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Mo Junyang looked blankly at Shi Qingxue and didn’t understand what she meant.
In the previous life, he kept her dead body in person and put it around him. Nobody was clearer than him whether she was dead or alive.
So he didn’t speak but stared at Shi Qingxue in confusion.
“Technically, my body died, but my soul was alive. Do you understand?” Shi Qingxue finally told him about her biggest secret.
When she met Mo Junyang’s shocked and doubtful expression, she laughed with relief.
She joked. “What? After we experienced something weird that we were reborn after death, you still don’t believe that the soul might exist?”
Mo Junyang shook his head to deny and asked cautiously, “So you…”
He wanted to know why Shi Qingxue didn’t come to see him. She didn’t show up because she hated him?
But all these questions were piercing. As long as he asked, he would have nowhere to hide.
At a glance, Shi Qingxue noticed what Mo Junyang wanted to ask, and she laughed. “I didn’t show up not because I didn’t want to, but I couldn’t. At that time, even if I stood in front of you, you couldn’t see me.”
“Where were you then?” Mo Junyang was seen through, so he didn’t hide it anymore. He asked the question that he cared about.
Shi Qingxue didn’t answer directly this time but asked in reply as if chatting with him, “Weren’t you always curious about why I don’t hate you at all in this life after we were at daggers drawn as each other’s enemy as the ending in the previous life?”
Mo Junyang nodded and couldn’t help but add, “I never wanted to be your enemy.”
But he was always silent and cruel and hid all his feelings. Who could see what he was thinking about?
Shi Qingxue complained in silence but on second thought, wasn’t it like this?
Who knew what was on Mo Junyang’s mind?
“I stayed with you all the time till you died.”
Shi Qingxue suddenly said that, which was like a loud thunder.
No matter how calm Mo Junyang was, he was shocked and his eyes widened. He didn’t have any reaction.
Qingxue still continued calmly, “More than fifty years in total, nearly twenty thousand days!”
“But, but I don’t…” Mo Junyang stuttered.
However, when he started, he found that he was so weak and not like himself. So he shut up but could hardly conceal the annoyance on his face.
Why didn’t he have any feeling?
If he knew earlier that Shi Qingxue was still “alive”, he would try every means and give up anything to make her come back.
“If you have found my existence in the beginning, under the situation, we probably can’t be like this.” Shi Qingxue snorted crossly and interrupted Mo Junyang’s imagination.
Although Shi Qingxue didn’t hate Mo Junyang, she never liked him. Who would like an enemy that always looked gloomy and hateful at a glance?
They were not abnormal…
Do you mean Mo Junyang?
Uh, he was just abnormal and couldn’t be mentioned in the same breath.
Since they were talking about this, Shi Qingxue didn’t hide it anymore but frankly told him what she thought about.
She changed her attitude toward Mo Junyang and even felt guilty because she had stayed with Mo Junyang for fifty years after death in the previous life.
Although guilt was not love, it caused her to love.
Otherwise, she was decisive in love and hate and would strike Mo Junyang’s name off the list before he showed up.
Shi Qingxue looked at Mo Junyang seriously and stressed each word. “So don’t feel guilty or be stupid as to think that you killed me. Although the ending in the previous life was not beautiful, if we didn’t experience those things, we wouldn’t be like this.”
She was close to him and trusted him.
That was what Mo Junyang didn’t dare to think about even in his dream.
But now it came true.
Mo Junyang had kept it to himself for two lives and it always tortured him, but because of Shi Qingxue’s honesty, he could let it go.
His handsome face which was tense all the time finally relieved a little, but he was still confused. “Why did you always stay with me?”
In Mo Junyang’s dreams, Shi Qingxue always hated him to the bone and even if she was alive, she wouldn’t give him a glance. She wouldn’t get close to him after death.
Shi Qingxue was speechless.
How would she explain?
Would she say that she just saw that Mo Junyang kept her dead body and didn’t mistreat or bury her in the beginning, so she was curious and stayed around him to check, but she found the man’s inexplicable and deep love for her?
Then she was curious about what Mo Junyang would do after killing the enemies, so she stayed.
Later she saw that Mo Junyang was almost killed by his political opponent, and she also got nervous.
At last, till Mo Junyang died of a serious disease, she couldn’t leave him.
Even after Mo Junyang died, her soul scattered and disappeared.
She couldn’t speak out these facts.
Seeing that Mo Junyang wanted to get an answer modestly, Shi Qingxue pursed her lips and closed her eyes.
