Chapter 184: The Connection Of Fate
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"You saw her crying her heart out...all tired and exhausted, didn't you?" She said while looking at his eyes which got a bit watery too.
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"Yeah...I saw her like that again..(He remembers the time Irene looked when he had his first ever attack at his 5th birthday) but how do you?"
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"Hana told me, and this isn't the first time sje cried so bitterly. She did this everytime be it weather it was the time she had all the house responsibilities on her or the time when the Empress died, or when you left the mansion...for the lat 3 years she has been hiding her tears and preserving every moment." Sam said as took her steps towards Ashton.
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"Ashton, the Sister you have so faith in has been working hard to not that faith you and others have in her. She has been trying without any complain, but what are you doing?
Except for running, what have you ever done?" Sam said while pushing him.
.
"Just a while ago, you said that you will be responsible for your actions and give up on swordmanship. I really respected you for that but Ashton how come, you were ready to give up on your dreams but still couldn't wipe away Lady Winter's tears?" Sam said as she hit him in the chest making him fall in the ground.
.
Ash hearing those words felt a sudden rush of guilt in his heart which made him unable to meet her eyes.
"The Ashton I have known is brave in the field and speaks without hesitation, but the Ashton before me now is a coward who lies form himself too." Sam said as she kneeled before him and made him look into her eyes.
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"...I agree..Sam you are right I am a coward...so please tell me how to be brave...how do I condem her pain...how do I control myself...Sam..tell me.." Ash said as he pitiful smiled at her.
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"Stay true to yourself before being true to others. And you will be brave enough to face everyone." Sam said as she patted his head.
"And if you still find it hard then just tell me all your feelings, I will keep them safe for you." Sam said as she herself ended with up tears with all the overflowing emotions.
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"These kids are too stubborn..." Raymond who listened to their conversation said as he wiped the corners of his eyes.
"Why won't they be, afterall they are your children." Leal who just arrived at the mansion after receiving a letter form Raymond said as he took a glance at Ashton.
.
"Yeah...thats true too, but you know ever since Freya has gone to coma, there is a sudden imbalance in our family."
"And to make up for sister-in-law you all have been keeping everything to yourself, and that's the main problem. Because you just wish not to burden the other person which makes them feel more burdered to share their own feelings." Leal said as he placed his hands on his brother's shoulder.
.
"You are right...because I lost my calm the kids became worried for no reason too. Ha, what should I do now?"
"Well, there is soemthing that works on everyone when it comes to lift one's mood." Leal said while smiling.
.
"And what's that?"
"Its-----" He murmered everything in Raymond's ears and a smile came in his face.
"Thats a good idea, I will let the servants to prepare it. Till then please take with Ashton, he might need you." Raymond said while looking at Ashton who was being comforted by Sam.
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"I don't think, there is anything I need to talk with him about. He is a swordman so anger is in his nerves and how to control it is in his hands not mine. *Stretches* And I have other things to do today so I will be leaving early."
"...If you say so then let's have a safe journey and keep visiting when you have time." Raymond said while hugging him.
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"I will brother and Yeah, take this *throws a paper scroll towards him* it's the form of Royal Academy, tell Ashton to fill it up."
"Examination form...So fast?"
"Yeah they want to wrap things fast and it things go as planned then by the crown Prince birthday banquet ends, we will have to pack Ashton things too....so, brother sort all your problems put because after this we might not see him for another couple of years." Leal said as he walked down the corridors leaving Raymond in a daze.
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Meanwhile in Irene's room,
Irene finally calmed down and was now sleeping peacefully, and Hana was keeping an eye on her while slowly stroking her head.
And right then the door slowly opened.
" Miss Hana, it's me." Sam said as she smiled while waving her hands.
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"Lady Maxim? Please talk softly, Lady Winter has just fallen asleep." She said in slow voice as she signalled Sam to stay quiet too.
"Oh okay. Come on inside." Sam said while turning back and pulling Ashton inside the room with her.
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"Young Master?" Hana said as she looked at his face and then at Irene.
"Umm, Miss Hana would you mind leaving the room for a bit with me?" Sam said as she joined her hands.
