sahb, the others havent had as much success and were not entirely sure of its long term feasibility.
Brow furrowed in thought, Joranis lips move but no sounds emerge, or at least none that reaches my ears. Gesturing for Jorani to leave, the Abbot scowls in disapproval while I hang my head in shame, though Im not entirely sure what I did to deserve this. The stalemate lasts until Jorani disappears into camp, at which point the Abbot sighs and sits down beside me. You must tread carefully, Junior Brother. Interfering with an unfixed Martial Path often ends in disaster, and asking Brother Jorani to gamble upon his future is irresponsible at best. Though his stern disapproval is hard to bear, his curiosity soon gets the better of him as he asks, What are these extra milestones you speak of?
You remember Baledagh, my split-personality, right? Well... Explaining Natal Souls and One with the Self doesnt take long, but the Abbots expression goes from curious to amazed by the time Im done. So engrossed in his thoughts, he remains silent for long minutes after Im finished talking, and I pass the time by putting on a glove so I can pat Aurie without turning my hand into a sieve. Within minutes, my sweet kitten falls fast asleep, his torso melting against Ping Ping while his chin rests atop my knees. Adorable as it is, I barely have time to coo before a resounding thud sounds out beside me, the source of which turns out to be Ping Pings head crashing into the dirt. Eyes fastened shut and beak half-open, the big girl draws a long, audible breath before releasing it with a lengthy, protracted, high-pitched squeak.
So. Cute.
I dont think Ive ever seen her this relaxed, and Ive never seen her fall asleep before burrowing into the dirt first. Unsure if something is wrong, I survey the surroundings but find nothing amiss, with plenty of soldiers and Sentinels going about their business less than five metres away, and many even smiling at the sleeping Ping Ping as they pass by. Nestled in my lap next to Auries fat head, Mama Buns nose twitches a mile a minute despite also being fast asleep, her paws working and lips smacking as she devours an imaginary meal in genuine delight, which prompts me to take another look around except this time, I focus on the animals instead.
Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. This monk hasnt the first clue.
Fair enough. Defeated and demoralized, we sit side by side in gloomy silence, unsure where to go from here, but after thinking over everything hes said, I ask, Why would it have worked?
...This monk does not understand.
What I mean is, if the water in the gourd had been Heavenly Energy in physical form, why did you think it wouldve fixed me?
It would not have, not in the way Junior Brother means. Pursing his lips and twitching his nose, the Abbot organizes his thoughts before he speaks. Human beings Demonstrate the Forms to forge our bodies into weapons, yet this alone is not enough. In order for this to work, Martial Warriors require far more sustenance than an untrained commoner, somewhere between three to five times in fact, yet animals have no Forms to practice and a creature with a Spiritual Heart requires no more sustenance than a mundane version of the same creature of similar size.
Possibly true, but Ill have to take this one on faith. Mama Bun definitely eats more than her baby buns do, but if left with an infinite amount of delicious food, they would all eat until they explode. I see. And?
So what fuels their prodigious strength?
...I dunno.
Rolling his eyes, the Abbot answers his own question. Heavenly Energy of course. When we meditate, we become vessels which draw in the Energy of the Heavens and convert it into Chi, which is then stored in the Core. This is common knowledge, yet few care to ask why this extra step is necessary.
Because were not equipped to handle Heavenly Energy, so we need to covert it into something practical. Faced with the Abbots disbelief, I shrug and add, I figured its like salt water and fresh water. Humans cant drink salt water, so we need to take steps to turn it into fresh water, a minute difference which spells the difference between life and death. Granted, it was mostly a guess, but so far, it seems apt.
Beaming with pride, the Abbot repeats my explanation word for word while nodding along to the tempo. A novel take on the matter, though this monk lacks the knowledge to say whether you are right or wrong. The truth is, no one knows for certain, but your theory is as sound as any. Regardless, getting back to the matter at hand, have you ever seen an animal settle down to meditate?
Cant they meditate in their sleep? Lin and Taduk certainly do, even though they both claim it only looks like theyre sleeping.
Nonsense. Meditation through Balance is an active pursuit, one which requires a firm mind with steady direction. Waving a hand to dismiss my claim, the Abbot continues, Thus, the facts are laid out before us. Animals have no need of meditation and have no increased requirements for sustenance, yet are still able to utilize Chi and fortify their physical forms to the point of developing a Spiritual Heart. How? Without giving me a chance to answer, he slaps his knee and exclaims, Because unlike humans, animals can draw Heavenly Energy from what they eat!
...Seems like a far stretch.
