Chapter 4: 4
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Jay sat with her hips in front of a chair, stretched her legs, leaned against her back, and looked at the ceiling blankly.
Then I got bored, and I brought the backpack I had on the table over my lap and rummaged inside.
“Hmmhhm”
Jay, who was humming, took out her smartphone from her bag, picked up the phone, put on earphones, and turned on the music.
Subsequently, I turned on a web portal site and muttered through real-time search terms and articles.
“It works. no matter how much you look at it, it’s magical.”
In this world where there is no such thing as Wi-Fi or satellite, it is still a wonder that the smartphone works fine except that you cannot use the call function.
Since I am using my usual smartphone, I’m confused whether this is a world of a different dimension or whether I have traveled to Europe to experience medieval culture.
“That jerk kept one promise.”
Remembering Kay, who snorted at Jay, who was forced to only bring a few things with her. Jay cursed her boss hard in her heart
When Jay’s favorite idol’s song came out she tapped her feet to the beat and hummed the song.
Jay was in a trance and humming while imitating the idol steps, and at the moment she was thrilled.
‘Ugh! No! It hasn’t been a long time since we haven’t met him, so we have to show some sternness.’
For the puppy, Jay always wanted to be a dignified teacher and a dignified parent However, her wish has never been fulfilled.
At the moment. Jay, who was possessed by an idol, became ice while trying to correct her sitting posture.
The door of the stone chamber was wide open, and someone was standing in front of the door.
The embarrassment of showing someone the right side of the room came at an instant, but soon she opened her eyes wide at the figure of a man standing in front of the door.
The tall man, standing in the backlit of sunlight, seen through the sunglasses, had a very dark hair color.
Perhaps it is black like the night sky. Jay’s pretty pink lips were smiling with a gentle curve.
The man’s eyes, standing without motion, touched Jay’s lips. Jay took the earphones out of her ears, put her smartphone on the table, and slowly got up and walked out to the man.
The man’s gaze continued to be fixed as if nailed to Jay’s lips. Jay’s lips slowly opened.
“Are you the Duke of Langel?”
The man stood without motion like a stuffed doll, and only the eyes on Jay’s lips as it moved then looked into her eyes.
Even though I was wearing dark sunglasses, it was a strong gaze as if he saw through it.
“You have to answer my question. I’ll ask again. Are you Duke Landgel right?”
Jay was already convinced, but this was an essential procedure. I waited for the man to answer.
“…I am the Duke of Landgel.”
A slightly cracked, low-pitched voice came out of the man’s mouth, looking intensely at Jay with an unshakable gaze.
From the low and thick voice of an adult man, I could feel the voice of a young boy that is now only in Jay’s memory. Now the second question.
“What does spongebob make at the krusty krab?”
For the first time, the man’s gaze shook weakly at Jay’s cheerful question.
‘This is so embarassing!’
The man had a cold face with no expression right now, but Jay immediately noticed that the man was embarrassed.
“Come on. Do you know the answer?”
“… krabby…patties”
“Yes, you’re right! Now, the last question.”
Jay took off her sunglasses and asked, smiling.
“Where was the last place we bought ice cream?”
The man shivered little by little as he looked at Jay’s warm black eyes clearly revealed by taking off her sunglasses.
“Eunkwang Supermart.”
As an answer flowed from the man’s mouth like a sigh, Jay ran to the man with a wide smile and hugged him.
She couldn’t wrap her arms around his entire body, but she held him tightly with her arms open as much as possible and rubbed her face against the man’s chest.
“Hi, my puppy.”
The words flowing out of Jay’s mouth were warm and affectionate, and instantly smashed the man’s cold mask.
The woman in her arms now was the Jay she wanted and painted. She really came to find herself.
The man slowly embraced Jay with his trembling hands. Eventually, the arms that held Jay gradually began to get stronger and buried his face on the back of Jay’s neck.
‘I haven’t been abandoned!! You didn’t abandon me!… Jay… Jay’
From the moment the Duke opens the door to the stone chamber, Bern and the guards watched them from behind.
Living in an ordinary life, we don’t know how precious it is.
Jay originally lived a normal life that would be sad if it were the second in Korea.
