Translated by BunnyByun
Edited by ArroganceComplex
Episode 52: Diary of Sin
E/N: The past will now be revealed, this chapter will be quite the reveal, looking forward to your reaction on what made Iori lose the motherly love he deserved.
October 3: Test results show that I’m pregnant. They are identical twins! They are important to Yuichi and I, so I have to make sure they are born healthy. But the Queen Dolls don’t allow romance. I’ve been dating Yuichi secretly since before I made my debut, but I’m sure they’ll find out about it when my belly starts to get bigger. But still, I don’t want to give up on either my children or being an artist! I’ve been dreaming of it since I was a little girl and I already came this far, so I’m not giving up now! I’ll have these children and continue being an artist. Don’t worry, I’ll have you both!
November 4: My manager Mr. Takasaki finally found out. He was very angry but he said that he would try to talk to his superiors so that I wouldn’t have to leave the band. Don’t worry my twins. I’m sure he will be able to convince them!
November 10: Thanks to Mr. Takasaki’s tremendous efforts, the office finally relented! They said that the only condition was that I have to have a natural childbirth. Our group’s popularity is based on our s**y, belly button-baring outfits, so a scar from a C-section would surely be revealed to the fans. So, if I couldn’t have a natural birth, I would have to quit this job. I’ve heard that natural birth of twins is difficult, but I’m fine. My progress is going well, and as long as neither of my twins is breech birth, I can meet the requirements. After I finish my current job, I’m going to pretend I’m sick and take a break from “Saki” until I give birth to my twins. All we have to do is wait for things to work out from here on.
(T/N: Most babies are in a headfirst position right before birth, but in some cases, the baby is in a bottom-first, or feet-first position. This is called a breech birth or breech baby.)
January 1: Yuichi comes up with names for the twins. The boy would be named Iori and the girl is Shiori. Shiori sounds cute, but Iori doesn’t sound like a boy’s name, and I think a cooler name would be better. When I told him that, he replied, “I have a feeling that he would also be like me in the future and travel around the world. If his name is difficult for a foreigner to pronounce, won’t he remember that he was born in Japan? Living in this country is fine. He can also become a foreigner if he wants. But I want to leave this child with something that confirms that he was born and raised in Japan. Besides, Iori… is a cool name.” Yuichi said as he rubbed my belly. Yes, that’s a good name. But you don’t have to listen to your husband all the time, you know? That’s true. I want him to grow up to be muscular and masculine just like the soldiers at Yuichi’s work, then he will be popular with the girls. And maybe Shiori will become an artist like her mother. They will be super siblings, right?
January 15: Things are still going well. Both Iori and Shiori are growing quickly and are not breech babies. The office had been supporting me very much even though your dad and mom were both bad hooking up without telling the office. I’ll do my best to take care of my posture and other things for the two of them. When you grow up, you’ll be proud to say that your mother was a celebrity, right?
January 20: Yuichi and I finally got registered. He and I both lost our parents, so we don’t need to ask anyone’s permission. We met each other because we were such similar people to begin with. I hope I can give these kids a lot of love that we didn’t get until the end. Also, Iori has been moving a lot in my stomach lately. In comparison, Shiori is very quiet. I wonder if she’s okay. I’d be more reassured if she moved around.
March 10: I was admitted to the hospital early. Mr. Takahashi made arrangements for me to be admitted to the hospital early, as he thought that the media might find out if I had to go to the emergency room due to sudden contractions or something. To be honest, I was grateful because Iori had been too energetic lately, and it was getting difficult. Yuichi also had to work, so I couldn’t ask him to take care of me all day long. But I guess this is what mothers have to go through. It hurts so much to be kicked by a baby in the belly. But I’ll do my best for the both of us!
March 30: The progress is going good. I’m not having a breech birth. But it hurts. I’m in a lot of pain. Iori is flailing about. It’s getting really hard for me too, Iori. Can you please be quiet like Shiori, just for a little while? I’ll do my best.
