That “Brother Jing Sui” was filled with undertones of sorrow...
It made Carlos stop completely in his tracks. A film of ice instantly covered his brown eyes, turning them dark and cold.
His thin lips pressed into a line, as he stared fixedly at the youth’s face that had paled in pain.
Jealousy wrapped tightly around the depths of his heart like a poisonous snake. The fierce pain almost made him lose control. The violent desire and cruel impulses he had long been repressing rushed with great force, crushing all his reason to dust.
Even if you pretend like it was nothing… Even if you say you don't like him…
Still, in the dead of night, in your deepest slumber, when you’ve let down all your defenses, and all that’s left is your true feelings… You call out that name instinctively… and I realize now that you haven’t let go of him at all…
Not one bit.
Pain surfaced in Carlos’ eyes like a bottomless abyss, and his fist slowly tightened. He had used every trick in his book, even utilized unscrupulous means to create a gap between the boy and Jing Sui… One step at a time, he’d made the youth step closer into his carefully crafted cage, so that he’d come under his wing completely…
He even carried the identity of the boy’s lover in name.
All of that gave him the illusion that one day, the boy would willingly fall into his embrace…
and accept him.
He’d thought he could wait until that day…
But at this moment, that one soft call from the boy had easily crushed all his confidence to pieces. All his patience and everything he had endured had become a joke.
This was a crushing defeat.
Even if Jing Sui hurts you so badly, and acts like that with you…
In the end, you can’t let go of him. Even if you say you won't go back, the one you truly care about in your heart, and the one who you always think about… is still him.
Even if you fall to the same state as last life again, in the end, you will still disregard everything for his sake, and throw yourself in front…
Even at the cost of your own life.
You cannot help but love that person…is that right?
The pain was so great that Carlos had to close his eyes. Signs of intense emotional struggle showed on his face, and his jaw clenched. If I’m destined never to obtain his heart, destined to forever be unable to have him willingly accept me, then why restrain myself? Why bear it all so patiently…? What’s the point of it all?
It’d be better to simply pull him over directly, imprison him by my side…
and make him completely belong to me…
Carlos slowly breathed out deeply. His chest heaved slightly up and down as he opened his eyes again.
Raising his hand to pinch the boy’s chin, he lowered his head and stared at those lips. Desire filled his eyes. The boy was now in his hands, and he could do anything he wanted to him.
He couldn’t put up any resistance, nor could he escape. Even if the boy cried for mercy, it’d be no use.
This is what he should’ve done long ago. There had been so many opportunities…
So then, why hadn’t he done it?
Why had he let go time and time again, and watched as the boy went far away? Why had he even let him stay with other men?
Carlos stared fixedly at the boy sleeping deeply on the bed. A long time passed, and a hint of sorrow appeared in his eyes, as he slowly let go of his grip.
There was only one reason he hadn’t done it.
It was because he loved him.
It wasn’t just possessiveness at work, and it wasn’t the influence of desire, nor was it just a whim…
He simply loved him.
That's why he restrained himself, and endured. All his careful calculations, and cautious schemes had been because he didn’t want the boy to be sad and pained.
He couldn’t bear to hurt him.
Ji Ling faintly cried out Jing Sui’s name, and then continued pretending he was in a nightmare, waiting in fear for Carlos' reaction. He could feel the man's breathing becoming heavier, and then his own chin being lifted. He was like a prey animal slowly falling into the hands of a bloodthirsty beast… Even without his eyes open, he could feel the man’s intentions. Hidden under those gentle actions, was actually coldness and cruelty.
At this moment, Ji Ling was really scared.
He knew he was walking a tightrope with this choice…
But he really had no other ideas left. There was no way he could accept Carlos doing those things to him, so he could only use Jing Sui as an excuse again in hopes that Carlos would back down.
Carlos was a calm and rational person who prioritized his own interests above everything. If the man wanted to continue maintaining this relationship, logically speaking, he wouldn’t destroy his prospects due to a moment’s impulse. That would do more harm than good for him.
Compared to the weight of his carefully laid out schemes, whether or not he could bed someone was simply a trivial matter.
Carlos should be taking his leave.
