Chapter 52: Three Unspoken Words
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Zadkiel and Irvin both were at Sean’s house to pick up Abel but it was one hell of a job because now they had to listen to Abel and Sean banter.
“Well, I told him not to put his shoes in the upper portion of the closet!” Sean scoffed as he was wrapping Abel’s foot in the bandage. “Now look what you did to yourself!” He scolded Abel.
“Umm… guys, I-” Zadkiel tried but was cut off by them for the millionth time.
“You could’ve saved me by using your werewolf ass and grabbing my shoes for me,” Abel argued back.
“Or you could’ve saved yourself by not putting the shoes on the upper most portion of the closet!” Sean spoke while tightly wrapping the bandage. Well, too tightly.
“Ow!” Abel yelped in pain.
“Hey, be careful!” Zadkiel hissed at Sean.
“Sorry, Luna.” Sean apologized before turning to Abel to apologize.
“Listen, I ca-” Zadkiel was cut off again.
“First, you refuse to get my shoes for me because you were too busy doing absolutely nothing and when I hurt my foot by falling while grabbing my shoes, you scold me like a mother. If that wasn’t enough, you hurt me wrapping a bandage. And you guys say that you care for your mates.” Abel scoffed, rolling his eyes.
“I didn’t get you your shoes because when you were putting them in the upper most shelf of the closet I told you not to.” Sean sighed.
“Cut with the argument, I-” Zadkiel was cut off again and this time he decided to not open his mouth again.
“Well, I barely use these shoes that’s why I put them on the upper most portion!” Abel huffed, folding his arms on his chest. Sean was done with the bandage.
“Guys… we’re getting late.” Irvin carefully spoke, sneaking a glance at Zadkiel. They both were just awkwardly standing in the corner.
“You know what, I’m done talking to you. I’m going.” Abel stood up but as soon as he put the weight on his foot, he yelped in pain.
“You idiot! Why would you stand on your feet?!” Sean rushed to help him and so did Zadkiel. Abel pushed away Sean and grabbed Zadkiel’s hand.
“Because to walk you have to stand on your feet!” Abel hissed at him.
“Why are you being too snappy and emotional today?” Sean frowned, giving him a scolded child look.
“Oh, let me think… maybe because my best friend is gonna get his HEART STOPPED TODAY!” Abel yelled at him for no reason. He was overwhelmed with emotions today.
Zadkiel turned him to face him and glared at him.
“Are you out of your mind? What’s his fault in this?” He scolded his best friend. He understood what was going on with Abel but taking it out on others wasn’t acceptable.
“It’s his fault. It’s all of these people’s fault.” Abel cried, getting overwhelmed with too many emotions. Zadkiel understood what he meant so he pulled his best friend in a hug.
“It’s going to be alright. I’ll be alright. I promise.” Zadkiel murmured in his ear while rubbing his back.
Zadkiel pulled apart and wiped off the tears from his best friend’s face, giving him a reassuring smile. He grabbed Abel’s hand and closed his eyes. His expressions changed as his face was as if he was in pain and then his face relaxed. He opened his eyes and smiled at him.
“Oh yeah, you could heal. You could’ve saved us from an argument by saying that.” Abel shook his head, chuckling and stating as if it was Zadkiel’s fault when the lad was trying to say that for an hour.
Zadkiel stared at him blankly before rolling his eyes.
“Let’s go.” He spoke, dragging him.
“Can we do this tomorrow? I’m not ready today.” Abel stated, giving a pleading look to Zadkiel.
“You’re not the one who’s going to die. It’s me. I’m ready and I want to get over with it. So move your long legs.” Zadkiel responded.
Abel sighed before turning around and running to Sean. He gave him a peck on the lips and apologized to him before joining Zadkiel and Irvin.
Once they were at Tia’s house, Abel just looked around and questioned Zadkiel through his eyes if she really was a witch and Zadkiel answered through a nod of his head. Abel couldn’t believe that a witch lived in such a big posh house.
“Zadkiel! The most beautiful man I’ve ever laid my eyes on.” Tia exclaimed, opening her arms for him. Zadkiel chuckled and hugged her.
“I missed these eyes so much.” She spoke, pulling apart and staring deep into his eyes.
“Why thank you.” Zadkiel giggled. She greeted Abel and Irvin.
“Let’s go!” She grabbed his hand and started walking.
“Ahem!” Irvin cleared his throat. She made a boring face before letting go of Zadkiel’s hand.
“Stop being so jealous. It’s not like I can steal your mate from you.” Tia rolled her eyes and kept walking.
“You can never steal him from me.” Irvin grabbed Zadkiel’s hand and smirked.
“Whatever, Ford.” She opened the door to the same old dark room.