She became shameless and put the blame on Mo Junyang. “I couldn’t go anywhere must because you couldn’t leave me.”
Somebody else must jump up and curse Shi Qingxue as she was shameless after hearing her words.
But Mo Junyang heard that and nodded as he thought so.
He showed a happy feeling on his face. “Great.”
The corners of Shi Qingxue’s mouth twitched. “What do you mean?”
Mo Junyang was shocked and turned away in embarrassment after realizing that he spoke out what was on his mind.
Shi Qingxue stretched out her index finger and pointed at Mo Junyang’s cheek. Then with strength, she poked his face and made him face her.
She pouted and asked, “What do you mean by saying great?”
Mo Junyang couldn’t avoid meeting her and had to tell her frankly with difficulty, “It’s great that you can never get rid of me.”
Shi Qingxue was unable to reply and thought, “Your Excellency, is it good that you are so crazy about me?”
The corners of her eyes twitched, and she was speechless. She didn’t want to continue to talk with him.
“Before today, I almost didn’t dare to imagine that I can own you one day.” Mo Junyang seemed to be talkative and raised his hand to cover Shi Qingxue’s, grabbing her firmly.
Shi Qingxue opened her mouth and wanted to correct him. She was not his.
However, when she saw Mo Junyang’s eyes with expectancy which couldn’t be hidden, she swallowed what she was about to say.
She didn’t have the courage to meet Mo Junyang’s eyes but lowered her head with shyness to conceal her blush and irregular heartbeats.
Fortunately, the imperial palace was not far from Duke Shi’s mansion. After a while, the coachman knocked on the door from outside. “Master, here is Duke Shi’s mansion.”
Shi Qingxue got out of Mo Junyang’s arms in haste and murmured, “I am going home.”
After that, she didn’t care what Mo Junyang would reply but pushed the door and jumped off the carriage.
Mo Junyang followed her and got out of the carriage.
He stood beside the carriage silently, and he didn’t say anything or ask her to stay.
He just watched Shi Qingxue enter the mansion with his deep eyes.
He was like a gambler who bet all on a single throw and could do nothing to Shi Qingxue no matter she asked him for anything or gave him anything. He just faced it calmly.
He was sad and lonely, and even the air around seemed to stagnate.
Shi Qingxue just looked back once and felt heartbroken.
She couldn’t continue to walk but immediately turned around to return to Mo Junyang.
She grabbed his hand and shouted gloomily, “Don’t be like this!”
Mo Junyang just smiled and didn’t say anything.
“Fine. You go back with me to see my father.” Shi Qingxue admitted defeat.
Even if it might cause many gossips after she brought Mo Junyang back home, she couldn’t care about so much as she saw him show his fragility to her frankly and repeatedly.
She ignored the inquiring eyes of the guards at the gate and even held Mo Junyang’s hand, walking into Duke Shi’s mansion aboveboard.
As soon as they entered the courtyard, they bumped into Zhou Ruyu and Shi Baoyou.
Zhou Ruyu walked furiously in the front, and Shi Baoyou chased her anxiously.
They were astonished to meet.
Shi Qingxue didn’t want to talk with these people and just called “Aunt”, “Baoyou” distantly. Then she prepared to walk away.
“Wait a moment!” Zhou Ruyu stood in front of Shi Qingxue.
She questioned arrogantly, “Anyway, I am your aunt, but you didn’t show respect after seeing your elder. You are so capable!”
Shi Qingxue was unable to respond. This woman just had nothing to do and found fault with her.
She rolled her eyes in secret and didn’t want to argue with Zhou Ruyu.
She bowed to them. “Aunt, Baoyou, good day. I have something important and need to see my father, so I have to go now.”
This was the highest courtesy Shi Qingxue could give to Zhou Ruyu.
But Zhou Ruyu still didn’t give up and stared at Qingxue and Mo Junyang’s hands holding together. Then she started to give a lecture “patiently”.
“Qingxue, I know that you are always bold and unrestrained, but there are rules in the Shi family. You are an unmarried woman, but you hold a man’s hand and walk in the mansion as if there is nobody around. The people who know the truth would say that you are on good terms, but those who don’t know it might criticize as the rules in our family are improper and the girls are dissolute!”
It seemed that she advised kindly, but every word of hers was sarcastic and piercing.
However, when Zhou Ruyu spoke, she was cautious and avoided mentioning Mo Junyang’s name. She didn’t want to confront him.
But she didn’t expect that. Would Mo Junyang ignore her as she just aimed at Shi Qingxue?
In the beginning, Mo Junyang didn’t take Zhou Ruyu seriously or plan to get involved in their conversation.
