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Published at 25th of October 2023 06:26:11 AM


Chapter 401

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"What are you going to do?" Mo Nianchen raises eyebrows to look at her.

"Drink." Li shengxia said.

"You can't drink."

"I can learn."

"Li shengxia, you can directly say that you want to escape. To escape the night alone with me. "

Li shengxia didn't expect that he said so directly, and suddenly he said: "I......"

He said with a cold face, "am I so terrible? Can I eat people? Didn't we spend the night together? "

“……” She was stunned and didn't know how to answer.

"I'm sleepy. I'll sleep first. You'll have to drink alone and drink slowly." Mo Nianchen finished and turned back to her, lying on the sofa.

Li shengxia looks at his back in a daze and can't help but think of what he said to her in "ten li Hongzhuang"

He's afraid. She's not I'm afraid that if I'm not careful, I'll do something wrong. And then, all the time, always regret

Mo Nianchen did not speak again, nor turned around, as if he were asleep.

Li shengxia can't help but think of a lot of things in the past. Slowly, he fell asleep beside the tea table

In the middle of the night, Mo Nianchen turned to see her, found her sleeping position, and walked slowly past. Squat down and look at her.

"Fool, is it hard for you to be with me?"

"I admit it was intentional I touched your lips on purpose It was almost out of control, but I managed. Because you said you wanted me to respect you, because you said you wanted equal relations. "

"Because you said it, I tried to restrain myself."

"You don't know how challenging it is for me every time you appear. How difficult it is for me to pretend to be indifferent to you. "

"I've been learning to play all kinds of roles, please you, or cool you off. But the result is still unable to ignore you, can't ignore, can't pretend that nothing happened. "

"Watching you make physical contact with other men, even if you just want to slap Ouyang in the face, I find it unbearable..."

"I must be crazy..."

"That's what happens when you're crazy..."

"Even if you want to hit people, I'd rather that you only fight me..."

"What kind of illness did I become. I can't remember. "

"I just remember, too much, too much. Too much, too much I can't let go of your memory. "

"From my eight years old, to my nineteen years old, to my twenty-five years old, to my thirty years old..."

"I never imagined other women, never imagined losing you..."

"I've been pretending that you're alive. Yes, you've been alive. Even if people think you're dead, I still think you must be alive."

"I can't let you die, because if you die, I don't know what I have to live for..."

"I am so attached to you..."

"I feel so sorry for myself that I can only love you."

"Do you think I haven't tried? Didn't you try to leave you? "

"But..."

"How can I do it?"

"Twenty two years."

"Do you know how long 22 years are?"

"It's 264 months."

"It's 1144 weeks."

"It's 8030 nights."

‘……’

"It's too long for me to convert the hour hand, the minute hand, the second hand..."

"It's like running water through my life."

"It's like a wheel running over my years."

"It's like a wandering rain, drenching my past."

"I came all the way to see you again. I see you, I want to love you again. I love you and want to have you again... "

"I don't know if everyone who loves is so greedy. Anyway, I just have to be with you..."

"Because you have to, I try to get close to you."

"What kind of posture should I use to have you You do, tell me. "

"I can't ask you, I can't chase you, I can't pester you, I can't pretend I don't care, I can't treat you coldly, I can't annoy you. No matter what you do, there will always be a beam of light called "no, no, no" coming out of you and keeping me away

"Xia Xia Xia, you are my ten li red makeup, do you know? You are my first love, my first time, my only wife and the only woman I love deeply. You are all my memories. You are my ten mile red makeup... "

"However, I can make ten li red makeup and leave those memories, but I can't keep you."

"You're always hesitant, you're always running away, you're always saying sorry to me.""Why do you say sorry to me? You should know that no man would like his beloved woman to say these three words to him. This represents alienation, rejection, I'm not in your heart, and the impossibility between me and you... "

Mo Nianchen slightly closed his eyes. He didn't know why he suddenly became so fragile today

Just now, in the red makeup of ten li, he almost lost his temper and told the truth that he missed her.

He lowered his posture, but did not dare to put himself into the dust. Because she said she wanted equal love.

However, he did not know what equality was.

It is he who loves her and she will love him. It is called equality. Or, he loves her, she can not love him, is equal?

Before vowing to say, she wants to love is how, what her so-called love is, he can learn.

But it's hard to learn half of it.

Like her, she gave up halfway every time she met difficulties.

But he knew that he had no chance to back down

Don't give up halfway

For her, there was no pause, no hesitation, no turning, and no thought of turning back halfway.

But ah

At least give him a little response, even if it is just a little, let him know that she wants him to persist.

If you don't give him any hope, he's really afraid that he can't keep going. How afraid that he would suddenly want to follow her decision, give up her, forget her.

In that case, 22 years of life will become a complete blank, meaningless, no end of the past. No one will care, no one will care, no one will pay attention to the existence.

And then, it becomes completely non-existent.

Mo Nianchen reached out and gently rubbed her red lips

Her lips are so beautiful that every time he sees it, he can't help but want to kiss her.

He did not know why he would become so timid and cowardly, mostly because he had lost her twice hysterically, and did not dare to experience such pain for the third time.

If he used to, he would not want to hold her, regardless of kissing her

Is it true that the older you grow up, the weaker you become?

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