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Hana thought for a while as she didn't really wanted to leave Irene in such a poor state but at the same time she knew that there are things which both the siblings need to sort out.
.
"Fine I will leave with you but young Master please make sure you don't disturb her , she slept just now. And I don't want her to be upset anymore." Hana said as she stood up and left the room along with Sam.
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As everyone left the room, Ash sat bear her bed and stored her hard gently.
"Sister, you really cried your heart out didn't you, the corner of your eyes are still red and puffy." Ash said as he placed his cold hand son her puffy eyes to reduce the swelling.
The sudden coldness made her to twitch so she moved to the other side.
.
"You are showing me your back even at your sleep... how can you be so cruel." Ash said as he smiled.
"But then again I never did a thing which could make you look at me with proudly or affectionately...I just kept looking at you, I kept all my expectations on you. I never looked at myself nor paid attention to my responsibilities...and in the end, in the chaos of everything the one with the most heartache is you." He said while looking at the picture on the table.
.
"Sister you mean the world to me and you know that too, right? And everything I have been doing since the beginning was to just lessen your burden but now that I look at myself I feel as if I have long lost my road and intentions...I feel so ashamed now that I don't think I could meet your eyes at the moment." He said while playing with his finger nervously.
.
"But despite everything, the reason I am here is as Sam said, I need to brave and true to myself before being true to anyone else. And for me the biggest truth of my life is you.
.
I don't think you would believe it but...I have evry memory of my childhood form the moment I opened the eyes, and the first person I recognized was you.
.
And I had no idea why! But I always felt closet and a deep connection with you, which I didn't even felt with our parents. Nor did I find it weird as I thought that's how things are supposed to be but you know what changed my thoughts drastically....
.
It was the near death experience I had at my 5th birthday...that one moment where I almost lost my breath was also the moment when I regained some of my memories which were totally different form my present memories, it may sound unbelievable but those memories where of my past life and in every tits bits the only thing I remembered the most, was a girl carrying her little bother in the back and running around the yard." Just when he said so Irene out of sudden woke up and sat straight looking at him with watery eyes.
.
"Sister? Were you awake the whole time?" Ash asked with a flustered face and nervous tongue.
"....I was never asleep...." Irene said as she looked at Ash.
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"Now tell me...did you really saw two kids running around the yard?" Irene asked while placing her hands on the corner of the blanket while clenching it tightly.
"Yes...I did, I even heard them talking about the flowers that grow at a valley nearby..." Ash said as he looked at his hands nervously not sure if Irene is taking his words seriously or not.
.
"Then did you remember their names too?"
"Yes...It was Liliy and Kevin winter.." Ash said and Irene all of sudden took him to a embrace which surprised Ashton but at the same time he felt happy and contend as if something heavy in his heart has finally been lifted.
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"You saw her crying her heart out...all tired and exhausted, didn't you?" She said while looking at his eyes which got a bit watery too.
.
"Yeah...I saw her like that again..(He remembers the time Irene looked when he had his first ever attack at his 5th birthday) but how do you?"
.
"Hana told me, and this isn't the first time sje cried so bitterly. She did this everytime be it weather it was the time she had all the house responsibilities on her or the time when the Empress died, or when you left the mansion...for the lat 3 years she has been hiding her tears and preserving every moment." Sam said as took her steps towards Ashton.
.
"Ashton, the Sister you have so faith in has been working hard to not that faith you and others have in her. She has been trying without any complain, but what are you doing?
Except for running, what have you ever done?" Sam said while pushing him.
.
"Just a while ago, you said that you will be responsible for your actions and give up on swordmanship. I really respected you for that but Ashton how come, you were ready to give up on your dreams but still couldn't wipe away Lady Winter's tears?" Sam said as she hit him in the chest making him fall in the ground.
.
Ash hearing those words felt a sudden rush of guilt in his heart which made him unable to meet her eyes.
"The Ashton I have known is brave in the field and speaks without hesitation, but the Ashton before me now is a coward who lies form himself too." Sam said as she kneeled before him and made him look into her eyes.
