The activity ended, and Xiao Qi went back and still insisted on going jogging.
She was not lazy.
This small speech competition made Xiao Qi feel somewhat alert, feeling that she was still not strong enough. It was just a small competition within the campus, yet she was so nervous that she kept running to the toilet, unable to hold it in.
This should be a psychological problem, because in reality she couldn't even pee in the toilet.
It was just nerves, running to the bathroom was probably a subconscious feeling that it could relieve tension.
This problem must be overcome. There will be many more important moments in life, compared to a speech within the campus possibly the most trivial thing.
Her psychology was still too fragile.
Xiao Qi ran, analyzing her own state, the night breeze was slightly cool, making her slightly more clear-headed.
Being nervous and wanting to go to the bathroom was partly due to her previous bad habit, and probably also due to her lack of confidence in herself, fear, fear of what?
Think it through, she was actually afraid of embarrassment.
Before even participating in the competition, her class WeChat group had said that she would win first place, and her roommates were also very confident in her.
But what if not?
When she arrived at the competition venue, she found that Mrs. Su from the school board was also there as a judge, the venue was full of students, so she became afraid of embarrassing herself, giving a bad speech, forgetting words, getting nervous and awkward.
This kind of fear of embarrassment in front of everyone was probably the root cause of her anxiety.
When she was very young, falling while walking or saying the wrong thing did not make her feel ashamed or embarrassed.
But as she grew up slowly, she developed a sensitive self-esteem.
It could be said that this kind of self-esteem was actually connected with self-abasement.
The more self-esteem, the more self-abasing, the two emotions were one.
In order to be afraid of embarrassment, she would try her best to refuse to speak up, refuse to stand out, refuse to take the lead, and slowly became a shut-in, feeling that it was safer that way.
In reality it was also slowly wearing her down.
Xiao Qi felt that her problem was quite serious as she ran, and needed to be overcome.
If she was always afraid and never moved forward, she would always fall behind others.
But was she willing?
No she was not.
Why should she shrink in a corner at the age of seventeen or eighteen, she would definitely regret it in the future.
She slowly calmed her emotions and decided to change herself.
Next time no matter how nervous she was, she couldn't just run to the toilet as soon as she was nervous and treat the toilet as a space to escape.
It was useless.
After running, she went back to her dorm to take a bath and tidy up.
Then she practiced calligraphy to calm her mood.
Perhaps because her state of mind was a little different, she felt that her inner self had become a little bit stronger again. Today's calligraphy practice also felt differently rewarding, more steady, with a sense of grandeur.
The next morning, early in the morning, Xiao Qi had to go downtown. Li Luanliang, the president of the calligraphy and painting club, had previously said that he would take her to participate in the Calligraphy Association event to make an appearance.
Xiao Qi was still a little nervous in her heart, but after yesterday's speech competition, she had done a lot of psychological construction for herself, feeling that participating in such an event was just an exercise in courage. She couldn't hide in school all her life.
Since it was to attend an event, she tidied up a bit. Xiao Qi wore a black dress and matched it with a light brown knitted sweater which she bought at a small shop on the school street with Wei Cheng and her friends after the speech event.
Eighty yuan.
The quality looked pretty good, it was also suitable for Qiming City's autumn.
Matched with little white shoes.
Very girly.
The little black dress was more formal, but matched with the knitted sweater, it looked more gentle, not so serious, nor too casual.
A very clean outfit.
She carried a backpack, because Xiao Qi thought that it was rare to go downtown, and if she wanted to buy anything, she could put it in her backpack.
And she was used to bringing books when she went out, so she could read if she had time.
She had agreed to meet the president at the bridge head on campus.
Xiao Qi thought they would take the bus together, and did not expect that the president was also from a family with a car.
However, it was just an ordinary Volkswagen, around 200,000 RMB, which should already be good enough for a student.
Otherwise Xiao Qi would be a little worried that wearing a skirt and squeezing onto a bus would be a bit inconvenient.
She sat in the back seat.
The inside of the car was quite clean, looked quite new and very tidy, with a fresh scent. In front of the passenger seat there was a very cute doll. Xiao Qi felt that the president probably had a girlfriend - she wondered if it was the vice president.
Li Luanliang's eyes lit up when he saw the younger student.
The previous times he had seen her dressed very casual, like a high school student, looking very young.