Falling silent to study my expression, the Abbot drops his voice to a whisper and explains, This monk considered his theories for long months before testing them, for he based them on the suspicion that there was more to Defiled cannibalism than meets the eye.
You know, I had a similar theory but never explored it because... well gross. Considering how they can create mass out of thin air, I figured Demons werent eating corpses for the protein. As the pieces fall into place, I glance at Joranis yurt and ask, Is that how you provided Heavenly Energy to Kukku? By feeding him Defiled corpses?
Not Kukku, but with another creature in an experiment which confirmed my suspicions, but ultimately proved to be a grievous mistake. Relieved by my lack of interest in taking up cannibalism, the Abbot heaves a sigh of relief and continues. Thus, this monk believed that if Junior brother drank all the Heavenly Energy contained within his gourds, it would have provided the requisite sustenance needed to reforge your body, and with luck, perhaps your Core as well.
I dont think it wouldve worked. Pretty sure thats what was in the tofu pudding.
After explaining my physical transformation following the Legates intervention, the Abbots expression could not look any more crestfallen. Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. Perhaps Junior Brother is right and Heavenly Energy in physical form is not enough to fix your woes, but if so, then this monk will be hard pressed to offer an alternative solution.
Thats okay, well work on it together. Recovery will be a long and slow process, but Ive been understandably agitated and impatient for recovery ever since I was sentenced to the front lines. While Ive still got a few theories left to try out before I get really, really desperate, Id appreciate any help you can offer to keep me alive in the interim. Im not entirely thrilled about actually eating Defiled or trying to control the Demonization process, but that doesnt mean I cant study the process and glean what I can. Besides, if push comes to shove, its nice to know I have options available, though theres also a good chance both would fail spectacularly rather than bring me back to full strength, so Ill wait to try the Spiritual Rice, Beets, or whatever food Taduk grows from Pong Pongs poop.
And worst comes to worst? I might even have to take a page from the bunbuns playbook and... Oh Mother in Heaven, if youre really there, please dont let things get that far. I dont want to drink poop water...
With everything said and little to do besides sit and wait, I enlist the Abbots help shuffling back to my tent with Aurie, and Ping Ping in tow while Mama Bun hops away in a huff, indignant over not being carried. Seeing how bright and chipper Aurie is puts a smile on my face, as hes none the worse for wear after falling for Kukkus illusions, but Ping Pings mournful squeaks are so heartbreaking I almost want to give her a gourd of Water Chi to make up for it. Would she cheer up if I fed her Kukku? Better yet, maybe I should eat Kukku, deep fry me some Kentucky Fried Spiritual Chicken and heal what ails me, then give Ping Ping all the Water Chi her turtle heart desires...
...Ah, who am I kidding. I cant. That giant rooster is too damned cute. Oh well. I might as well accept it: Im crippled, and Im going to stay this way for a long time, but at least theres still hope.
Because where there is life, there will always be hope.
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Chapter 515
After apologizing for my earlier outburst and handing over my gift of hand-made vegetarian buns (albeit ones made by hands other than my own), our conversation falls into an awkward lull as I organize my thoughts while the Abbot looms overhead. Beside us, bald Jorani makes an attempt to slip away unseen, but is foiled by the attention-starved Aurie whose paws cling tightly to the half-rats leg, mewling emphatically in demand for more head pats. Conflicted between my jealousy over Auries affection and the joy of not having to continue this conversation alone, I make no effort to help Jorani and ignore his pleading looks until he heaves a sigh and goes back to scritching the kitten.
Its weird how far weve come in little more than a year. When we first met, I was a newly-minted Warrant Officer out on my first assignment while Jorani was just a lookout for some obscure bandit group, but look at us now. I became the youngest Second Grade Warrant Officer in recorded history, the publicly accepted Number One Talent in the Empire, an Imperial Consort, and a Peak Expert for all of a minute before succumbing to my injuries and being reduced to little more than a cripple. In contrast, Hangman Jorani all but disappeared from the public eye, going from the leader of the Mothers Militia and one of the heroes of Sanshu to a lowly Captain-equivalent in my retinue. Unlike me, his star is still on the rise, having recently Formed his Natal Palace to become a hidden Expert of the Empire and a budding scholar of Theology, though he still has the same gaunt, angular features which straddles the line between duplicitous and dignified.
Much as I hate the man, Daxian is undoubtedly the more handsome of the two, but its not entirely because of appearances. If Jorani straightened his back, grew his hair back out, looked people in the eyes while they talked, wiped away his perpetual sneer, and did something about his folksy, bandit vernacular, then Id be hard pressed to choose between his goofy charm and his brothers chilling magnetism.