A father who works at a company and a mother who is an elementary school teacher. Jay, a two-year-old younger brother, and a younger sister born late.
As the eldest under double-income parents like other homes, Jay took care of her younger siblings instead of her parents, though she spent a lot of time fighting with them.
She wasn’t very rich, but she lived financially without shortage and her grades were at the top. Still, her life isn’t perfect.
I went to a prestigious university in Seoul and my personal relationships with others were not much nor little. My best friend was to study in the United States, not in Korea.
When my 4th-year college graduation was on my near, I said that I was accumulating credentials for a better job.
It was a very ordinary life, nothing special.
But in just a moment Jay’s life fell to hell.
Ahead of Jay’s graduation, her younger brother and her family met hir, who said he would leave the military for the graduation ceremony.
My younger brother, who was in Gangwon-do, came out on vacation on the weekend, and her parents and younger sister decided to go to Gangwon-do to bring her younger brother, except for Jay, who was unable to go to the TOEIC test.
Her family who had gone to the front of the unit and returned home with their younger brothers were unable to return home forever due to a traffic accident caused by heavy snow.
The parents who served as the support, the younger brother who was reluctant but depended on, and the younger sister who had a big age difference and cared for like children, all disappeared by Jay in an instant.
However, because she had two aunts who weren’t very close together, they put Jay in front of the family’s photos and said that you are an adult now and that you are also an adult.
The bottom line was, don’t bother us and you should live on your own.
After the funeral, the contact of my aunts, who sometimes asked how to say hello, naturally stopped.
The contact of friends and seniors and juniors who had communicated worries gradually decreased.
Relationships with people weren’t very elaborate, as if they were connected with such a thin thread, were cut off.
So Jay was finally completely alone.
I couldn’t eat or sleep for a while.
I was stuck in a quiet house and didn’t do anything. The graduation ceremony had already passed, so there was no need to go to school. It was just that in the house my parents left behind.
Like a buoy floating in the middle of the dark sea, I was buried in silence. I often thought that I wanted to die like this.
It was a stupid idea to die, but at the time it wasn’t.
When I think about it later, it seems that Jay hasn’t forgiven herself for being alone that time. It was an accident that her family died, and it wasn’t her fault.
However, Jay couldn’t get away from the thought that her family had died because of her, and it was hard to bear the feelings of guilt. So Jay took sleeping pills.
I woke up and opened my eyes to see a white ceiling.
I was in a hospital. Jay burst into tears.
‘I tried to die… I’m sorry, Dad. I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry.’
“Heuk… Hu…”
Jay was fierce and said to her parents and younger siblings that she was sorry over and over again.
The moment I was alone was so difficult that I made extreme choices, but when I woke up, I realized that I had been cheating on my loved ones.
Jay sobbed, asking for forgiveness that she would never do this again.
The day I was discharged, I met my uncle, who had put Jay in the hospital.
My mother’s only brother, her uncle, is a person who is hardly able to see her face because he does business all around the world.
He came home after hearing the news of his sister’s obituary and found Jay and rushed to the emergency room.
Without a word, my uncle left the hospital and drove us home.
He walked into the house, cleaned up the messy interior, and began cooking rice in the kitchen.
These were the sounds that felt the sense of life that I heard in a long time in the house.
Jay, sitting quietly on the living room sofa, closed her eyes and listened to the sound, felt as if her family had returned to the time they were alive.
My uncle, who made simple soups and side dishes on the table, poured rice and asked Jay to eat.
After closing her grief tightly, she wiped her tears without her uncle’s knowledge.
Jay got up from the sofa and headed to the kitchen.
“My uncle, you’re good at living.”
Jay’s maternal uncle looks like a bandit but he made such a perfect home meals with those bearish hands.
For Jay, who couldn’t see him often thought it was surprising.
“I think it’s an occupational disease*.”
“Occupational disease?”
Are you working as a housekeeper because you are having problems? Jay started to worry a little.
“It turned out like this when I was raising children and living.”
“Yeah? When did you get married, your uncle?”
As far as Jay knows, he was unmarried, but he may have been married recently when contact was low.
“Inhae was 10 years old right? You’re a good daughter.”
The story of the youngest sister who came out of nowhere seemed to close her heart It was difficult to breathe for a moment, and I held the spoon firmly.