But Zhou Ruyu even dared to comment on his relationship with Shi Qingxue. Mo Junyang’s expressionless face looked cold at once.
If Shi Qingxue didn’t hold his hand, Zhou Ruyu might fall on the ground next second.
Even so, Zhou Ruyu was scared by Mo Junyang’s fierce eyes and moved one step backward. She was like a duck whose neck was pinched and couldn’t make any sound.
Shi Qingxue dared to hold Mo Junyang’s hand and walk into the mansion in public, and she was prepared to be picked on by the third master’s family.
Hearing Zhou Ruyu’s accusation, she just laughed coldly. “Aunt, you said that I am unmarried, and nobody could be hurt even if I get close to a man at ordinary times. But Aunt, you and your cousin Shi have a good relationship, right? I don’t know if Grandma and my uncle know that.”
When she asked the last words, Shi Qingxue raised her brows meaningfully.
Zhou Ruyu stiffened like a pheasant whose hair was plucked out and shouted angrily, “Don’t talk nonsense! That’s not true. If you dare to speak randomly, be careful. I will tear your mouth.”
Shi Qingxue certainly wouldn’t be scared by Zhou Ruyu’s outwardly strong but inwardly weak threat.
She continued to laugh. “We can know if I talk nonsense or not after investigation.”
While speaking, she turned to Mo Junyang and asked intentionally, “I hear that this month Lord Shi Zhi came back to the capital to report on his work, right?”
Mo Junyang glanced at Zhou Ruyu coldly and then nodded before answering Qingxue’s question. “Yes. Lord Shi is the son of the sister of the wife of the Marquis of Wuyang, so after he returned to the capital, he stays in the mansion of the Marquis of Wuyang. This month, the third madam returned to the mansion for three times during the period when Lord Shi was having a rest.”
Zhou Ruyu kept silent.
Shi Qingxue was speechless.
Although Shi Qingxue always knew that Mo Junyang had spies all over the capital and everything in the city couldn’t escape from his eyes, was he a gentleman as he spoke out others’ secret relationship so clearly and straightforwardly?
And it happened not long ago, but Mo Junyang could say that in detail. His great insight was enough to frighten anybody.
Mo Junyang didn’t specially point out Zhou Ruyu’s vague relationship with Shi Zhi, but what he said honestly made Zhou Ruyu have no nerve to take a deep breath.
She feared that Mo Junyang would reveal other shocking news.
Shi Qingxue held back her laughter and enjoyed for a long time while watching Zhou Ruyu’s stiff face. She finally got contented.
She was about to let Zhou Ruyu go, but Shi Baoyou stated at the moment, “Qingxue, my mother is always plain-spoken and straightforward. Maybe she said something unpleasant to hear, but she didn’t have the evil intention. She just thinks that she is an elder and should be responsible for you.
“Qingxue, you are broad-minded. Please forgive my mother. If she said something to offend you, I apologize to you for her.”
Her warm and gentle voice sounded sincere, and even her expression was full of guilt.
After hearing that, Shi Qingxue couldn’t help but frown. She stared at Shi Baoyou for quite a while, with her bright eyes.
She suddenly smiled. “Baoyou, do you mean that what I said to Aunt is not advice but with evil intentions?”
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Mo Junyang looked blankly at Shi Qingxue and didn’t understand what she meant.
In the previous life, he kept her dead body in person and put it around him. Nobody was clearer than him whether she was dead or alive.
So he didn’t speak but stared at Shi Qingxue in confusion.
“Technically, my body died, but my soul was alive. Do you understand?” Shi Qingxue finally told him about her biggest secret.
When she met Mo Junyang’s shocked and doubtful expression, she laughed with relief.
She joked. “What? After we experienced something weird that we were reborn after death, you still don’t believe that the soul might exist?”
Mo Junyang shook his head to deny and asked cautiously, “So you…”
He wanted to know why Shi Qingxue didn’t come to see him. She didn’t show up because she hated him?
But all these questions were piercing. As long as he asked, he would have nowhere to hide.
At a glance, Shi Qingxue noticed what Mo Junyang wanted to ask, and she laughed. “I didn’t show up not because I didn’t want to, but I couldn’t. At that time, even if I stood in front of you, you couldn’t see me.”
“Where were you then?” Mo Junyang was seen through, so he didn’t hide it anymore. He asked the question that he cared about.
Shi Qingxue didn’t answer directly this time but asked in reply as if chatting with him, “Weren’t you always curious about why I don’t hate you at all in this life after we were at daggers drawn as each other’s enemy as the ending in the previous life?”