...Why would I ever need to choose?
Oh yea... Jorani has a Natal Palace now, which means... Hey, Ive been studying the milestones along the Martial Path lately, but I have precious few examples to go over. If you dont mind, could you explain in your own words how you Formed your Natal Palace?
Sure, but there aint much to say. Fighting a losing battle to keep Aurie from falling asleep in his lap, Jorani shrugs and explains, Cant even rightly say how it actually happened. One second Im lost in a dreamworld havin lunch in the dining hall, and the next Im chattin with the Old Healer in the void. Then I realized the chair under me ass was gone and I went a tumblin through nothingness.
Huh.
What?
Belatedly realizing my comment might be construed as bragging, I reluctantly voice it for the sake of gathering more information. I cant say Ive ever had the same problem. The void always shaped itself to my whims, allowing me to stand, sit, swim, or fly with merely a thought.
Ye never... I dunno, accidentally thought about falling and just fell? I mean, I told ye how the Old Healer got away, right? Me mind slipped and then his bindings were just... gone.
Yea, but I figured that was more because the Healer guy was tricksy, not because of stray thoughts. If that were the case, then my Natal Palace wouldve been filled with naked women, adorable animals, and just random junk from memory.
Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. Such lust, such sin. On the heels of his judgmental statement, the Abbot explains, Though this monk would be hard pressed to claim it the norm, Brother Joranis difficulties are common among Martial Warriors, and mastering ones thoughts is an essential step before Natal Palace Formation.
Think it, believe it, and it shall be so, Jorani declares, with the confidence of a man quoting someone smarter than they are.
Yea... my mind jumps from one thought to the next, but I dont think my idle musings have ever affected my Natal Palace. Aside from that one big thing where I created a native, warrior persona to manage my murderous thoughts and ward off full Defilement. Is it weird that I miss Baledagh? I cant help but believe that if he were here, or rather if my mindset was more like his, then Id have already figured out the answer to all my problems by now, or at least would be working towards a goal instead of floundering in place. If we can figure out why, then it might help other Warriors on the cusp of becoming Experts. Like Bulat and Lang Yi, whove yet to put their newly Condensed Auras to good use. Scratching my head, I voice my thoughts out loud just to fill the silence. It cant be because of how I Formed my Natal Palace, because like Jorani, I also had outside help, except instead of Kukku, I had the Demon formerly known as Vivek Daatei.This chapter is updated by nov(e)(l)biin.com
Well, in my case, it was a matter of separating the dream from reality, ye know? With a wistful look in his eye, Jorani curls his arms around Auries head and hugs the happy kitten, subconsciously seeking comfort as he reflects on his time spent Dreaming. He misses it, that much is clear, and I completely understand, because he looks the way I feel when I think about my happy mountain village life. The Dream wasnt perfect, but it felt so real that even now, after weeks of knowin the truth, I keep fergettin I spent less than two weeks in the monastery proper and most of my memories come from a fake dreamworld.
Mhm. I know how that feels. Or do I? Thinking back on the Dreams conjured up by Demon Vivek, I dont think I ever truly believed they were real, not for more than a few seconds. I desperately wanted them to be real, did my best to lose myself in the illusions, but even though I experienced snippets from thousands upon thousands of lives, I knew them all for what they were: a fantasy. It was like watching a television show of what my life couldve been like, one which changed based on my whims. The only real things to come from the experience were the lessons I learned along the way, to stop hiding behind my anger and worrying about things I cant control, though to be fair, the latter didnt really stick.
Oh, and also I couldnt suppress my feelings for all my lovely, but too-young betrotheds anymore. Im still not too proud of that, but my true mental age is a secret Ill bring with me to the grave. Luckily, having been a man-child in my previous life, all I have to do is be myself and no one will ever suspect me of being more mature than my age would suggest, at least not anymore now that Im twenty.
Anyways, Jorani drawls, his smile a match for Auries contented grin, I didnt really Form my Natal Palace intentionally, not really, but after demanding a face to face meetin with the Old Healer, I had some time alone in the void. I didnt like starin off into nothingness, so I pictured meself back in me room at the monastery, and just like that, I was there. Frowning in annoyance, he adds, Wasnt the best location fer a Natal Palace, I see that now, but I aint about to start over from nothin.
...Why wasnt it the best choice? I dont get it. You dont feel safe there?
Dont get me wrong, the monastery was nice and all, and I liked me cozy little room, but it aint exactly spacious and its a pain in me ass resizing everything so I gots room to practice.
...So why dont you tack on another room?