April 5: Iori is breech birth. Why? We’ve been working so hard! No, I’m still okay. I heard that if you have an external rotation, there’s a high probability that the breech will be cured. Let’s go see the doctor right away.
April 6: I was told that I could not have breech treatment. They said that with twins, external rotation is almost never successful and is only risky. Oh no…, that can’t be true. I’ve endured so much just for this moment!… My stomach is starting to hurt again. Iori, you need to sit still for a minute!
(TN: While it’s possible to have a natural birth with breech babies, it can be more dangerous for the baby and the risk of injury is much higher. [source: https://my.clevelandclinic.org])
April 8: Caesarean section decided. My due date was May 5. Ironically, it’s Children’s Day. Mr. Takasaki will be here tomorrow.
April 9: My dream is over. It was Iori’s fault.
April 12: My withdrawal from the group was on the news on TV. The office explained that my illness had worsened, but various commentators were suspicious if it was true.
April 15: Ouch. What kind of lie is this about the fetal movement calming down in the last trimester of pregnancy! Iori flails every few minutes, and every time he does, I feel like my insides are going to collapse. I wonder why he resents me so much. Shiori is thinking of me.
April 25: I’m beginning to resent this child. What a waste of a wonderful name Yuichi had given him. It’s only a matter of time before the baby is born, so I’ll try to think of a new name to take my mind off things.
May 4: As planned, tomorrow is my due date. I like the new names, Yuna Superior and Retto Inferior. I think I’ve come up with a better name than I thought, so I’m going to submit the birth certificate without telling Yuichi.
May 5: They were born. I look even more hateful to Iori when I see his face. Even though Shiori is so cute. I’ve decided, I’ll only love Shiori. She’s the one who will carry on my dream.
A/N: Iori’s mother had shaken off her scrappiness.
And his father was also a more sinful person than expected. The reason he didn’t divorce her was because he felt responsible for Saki’s retirement.
T/N: So, Iori’s mother had depression during her pregnancy, adding to the fact that she had to let go of her longtime dream. I heard that pregnant women might be depressed during pregnancy.
And I never thought that Iori’s father was also responsible kek
Translated by BunnyByun
Edited by ArroganceComplex
Episode 52: Diary of Sin
E/N: The past will now be revealed, this chapter will be quite the reveal, looking forward to your reaction on what made Iori lose the motherly love he deserved.
October 3: Test results show that I’m pregnant. They are identical twins! They are important to Yuichi and I, so I have to make sure they are born healthy. But the Queen Dolls don’t allow romance. I’ve been dating Yuichi secretly since before I made my debut, but I’m sure they’ll find out about it when my belly starts to get bigger. But still, I don’t want to give up on either my children or being an artist! I’ve been dreaming of it since I was a little girl and I already came this far, so I’m not giving up now! I’ll have these children and continue being an artist. Don’t worry, I’ll have you both!
November 4: My manager Mr. Takasaki finally found out. He was very angry but he said that he would try to talk to his superiors so that I wouldn’t have to leave the band. Don’t worry my twins. I’m sure he will be able to convince them!
November 10: Thanks to Mr. Takasaki’s tremendous efforts, the office finally relented! They said that the only condition was that I have to have a natural childbirth. Our group’s popularity is based on our s**y, belly button-baring outfits, so a scar from a C-section would surely be revealed to the fans. So, if I couldn’t have a natural birth, I would have to quit this job. I’ve heard that natural birth of twins is difficult, but I’m fine. My progress is going well, and as long as neither of my twins is breech birth, I can meet the requirements. After I finish my current job, I’m going to pretend I’m sick and take a break from “Saki” until I give birth to my twins. All we have to do is wait for things to work out from here on.
(T/N: Most babies are in a headfirst position right before birth, but in some cases, the baby is in a bottom-first, or feet-first position. This is called a breech birth or breech baby.)
