hapter 247
“There’s no need for proof. Even if no one wants to admit it, even if they say crazy things in order for you to prove yourself, don’t listen to them. It’s all useless bullshit. You were already born a human. Don’t you ever deny that first.”
Lil laughed while crying.
Her face, painted with both joy and sorrow, looked up to see Ed right there in front of her. She was looking at the face of a man who had become familiar to her, but his looming presence was even greater now.
Whenever she saw Ed, her heart fluttered strangely and it uplifted her mood.
‘He always made me feel the vivid wind. Even now, I feel like I’m brought somewhere distant due to the cool flow caressing me. Ed’s the kind of wind that knows my direction, even if I don’t, and blows me there easily. His clumsiness and roughness confuse me at times, but through him, I was never off course…’
“Edgar.”
Ed, who continued to smooth the back of her hand using his, raised his head in a flash. Lil muttered as she looked at the back of his hand wrapping hers.
“…Perhaps… I do want to be happy…”
‘It’s funny now that I admit it. The word “happy” is concise and easy to pronounce, but still, I’m not used to expressing any greed or acknowledging my emotions… I had only been ashamed of them…’
Lil’s lips trembled because of her small laughter, but she managed to suppress her equally trembling throat and confessed unwaveringly.
“Like you said, I’m a human. And because of that, I guess I want to love like a human.”
It was a confession that no one expected and no one intervened in, but it lingered in their ears like an auditory hallucination. It was clearly her own voice, but it sounded strangely sweet.
Ed stood blankly, either due to confusion or shock. That was why Lil hesitantly approached him. In the short distance between them, her movements were gradual. She slowly put one foot in front of the other and walked forward… and another step forward…
“…I want to love you.”
A face wearing an awkward expression came closer to her nose.
Lil laughed bashfully.
Having no experience in confessing love or knowing whether this was even the right moment to do it, her expression was not much different from Ed’s, but that didn’t matter.
Lil pressed her hands against his shoulders and closed her eyes. As her vision was cut off, her other senses awakened and focused solely on Ed. Lil parted her lips and searched for his. When she lifted her heels into the air, their height became somewhat similar.
Ed’s breath seeped through his lips’ quivering gap and allowed Lil to take it in. She felt the hot air on the tip of her tongue quickly followed by the warmth of his lips. Before their barely touching lips could separate, Ed’s arms hurriedly stretched out and wrapped themselves around Lil’s waist. He pulled her high enough to lift her, and with Lil now in a slightly higher position, she naturally put her arms around his neck while biting his lower lip.
With their lips pressed against one another, their tongues intertwined, sucking each other in.
Lil’s torn lip supposedly stung, but it was eventually numbed by her excitement. She reached out from the nape of Ed’s neck and tore through his hair as their tight hug wasn’t nearly enough. Her body, wet from the rain, lacked warmth, so Lil pushed herself against Ed even more. At some point, she wasn’t sure anymore if she wanted to keep him warm or if she wanted to be given warmth, but because Ed didn’t back down, Lil fell deeper and deeper into him.
Their exchange of heavy breathing came and went, but it was still not enough. Lil wanted to feel more alive, feel his body heat against hers and confirm that they were truly together. So, she slipped her hands through Ed’s jacket and found the buttons of his waistcoat. With his collar being pushed over his shoulder, Ed quickly took off his rain-soaked jacket and dropped it on the floor with a thud.
Before the jacket even reached the ground, his hands were already holding Lil again and he pulled the sleeve from her shoulders. Ed’s lips, which had been biting Lil’s earlobe, slid down her neck and licked her now exposed shoulder, causing Lil to tilt her head back and let out a gasp. Ed then peeled off the remainder of his waistcoat and lifted Lil into his arms. Lil, who was now much higher than him, lowered her head and kissed him again, while Ed undid the knot at the front of her dress making it flow down her upper body.
At the same time, they fell onto the bed.
Because Ed didn’t want to fall on top of her, there was a little space between them for the first time, but such space quickly became filled with heavy breaths that came and went. Ed, who was facing Lil in the dark, seemed to wear an expression she had never seen before. Lil reached out her hand to the silhouette that was looking down at her and traced the vague curves of his face with her finger, noticing that the skin she touched felt hot and when she touched his earlobe, it was similarly hot.
Lil whispered, imagining Ed with his whole face red.
“…Why can’t I give you up?”
“What? Me?”
Ed took Lil’s still-wandering hand and brought it to his mouth. Lil mumbled while she traced his lips.
“Why did I make this ridiculous decision?”
“Do you regret it already?”
“No. But it’s even weirder that I don’t feel a hint of regret.”
“You said it yourself. You can’t give up on me.”
“That’s what I’m saying. It’s so sudden and you’re still so annoying. Why on earth?”