Both Jorani and the Abbot shoot me the same look, their expressions flickering through surprise, disbelief, and acceptance in the blink of an eye. It aint so easy fer us untalented folk. Chuckling beneath his breath, Jorani smiles and shakes his head with a weird mixture of pride and resignation.
Right. I keep forgetting Natal Palaces take time to grow. Mine started off as my room in the village, and it was months before I expanded it to the entire manor courtyard, albeit with multiple customized rooms to keep Baledagh entertained. It wasnt long before I had the entire village packed in there with Baledaghs room overlooking it all, but back then, I didnt really use my Natal Palace for much besides sightseeing and chatting with my split personality slash Natal Soul. Then I razed it all to the ground and built up my new, mishmash Natal Palace, complete with Keystones which I might never be able to use again. That reminds me... If youre willing to gamble on your future progress, I might have something you could try. Dastan, Sahb, and a few others added one or two more milestones to the Martial Path, but while it appears to be working for Dastan and Sahb, the others havent had as much success and were not entirely sure of its long term feasibility.
Brow furrowed in thought, Joranis lips move but no sounds emerge, or at least none that reaches my ears. Gesturing for Jorani to leave, the Abbot scowls in disapproval while I hang my head in shame, though Im not entirely sure what I did to deserve this. The stalemate lasts until Jorani disappears into camp, at which point the Abbot sighs and sits down beside me. You must tread carefully, Junior Brother. Interfering with an unfixed Martial Path often ends in disaster, and asking Brother Jorani to gamble upon his future is irresponsible at best. Though his stern disapproval is hard to bear, his curiosity soon gets the better of him as he asks, What are these extra milestones you speak of?
You remember Baledagh, my split-personality, right? Well... Explaining Natal Souls and One with the Self doesnt take long, but the Abbots expression goes from curious to amazed by the time Im done. So engrossed in his thoughts, he remains silent for long minutes after Im finished talking, and I pass the time by putting on a glove so I can pat Aurie without turning my hand into a sieve. Within minutes, my sweet kitten falls fast asleep, his torso melting against Ping Ping while his chin rests atop my knees. Adorable as it is, I barely have time to coo before a resounding thud sounds out beside me, the source of which turns out to be Ping Pings head crashing into the dirt. Eyes fastened shut and beak half-open, the big girl draws a long, audible breath before releasing it with a lengthy, protracted, high-pitched squeak.
So. Cute.
I dont think Ive ever seen her this relaxed, and Ive never seen her fall asleep before burrowing into the dirt first. Unsure if something is wrong, I survey the surroundings but find nothing amiss, with plenty of soldiers and Sentinels going about their business less than five metres away, and many even smiling at the sleeping Ping Ping as they pass by. Nestled in my lap next to Auries fat head, Mama Buns nose twitches a mile a minute despite also being fast asleep, her paws working and lips smacking as she devours an imaginary meal in genuine delight, which prompts me to take another look around except this time, I focus on the animals instead.
Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. This monk hasnt the first clue.
Fair enough. Defeated and demoralized, we sit side by side in gloomy silence, unsure where to go from here, but after thinking over everything hes said, I ask, Why would it have worked?
...This monk does not understand.
What I mean is, if the water in the gourd had been Heavenly Energy in physical form, why did you think it wouldve fixed me?
It would not have, not in the way Junior Brother means. Pursing his lips and twitching his nose, the Abbot organizes his thoughts before he speaks. Human beings Demonstrate the Forms to forge our bodies into weapons, yet this alone is not enough. In order for this to work, Martial Warriors require far more sustenance than an untrained commoner, somewhere between three to five times in fact, yet animals have no Forms to practice and a creature with a Spiritual Heart requires no more sustenance than a mundane version of the same creature of similar size.
Possibly true, but Ill have to take this one on faith. Mama Bun definitely eats more than her baby buns do, but if left with an infinite amount of delicious food, they would all eat until they explode. I see. And?
So what fuels their prodigious strength?
...I dunno.
Rolling his eyes, the Abbot answers his own question. Heavenly Energy of course. When we meditate, we become vessels which draw in the Energy of the Heavens and convert it into Chi, which is then stored in the Core. This is common knowledge, yet few care to ask why this extra step is necessary.
Because were not equipped to handle Heavenly Energy, so we need to covert it into something practical. Faced with the Abbots disbelief, I shrug and add, I figured its like salt water and fresh water. Humans cant drink salt water, so we need to take steps to turn it into fresh water, a minute difference which spells the difference between life and death. Granted, it was mostly a guess, but so far, it seems apt.