“Yeah, my sister said that about you a lot. Sometimes you’re more like a mother than your actual mom”
“…”
“I… we couldn’t meet often, but every time we did it, I thought that you had grown up well without relying much on your parents. Your mother and father raised you well but under working parents, I can see how much you took care of your younger siblings.”
“Heuk… Ugh…”
The tears that she had held in her eyes poured out endlessly.
After crying for a long time, Jay went into the bathroom, washed her face with cold water, and sat down on the living room sofa.
My uncle gave out a glass of water to Jay, who was staring at the sky from the balcony window.
I drank it all at once and then handed the cup and mumbled a little thank you.
After going to the kitchen, washing the cups, and placing them on the dish rack, he sat on the sofa opposite Jay, looking at her.
“Now that I have graduated from college, I have to get a job. Is there a place you wanted to work at?”
“No, I was just trying find somewhere that would fit my major.”
“Then what do you think of becoming a civil servant?”
“Civil servant? I haven’t thought about it… I have to study more to take the civil service exam, but I just wanted to get a job quickly.”
“It is possible to become a public official only by recommendation without an exam, but the conditions are a little strict… but Jay, I think you can pass right away. “
“Is there anything like that?”
You don’t even take the test and you can become a public official just by recommending it…
This is the first time I heard of something like that because I’ve looked into requirements to be appointed as a public official while preparing for employment.
“Isn’t that some kind of corruption? Do I have to give a few thousand to get in …?”
“haha… you’ll see”
Seeing her uncle smiling boldly, it seemed that he was not on the fraudulent employment side involving bribery.
Jay was curious about what the hell he was talking about.
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Jay sat with her hips in front of a chair, stretched her legs, leaned against her back, and looked at the ceiling blankly.
Then I got bored, and I brought the backpack I had on the table over my lap and rummaged inside.
“Hmmhhm”
Jay, who was humming, took out her smartphone from her bag, picked up the phone, put on earphones, and turned on the music.
Subsequently, I turned on a web portal site and muttered through real-time search terms and articles.
“It works. no matter how much you look at it, it’s magical.”
In this world where there is no such thing as Wi-Fi or satellite, it is still a wonder that the smartphone works fine except that you cannot use the call function.
Since I am using my usual smartphone, I’m confused whether this is a world of a different dimension or whether I have traveled to Europe to experience medieval culture.
“That jerk kept one promise.”
Remembering Kay, who snorted at Jay, who was forced to only bring a few things with her. Jay cursed her boss hard in her heart
When Jay’s favorite idol’s song came out she tapped her feet to the beat and hummed the song.
Jay was in a trance and humming while imitating the idol steps, and at the moment she was thrilled.
‘Ugh! No! It hasn’t been a long time since we haven’t met him, so we have to show some sternness.’
For the puppy, Jay always wanted to be a dignified teacher and a dignified parent However, her wish has never been fulfilled.
At the moment. Jay, who was possessed by an idol, became ice while trying to correct her sitting posture.
The door of the stone chamber was wide open, and someone was standing in front of the door.
The embarrassment of showing someone the right side of the room came at an instant, but soon she opened her eyes wide at the figure of a man standing in front of the door.
The tall man, standing in the backlit of sunlight, seen through the sunglasses, had a very dark hair color.
Perhaps it is black like the night sky. Jay’s pretty pink lips were smiling with a gentle curve.
The man’s eyes, standing without motion, touched Jay’s lips. Jay took the earphones out of her ears, put her smartphone on the table, and slowly got up and walked out to the man.
The man’s gaze continued to be fixed as if nailed to Jay’s lips. Jay’s lips slowly opened.
“Are you the Duke of Langel?”
The man stood without motion like a stuffed doll, and only the eyes on Jay’s lips as it moved then looked into her eyes.
Even though I was wearing dark sunglasses, it was a strong gaze as if he saw through it.
“You have to answer my question. I’ll ask again. Are you Duke Landgel right?”
Jay was already convinced, but this was an essential procedure. I waited for the man to answer.
“…I am the Duke of Landgel.”
A slightly cracked, low-pitched voice came out of the man’s mouth, looking intensely at Jay with an unshakable gaze.