Although he felt her calligraphy was very good, he still had some concerns about wanting her to take over the Calligraphy Association, as she looked too childish and he worried that she couldn't handle the situation.
But seeing her this time in a dress, looking serious, her aura was extremely powerful - she seemed different somehow.
"Congratulations on winning first place in the English speech competition," Li Luanliang teased as he started driving.
As presidents of these clubs and societies he would of course pay attention to the school's official TikTok account, and he was quite surprised to see Xiao Qi's win, she was really an outstanding young girl.
You wouldn't have thought she was also a top academically performing student.
"Thank you, president." Xiao Qi's face turned slightly red, but she still graciously thanked him.
Humility was a virtue, but sometimes she felt that being unabashedly delighted like foreign teachers also had its good points. She was happy with the praise, at that moment.
It made her slightly less nervous.
She was currently learning to drive, and had held a steering wheel before, so very carefully observed how the president was driving after getting in the car, taking note of each step - how to navigate bends and turns, overtake, brake and so on.
Li Luanliang could see the younger student staring at him from the rearview mirror and felt slightly uncomfortable. He asked, "What's the matter?"
"I'm learning to drive," replied Xiao Qi.
Li Luanliang took a moment to digest before laughing again.
Halfway through the journey, as it was taking quite some time, Xiao Qi couldn't help but gossip and ask, "President, do you have a girlfriend?"
"Yes, she studies at Qingming University, we're in the same year but I'm at Enhua University. We were high school classmates."
Xiao Qi breathed a sigh of relief, then couldn't help mimicking Wei Cheng's catchphrase, "How wonderful."
To be together from high school to university was not easy. Although she didn't know if they could continue in the future, but probably the most beautiful and purest years of their lives had been spent together.
"Of course, I'll introduce her to you next time if there's a chance. Your senior is very outstanding like you." When talking about his girlfriend, Li Luanliang couldn't hold back his smile.
Halfway through, Xiao Qi received a phone call. It turned out to be from the little Xiao Bao'er.
She greeted Xiao Qi very formally. Through the phone Xiao Qi could feel her big round eyes and little mature demeanor. She then coquettishly said, "Xiao Qi, tomorrow is my birthday. I'm inviting you to come."
The activity ended, and Xiao Qi went back and still insisted on going jogging.
She was not lazy.
This small speech competition made Xiao Qi feel somewhat alert, feeling that she was still not strong enough. It was just a small competition within the campus, yet she was so nervous that she kept running to the toilet, unable to hold it in.
This should be a psychological problem, because in reality she couldn't even pee in the toilet.
It was just nerves, running to the bathroom was probably a subconscious feeling that it could relieve tension.
This problem must be overcome. There will be many more important moments in life, compared to a speech within the campus possibly the most trivial thing.
Her psychology was still too fragile.
Xiao Qi ran, analyzing her own state, the night breeze was slightly cool, making her slightly more clear-headed.
Being nervous and wanting to go to the bathroom was partly due to her previous bad habit, and probably also due to her lack of confidence in herself, fear, fear of what?
Think it through, she was actually afraid of embarrassment.
Before even participating in the competition, her class WeChat group had said that she would win first place, and her roommates were also very confident in her.
But what if not?
When she arrived at the competition venue, she found that Mrs. Su from the school board was also there as a judge, the venue was full of students, so she became afraid of embarrassing herself, giving a bad speech, forgetting words, getting nervous and awkward.
This kind of fear of embarrassment in front of everyone was probably the root cause of her anxiety.
When she was very young, falling while walking or saying the wrong thing did not make her feel ashamed or embarrassed.
But as she grew up slowly, she developed a sensitive self-esteem.
It could be said that this kind of self-esteem was actually connected with self-abasement.
The more self-esteem, the more self-abasing, the two emotions were one.
In order to be afraid of embarrassment, she would try her best to refuse to speak up, refuse to stand out, refuse to take the lead, and slowly became a shut-in, feeling that it was safer that way.
In reality it was also slowly wearing her down.
Xiao Qi felt that her problem was quite serious as she ran, and needed to be overcome.
If she was always afraid and never moved forward, she would always fall behind others.
But was she willing?
No she was not.
Why should she shrink in a corner at the age of seventeen or eighteen, she would definitely regret it in the future.
She slowly calmed her emotions and decided to change herself.
Next time no matter how nervous she was, she couldn't just run to the toilet as soon as she was nervous and treat the toilet as a space to escape.