Mo Junyang nodded and couldn’t help but add, “I never wanted to be your enemy.”
But he was always silent and cruel and hid all his feelings. Who could see what he was thinking about?
Shi Qingxue complained in silence but on second thought, wasn’t it like this?
Who knew what was on Mo Junyang’s mind?
“I stayed with you all the time till you died.”
Shi Qingxue suddenly said that, which was like a loud thunder.
No matter how calm Mo Junyang was, he was shocked and his eyes widened. He didn’t have any reaction.
Qingxue still continued calmly, “More than fifty years in total, nearly twenty thousand days!”
“But, but I don’t…” Mo Junyang stuttered.
However, when he started, he found that he was so weak and not like himself. So he shut up but could hardly conceal the annoyance on his face.
Why didn’t he have any feeling?
If he knew earlier that Shi Qingxue was still “alive”, he would try every means and give up anything to make her come back.
“If you have found my existence in the beginning, under the situation, we probably can’t be like this.” Shi Qingxue snorted crossly and interrupted Mo Junyang’s imagination.
Although Shi Qingxue didn’t hate Mo Junyang, she never liked him. Who would like an enemy that always looked gloomy and hateful at a glance?
They were not abnormal…
Do you mean Mo Junyang?
Uh, he was just abnormal and couldn’t be mentioned in the same breath.
Since they were talking about this, Shi Qingxue didn’t hide it anymore but frankly told him what she thought about.
She changed her attitude toward Mo Junyang and even felt guilty because she had stayed with Mo Junyang for fifty years after death in the previous life.
Although guilt was not love, it caused her to love.
Otherwise, she was decisive in love and hate and would strike Mo Junyang’s name off the list before he showed up.
Shi Qingxue looked at Mo Junyang seriously and stressed each word. “So don’t feel guilty or be stupid as to think that you killed me. Although the ending in the previous life was not beautiful, if we didn’t experience those things, we wouldn’t be like this.”
She was close to him and trusted him.
That was what Mo Junyang didn’t dare to think about even in his dream.
But now it came true.
Mo Junyang had kept it to himself for two lives and it always tortured him, but because of Shi Qingxue’s honesty, he could let it go.
His handsome face which was tense all the time finally relieved a little, but he was still confused. “Why did you always stay with me?”
In Mo Junyang’s dreams, Shi Qingxue always hated him to the bone and even if she was alive, she wouldn’t give him a glance. She wouldn’t get close to him after death.
Shi Qingxue was speechless.
How would she explain?
Would she say that she just saw that Mo Junyang kept her dead body and didn’t mistreat or bury her in the beginning, so she was curious and stayed around him to check, but she found the man’s inexplicable and deep love for her?
Then she was curious about what Mo Junyang would do after killing the enemies, so she stayed.
Later she saw that Mo Junyang was almost killed by his political opponent, and she also got nervous.
At last, till Mo Junyang died of a serious disease, she couldn’t leave him.
Even after Mo Junyang died, her soul scattered and disappeared.
She couldn’t speak out these facts.
Seeing that Mo Junyang wanted to get an answer modestly, Shi Qingxue pursed her lips and closed her eyes.
She became shameless and put the blame on Mo Junyang. “I couldn’t go anywhere must because you couldn’t leave me.”
Somebody else must jump up and curse Shi Qingxue as she was shameless after hearing her words.
But Mo Junyang heard that and nodded as he thought so.
He showed a happy feeling on his face. “Great.”
The corners of Shi Qingxue’s mouth twitched. “What do you mean?”
Mo Junyang was shocked and turned away in embarrassment after realizing that he spoke out what was on his mind.
Shi Qingxue stretched out her index finger and pointed at Mo Junyang’s cheek. Then with strength, she poked his face and made him face her.
She pouted and asked, “What do you mean by saying great?”
Mo Junyang couldn’t avoid meeting her and had to tell her frankly with difficulty, “It’s great that you can never get rid of me.”
Shi Qingxue was unable to reply and thought, “Your Excellency, is it good that you are so crazy about me?”
The corners of her eyes twitched, and she was speechless. She didn’t want to continue to talk with him.
“Before today, I almost didn’t dare to imagine that I can own you one day.” Mo Junyang seemed to be talkative and raised his hand to cover Shi Qingxue’s, grabbing her firmly.
Shi Qingxue opened her mouth and wanted to correct him. She was not his.
However, when she saw Mo Junyang’s eyes with expectancy which couldn’t be hidden, she swallowed what she was about to say.