Lil pinched Ed’s upper and lower lips together and suddenly kissed his pinched lips, but this time, the sloppy kiss was not pleasant at all. Lil laughed heartily because she found it cute that Ed tried to move his lips as though he was asking to be released. Lil laughter made Ed laugh along with her, but because he laughed with his lips still held, he sounded more like he was losing air. In retaliation, he eventually started to attack Lil with small kisses all over her face and after he moved to give her a soft kiss on the cheek and the corner of her eye, she finally let him go.
Turning serious again, Ed pursed his lips while pulling down Lil’s dress like a man whose patience was running out. Simultaneously, Lil reached her hands in the air, undid Ed’s cravat and unbuttoned his shirt. Their hands, picking at each other’s clothes, were as excited as their breathing and soon their removed shirt and dress fell off the bed.
Lil placed her palms on Ed’s moist torso and raised her fingertips against him to savour his exquisitely toned muscles. As she ran her hands around his thick rib cage and to his back, his well-defined curves wriggled to embrace her. Feeling Ed’s blunt bulk was satisfying.
Due to the rain even Lil’s innermost clothes were damp and clung coldly to her skin. So Ed nibbled on the tip of her breast which was now visible through her thin chemise.
Lil looked down and saw wet brown hair trailing down over her chemise but soon became distracted by the sensation of Ed’s hot breath spreading across her breasts and down to her abdomen. Lil’s body flinched due to her heightened sensitivity. With the hem of her skirt being rolled up her legs as his hands caressed her thigh, and with his lips still hovering over her lower abdomen, a small feeling of pleasure rushed into her stomach. Lil let out a drowsy breath and jerked her knees up.
When Ed lets out something similar to a sigh, Lil senses the heat.
“…Wait.”
It seemed like he was muttering something, so Lil asked back reflexively.
“Hmm?”
“…No, wait.”
Lil opened her languid eyes. After focusing them for a moment, she asked again to confirm if she had heard it right.
“…What?”
“We can’t do this.”
Lil, who pushed Ed’s shoulder and rolled him over, ended up on top, allowing her to look down at him. Seeing his embarrassed face puzzled Lil even more. She tried to guess the reason behind Ed’s sudden hesitation, but as she couldn’t think of one, she blurted out whatever crossed her mind first.
“Do you need to mentally prepare… or something like that?”
“No.”
Ed clutched his forehead as if he had heard something terrible.
hapter 247
“There’s no need for proof. Even if no one wants to admit it, even if they say crazy things in order for you to prove yourself, don’t listen to them. It’s all useless bullshit. You were already born a human. Don’t you ever deny that first.”
Lil laughed while crying.
Her face, painted with both joy and sorrow, looked up to see Ed right there in front of her. She was looking at the face of a man who had become familiar to her, but his looming presence was even greater now.
Whenever she saw Ed, her heart fluttered strangely and it uplifted her mood.
‘He always made me feel the vivid wind. Even now, I feel like I’m brought somewhere distant due to the cool flow caressing me. Ed’s the kind of wind that knows my direction, even if I don’t, and blows me there easily. His clumsiness and roughness confuse me at times, but through him, I was never off course…’
“Edgar.”
Ed, who continued to smooth the back of her hand using his, raised his head in a flash. Lil muttered as she looked at the back of his hand wrapping hers.
“…Perhaps… I do want to be happy…”
‘It’s funny now that I admit it. The word “happy” is concise and easy to pronounce, but still, I’m not used to expressing any greed or acknowledging my emotions… I had only been ashamed of them…’
Lil’s lips trembled because of her small laughter, but she managed to suppress her equally trembling throat and confessed unwaveringly.
“Like you said, I’m a human. And because of that, I guess I want to love like a human.”
It was a confession that no one expected and no one intervened in, but it lingered in their ears like an auditory hallucination. It was clearly her own voice, but it sounded strangely sweet.
Ed stood blankly, either due to confusion or shock. That was why Lil hesitantly approached him. In the short distance between them, her movements were gradual. She slowly put one foot in front of the other and walked forward… and another step forward…
“…I want to love you.”
A face wearing an awkward expression came closer to her nose.
Lil laughed bashfully.
Having no experience in confessing love or knowing whether this was even the right moment to do it, her expression was not much different from Ed’s, but that didn’t matter.
Lil pressed her hands against his shoulders and closed her eyes. As her vision was cut off, her other senses awakened and focused solely on Ed. Lil parted her lips and searched for his. When she lifted her heels into the air, their height became somewhat similar.
Ed’s breath seeped through his lips’ quivering gap and allowed Lil to take it in. She felt the hot air on the tip of her tongue quickly followed by the warmth of his lips. Before their barely touching lips could separate, Ed’s arms hurriedly stretched out and wrapped themselves around Lil’s waist. He pulled her high enough to lift her, and with Lil now in a slightly higher position, she naturally put her arms around his neck while biting his lower lip.