Beaming with pride, the Abbot repeats my explanation word for word while nodding along to the tempo. A novel take on the matter, though this monk lacks the knowledge to say whether you are right or wrong. The truth is, no one knows for certain, but your theory is as sound as any. Regardless, getting back to the matter at hand, have you ever seen an animal settle down to meditate?
Cant they meditate in their sleep? Lin and Taduk certainly do, even though they both claim it only looks like theyre sleeping.
Nonsense. Meditation through Balance is an active pursuit, one which requires a firm mind with steady direction. Waving a hand to dismiss my claim, the Abbot continues, Thus, the facts are laid out before us. Animals have no need of meditation and have no increased requirements for sustenance, yet are still able to utilize Chi and fortify their physical forms to the point of developing a Spiritual Heart. How? Without giving me a chance to answer, he slaps his knee and exclaims, Because unlike humans, animals can draw Heavenly Energy from what they eat!
...Seems like a far stretch.
Falling silent to study my expression, the Abbot drops his voice to a whisper and explains, This monk considered his theories for long months before testing them, for he based them on the suspicion that there was more to Defiled cannibalism than meets the eye.
You know, I had a similar theory but never explored it because... well gross. Considering how they can create mass out of thin air, I figured Demons werent eating corpses for the protein. As the pieces fall into place, I glance at Joranis yurt and ask, Is that how you provided Heavenly Energy to Kukku? By feeding him Defiled corpses?
Not Kukku, but with another creature in an experiment which confirmed my suspicions, but ultimately proved to be a grievous mistake. Relieved by my lack of interest in taking up cannibalism, the Abbot heaves a sigh of relief and continues. Thus, this monk believed that if Junior brother drank all the Heavenly Energy contained within his gourds, it would have provided the requisite sustenance needed to reforge your body, and with luck, perhaps your Core as well.
I dont think it wouldve worked. Pretty sure thats what was in the tofu pudding.
After explaining my physical transformation following the Legates intervention, the Abbots expression could not look any more crestfallen. Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. Perhaps Junior Brother is right and Heavenly Energy in physical form is not enough to fix your woes, but if so, then this monk will be hard pressed to offer an alternative solution.
Thats okay, well work on it together. Recovery will be a long and slow process, but Ive been understandably agitated and impatient for recovery ever since I was sentenced to the front lines. While Ive still got a few theories left to try out before I get really, really desperate, Id appreciate any help you can offer to keep me alive in the interim. Im not entirely thrilled about actually eating Defiled or trying to control the Demonization process, but that doesnt mean I cant study the process and glean what I can. Besides, if push comes to shove, its nice to know I have options available, though theres also a good chance both would fail spectacularly rather than bring me back to full strength, so Ill wait to try the Spiritual Rice, Beets, or whatever food Taduk grows from Pong Pongs poop.
And worst comes to worst? I might even have to take a page from the bunbuns playbook and... Oh Mother in Heaven, if youre really there, please dont let things get that far. I dont want to drink poop water...
With everything said and little to do besides sit and wait, I enlist the Abbots help shuffling back to my tent with Aurie, and Ping Ping in tow while Mama Bun hops away in a huff, indignant over not being carried. Seeing how bright and chipper Aurie is puts a smile on my face, as hes none the worse for wear after falling for Kukkus illusions, but Ping Pings mournful squeaks are so heartbreaking I almost want to give her a gourd of Water Chi to make up for it. Would she cheer up if I fed her Kukku? Better yet, maybe I should eat Kukku, deep fry me some Kentucky Fried Spiritual Chicken and heal what ails me, then give Ping Ping all the Water Chi her turtle heart desires...
...Ah, who am I kidding. I cant. That giant rooster is too damned cute. Oh well. I might as well accept it: Im crippled, and Im going to stay this way for a long time, but at least theres still hope.
Because where there is life, there will always be hope.