At this time, however, he felt Carlos approaching with scalding hot breath. Ji Ling almost thought he’d bet wrong! Had this guy shed all pretenses and really come here just to f*ck him? That was illogical! Was Carlos someone who lacked bed warmers? Ha, yeah right!
Just as Ji Ling was feeling more and more anxious…The man suddenly let go of his grip and stood up. He left just as he came, silent and soundless.
Ji Ling heard the sound of the door close. Only then did he let out the breath he’d been holding. Relaxing, he realized his back was already all sweaty.
He quietly opened his eyes a peep, fear still lingering on his face.
Afterwards, the frustration caught up to him.
Looking back on it now, there were actually a few vague signs before. It’s just that he’d never thought Carlos would have such dirty thoughts for him! That’s why his thoughts had never gone in that direction… The old fox was even older than his father. He normally put on the facade of a gentleman, elegant and reserved, but on the inside, he actually wanted to sleep with him. Who could imagine something so ridiculous?
Even though he thought he’d already been vigilant enough, he had likely been tricked into subconsciously lowering his guard against this man.
Terrifying. This man was really too terrifying.
Ji Ling angrily said: [System, I know why Carlos is so nice to me. 】
System: […] In fact, he knew as well.
Ji Ling: [It’s because he wants to bang me :) ]
System: […]
Ji Ling: [How shameless for old cows to want to eat young grass :) ]
System: […]
Ji Ling thought to himself that he couldn’t stay here anymore. He had to leave right away! There were only the two of them on this planet. Before, he’d felt comfortable and safe here, but now, he felt it was actually the most dangerous place to be!
Although he’d had a sudden wave of brilliance and forced Carlos away just now, if there was a first attempt, there’d be a second one. When the day came that Carlos’ inner beast couldn’t be restrained anymore, and he acted against him, even calling to heaven or hell wouldn’t help. There’d be no escape!
………………
Ji Ling stayed up all night, anxious to return home.
The next morning, Ji Ling finished breakfast, and pretended to know nothing. He smiled at Carlos and suggested: "Carlos, let's go back today."
Carlos gave away nothing in his expression. It was as if nothing had happened last night. His eyes were gentle, as he laughed in a low voice: "What’s the matter? You’re not happy staying here? "
Ji Ling shook his head and said: “Seeing that you’ve been busy this whole time, I thought it’d be better to go back for now… I made you leave Empire Star for so long, and I feel a little guilty.” He smiled apologetically: "If you want to come back here, we can come again any time."
Carlos looked at the youth’s shy and obedient appearance. The soft spot in his heart was continuously stirred up by love, pain, and jealousy. This turned his eyes dark and complex. His thin lips raised, and he nodded, saying: “All right, but before we leave, there’s somewhere I’d like to take you.”
Although Carlos appeared extremely normal, Ji Ling was still a little nervous. However, he had no reason to refuse, so he could only nod and say: “Okay.”
Ji Ling followed Carlos onto the spacecraft, staring straight and not letting his eyes wander. He didn’t dare give a glance at the man beside him, and felt quite anxious.
Not before long, they stopped at the edge of a gigantic lake.
The surface area of this lake was extremely large. Looking out in the distance, it was just like a vast blue sea. The water in the lake was clear without any impurities, so the silver sand at the bottom of the lake could be seen clearly. It shimmered blue like the stars.
It really was a beautiful sight.
Carlos took Ji Ling's hand and led him to the lakeside, stepping onto the soft silver sand. It almost felt like stepping on light floating clouds. The beauty here was so magnificent that everyone would subconsciously slow their breath.
Ji Ling knew where this was.
Carlos turned to Ji Ling with a gentle smile on his lips, as he said slowly: "The splendor of Lake Fairsand is unmatched on all of Blue Ocean Star. I’ve always wanted to share this with you."
Ji Ling smiled shyly and blinked, saying: "I came here once the day before yesterday. It really is beautiful. Thank you, Carlos."
This implied that he had seen it already, and now just wanted to go home earlier.
There was no need to waste time here.
He had been used to Carlos' gentleness before, but after last night, Ji Ling felt uncomfortable all over. When had this old guy started to have those kinds of unspeakable thoughts about him?
Carlos didn't seem to hear the insinuation in his words, and he gave a faint smile. His voice was low and magnetic, sounding as pleasant on the ears as a violin, as he said: "I have a gift for you."