.
"...I agree..Sam you are right I am a coward...so please tell me how to be brave...how do I condem her pain...how do I control myself...Sam..tell me.." Ash said as he pitiful smiled at her.
.
"Stay true to yourself before being true to others. And you will be brave enough to face everyone." Sam said as she patted his head.
"And if you still find it hard then just tell me all your feelings, I will keep them safe for you." Sam said as she herself ended with up tears with all the overflowing emotions.
.
"These kids are too stubborn..." Raymond who listened to their conversation said as he wiped the corners of his eyes.
"Why won't they be, afterall they are your children." Leal who just arrived at the mansion after receiving a letter form Raymond said as he took a glance at Ashton.
.
"Yeah...thats true too, but you know ever since Freya has gone to coma, there is a sudden imbalance in our family."
"And to make up for sister-in-law you all have been keeping everything to yourself, and that's the main problem. Because you just wish not to burden the other person which makes them feel more burdered to share their own feelings." Leal said as he placed his hands on his brother's shoulder.
.
"You are right...because I lost my calm the kids became worried for no reason too. Ha, what should I do now?"
"Well, there is soemthing that works on everyone when it comes to lift one's mood." Leal said while smiling.
.
"And what's that?"
"Its-----" He murmered everything in Raymond's ears and a smile came in his face.
"Thats a good idea, I will let the servants to prepare it. Till then please take with Ashton, he might need you." Raymond said while looking at Ashton who was being comforted by Sam.
.
"I don't think, there is anything I need to talk with him about. He is a swordman so anger is in his nerves and how to control it is in his hands not mine. *Stretches* And I have other things to do today so I will be leaving early."
"...If you say so then let's have a safe journey and keep visiting when you have time." Raymond said while hugging him.
.
"I will brother and Yeah, take this *throws a paper scroll towards him* it's the form of Royal Academy, tell Ashton to fill it up."
"Examination form...So fast?"
"Yeah they want to wrap things fast and it things go as planned then by the crown Prince birthday banquet ends, we will have to pack Ashton things too....so, brother sort all your problems put because after this we might not see him for another couple of years." Leal said as he walked down the corridors leaving Raymond in a daze.
.
Meanwhile in Irene's room,
Irene finally calmed down and was now sleeping peacefully, and Hana was keeping an eye on her while slowly stroking her head.
And right then the door slowly opened.
" Miss Hana, it's me." Sam said as she smiled while waving her hands.
.
"Lady Maxim? Please talk softly, Lady Winter has just fallen asleep." She said in slow voice as she signalled Sam to stay quiet too.
"Oh okay. Come on inside." Sam said while turning back and pulling Ashton inside the room with her.
.
"Young Master?" Hana said as she looked at his face and then at Irene.
"Umm, Miss Hana would you mind leaving the room for a bit with me?" Sam said as she joined her hands.
.
Hana thought for a while as she didn't really wanted to leave Irene in such a poor state but at the same time she knew that there are things which both the siblings need to sort out.
.
"Fine I will leave with you but young Master please make sure you don't disturb her , she slept just now. And I don't want her to be upset anymore." Hana said as she stood up and left the room along with Sam.
.
As everyone left the room, Ash sat bear her bed and stored her hard gently.
"Sister, you really cried your heart out didn't you, the corner of your eyes are still red and puffy." Ash said as he placed his cold hand son her puffy eyes to reduce the swelling.
The sudden coldness made her to twitch so she moved to the other side.
.
"You are showing me your back even at your sleep... how can you be so cruel." Ash said as he smiled.
"But then again I never did a thing which could make you look at me with proudly or affectionately...I just kept looking at you, I kept all my expectations on you. I never looked at myself nor paid attention to my responsibilities...and in the end, in the chaos of everything the one with the most heartache is you." He said while looking at the picture on the table.
.
"Sister you mean the world to me and you know that too, right? And everything I have been doing since the beginning was to just lessen your burden but now that I look at myself I feel as if I have long lost my road and intentions...I feel so ashamed now that I don't think I could meet your eyes at the moment." He said while playing with his finger nervously.