It was useless.
After running, she went back to her dorm to take a bath and tidy up.
Then she practiced calligraphy to calm her mood.
Perhaps because her state of mind was a little different, she felt that her inner self had become a little bit stronger again. Today's calligraphy practice also felt differently rewarding, more steady, with a sense of grandeur.
The next morning, early in the morning, Xiao Qi had to go downtown. Li Luanliang, the president of the calligraphy and painting club, had previously said that he would take her to participate in the Calligraphy Association event to make an appearance.
Xiao Qi was still a little nervous in her heart, but after yesterday's speech competition, she had done a lot of psychological construction for herself, feeling that participating in such an event was just an exercise in courage. She couldn't hide in school all her life.
Since it was to attend an event, she tidied up a bit. Xiao Qi wore a black dress and matched it with a light brown knitted sweater which she bought at a small shop on the school street with Wei Cheng and her friends after the speech event.
Eighty yuan.
The quality looked pretty good, it was also suitable for Qiming City's autumn.
Matched with little white shoes.
Very girly.
The little black dress was more formal, but matched with the knitted sweater, it looked more gentle, not so serious, nor too casual.
A very clean outfit.
She carried a backpack, because Xiao Qi thought that it was rare to go downtown, and if she wanted to buy anything, she could put it in her backpack.
And she was used to bringing books when she went out, so she could read if she had time.
She had agreed to meet the president at the bridge head on campus.
Xiao Qi thought they would take the bus together, and did not expect that the president was also from a family with a car.
However, it was just an ordinary Volkswagen, around 200,000 RMB, which should already be good enough for a student.
Otherwise Xiao Qi would be a little worried that wearing a skirt and squeezing onto a bus would be a bit inconvenient.
She sat in the back seat.
The inside of the car was quite clean, looked quite new and very tidy, with a fresh scent. In front of the passenger seat there was a very cute doll. Xiao Qi felt that the president probably had a girlfriend - she wondered if it was the vice president.
Li Luanliang's eyes lit up when he saw the younger student.
The previous times he had seen her dressed very casual, like a high school student, looking very young.
Although he felt her calligraphy was very good, he still had some concerns about wanting her to take over the Calligraphy Association, as she looked too childish and he worried that she couldn't handle the situation.
But seeing her this time in a dress, looking serious, her aura was extremely powerful - she seemed different somehow.
"Congratulations on winning first place in the English speech competition," Li Luanliang teased as he started driving.
As presidents of these clubs and societies he would of course pay attention to the school's official TikTok account, and he was quite surprised to see Xiao Qi's win, she was really an outstanding young girl.
You wouldn't have thought she was also a top academically performing student.
"Thank you, president." Xiao Qi's face turned slightly red, but she still graciously thanked him.
Humility was a virtue, but sometimes she felt that being unabashedly delighted like foreign teachers also had its good points. She was happy with the praise, at that moment.
It made her slightly less nervous.
She was currently learning to drive, and had held a steering wheel before, so very carefully observed how the president was driving after getting in the car, taking note of each step - how to navigate bends and turns, overtake, brake and so on.
Li Luanliang could see the younger student staring at him from the rearview mirror and felt slightly uncomfortable. He asked, "What's the matter?"
"I'm learning to drive," replied Xiao Qi.
Li Luanliang took a moment to digest before laughing again.
Halfway through the journey, as it was taking quite some time, Xiao Qi couldn't help but gossip and ask, "President, do you have a girlfriend?"
"Yes, she studies at Qingming University, we're in the same year but I'm at Enhua University. We were high school classmates."
Xiao Qi breathed a sigh of relief, then couldn't help mimicking Wei Cheng's catchphrase, "How wonderful."
To be together from high school to university was not easy. Although she didn't know if they could continue in the future, but probably the most beautiful and purest years of their lives had been spent together.
"Of course, I'll introduce her to you next time if there's a chance. Your senior is very outstanding like you." When talking about his girlfriend, Li Luanliang couldn't hold back his smile.
Halfway through, Xiao Qi received a phone call. It turned out to be from the little Xiao Bao'er.
She greeted Xiao Qi very formally. Through the phone Xiao Qi could feel her big round eyes and little mature demeanor. She then coquettishly said, "Xiao Qi, tomorrow is my birthday. I'm inviting you to come."