“Whoa! Now it feels like a witch place.” Abel commented, looking around in the dark room which now had candles unlike before.
“You changed the decorations?” Zadkiel stated, looking around. The stretcher type bed was still there in the middle of the room.
“Yeah. Arranged a little candlelight date for us.” She answered, chuckling.
“Shall we, beauty?” She turned around and extended her hand for Zadkiel but Irvin led him to the bed, ignoring her. “And her beast.” She muttered under her breath. Zadkiel just giggled before lying down flat on the stretcher. Abel stood beside him.
“So, what? You gonna get some surgery or something?” Abel questioned.
“Or something,” Tia answered, chuckling.
“Remove the coat, genius.” She said to Zadkiel who sat up to remove the coat but Irvin was quick to help him.
“You do realize he has his own hands, don’t you?” She rolled her eyes at Irvin.
“Of course, I do, Ms Know-it-all.” Irvin gave her a sweet smile.
Zadkiel lied back. Tia ignored Irvin and placed her hands right above Zadkiel’s heart as if giving him CPR in the wrong place but that’s what it looked like. She took a deep breath before closing her eyes and it seemed like everything stopped for a moment. Zadkiel looked up at Irvin and Abel both standing on either side of him.
He was nervous as fuck. He didn’t know what to expect from this. He had no idea if he would feel pain or not. He just wished it would end before he got to feel anything at all.
He entwined his hands with both his mate and his best friend. His eyes held fear and tears. His throat was clogged and dry like a desert. His eyes locked with Abel who also had tears in his eyes and he was clutching Zadkiel’s hand. He gave him a small smile. Only he knew how much effort that small smile took.
He turned his gaze to Irvin who was not crying but his eyes held fear and he was biting his lip so hard. He tried to calm his own nerves a bit to talk to Irvin and assure him that he’d be fine but as soon as he was relaxed, he could hear two hearts drumming so loudly. He knew one was Irvin’s and the other one was Abel’s.
“Wait!” He yelled and Tia retreated her hands instantly. He sat up and pulled Abel in a bone-crushing hug. He just wanted to make sure that if anything bad happens, he could say he hugged his best friend for the last time at least.
He then pulled apart, giving him a pat on the back and a courageous smile to uplift him. He turned to his mate who was holding his hand even when he hugged Abel, refusing to let go of his hand.
He tugged his hand and pulled him down to his face level. Irvin stared at him through his green orbs. Zadkiel pressed their foreheads together and closed his eyes. All he sensed in Irvin was fear.
Fear of losing him.
He opened his eyes to stare at him again and questioned himself, did he just read his emotions? He shook off all the thoughts and felt guilty for always doubting Irvin and his affection towards him.
He leaned forwards and pressed his lips against his mate’s plump and smooth lips. They didn’t move their lips or take a step further. It was just lips against lips. A touch that lingered and said all the words that they couldn’t say at the moment but Zadkiel knew he had to use words, in case he never had a chance to say them So, he parted but kept their foreheads pressed together.
“Irvin…” He whispered. Every emotion in his body was heightened and he was panting with the overwhelming emotions in his chest. He kept staring at him with teary eyes.
“I… I love you.” He whispered and didn’t even wait for Irvin’s reply as pecked his lips before lying back on the bed.
He turned his gaze to Abel, fearing to look at Irvin. Abel instantly entwined their hands as Tia placed her hands back on his chest. He let out a breath and closed his eyes. But then he felt a tug in his hand. The hand that Irvin was holding. He slowly opened his eyes and averted his gaze at his mate who was staring at him with so much adoration in his eyes.
“I love you.” He mouthed to Zadkiel who smiled back in return. He had no doubt that Irvin did love him. He’d think about other things later but right now he believed Irvin’s words and the thought Irvin wanted him to make it out of it. Irvin brought their entwined hands to his mouth and kissed Zadkiel’s hand which made butterflies flutter in Zadkiel’s stomach.
But soon that feeling went away as he started feeling like someone was squeezing his heart. His breaths started to pick up and he started to inhale deeply. He could feel his strength leaving his body and his limbs going numb. A scorching pain throbbed through his chest, leading its way to his left arm. The next thing he knew, he was losing his consciousness as a state of dizziness overrode him. He tried to keep his eyes open for as long as he could.
He blinked and looked at Abel who was now crying harder than before. Tears were flowing down his cheeks as he kept clutching his hand to his chest. He blinked again and his eyes landed on Tia as she was murmuring something under her breath with her eyes closed.
Blink.
His eyes landed on his mate. The curly lad had forgotten that he was an Alpha of a pack and he had to keep it together. He was sobbing, looking at Zadkiel and kissing his hand that was sandwiched between his own two hands.