From the low and thick voice of an adult man, I could feel the voice of a young boy that is now only in Jay’s memory. Now the second question.
“What does spongebob make at the krusty krab?”
For the first time, the man’s gaze shook weakly at Jay’s cheerful question.
‘This is so embarassing!’
The man had a cold face with no expression right now, but Jay immediately noticed that the man was embarrassed.
“Come on. Do you know the answer?”
“… krabby…patties”
“Yes, you’re right! Now, the last question.”
Jay took off her sunglasses and asked, smiling.
“Where was the last place we bought ice cream?”
The man shivered little by little as he looked at Jay’s warm black eyes clearly revealed by taking off her sunglasses.
“Eunkwang Supermart.”
As an answer flowed from the man’s mouth like a sigh, Jay ran to the man with a wide smile and hugged him.
She couldn’t wrap her arms around his entire body, but she held him tightly with her arms open as much as possible and rubbed her face against the man’s chest.
“Hi, my puppy.”
The words flowing out of Jay’s mouth were warm and affectionate, and instantly smashed the man’s cold mask.
The woman in her arms now was the Jay she wanted and painted. She really came to find herself.
The man slowly embraced Jay with his trembling hands. Eventually, the arms that held Jay gradually began to get stronger and buried his face on the back of Jay’s neck.
‘I haven’t been abandoned!! You didn’t abandon me!… Jay… Jay’
From the moment the Duke opens the door to the stone chamber, Bern and the guards watched them from behind.
Living in an ordinary life, we don’t know how precious it is.
Jay originally lived a normal life that would be sad if it were the second in Korea.
A father who works at a company and a mother who is an elementary school teacher. Jay, a two-year-old younger brother, and a younger sister born late.
As the eldest under double-income parents like other homes, Jay took care of her younger siblings instead of her parents, though she spent a lot of time fighting with them.
She wasn’t very rich, but she lived financially without shortage and her grades were at the top. Still, her life isn’t perfect.
I went to a prestigious university in Seoul and my personal relationships with others were not much nor little. My best friend was to study in the United States, not in Korea.
When my 4th-year college graduation was on my near, I said that I was accumulating credentials for a better job.
It was a very ordinary life, nothing special.
But in just a moment Jay’s life fell to hell.
Ahead of Jay’s graduation, her younger brother and her family met hir, who said he would leave the military for the graduation ceremony.
My younger brother, who was in Gangwon-do, came out on vacation on the weekend, and her parents and younger sister decided to go to Gangwon-do to bring her younger brother, except for Jay, who was unable to go to the TOEIC test.
Her family who had gone to the front of the unit and returned home with their younger brothers were unable to return home forever due to a traffic accident caused by heavy snow.
The parents who served as the support, the younger brother who was reluctant but depended on, and the younger sister who had a big age difference and cared for like children, all disappeared by Jay in an instant.
However, because she had two aunts who weren’t very close together, they put Jay in front of the family’s photos and said that you are an adult now and that you are also an adult.
The bottom line was, don’t bother us and you should live on your own.
After the funeral, the contact of my aunts, who sometimes asked how to say hello, naturally stopped.
The contact of friends and seniors and juniors who had communicated worries gradually decreased.
Relationships with people weren’t very elaborate, as if they were connected with such a thin thread, were cut off.
So Jay was finally completely alone.
I couldn’t eat or sleep for a while.
I was stuck in a quiet house and didn’t do anything. The graduation ceremony had already passed, so there was no need to go to school. It was just that in the house my parents left behind.
Like a buoy floating in the middle of the dark sea, I was buried in silence. I often thought that I wanted to die like this.
It was a stupid idea to die, but at the time it wasn’t.
When I think about it later, it seems that Jay hasn’t forgiven herself for being alone that time. It was an accident that her family died, and it wasn’t her fault.
However, Jay couldn’t get away from the thought that her family had died because of her, and it was hard to bear the feelings of guilt. So Jay took sleeping pills.
I woke up and opened my eyes to see a white ceiling.
I was in a hospital. Jay burst into tears.
‘I tried to die… I’m sorry, Dad. I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry.’
“Heuk… Hu…”
Jay was fierce and said to her parents and younger siblings that she was sorry over and over again.