.
"But despite everything, the reason I am here is as Sam said, I need to brave and true to myself before being true to anyone else. And for me the biggest truth of my life is you.
.
I don't think you would believe it but...I have evry memory of my childhood form the moment I opened the eyes, and the first person I recognized was you.
.
And I had no idea why! But I always felt closet and a deep connection with you, which I didn't even felt with our parents. Nor did I find it weird as I thought that's how things are supposed to be but you know what changed my thoughts drastically....
.
It was the near death experience I had at my 5th birthday...that one moment where I almost lost my breath was also the moment when I regained some of my memories which were totally different form my present memories, it may sound unbelievable but those memories where of my past life and in every tits bits the only thing I remembered the most, was a girl carrying her little bother in the back and running around the yard." Just when he said so Irene out of sudden woke up and sat straight looking at him with watery eyes.
.
"Sister? Were you awake the whole time?" Ash asked with a flustered face and nervous tongue.
"....I was never asleep...." Irene said as she looked at Ash.
.
"Now tell me...did you really saw two kids running around the yard?" Irene asked while placing her hands on the corner of the blanket while clenching it tightly.
"Yes...I did, I even heard them talking about the flowers that grow at a valley nearby..." Ash said as he looked at his hands nervously not sure if Irene is taking his words seriously or not.
.
"Then did you remember their names too?"
"Yes...It was Liliy and Kevin winter.." Ash said and Irene all of sudden took him to a embrace which surprised Ashton but at the same time he felt happy and contend as if something heavy in his heart has finally been lifted.
"You saw her crying her heart out...all tired and exhausted, didn't you?"She said while looking at his eyes which got a bit watery too.."Yeah...I saw her like that again..He remembers the time Irene looked when he had his first ever attack at his 5th birthday but how do you?"."Hana told me, and this isn't the first time sje cried so bitterly. She did this everytime be it weather it was the time she had all the house responsibilities on her or the time when the Empress died, or when you left the mansion...for the lat 3 years she has been hiding her tears and preserving every moment."Sam said as took her steps towards Ashton.."Ashton, the Sister you have so faith in has been working hard to not that faith you and others have in her. She has been trying without any complain, but what are you doing?Except for running, what have you ever done?"Sam said while pushing him.."Just a while ago, you said that you will be responsible for your actions and give up on swordmanship. I really respected you for that but Ashton how come, you were ready to give up on your dreams but still couldn't wipe away Lady Winter's tears?"Sam said as she hit him in the chest making him fall in the ground..Ash hearing those words felt a sudden rush of guilt in his heart which made him unable to meet her eyes."The Ashton I have known is brave in the field and speaks without hesitation, but the Ashton before me now is a coward who lies form himself too."Sam said as she kneeled before him and made him look into her eyes.."...I agree..Sam you are right I am a coward...so please tell me how to be brave...how do I condem her pain...how do I control myself...Sam..tell me.."Ash said as he pitiful smiled at her.."Stay true to yourself before being true to others. And you will be brave enough to face everyone."Sam said as she patted his head."And if you still find it hard then just tell me all your feelings, I will keep them safe for you."Sam said as she herself ended with up tears with all the overflowing emotions.."These kids are too stubborn..."Raymond who listened to their conversation said as he wiped the corners of his eyes."Why won't they be, afterall they are your children."Leal who just arrived at the mansion after receiving a letter form Raymond said as he took a glance at Ashton.."Yeah...thats true too, but you know ever since Freya has gone to coma, there is a sudden imbalance in our family.""And to make up for sister-in-law you all have been keeping everything to yourself, and that's the main problem. Because you just wish not to burden the other person which makes them feel more burdered to share their own feelings."Leal said as he placed his hands on his brother's shoulder.."You are right...because I lost my calm the kids became worried for no reason too. Ha, what should I do now?""Well, there is soemthing that works on everyone when it comes to lift one's mood."Leal said while smiling.."And what's that?""Its-----"He murmered everything in Raymond's ears and a smile came in his face."Thats a good idea, I will let the servants to prepare it. Till then please take with Ashton, he might need you."Raymond said while looking at Ashton who was being comforted by Sam.."I don't think, there is anything I need to talk with him about. He is a swordman so anger is in his nerves and how to control it is in his hands not mine. *Stretches* And I have other things to do today so I will be leaving early.""