She didn’t have the courage to meet Mo Junyang’s eyes but lowered her head with shyness to conceal her blush and irregular heartbeats.
Fortunately, the imperial palace was not far from Duke Shi’s mansion. After a while, the coachman knocked on the door from outside. “Master, here is Duke Shi’s mansion.”
Shi Qingxue got out of Mo Junyang’s arms in haste and murmured, “I am going home.”
After that, she didn’t care what Mo Junyang would reply but pushed the door and jumped off the carriage.
Mo Junyang followed her and got out of the carriage.
He stood beside the carriage silently, and he didn’t say anything or ask her to stay.
He just watched Shi Qingxue enter the mansion with his deep eyes.
He was like a gambler who bet all on a single throw and could do nothing to Shi Qingxue no matter she asked him for anything or gave him anything. He just faced it calmly.
He was sad and lonely, and even the air around seemed to stagnate.
Shi Qingxue just looked back once and felt heartbroken.
She couldn’t continue to walk but immediately turned around to return to Mo Junyang.
She grabbed his hand and shouted gloomily, “Don’t be like this!”
Mo Junyang just smiled and didn’t say anything.
“Fine. You go back with me to see my father.” Shi Qingxue admitted defeat.
Even if it might cause many gossips after she brought Mo Junyang back home, she couldn’t care about so much as she saw him show his fragility to her frankly and repeatedly.
She ignored the inquiring eyes of the guards at the gate and even held Mo Junyang’s hand, walking into Duke Shi’s mansion aboveboard.
As soon as they entered the courtyard, they bumped into Zhou Ruyu and Shi Baoyou.
Zhou Ruyu walked furiously in the front, and Shi Baoyou chased her anxiously.
They were astonished to meet.
Shi Qingxue didn’t want to talk with these people and just called “Aunt”, “Baoyou” distantly. Then she prepared to walk away.
“Wait a moment!” Zhou Ruyu stood in front of Shi Qingxue.
She questioned arrogantly, “Anyway, I am your aunt, but you didn’t show respect after seeing your elder. You are so capable!”
Shi Qingxue was unable to respond. This woman just had nothing to do and found fault with her.
She rolled her eyes in secret and didn’t want to argue with Zhou Ruyu.
She bowed to them. “Aunt, Baoyou, good day. I have something important and need to see my father, so I have to go now.”
This was the highest courtesy Shi Qingxue could give to Zhou Ruyu.
But Zhou Ruyu still didn’t give up and stared at Qingxue and Mo Junyang’s hands holding together. Then she started to give a lecture “patiently”.
“Qingxue, I know that you are always bold and unrestrained, but there are rules in the Shi family. You are an unmarried woman, but you hold a man’s hand and walk in the mansion as if there is nobody around. The people who know the truth would say that you are on good terms, but those who don’t know it might criticize as the rules in our family are improper and the girls are dissolute!”
It seemed that she advised kindly, but every word of hers was sarcastic and piercing.
However, when Zhou Ruyu spoke, she was cautious and avoided mentioning Mo Junyang’s name. She didn’t want to confront him.
But she didn’t expect that. Would Mo Junyang ignore her as she just aimed at Shi Qingxue?
In the beginning, Mo Junyang didn’t take Zhou Ruyu seriously or plan to get involved in their conversation.
But Zhou Ruyu even dared to comment on his relationship with Shi Qingxue. Mo Junyang’s expressionless face looked cold at once.
If Shi Qingxue didn’t hold his hand, Zhou Ruyu might fall on the ground next second.
Even so, Zhou Ruyu was scared by Mo Junyang’s fierce eyes and moved one step backward. She was like a duck whose neck was pinched and couldn’t make any sound.
Shi Qingxue dared to hold Mo Junyang’s hand and walk into the mansion in public, and she was prepared to be picked on by the third master’s family.
Hearing Zhou Ruyu’s accusation, she just laughed coldly. “Aunt, you said that I am unmarried, and nobody could be hurt even if I get close to a man at ordinary times. But Aunt, you and your cousin Shi have a good relationship, right? I don’t know if Grandma and my uncle know that.”
When she asked the last words, Shi Qingxue raised her brows meaningfully.
Zhou Ruyu stiffened like a pheasant whose hair was plucked out and shouted angrily, “Don’t talk nonsense! That’s not true. If you dare to speak randomly, be careful. I will tear your mouth.”
Shi Qingxue certainly wouldn’t be scared by Zhou Ruyu’s outwardly strong but inwardly weak threat.