With their lips pressed against one another, their tongues intertwined, sucking each other in.
Lil’s torn lip supposedly stung, but it was eventually numbed by her excitement. She reached out from the nape of Ed’s neck and tore through his hair as their tight hug wasn’t nearly enough. Her body, wet from the rain, lacked warmth, so Lil pushed herself against Ed even more. At some point, she wasn’t sure anymore if she wanted to keep him warm or if she wanted to be given warmth, but because Ed didn’t back down, Lil fell deeper and deeper into him.
Their exchange of heavy breathing came and went, but it was still not enough. Lil wanted to feel more alive, feel his body heat against hers and confirm that they were truly together. So, she slipped her hands through Ed’s jacket and found the buttons of his waistcoat. With his collar being pushed over his shoulder, Ed quickly took off his rain-soaked jacket and dropped it on the floor with a thud.
Before the jacket even reached the ground, his hands were already holding Lil again and he pulled the sleeve from her shoulders. Ed’s lips, which had been biting Lil’s earlobe, slid down her neck and licked her now exposed shoulder, causing Lil to tilt her head back and let out a gasp. Ed then peeled off the remainder of his waistcoat and lifted Lil into his arms. Lil, who was now much higher than him, lowered her head and kissed him again, while Ed undid the knot at the front of her dress making it flow down her upper body.
At the same time, they fell onto the bed.
Because Ed didn’t want to fall on top of her, there was a little space between them for the first time, but such space quickly became filled with heavy breaths that came and went. Ed, who was facing Lil in the dark, seemed to wear an expression she had never seen before. Lil reached out her hand to the silhouette that was looking down at her and traced the vague curves of his face with her finger, noticing that the skin she touched felt hot and when she touched his earlobe, it was similarly hot.
Lil whispered, imagining Ed with his whole face red.
“…Why can’t I give you up?”
“What? Me?”
Ed took Lil’s still-wandering hand and brought it to his mouth. Lil mumbled while she traced his lips.
“Why did I make this ridiculous decision?”
“Do you regret it already?”
“No. But it’s even weirder that I don’t feel a hint of regret.”
“You said it yourself. You can’t give up on me.”
“That’s what I’m saying. It’s so sudden and you’re still so annoying. Why on earth?”
Lil pinched Ed’s upper and lower lips together and suddenly kissed his pinched lips, but this time, the sloppy kiss was not pleasant at all. Lil laughed heartily because she found it cute that Ed tried to move his lips as though he was asking to be released. Lil laughter made Ed laugh along with her, but because he laughed with his lips still held, he sounded more like he was losing air. In retaliation, he eventually started to attack Lil with small kisses all over her face and after he moved to give her a soft kiss on the cheek and the corner of her eye, she finally let him go.
Turning serious again, Ed pursed his lips while pulling down Lil’s dress like a man whose patience was running out. Simultaneously, Lil reached her hands in the air, undid Ed’s cravat and unbuttoned his shirt. Their hands, picking at each other’s clothes, were as excited as their breathing and soon their removed shirt and dress fell off the bed.
Lil placed her palms on Ed’s moist torso and raised her fingertips against him to savour his exquisitely toned muscles. As she ran her hands around his thick rib cage and to his back, his well-defined curves wriggled to embrace her. Feeling Ed’s blunt bulk was satisfying.
Due to the rain even Lil’s innermost clothes were damp and clung coldly to her skin. So Ed nibbled on the tip of her breast which was now visible through her thin chemise.
Lil looked down and saw wet brown hair trailing down over her chemise but soon became distracted by the sensation of Ed’s hot breath spreading across her breasts and down to her abdomen. Lil’s body flinched due to her heightened sensitivity. With the hem of her skirt being rolled up her legs as his hands caressed her thigh, and with his lips still hovering over her lower abdomen, a small feeling of pleasure rushed into her stomach. Lil let out a drowsy breath and jerked her knees up.
When Ed lets out something similar to a sigh, Lil senses the heat.
“…Wait.”
It seemed like he was muttering something, so Lil asked back reflexively.
“Hmm?”
“…No, wait.”
Lil opened her languid eyes. After focusing them for a moment, she asked again to confirm if she had heard it right.
“…What?”
“We can’t do this.”
Lil, who pushed Ed’s shoulder and rolled him over, ended up on top, allowing her to look down at him. Seeing his embarrassed face puzzled Lil even more. She tried to guess the reason behind Ed’s sudden hesitation, but as she couldn’t think of one, she blurted out whatever crossed her mind first.
“Do you need to mentally prepare… or something like that?”
“No.”
Ed clutched his forehead as if he had heard something terrible.