January 1: Yuichi comes up with names for the twins. The boy would be named Iori and the girl is Shiori. Shiori sounds cute, but Iori doesn’t sound like a boy’s name, and I think a cooler name would be better. When I told him that, he replied, “I have a feeling that he would also be like me in the future and travel around the world. If his name is difficult for a foreigner to pronounce, won’t he remember that he was born in Japan? Living in this country is fine. He can also become a foreigner if he wants. But I want to leave this child with something that confirms that he was born and raised in Japan. Besides, Iori… is a cool name.” Yuichi said as he rubbed my belly. Yes, that’s a good name. But you don’t have to listen to your husband all the time, you know? That’s true. I want him to grow up to be muscular and masculine just like the soldiers at Yuichi’s work, then he will be popular with the girls. And maybe Shiori will become an artist like her mother. They will be super siblings, right?
January 15: Things are still going well. Both Iori and Shiori are growing quickly and are not breech babies. The office had been supporting me very much even though your dad and mom were both bad hooking up without telling the office. I’ll do my best to take care of my posture and other things for the two of them. When you grow up, you’ll be proud to say that your mother was a celebrity, right?
January 20: Yuichi and I finally got registered. He and I both lost our parents, so we don’t need to ask anyone’s permission. We met each other because we were such similar people to begin with. I hope I can give these kids a lot of love that we didn’t get until the end. Also, Iori has been moving a lot in my stomach lately. In comparison, Shiori is very quiet. I wonder if she’s okay. I’d be more reassured if she moved around.
March 10: I was admitted to the hospital early. Mr. Takahashi made arrangements for me to be admitted to the hospital early, as he thought that the media might find out if I had to go to the emergency room due to sudden contractions or something. To be honest, I was grateful because Iori had been too energetic lately, and it was getting difficult. Yuichi also had to work, so I couldn’t ask him to take care of me all day long. But I guess this is what mothers have to go through. It hurts so much to be kicked by a baby in the belly. But I’ll do my best for the both of us!
March 30: The progress is going good. I’m not having a breech birth. But it hurts. I’m in a lot of pain. Iori is flailing about. It’s getting really hard for me too, Iori. Can you please be quiet like Shiori, just for a little while? I’ll do my best.
April 5: Iori is breech birth. Why? We’ve been working so hard! No, I’m still okay. I heard that if you have an external rotation, there’s a high probability that the breech will be cured. Let’s go see the doctor right away.
April 6: I was told that I could not have breech treatment. They said that with twins, external rotation is almost never successful and is only risky. Oh no…, that can’t be true. I’ve endured so much just for this moment!… My stomach is starting to hurt again. Iori, you need to sit still for a minute!
(TN: While it’s possible to have a natural birth with breech babies, it can be more dangerous for the baby and the risk of injury is much higher. [source: https://my.clevelandclinic.org])
April 8: Caesarean section decided. My due date was May 5. Ironically, it’s Children’s Day. Mr. Takasaki will be here tomorrow.
April 9: My dream is over. It was Iori’s fault.
April 12: My withdrawal from the group was on the news on TV. The office explained that my illness had worsened, but various commentators were suspicious if it was true.
April 15: Ouch. What kind of lie is this about the fetal movement calming down in the last trimester of pregnancy! Iori flails every few minutes, and every time he does, I feel like my insides are going to collapse. I wonder why he resents me so much. Shiori is thinking of me.
April 25: I’m beginning to resent this child. What a waste of a wonderful name Yuichi had given him. It’s only a matter of time before the baby is born, so I’ll try to think of a new name to take my mind off things.
May 4: As planned, tomorrow is my due date. I like the new names, Yuna Superior and Retto Inferior. I think I’ve come up with a better name than I thought, so I’m going to submit the birth certificate without telling Yuichi.
May 5: They were born. I look even more hateful to Iori when I see his face. Even though Shiori is so cute. I’ve decided, I’ll only love Shiori. She’s the one who will carry on my dream.
A/N: Iori’s mother had shaken off her scrappiness.
And his father was also a more sinful person than expected. The reason he didn’t divorce her was because he felt responsible for Saki’s retirement.
T/N: So, Iori’s mother had depression during her pregnancy, adding to the fact that she had to let go of her longtime dream. I heard that pregnant women might be depressed during pregnancy.
And I never thought that Iori’s father was also responsible kek