She continued to laugh. “We can know if I talk nonsense or not after investigation.”
While speaking, she turned to Mo Junyang and asked intentionally, “I hear that this month Lord Shi Zhi came back to the capital to report on his work, right?”
Mo Junyang glanced at Zhou Ruyu coldly and then nodded before answering Qingxue’s question. “Yes. Lord Shi is the son of the sister of the wife of the Marquis of Wuyang, so after he returned to the capital, he stays in the mansion of the Marquis of Wuyang. This month, the third madam returned to the mansion for three times during the period when Lord Shi was having a rest.”
Zhou Ruyu kept silent.
Shi Qingxue was speechless.
Although Shi Qingxue always knew that Mo Junyang had spies all over the capital and everything in the city couldn’t escape from his eyes, was he a gentleman as he spoke out others’ secret relationship so clearly and straightforwardly?
And it happened not long ago, but Mo Junyang could say that in detail. His great insight was enough to frighten anybody.
Mo Junyang didn’t specially point out Zhou Ruyu’s vague relationship with Shi Zhi, but what he said honestly made Zhou Ruyu have no nerve to take a deep breath.
She feared that Mo Junyang would reveal other shocking news.
Shi Qingxue held back her laughter and enjoyed for a long time while watching Zhou Ruyu’s stiff face. She finally got contented.
She was about to let Zhou Ruyu go, but Shi Baoyou stated at the moment, “Qingxue, my mother is always plain-spoken and straightforward. Maybe she said something unpleasant to hear, but she didn’t have the evil intention. She just thinks that she is an elder and should be responsible for you.
“Qingxue, you are broad-minded. Please forgive my mother. If she said something to offend you, I apologize to you for her.”
Her warm and gentle voice sounded sincere, and even her expression was full of guilt.
After hearing that, Shi Qingxue couldn’t help but frown. She stared at Shi Baoyou for quite a while, with her bright eyes.
She suddenly smiled. “Baoyou, do you mean that what I said to Aunt is not advice but with evil intentions?”
Mo Junyang looked blankly at Shi Qingxue and didn't understand what she meant.In the previous life, he kept her dead body in person and put it around him. Nobody was clearer than him whether she was dead or alive.So he didn't speak but stared at Shi Qingxue in confusion.Technically, my body died, but my soul was alive. Do you understand? Shi Qingxue finally told him about her biggest secret.When she met Mo Junyang's shocked and doubtful expression, she laughed with relief.She joked. What? After we experienced something weird that we were reborn after death, you still don't believe that the soul might exist?Mo Junyang shook his head to deny and asked cautiously, So youHe wanted to know why Shi Qingxue didn't come to see him. She didn't show up because she hated him?But all these questions were piercing. As long as he asked, he would have nowhere to hide.At a glance, Shi Qingxue noticed what Mo Junyang wanted to ask, and she laughed. I didn't show up not because I didn't want to, but I couldn't. At that time, even if I stood in front of you, you couldn't see me.Where were you then? Mo Junyang was seen through, so he didn't hide it anymore. He asked the question that he cared about.Shi Qingxue didn't answer directly this time but asked in reply as if chatting with him, Weren't you always curious about why I don't hate you at all in this life after we were at daggers drawn as each other's enemy as the ending in the previous life?Mo Junyang nodded and couldn't help but add, I never wanted to be your enemy.But he was always silent and cruel and hid all his feelings. Who could see what he was thinking about?Shi Qingxue complained in silence but on second thought, wasn't it like this?Who knew what was on Mo Junyang's mind?I stayed with you all the time till you died.Shi Qingxue suddenly said that, which was like a loud thunder.No matter how calm Mo Junyang was, he was shocked and his eyes widened. He didn't have any reaction.Qingxue still continued calmly, More than fifty years in total, nearly twenty thousand days!But, but I don't Mo Junyang stuttered.However, when he started, he found that he was so weak and not like himself. So he shut up but could hardly conceal the annoyance on his face.Why didn't he have any feeling?If he knew earlier that Shi Qingxue was still alive, he would try every means and give up anything to make her come back.If you have found my existence in the beginning, under the situation, we probably can't be like this. Shi Qingxue snorted crossly and interrupted Mo Junyang's imagination.Although Shi Qingxue didn't hate Mo Junyang, she never liked him. Who would like an enemy that always looked gloomy and hateful at a glance?They were not abnormalDo you mean Mo Junyang?Uh, he was just abnormal and couldn't be mentioned in the same breath.Since they were talking about