Chapter Meme 1
Chapter Meme 2
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Chapter 515After apologizing for my earlier outburst and handing over my gift of hand-made vegetarian buns albeit ones made by hands other than my own, our conversation falls into an awkward lull as I organize my thoughts while the Abbot looms overhead. Beside us, bald Jorani makes an attempt to slip away unseen, but is foiled by the attention-starved Aurie whose paws cling tightly to the half-rats leg, mewling emphatically in demand for more head pats. Conflicted between my jealousy over Auries affection and the joy of not having to continue this conversation alone, I make no effort to help Jorani and ignore his pleading looks until he heaves a sigh and goes back to scritching the kitten.Its weird how far weve come in little more than a year. When we first met, I was a newly-minted Warrant Officer out on my first assignment while Jorani was just a lookout for some obscure bandit group, but look at us now. I became the youngest Second Grade Warrant Officer in recorded history, the publicly accepted Number One Talent in the Empire, an Imperial Consort, and a Peak Expert for all of a minute before succumbing to my injuries and being reduced to little more than a cripple. In contrast, Hangman Jorani all but disappeared from the public eye, going from the leader of the Mothers Militia and one of the heroes of Sanshu to a lowly Captain-equivalent in my retinue. Unlike me, his star is still on the rise, having recently Formed his Natal Palace to become a hidden Expert of the Empire and a budding scholar of Theology, though he still has the same gaunt, angular features which straddles the line between duplicitous and dignified.Much as I hate the man, Daxian is undoubtedly the more handsome of the two, but its not entirely because of appearances. If Jorani straightened his back, grew his hair back out, looked people in the eyes while they talked, wiped away his perpetual sneer, and did something about his folksy, bandit vernacular, then Id be hard pressed to choose between his goofy charm and his brothers chilling magnetism....Why would I ever need to choose?Oh yea... Jorani has a Natal Palace now, which means... Hey, Ive been studying the milestones along the Martial Path lately, but I have precious few examples to go over. If you dont mind, could you explain in your own words how you Formed your Natal Palace?Sure, but there aint much to say. Fighting a losing battle to keep Aurie from falling asleep in his lap, Jorani shrugs and explains, Cant even rightly say how it actually happened. One second Im lost in a dreamworld havin lunch in the dining hall, and the next Im chattin with the Old Healer in the void. Then I realized the chair under me ass was gone and I went a tumblin through nothingness.Huh.What?Belatedly realizing my comment might be construed as bragging, I reluctantly voice it for the sake of gathering more information. I cant say Ive ever had the same problem. The void always shaped itself to my whims, allowing me to stand, sit, swim, or fly with merely a thought.Ye never... I dunno, accidentally thought about falling and just fell? I mean, I told ye how the Old Healer got away, right? Me mind slipped and then his bindings were just... gone.Yea, but I figured that was more because the Healer guy was tricksy, not because of stray thoughts. If that were the case, then my Natal Palace wouldve been filled with naked women, adorable animals, and just random junk from memory.Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. Such lust, such sin. On the heels of his judgmental statement, the Abbot explains, Though this monk would be hard pressed to claim it the norm, Brother Joranis difficulties are common among Martial Warriors, and mastering ones thoughts is an essential step before Natal Palace Formation.Think it, believe it, and it shall be so, Jorani declares, with the confidence of a man quoting someone smarter than they are.Yea... my mind jumps from one thought to the next, but I dont think my idle musings have ever affected my Natal Palace. Aside from that one big thing where I created a native, warrior persona to manage my murderous thoughts and ward off full Defilement. Is it weird that I miss Baledagh? I cant help but believe that if he were here, or rather if my mindset was more like his, then Id have already figured out the answer to all my problems by now, or at least would be working towards a goal instead of floundering in place. If we can figure out why, then it might help other Warriors on the cusp of becoming Experts. Like Bulat and Lang Yi, whove yet to put their newly Condensed Auras to good use. Scratching my head, I voice my thoughts out loud just to fill the silence. It cant be because of how I Formed my Natal Palace, because like Jorani, I also had outside help, except instead of Kukku, I had the Demon formerly known as Vivek Daatei.This chapter is updated by novelbiin.comWell, in my case, it was a matter of separating the dream from reality, ye know? With a wistful look in his eye, Jorani curls his arms around Auries head and hugs the happy kitten, subconsciously seeking comfort as he reflects on his time spent Dreaming. He misses it, that much is clear, and I completely understand, because he looks the way I feel when I think about my happy mountain village life. The Dream wasnt perfect, but it felt so real that even now, after weeks of knowin the truth, I keep fergettin I spent less than two weeks in the monastery proper and most of my memories come from a fake dreamworld.Mhm. I know how that feels. Or do I? Thinking back on the Dreams conjured up by Demon Vivek, I dont think I ever truly believed they were real, not for more than a few seconds. I desperately wanted them to be real, did my best to