That “Brother Jing Sui” was filled with undertones of sorrow...
It made Carlos stop completely in his tracks. A film of ice instantly covered his brown eyes, turning them dark and cold.
His thin lips pressed into a line, as he stared fixedly at the youth’s face that had paled in pain.
Jealousy wrapped tightly around the depths of his heart like a poisonous snake. The fierce pain almost made him lose control. The violent desire and cruel impulses he had long been repressing rushed with great force, crushing all his reason to dust.
Even if you pretend like it was nothing… Even if you say you don't like him…
Still, in the dead of night, in your deepest slumber, when you’ve let down all your defenses, and all that’s left is your true feelings… You call out that name instinctively… and I realize now that you haven’t let go of him at all…
Not one bit.
Pain surfaced in Carlos’ eyes like a bottomless abyss, and his fist slowly tightened. He had used every trick in his book, even utilized unscrupulous means to create a gap between the boy and Jing Sui… One step at a time, he’d made the youth step closer into his carefully crafted cage, so that he’d come under his wing completely…
He even carried the identity of the boy’s lover in name.
All of that gave him the illusion that one day, the boy would willingly fall into his embrace…
and accept him.
He’d thought he could wait until that day…
But at this moment, that one soft call from the boy had easily crushed all his confidence to pieces. All his patience and everything he had endured had become a joke.
This was a crushing defeat.
Even if Jing Sui hurts you so badly, and acts like that with you…
In the end, you can’t let go of him. Even if you say you won't go back, the one you truly care about in your heart, and the one who you always think about… is still him.
Even if you fall to the same state as last life again, in the end, you will still disregard everything for his sake, and throw yourself in front…
Even at the cost of your own life.
You cannot help but love that person…is that right?
The pain was so great that Carlos had to close his eyes. Signs of intense emotional struggle showed on his face, and his jaw clenched. If I’m destined never to obtain his heart, destined to forever be unable to have him willingly accept me, then why restrain myself? Why bear it all so patiently…? What’s the point of it all?
It’d be better to simply pull him over directly, imprison him by my side…
and make him completely belong to me…
Carlos slowly breathed out deeply. His chest heaved slightly up and down as he opened his eyes again.
Raising his hand to pinch the boy’s chin, he lowered his head and stared at those lips. Desire filled his eyes. The boy was now in his hands, and he could do anything he wanted to him.
He couldn’t put up any resistance, nor could he escape. Even if the boy cried for mercy, it’d be no use.
This is what he should’ve done long ago. There had been so many opportunities…
So then, why hadn’t he done it?
Why had he let go time and time again, and watched as the boy went far away? Why had he even let him stay with other men?
Carlos stared fixedly at the boy sleeping deeply on the bed. A long time passed, and a hint of sorrow appeared in his eyes, as he slowly let go of his grip.
There was only one reason he hadn’t done it.
It was because he loved him.
It wasn’t just possessiveness at work, and it wasn’t the influence of desire, nor was it just a whim…
He simply loved him.
That's why he restrained himself, and endured. All his careful calculations, and cautious schemes had been because he didn’t want the boy to be sad and pained.
He couldn’t bear to hurt him.
Ji Ling faintly cried out Jing Sui’s name, and then continued pretending he was in a nightmare, waiting in fear for Carlos' reaction. He could feel the man's breathing becoming heavier, and then his own chin being lifted. He was like a prey animal slowly falling into the hands of a bloodthirsty beast… Even without his eyes open, he could feel the man’s intentions. Hidden under those gentle actions, was actually coldness and cruelty.
At this moment, Ji Ling was really scared.
He knew he was walking a tightrope with this choice…
But he really had no other ideas left. There was no way he could accept Carlos doing those things to him, so he could only use Jing Sui as an excuse again in hopes that Carlos would back down.
Carlos was a calm and rational person who prioritized his own interests above everything. If the man wanted to continue maintaining this relationship, logically speaking, he wouldn’t destroy his prospects due to a moment’s impulse. That would do more harm than good for him.
Compared to the weight of his carefully laid out schemes, whether or not he could bed someone was simply a trivial matter.
Carlos should be taking his leave.