He didn’t get to blink another second as the consciousness started to slip away from his hands and he couldn’t command his eyes to stay open anymore. It all turned blank and then everything stopped.
The last thing he saw was his mate kissing his hand and mouthing ‘I love you’ repeatedly to him with tears flowing down his face.
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Zadkiel and Irvin both were at Sean’s house to pick up Abel but it was one hell of a job because now they had to listen to Abel and Sean banter.
“Well, I told him not to put his shoes in the upper portion of the closet!” Sean scoffed as he was wrapping Abel’s foot in the bandage. “Now look what you did to yourself!” He scolded Abel.
“Umm… guys, I-” Zadkiel tried but was cut off by them for the millionth time.
“You could’ve saved me by using your werewolf ass and grabbing my shoes for me,” Abel argued back.
“Or you could’ve saved yourself by not putting the shoes on the upper most portion of the closet!” Sean spoke while tightly wrapping the bandage. Well, too tightly.
“Ow!” Abel yelped in pain.
“Hey, be careful!” Zadkiel hissed at Sean.
“Sorry, Luna.” Sean apologized before turning to Abel to apologize.
“Listen, I ca-” Zadkiel was cut off again.
“First, you refuse to get my shoes for me because you were too busy doing absolutely nothing and when I hurt my foot by falling while grabbing my shoes, you scold me like a mother. If that wasn’t enough, you hurt me wrapping a bandage. And you guys say that you care for your mates.” Abel scoffed, rolling his eyes.
“I didn’t get you your shoes because when you were putting them in the upper most shelf of the closet I told you not to.” Sean sighed.
“Cut with the argument, I-” Zadkiel was cut off again and this time he decided to not open his mouth again.
“Well, I barely use these shoes that’s why I put them on the upper most portion!” Abel huffed, folding his arms on his chest. Sean was done with the bandage.
“Guys… we’re getting late.” Irvin carefully spoke, sneaking a glance at Zadkiel. They both were just awkwardly standing in the corner.
“You know what, I’m done talking to you. I’m going.” Abel stood up but as soon as he put the weight on his foot, he yelped in pain.
“You idiot! Why would you stand on your feet?!” Sean rushed to help him and so did Zadkiel. Abel pushed away Sean and grabbed Zadkiel’s hand.
“Because to walk you have to stand on your feet!” Abel hissed at him.
“Why are you being too snappy and emotional today?” Sean frowned, giving him a scolded child look.
“Oh, let me think… maybe because my best friend is gonna get his HEART STOPPED TODAY!” Abel yelled at him for no reason. He was overwhelmed with emotions today.
Zadkiel turned him to face him and glared at him.
“Are you out of your mind? What’s his fault in this?” He scolded his best friend. He understood what was going on with Abel but taking it out on others wasn’t acceptable.
“It’s his fault. It’s all of these people’s fault.” Abel cried, getting overwhelmed with too many emotions. Zadkiel understood what he meant so he pulled his best friend in a hug.
“It’s going to be alright. I’ll be alright. I promise.” Zadkiel murmured in his ear while rubbing his back.
Zadkiel pulled apart and wiped off the tears from his best friend’s face, giving him a reassuring smile. He grabbed Abel’s hand and closed his eyes. His expressions changed as his face was as if he was in pain and then his face relaxed. He opened his eyes and smiled at him.
“Oh yeah, you could heal. You could’ve saved us from an argument by saying that.” Abel shook his head, chuckling and stating as if it was Zadkiel’s fault when the lad was trying to say that for an hour.
Zadkiel stared at him blankly before rolling his eyes.
“Let’s go.” He spoke, dragging him.
“Can we do this tomorrow? I’m not ready today.” Abel stated, giving a pleading look to Zadkiel.
“You’re not the one who’s going to die. It’s me. I’m ready and I want to get over with it. So move your long legs.” Zadkiel responded.
Abel sighed before turning around and running to Sean. He gave him a peck on the lips and apologized to him before joining Zadkiel and Irvin.
Once they were at Tia’s house, Abel just looked around and questioned Zadkiel through his eyes if she really was a witch and Zadkiel answered through a nod of his head. Abel couldn’t believe that a witch lived in such a big posh house.
“Zadkiel! The most beautiful man I’ve ever laid my eyes on.” Tia exclaimed, opening her arms for him. Zadkiel chuckled and hugged her.
“I missed these eyes so much.” She spoke, pulling apart and staring deep into his eyes.
“Why thank you.” Zadkiel giggled. She greeted Abel and Irvin.
“Let’s go!” She grabbed his hand and started walking.
“Ahem!” Irvin cleared his throat. She made a boring face before letting go of Zadkiel’s hand.