lose myself in the illusions, but even though I experienced snippets from thousands upon thousands of lives, I knew them all for what they were: a fantasy. It was like watching a television show of what my life couldve been like, one which changed based on my whims. The only real things to come from the experience were the lessons I learned along the way, to stop hiding behind my anger and worrying about things I cant control, though to be fair, the latter didnt really stick.Oh, and also I couldnt suppress my feelings for all my lovely, but too-young betrotheds anymore. Im still not too proud of that, but my true mental age is a secret Ill bring with me to the grave. Luckily, having been a man-child in my previous life, all I have to do is be myself and no one will ever suspect me of being more mature than my age would suggest, at least not anymore now that Im twenty.Anyways, Jorani drawls, his smile a match for Auries contented grin, I didnt really Form my Natal Palace intentionally, not really, but after demanding a face to face meetin with the Old Healer, I had some time alone in the void. I didnt like starin off into nothingness, so I pictured meself back in me room at the monastery, and just like that, I was there. Frowning in annoyance, he adds, Wasnt the best location fer a Natal Palace, I see that now, but I aint about to start over from nothin....Why wasnt it the best choice? I dont get it. You dont feel safe there?Dont get me wrong, the monastery was nice and all, and I liked me cozy little room, but it aint exactly spacious and its a pain in me ass resizing everything so I gots room to practice....So why dont you tack on another room?Both Jorani and the Abbot shoot me the same look, their expressions flickering through surprise, disbelief, and acceptance in the blink of an eye. It aint so easy fer us untalented folk. Chuckling beneath his breath, Jorani smiles and shakes his head with a weird mixture of pride and resignation.Right. I keep forgetting Natal Palaces take time to grow. Mine started off as my room in the village, and it was months before I expanded it to the entire manor courtyard, albeit with multiple customized rooms to keep Baledagh entertained. It wasnt long before I had the entire village packed in there with Baledaghs room overlooking it all, but back then, I didnt really use my Natal Palace for much besides sightseeing and chatting with my split personality slash Natal Soul. Then I razed it all to the ground and built up my new, mishmash Natal Palace, complete with Keystones which I might never be able to use again. That reminds me... If youre willing to gamble on your future progress, I might have something you could try. Dastan, Sahb, and a few others added one or two more milestones to the Martial Path, but while it appears to be working for Dastan and Sahb, the others havent had as much success and were not entirely sure of its long term feasibility.Brow furrowed in thought, Joranis lips move but no sounds emerge, or at least none that reaches my ears. Gesturing for Jorani to leave, the Abbot scowls in disapproval while I hang my head in shame, though Im not entirely sure what I did to deserve this. The stalemate lasts until Jorani disappears into camp, at which point the Abbot sighs and sits down beside me. You must tread carefully, Junior Brother. Interfering with an unfixed Martial Path often ends in disaster, and asking Brother Jorani to gamble upon his future is irresponsible at best. Though his stern disapproval is hard to bear, his curiosity soon gets the better of him as he asks, What are these extra milestones you speak of?You remember Baledagh, my split-personality, right? Well... Explaining Natal Souls and One with the Self doesnt take long, but the Abbots expression goes from curious to amazed by the time Im done. So engrossed in his thoughts, he remains silent for long minutes after Im finished talking, and I pass the time by putting on a glove so I can pat Aurie without turning my hand into a sieve. Within minutes, my sweet kitten falls fast asleep, his torso melting against Ping Ping while his chin rests atop my knees. Adorable as it is, I barely have time to coo before a resounding thud sounds out beside me, the source of which turns out to be Ping Pings head crashing into the dirt. Eyes fastened shut and beak half-open, the big girl draws a long, audible breath before releasing it with a lengthy, protracted, high-pitched squeak.So. Cute.I dont think Ive ever seen her this relaxed, and Ive never seen her fall asleep before burrowing into the dirt first. Unsure if something is wrong, I survey the surroundings but find nothing amiss, with plenty of soldiers and Sentinels going about their business less than five metres away, and many even smiling at the sleeping Ping Ping as they pass by. Nestled in my lap next to Auries fat head, Mama Buns nose twitches a mile a minute despite also being fast asleep, her paws working and lips smacking as she devours an imaginary meal in genuine delight, which prompts me to take another look around except this time, I focus on the animals instead.Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. This monk hasnt the first clue.Fair enough. Defeated and demoralized, we sit side by side in gloomy silence, unsure where to go from here, but after thinking over everything hes said, I ask, Why would it have worked?...This monk does not understand.What I mean is, if the water in the gourd had been Heavenly Energy in physical form, why did you think it wouldve fixed me?It would not have, not in the way Junior Brother means. Pursing his lips and twitching his nose, the Abbot organizes his thoughts before he speaks. Human beings Demonstrate the Forms to forge our bodies into weapons, yet this alone is not enough. In order for this to work, Martial Warriors require far more sustenance than an untrained commoner, somewhere between three to five times in fact, yet animals have no Forms to practice and a creature with a Spiritual Heart requires no more sustenance than a mundane version of the same creature of similar size.Possibly true, but Ill have to take this one on faith. Mama Bun definitely eats more than her baby buns do, but if left with an infinite amount of delicious food, they would all eat until they explode. I see. And?So what fuels their prodigious strength?...I dunno.Rolling his eyes, the Abbot answers his own question. Heavenly Energy of course. When we meditate, we become vessels which draw in the Energy of the Heavens and convert it into Chi, which is then stored in the Core. This is common knowledge, yet few care to ask why this extra step is necessary.Because were not equipped to handle Heavenly Energy, so we need to covert it into something practical. Faced with the Abbots disbelief, I shrug and add, I figured its like salt water and fresh water. Humans cant drink salt water, so we need to take steps to turn it into fresh water, a minute difference which spells the difference between life and death. Granted, it was mostly a guess, but so far, it seems apt.Beaming with pride, the Abbot repeats my explanation word for word while nodding along to the tempo. A novel take on the matter, though this monk lacks the knowledge to say whether you are right or wrong. The truth is, no one knows for certain, but your theory is as sound as any. Regardless, getting back to the matter at hand, have you ever seen an animal settle down to meditate?Cant they meditate in their sleep? Lin and Taduk certainly do, even though they both claim it only looks like theyre sleeping.Nonsense. Meditation through Balance is an active pursuit, one which requires a firm mind with steady direction. Waving a hand to dismiss my claim, the Abbot continues, Thus, the facts are laid out before us. Animals have no need of meditation and have no increased requirements for sustenance, yet are still able to utilize Chi and fortify their physical forms to the point of developing a Spiritual Heart. How? Without giving me a chance to answer, he slaps his knee and exclaims, Because unlike humans, animals can draw Heavenly Energy from what they eat!...Seems like a far stretch.Falling silent to study my expression, the Abbot drops his voice to a whisper and explains, This monk considered his theories for long months before testing them, for he based them on the suspicion that there was more to Defiled cannibalism than meets the eye.You know, I had a similar theory but never explored it because... well gross. Considering how they can create mass out of thin air, I figured Demons werent eating corpses for the protein. As the pieces fall into place, I glance at Joranis yurt and ask, Is that how you provided Heavenly Energy to Kukku? By feeding him Defiled corpses?Not Kukku, but with another creature in an experiment which confirmed my suspicions, but ultimately proved to be a grievous mistake. Relieved by my lack of interest in taking up cannibalism, the Abbot heaves a sigh of relief and continues. Thus, this monk believed that if Junior brother drank all the Heavenly Energy contained within his gourds, it would have provided the requisite sustenance needed to reforge your body, and with luck, perhaps your Core as well.I dont think it wouldve worked. Pretty sure thats what was in the tofu pudding.After explaining my physical transformation following the Legates intervention, the Abbots expression could not look any more crestfallen. Eh-Mi-Tuo-Fuo. Perhaps Junior Brother is right and Heavenly Energy in physical form is not enough to fix your woes, but if so, then this monk will be hard pressed to offer an alternative solution.Thats okay, well work on it together. Recovery will be a long and slow process, but Ive been understandably agitated and impatient for recovery ever since I was sentenced to the front lines. While Ive still got a few theories left to try out before I get really, really desperate, Id appreciate any help you can offer to keep me alive in the interim. Im not entirely thrilled about actually eating Defiled or trying to control the Demonization process, but that doesnt mean I cant study the process and glean what I can. Besides, if push comes to shove, its nice to know I have options available, though theres also a good chance both would fail spectacularly rather than bring me back to full strength, so Ill wait to try the Spiritual Rice, Beets, or whatever food Taduk grows from Pong Pongs poop.And worst comes to worst? I might even have to take a page from the bunbuns playbook and... Oh Mother in Heaven, if youre really there, please dont let things get that far. I dont want to drink poop water...With everything said and little to do besides sit and wait, I enlist the Abbots help shuffling back to my tent with Aurie, and Ping Ping in tow while Mama Bun hops away in a huff, indignant over not being carried. Seeing how bright and chipper Aurie is puts a smile on my face, as hes none the worse for wear after falling for Kukkus illusions, but Ping Pings mournful squeaks are so heartbreaking I almost want to give her a gourd of Water Chi to make up for it. Would she cheer up if I fed her Kukku? Better yet, maybe I should eat Kukku, deep fry me some Kentucky Fried Spiritual Chicken and heal what ails me, then give Ping Ping all the Water Chi her turtle heart desires......Ah, who am I kidding. I cant. That giant rooster is too damned cute. Oh well. I might as well accept it: Im crippled, and Im going to stay this way for a long time, but at least theres still hope.Because where there is life, there will always be hope.Chapter Meme 1 Chapter Meme 2- End of Volume 28 -