At this time, however, he felt Carlos approaching with scalding hot breath. Ji Ling almost thought he’d bet wrong! Had this guy shed all pretenses and really come here just to f*ck him? That was illogical! Was Carlos someone who lacked bed warmers? Ha, yeah right!
Just as Ji Ling was feeling more and more anxious…The man suddenly let go of his grip and stood up. He left just as he came, silent and soundless.
Ji Ling heard the sound of the door close. Only then did he let out the breath he’d been holding. Relaxing, he realized his back was already all sweaty.
He quietly opened his eyes a peep, fear still lingering on his face.
Afterwards, the frustration caught up to him.
Looking back on it now, there were actually a few vague signs before. It’s just that he’d never thought Carlos would have such dirty thoughts for him! That’s why his thoughts had never gone in that direction… The old fox was even older than his father. He normally put on the facade of a gentleman, elegant and reserved, but on the inside, he actually wanted to sleep with him. Who could imagine something so ridiculous?
Even though he thought he’d already been vigilant enough, he had likely been tricked into subconsciously lowering his guard against this man.
Terrifying. This man was really too terrifying.
Ji Ling angrily said: [System, I know why Carlos is so nice to me. 】
System: […] In fact, he knew as well.
Ji Ling: [It’s because he wants to bang me :) ]
System: […]
Ji Ling: [How shameless for old cows to want to eat young grass :) ]
System: […]
Ji Ling thought to himself that he couldn’t stay here anymore. He had to leave right away! There were only the two of them on this planet. Before, he’d felt comfortable and safe here, but now, he felt it was actually the most dangerous place to be!
Although he’d had a sudden wave of brilliance and forced Carlos away just now, if there was a first attempt, there’d be a second one. When the day came that Carlos’ inner beast couldn’t be restrained anymore, and he acted against him, even calling to heaven or hell wouldn’t help. There’d be no escape!
………………
Ji Ling stayed up all night, anxious to return home.
The next morning, Ji Ling finished breakfast, and pretended to know nothing. He smiled at Carlos and suggested: "Carlos, let's go back today."
Carlos gave away nothing in his expression. It was as if nothing had happened last night. His eyes were gentle, as he laughed in a low voice: "What’s the matter? You’re not happy staying here? "
Ji Ling shook his head and said: “Seeing that you’ve been busy this whole time, I thought it’d be better to go back for now… I made you leave Empire Star for so long, and I feel a little guilty.” He smiled apologetically: "If you want to come back here, we can come again any time."
Carlos looked at the youth’s shy and obedient appearance. The soft spot in his heart was continuously stirred up by love, pain, and jealousy. This turned his eyes dark and complex. His thin lips raised, and he nodded, saying: “All right, but before we leave, there’s somewhere I’d like to take you.”
Although Carlos appeared extremely normal, Ji Ling was still a little nervous. However, he had no reason to refuse, so he could only nod and say: “Okay.”
Ji Ling followed Carlos onto the spacecraft, staring straight and not letting his eyes wander. He didn’t dare give a glance at the man beside him, and felt quite anxious.
Not before long, they stopped at the edge of a gigantic lake.
The surface area of this lake was extremely large. Looking out in the distance, it was just like a vast blue sea. The water in the lake was clear without any impurities, so the silver sand at the bottom of the lake could be seen clearly. It shimmered blue like the stars.
It really was a beautiful sight.
Carlos took Ji Ling's hand and led him to the lakeside, stepping onto the soft silver sand. It almost felt like stepping on light floating clouds. The beauty here was so magnificent that everyone would subconsciously slow their breath.
Ji Ling knew where this was.
Carlos turned to Ji Ling with a gentle smile on his lips, as he said slowly: "The splendor of Lake Fairsand is unmatched on all of Blue Ocean Star. I’ve always wanted to share this with you."
Ji Ling smiled shyly and blinked, saying: "I came here once the day before yesterday. It really is beautiful. Thank you, Carlos."
This implied that he had seen it already, and now just wanted to go home earlier.
There was no need to waste time here.
He had been used to Carlos' gentleness before, but after last night, Ji Ling felt uncomfortable all over. When had this old guy started to have those kinds of unspeakable thoughts about him?
Carlos didn't seem to hear the insinuation in his words, and he gave a faint smile. His voice was low and magnetic, sounding as pleasant on the ears as a violin, as he said: "I have a gift for you."