The moment I was alone was so difficult that I made extreme choices, but when I woke up, I realized that I had been cheating on my loved ones.
Jay sobbed, asking for forgiveness that she would never do this again.
The day I was discharged, I met my uncle, who had put Jay in the hospital.
My mother’s only brother, her uncle, is a person who is hardly able to see her face because he does business all around the world.
He came home after hearing the news of his sister’s obituary and found Jay and rushed to the emergency room.
Without a word, my uncle left the hospital and drove us home.
He walked into the house, cleaned up the messy interior, and began cooking rice in the kitchen.
These were the sounds that felt the sense of life that I heard in a long time in the house.
Jay, sitting quietly on the living room sofa, closed her eyes and listened to the sound, felt as if her family had returned to the time they were alive.
My uncle, who made simple soups and side dishes on the table, poured rice and asked Jay to eat.
After closing her grief tightly, she wiped her tears without her uncle’s knowledge.
Jay got up from the sofa and headed to the kitchen.
“My uncle, you’re good at living.”
Jay’s maternal uncle looks like a bandit but he made such a perfect home meals with those bearish hands.
For Jay, who couldn’t see him often thought it was surprising.
“I think it’s an occupational disease*.”
“Occupational disease?”
Are you working as a housekeeper because you are having problems? Jay started to worry a little.
“It turned out like this when I was raising children and living.”
“Yeah? When did you get married, your uncle?”
As far as Jay knows, he was unmarried, but he may have been married recently when contact was low.
“Inhae was 10 years old right? You’re a good daughter.”
The story of the youngest sister who came out of nowhere seemed to close her heart It was difficult to breathe for a moment, and I held the spoon firmly.
“Yeah, my sister said that about you a lot. Sometimes you’re more like a mother than your actual mom”
“…”
“I… we couldn’t meet often, but every time we did it, I thought that you had grown up well without relying much on your parents. Your mother and father raised you well but under working parents, I can see how much you took care of your younger siblings.”
“Heuk… Ugh…”
The tears that she had held in her eyes poured out endlessly.
After crying for a long time, Jay went into the bathroom, washed her face with cold water, and sat down on the living room sofa.
My uncle gave out a glass of water to Jay, who was staring at the sky from the balcony window.
I drank it all at once and then handed the cup and mumbled a little thank you.
After going to the kitchen, washing the cups, and placing them on the dish rack, he sat on the sofa opposite Jay, looking at her.
“Now that I have graduated from college, I have to get a job. Is there a place you wanted to work at?”
“No, I was just trying find somewhere that would fit my major.”
“Then what do you think of becoming a civil servant?”
“Civil servant? I haven’t thought about it… I have to study more to take the civil service exam, but I just wanted to get a job quickly.”
“It is possible to become a public official only by recommendation without an exam, but the conditions are a little strict… but Jay, I think you can pass right away. “
“Is there anything like that?”
You don’t even take the test and you can become a public official just by recommending it…
This is the first time I heard of something like that because I’ve looked into requirements to be appointed as a public official while preparing for employment.
“Isn’t that some kind of corruption? Do I have to give a few thousand to get in …?”
“haha… you’ll see”
Seeing her uncle smiling boldly, it seemed that he was not on the fraudulent employment side involving bribery.
Jay was curious about what the hell he was talking about.