...If you say so then let's have a safe journey and keep visiting when you have time." Raymond said while hugging him.."I will brother and Yeah, take this *throws a paper scroll towards him* it's the form of Royal Academy, tell Ashton to fill it up.""Examination form...So fast?""Yeah they want to wrap things fast and it things go as planned then by the crown Prince birthday banquet ends, we will have to pack Ashton things too....so, brother sort all your problems put because after this we might not see him for another couple of years."Leal said as he walked down the corridors leaving Raymond in a daze..Meanwhile in Irene's room,Irene finally calmed down and was now sleeping peacefully, and Hana was keeping an eye on her while slowly stroking her head.And right then the door slowly opened." Miss Hana, it's me."Sam said as she smiled while waving her hands.."Lady Maxim? Please talk softly, Lady Winter has just fallen asleep." She said in slow voice as she signalled Sam to stay quiet too."Oh okay. Come on inside."Sam said while turning back and pulling Ashton inside the room with her.."Young Master?"Hana said as she looked at his face and then at Irene."Umm, Miss Hana would you mind leaving the room for a bit with me?"Sam said as she joined her hands..Hana thought for a while as she didn't really wanted to leave Irene in such a poor state but at the same time she knew that there are things which both the siblings need to sort out.."Fine I will leave with you but young Master please make sure you don't disturb her , she slept just now. And I don't want her to be upset anymore."Hana said as she stood up and left the room along with Sam..As everyone left the room, Ash sat bear her bed and stored her hard gently."Sister, you really cried your heart out didn't you, the corner of your eyes are still red and puffy."Ash said as he placed his cold hand son her puffy eyes to reduce the swelling.The sudden coldness made her to twitch so she moved to the other side.."You are showing me your back even at your sleep... how can you be so cruel."Ash said as he smiled."But then again I never did a thing which could make you look at me with proudly or affectionately...I just kept looking at you, I kept all my expectations on you. I never looked at myself nor paid attention to my responsibilities...and in the end, in the chaos of everything the one with the most heartache is you."He said while looking at the picture on the table.."Sister you mean the world to me and you know that too, right? And everything I have been doing since the beginning was to just lessen your burden but now that I look at myself I feel as if I have long lost my road and intentions...I feel so ashamed now that I don't think I could meet your eyes at the moment."He said while playing with his finger nervously.."But despite everything, the reason I am here is as Sam said, I need to brave and true to myself before being true to anyone else. And for me the biggest truth of my life is you..I don't think you would believe it but...I have evry memory of my childhood form the moment I opened the eyes, and the first person I recognized was you..And I had no idea why! But I always felt closet and a deep connection with you, which I didn't even felt with our parents. Nor did I find it weird as I thought that's how things are supposed to be but you know what changed my thoughts drastically.....It was the near death experience I had at my 5th birthday...that one moment where I almost lost my breath was also the moment when I regainedsome of my memories which were totally different form my present memories, it may sound unbelievable but those memories where of my past life and in every tits bits the only thing I remembered the most, was a girl carrying her little bother in the back and running around the yard."Just when he said so Irene out of sudden woke up and sat straight looking at him with watery eyes.."Sister? Were you awake the whole time?"Ash asked with a flustered face and nervous tongue."....I was never asleep...."Irene said as she looked at Ash.."Now tell me...did you really saw two kids running around the yard?"Irene asked while placing her hands on the corner of the blanket while clenching it tightly."Yes...I did, I even heard them talking about the flowers that grow at a valley nearby..."Ash said as he looked at his hands nervously not sure if Irene is taking his words seriously or not.."Then did you remember their names too?""Yes...It was Liliy and Kevin winter.."Ash said and Irene all of sudden took him to a embrace which surprised Ashton but at the same time he felt happy and contend as if something heavy in his heart has finally been lifted.