this, Shi Qingxue didn't hide it anymore but frankly told him what she thought about.She changed her attitude toward Mo Junyang and even felt guilty because she had stayed with Mo Junyang for fifty years after death in the previous life.Although guilt was not love, it caused her to love.Otherwise, she was decisive in love and hate and would strike Mo Junyang's name off the list before he showed up.Shi Qingxue looked at Mo Junyang seriously and stressed each word. So don't feel guilty or be stupid as to think that you killed me. Although the ending in the previous life was not beautiful, if we didn't experience those things, we wouldn't be like this.She was close to him and trusted him.That was what Mo Junyang didn't dare to think about even in his dream.But now it came true.Mo Junyang had kept it to himself for two lives and it always tortured him, but because of Shi Qingxue's honesty, he could let it go.His handsome face which was tense all the time finally relieved a little, but he was still confused. Why did you always stay with me?In Mo Junyang's dreams, Shi Qingxue always hated him to the bone and even if she was alive, she wouldn't give him a glance. She wouldn't get close to him after death.Shi Qingxue was speechless.How would she explain?Would she say that she just saw that Mo Junyang kept her dead body and didn't mistreat or bury her in the beginning, so she was curious and stayed around him to check, but she found the man's inexplicable and deep love for her?Then she was curious about what Mo Junyang would do after killing the enemies, so she stayed.Later she saw that Mo Junyang was almost killed by his political opponent, and she also got nervous.At last, till Mo Junyang died of a serious disease, she couldn't leave him.Even after Mo Junyang died, her soul scattered and disappeared.She couldn't speak out these facts.Seeing that Mo Junyang wanted to get an answer modestly, Shi Qingxue pursed her lips and closed her eyes.She became shameless and put the blame on Mo Junyang. I couldn't go anywhere must because you couldn't leave me.Somebody else must jump up and curse Shi Qingxue as she was shameless after hearing her words.But Mo Junyang heard that and nodded as he thought so.He showed a happy feeling on his face. Great.The corners of Shi Qingxue's mouth twitched. What do you mean?Mo Junyang was shocked and turned away in embarrassment after realizing that he spoke out what was on his mind.Shi Qingxue stretched out her index finger and pointed at Mo Junyang's cheek. Then with strength, she poked his face and made him face her.She pouted and asked, What do you mean by saying great?Mo Junyang couldn't avoid meeting her and had to tell her frankly with difficulty, It's great that you can never get rid of me.Shi Qingxue was unable to reply and thought, Your Excellency, is it good that you are so crazy about me?The corners of her eyes twitched, and she was speechless. She didn't want to continue to talk with him.Before today, I almost didn't dare to imagine that I can own you one day. Mo Junyang seemed to be talkative and raised his hand to cover Shi Qingxue's, grabbing her firmly.Shi Qingxue opened her mouth and wanted to correct him. She was not his.However, when she saw Mo Junyang's eyes with expectancy which couldn't be hidden, she swallowed what she was about to say.She didn't have the courage to meet Mo Junyang's eyes but lowered her head with shyness to conceal her blush and irregular heartbeats.Fortunately, the imperial palace was not far from Duke Shi's mansion. After a while, the coachman knocked on the door from outside. Master, here is Duke Shi's mansion.Shi Qingxue got out of Mo Junyang's arms in haste and murmured, I am going home.After that, she didn't care what Mo Junyang would reply but pushed the door and jumped off the carriage.Mo Junyang followed her and got out of the carriage.He stood beside the carriage silently, and he didn't say anything or ask her to stay.He just watched Shi Qingxue enter the mansion with his deep eyes.He was like a gambler who bet all on a single throw and could do nothing to Shi Qingxue no matter she asked him for anything or gave him anything. He just faced it calmly.He was sad and lonely, and even the air around seemed to stagnate.Shi Qingxue just looked back once and felt heartbroken.She couldn't continue to walk but immediately turned around to return to Mo Junyang.She grabbed his hand and shouted gloomily, Don't be like this!Mo Junyang just smiled and didn't say anything.Fine. You go back with me to see my father. Shi Qingxue admitted defeat.Even if it might cause many gossips after she brought Mo Junyang back home, she couldn't care about so much as she saw him show his fragility to her frankly and repeatedly.She ignored the inquiring eyes of the guards at the gate and even held Mo Junyang's hand, walking into Duke Shi's mansion aboveboard.As soon as they entered the courtyard, they bumped into Zhou