Jay sat with her hips in front of a chair, stretched her legs, leaned against her back, and looked at the ceiling blankly.Then I got bored, and I brought the backpack I had on the table over my lap and rummaged inside.HmmhhmJay, who was humming, took out her smartphone from her bag, picked up the phone, put on earphones, and turned on the music.Subsequently, I turned on a web portal site and muttered through real-time search terms and articles.It works. no matter how much you look at it, it's magical.In this world where there is no such thing as Wi-Fi or satellite, it is still a wonder that the smartphone works fine except that you cannot use the call function.Since I am using my usual smartphone, I'm confused whether this is a world of a different dimension or whether I have traveled to Europe to experience medieval culture.That jerk kept one promise.Remembering Kay, who snorted at Jay, who was forced to only bring a few things with her. Jay cursed her boss hard in her heartWhen Jay's favorite idol's song came out she tapped her feet to the beat and hummed the song.Jay was in a trance and humming while imitating the idol steps, and at the moment she was thrilled.Ugh! No! It hasn't been a long time since we haven't met him, so we have to show some sternness.'For the puppy, Jay always wanted to be a dignified teacher and a dignified parent However, her wish has never been fulfilled.At the moment. Jay, who was possessed by an idol, became ice while trying to correct her sitting posture.The door of the stone chamber was wide open, and someone was standing in front of the door.The embarrassment of showing someone the right side of the room came at an instant, but soon she opened her eyes wide at the figure of a man standing in front of the door.The tall man, standing in the backlit of sunlight, seen through the sunglasses, had a very dark hair color.Perhaps it is black like the night sky. Jay's pretty pink lips were smiling with a gentle curve.The man's eyes, standing without motion, touched Jay's lips. Jay took the earphones out of her ears, put her smartphone on the table, and slowly got up and walked out to the man.The man's gaze continued to be fixed as if nailed to Jay's lips. Jay's lips slowly opened.Are you the Duke of Langel?The man stood without motion like a stuffed doll, and only the eyes on Jay's lips as it moved then looked into her eyes.Even though I was wearing dark sunglasses, it was a strong gaze as if he saw through it.You have to answer my question. I'll ask again. Are you Duke Landgel right?Jay was already convinced, but this was an essential procedure. I waited for the man to answer.I am the Duke of Landgel.A slightly cracked, low-pitched voice came out of the man's mouth, looking intensely at Jay with an unshakable gaze.From the low and thick voice of an adult man, I could feel the voice of a young boy that is now only in Jay's memory. Now the second question.What does spongebob make at the krusty krab?For the first time, the man's gaze shook weakly at Jay's cheerful question.This is so embarassing!'The man had a cold face with no expression right now, but Jay immediately noticed that the man was embarrassed.Come on. Do you know the answer? krabbypattiesYes, you're right! Now, the last question.Jay took off her sunglasses and asked, smiling.Where was the last place we bought ice cream?The man shivered little by little as he looked at Jay's warm black eyes clearly revealed by taking off her sunglasses.Eunkwang Supermart.As an answer flowed from the man's mouth like a sigh, Jay ran to the man with a wide smile and hugged him.She couldn't wrap her arms around his entire body, but she held him tightly with her arms open as much as possible and rubbed her face against the man's chest.Hi, my puppy.The words flowing out of Jay's mouth were warm and affectionate, and instantly smashed the man's cold mask.The woman in her arms now was the Jay she wanted and painted. She really came to find herself.The man slowly embraced Jay with his trembling hands. Eventually, the arms that held Jay gradually began to get stronger and buried his face on the back of Jay's neck.I haven't been abandoned!! You didn't abandon me! Jay Jay'From the moment the Duke opens the door to the stone chamber, Bern and the guards watched them from behind.Living in an ordinary life, we don't know how precious it is.Jay originally lived a normal life that would be sad if it were the second in Korea.A father who works at a company and a mother who is an elementary school teacher. Jay, a two-year-old younger brother, and a younger sister born late.As the eldest under double-income parents like other homes, Jay took care of her younger siblings instead of her parents, though she spent a lot of time fighting with them.She wasn't very rich, but she lived financially without shortage and her grades were at the top. Still, her life isn't perfect.I went to a prestigious university in Seoul and my personal relationships with others were not much nor little. My best friend was to study in the United States, not in Korea.When my 4th-year college graduation was on my near, I said that I was accumulating credentials for a better job.It was a very ordinary life, nothing special.But in just a moment Jay's life fell to hell.Ahead of Jay's graduation, her younger brother and her family met hir, who said he would leave the military for the graduation ceremony.My younger brother, who was in Gangwon-do, came out on vacation on the weekend, and her parents and younger sister decided to go to Gangwon-do to bring her younger brother, except for Jay, who was unable to go to the TOEIC test.Her family who had gone to the front of the unit and returned home