Ruyu and Shi Baoyou.Zhou Ruyu walked furiously in the front, and Shi Baoyou chased her anxiously.They were astonished to meet.Shi Qingxue didn't want to talk with these people and just called Aunt, Baoyou distantly. Then she prepared to walk away.Wait a moment! Zhou Ruyu stood in front of Shi Qingxue.She questioned arrogantly, Anyway, I am your aunt, but you didn't show respect after seeing your elder. You are so capable!Shi Qingxue was unable to respond. This woman just had nothing to do and found fault with her.She rolled her eyes in secret and didn't want to argue with Zhou Ruyu.She bowed to them. Aunt, Baoyou, good day. I have something important and need to see my father, so I have to go now.This was the highest courtesy Shi Qingxue could give to Zhou Ruyu.But Zhou Ruyu still didn't give up and stared at Qingxue and Mo Junyang's hands holding together. Then she started to give a lecture patiently.Qingxue, I know that you are always bold and unrestrained, but there are rules in the Shi family. You are an unmarried woman, but you hold a man's hand and walk in the mansion as if there is nobody around. The people who know the truth would say that you are on good terms, but those who don't know it might criticize as the rules in our family are improper and the girls are dissolute!It seemed that she advised kindly, but every word of hers was sarcastic and piercing.However, when Zhou Ruyu spoke, she was cautious and avoided mentioning Mo Junyang's name. She didn't want to confront him.But she didn't expect that. Would Mo Junyang ignore her as she just aimed at Shi Qingxue?In the beginning, Mo Junyang didn't take Zhou Ruyu seriously or plan to get involved in their conversation.But Zhou Ruyu even dared to comment on his relationship with Shi Qingxue. Mo Junyang's expressionless face looked cold at once.If Shi Qingxue didn't hold his hand, Zhou Ruyu might fall on the ground next second.Even so, Zhou Ruyu was scared by Mo Junyang's fierce eyes and moved one step backward. She was like a duck whose neck was pinched and couldn't make any sound.Shi Qingxue dared to hold Mo Junyang's hand and walk into the mansion in public, and she was prepared to be picked on by the third master's family.Hearing Zhou Ruyu's accusation, she just laughed coldly. Aunt, you said that I am unmarried, and nobody could be hurt even if I get close to a man at ordinary times. But Aunt, you and your cousin Shi have a good relationship, right? I don't know if Grandma and my uncle know that.When she asked the last words, Shi Qingxue raised her brows meaningfully.Zhou Ruyu stiffened like a pheasant whose hair was plucked out and shouted angrily, Don't talk nonsense! That's not true. If you dare to speak randomly, be careful. I will tear your mouth.Shi Qingxue certainly wouldn't be scared by Zhou Ruyu's outwardly strong but inwardly weak threat.She continued to laugh. We can know if I talk nonsense or not after investigation.While speaking, she turned to Mo Junyang and asked intentionally, I hear that this month Lord Shi Zhi came back to the capital to report on his work, right?Mo Junyang glanced at Zhou Ruyu coldly and then nodded before answering Qingxue's question. Yes. Lord Shi is the son of the sister of the wife of the Marquis of Wuyang, so after he returned to the capital, he stays in the mansion of the Marquis of Wuyang. This month, the third madam returned to the mansion for three times during the period when Lord Shi was having a rest.Zhou Ruyu kept silent.Shi Qingxue was speechless.Although Shi Qingxue always knew that Mo Junyang had spies all over the capital and everything in the city couldn't escape from his eyes, was he a gentleman as he spoke out others' secret relationship so clearly and straightforwardly?And it happened not long ago, but Mo Junyang could say that in detail. His great insight was enough to frighten anybody.Mo Junyang didn't specially point out Zhou Ruyu's vague relationship with Shi Zhi, but what he said honestly made Zhou Ruyu have no nerve to take a deep breath.She feared that Mo Junyang would reveal other shocking news.Shi Qingxue held back her laughter and enjoyed for a long time while watching Zhou Ruyu's stiff face. She finally got contented.She was about to let Zhou Ruyu go, but Shi Baoyou stated at the moment, Qingxue, my mother is always plain-spoken and straightforward. Maybe she said something unpleasant to hear, but she didn't have the evil intention. She just thinks that she is an elder and should be responsible for you.Qingxue, you are broad-minded. Please forgive my mother. If she said something to offend you, I apologize to you for her.Her warm and gentle voice sounded sincere, and even her expression was full of guilt.After hearing that, Shi Qingxue couldn't help but frown. She stared at Shi Baoyou for quite a while, with her bright eyes.She suddenly smiled. Baoyou, do you mean that what I said to Aunt is not advice but with evil intentions?