with their younger brothers were unable to return home forever due to a traffic accident caused by heavy snow.The parents who served as the support, the younger brother who was reluctant but depended on, and the younger sister who had a big age difference and cared for like children, all disappeared by Jay in an instant.However, because she had two aunts who weren't very close together, they put Jay in front of the family's photos and said that you are an adult now and that you are also an adult.The bottom line was, don't bother us and you should live on your own.After the funeral, the contact of my aunts, who sometimes asked how to say hello, naturally stopped.The contact of friends and seniors and juniors who had communicated worries gradually decreased.Relationships with people weren't very elaborate, as if they were connected with such a thin thread, were cut off.So Jay was finally completely alone.I couldn't eat or sleep for a while.I was stuck in a quiet house and didn't do anything. The graduation ceremony had already passed, so there was no need to go to school. It was just that in the house my parents left behind.Like a buoy floating in the middle of the dark sea, I was buried in silence. I often thought that I wanted to die like this.It was a stupid idea to die, but at the time it wasn't.When I think about it later, it seems that Jay hasn't forgiven herself for being alone that time. It was an accident that her family died, and it wasn't her fault.However, Jay couldn't get away from the thought that her family had died because of her, and it was hard to bear the feelings of guilt. So Jay took sleeping pills.I woke up and opened my eyes to see a white ceiling.I was in a hospital. Jay burst into tears.I tried to die I'm sorry, Dad. I'm sorry mom. I'm sorry.'Heuk HuJay was fierce and said to her parents and younger siblings that she was sorry over and over again.The moment I was alone was so difficult that I made extreme choices, but when I woke up, I realized that I had been cheating on my loved ones.Jay sobbed, asking for forgiveness that she would never do this again.The day I was discharged, I met my uncle, who had put Jay in the hospital.My mother's only brother, her uncle, is a person who is hardly able to see her face because he does business all around the world.He came home after hearing the news of his sister's obituary and found Jay and rushed to the emergency room.Without a word, my uncle left the hospital and drove us home.He walked into the house, cleaned up the messy interior, and began cooking rice in the kitchen.These were the sounds that felt the sense of life that I heard in a long time in the house.Jay, sitting quietly on the living room sofa, closed her eyes and listened to the sound, felt as if her family had returned to the time they were alive.My uncle, who made simple soups and side dishes on the table, poured rice and asked Jay to eat.After closing her grief tightly, she wiped her tears without her uncle's knowledge.Jay got up from the sofa and headed to the kitchen.My uncle, you're good at living.Jay's maternal uncle looks like a bandit but he made such a perfect home meals with those bearish hands.For Jay, who couldn't see him often thought it was surprising.I think it's an occupational disease*.Occupational disease?Are you working as a housekeeper because you are having problems? Jay started to worry a little.It turned out like this when I was raising children and living.Yeah? When did you get married, your uncle?As far as Jay knows, he was unmarried, but he may have been married recently when contact was low.Inhae was 10 years old right? You're a good daughter.The story of the youngest sister who came out of nowhere seemed to close her heart It was difficult to breathe for a moment, and I held the spoon firmly.Yeah, my sister said that about you a lot. Sometimes you're more like a mother than your actual momI we couldn't meet often, but every time we did it, I thought that you had grown up well without relying much on your parents. Your mother and father raised you well but under working parents, I can see how much you took care of your younger siblings.Heuk UghThe tears that she had held in her eyes poured out endlessly.After crying for a long time, Jay went into the bathroom, washed her face with cold water, and sat down on the living room sofa.My uncle gave out a glass of water to Jay, who was staring at the sky from the balcony window.I drank it all at once and then handed the cup and mumbled a little thank you.After going to the kitchen, washing the cups, and placing them on the dish rack, he sat on the sofa opposite Jay, looking at her.Now that I have graduated from college, I have to get a job. Is there a place you wanted to work at?No, I was just trying find somewhere that would fit my major.Then what do you think of becoming a civil servant?Civil servant? I haven't thought about it I have to study more to take the civil service exam, but I just wanted to get a job quickly.It is possible to become a public official only by recommendation without an exam, but the conditions are a little strict but Jay, I think you can pass right away. Is there anything like that?You don't even take the test and you can become a public official just by recommending itThis is the first time I heard of something like that because I've looked into requirements to be appointed as a public official while preparing for employment.Isn't that some kind of corruption? Do I have to give a few thousand to get in ?haha you'll seeSeeing her uncle smiling boldly, it seemed that he was not on the fraudulent employment side involving bribery.Jay was curious about what the hell he was talking about.