“Stop being so jealous. It’s not like I can steal your mate from you.” Tia rolled her eyes and kept walking.
“You can never steal him from me.” Irvin grabbed Zadkiel’s hand and smirked.
“Whatever, Ford.” She opened the door to the same old dark room.
“Whoa! Now it feels like a witch place.” Abel commented, looking around in the dark room which now had candles unlike before.
“You changed the decorations?” Zadkiel stated, looking around. The stretcher type bed was still there in the middle of the room.
“Yeah. Arranged a little candlelight date for us.” She answered, chuckling.
“Shall we, beauty?” She turned around and extended her hand for Zadkiel but Irvin led him to the bed, ignoring her. “And her beast.” She muttered under her breath. Zadkiel just giggled before lying down flat on the stretcher. Abel stood beside him.
“So, what? You gonna get some surgery or something?” Abel questioned.
“Or something,” Tia answered, chuckling.
“Remove the coat, genius.” She said to Zadkiel who sat up to remove the coat but Irvin was quick to help him.
“You do realize he has his own hands, don’t you?” She rolled her eyes at Irvin.
“Of course, I do, Ms Know-it-all.” Irvin gave her a sweet smile.
Zadkiel lied back. Tia ignored Irvin and placed her hands right above Zadkiel’s heart as if giving him CPR in the wrong place but that’s what it looked like. She took a deep breath before closing her eyes and it seemed like everything stopped for a moment. Zadkiel looked up at Irvin and Abel both standing on either side of him.
He was nervous as fuck. He didn’t know what to expect from this. He had no idea if he would feel pain or not. He just wished it would end before he got to feel anything at all.
He entwined his hands with both his mate and his best friend. His eyes held fear and tears. His throat was clogged and dry like a desert. His eyes locked with Abel who also had tears in his eyes and he was clutching Zadkiel’s hand. He gave him a small smile. Only he knew how much effort that small smile took.
He turned his gaze to Irvin who was not crying but his eyes held fear and he was biting his lip so hard. He tried to calm his own nerves a bit to talk to Irvin and assure him that he’d be fine but as soon as he was relaxed, he could hear two hearts drumming so loudly. He knew one was Irvin’s and the other one was Abel’s.
“Wait!” He yelled and Tia retreated her hands instantly. He sat up and pulled Abel in a bone-crushing hug. He just wanted to make sure that if anything bad happens, he could say he hugged his best friend for the last time at least.
He then pulled apart, giving him a pat on the back and a courageous smile to uplift him. He turned to his mate who was holding his hand even when he hugged Abel, refusing to let go of his hand.
He tugged his hand and pulled him down to his face level. Irvin stared at him through his green orbs. Zadkiel pressed their foreheads together and closed his eyes. All he sensed in Irvin was fear.
Fear of losing him.
He opened his eyes to stare at him again and questioned himself, did he just read his emotions? He shook off all the thoughts and felt guilty for always doubting Irvin and his affection towards him.
He leaned forwards and pressed his lips against his mate’s plump and smooth lips. They didn’t move their lips or take a step further. It was just lips against lips. A touch that lingered and said all the words that they couldn’t say at the moment but Zadkiel knew he had to use words, in case he never had a chance to say them So, he parted but kept their foreheads pressed together.
“Irvin…” He whispered. Every emotion in his body was heightened and he was panting with the overwhelming emotions in his chest. He kept staring at him with teary eyes.
“I… I love you.” He whispered and didn’t even wait for Irvin’s reply as pecked his lips before lying back on the bed.
He turned his gaze to Abel, fearing to look at Irvin. Abel instantly entwined their hands as Tia placed her hands back on his chest. He let out a breath and closed his eyes. But then he felt a tug in his hand. The hand that Irvin was holding. He slowly opened his eyes and averted his gaze at his mate who was staring at him with so much adoration in his eyes.
“I love you.” He mouthed to Zadkiel who smiled back in return. He had no doubt that Irvin did love him. He’d think about other things later but right now he believed Irvin’s words and the thought Irvin wanted him to make it out of it. Irvin brought their entwined hands to his mouth and kissed Zadkiel’s hand which made butterflies flutter in Zadkiel’s stomach.
But soon that feeling went away as he started feeling like someone was squeezing his heart. His breaths started to pick up and he started to inhale deeply. He could feel his strength leaving his body and his limbs going numb. A scorching pain throbbed through his chest, leading its way to his left arm. The next thing he knew, he was losing his consciousness as a state of dizziness overrode him. He tried to keep his eyes open for as long as he could.
He blinked and looked at Abel who was now crying harder than before. Tears were flowing down his cheeks as he kept clutching his hand to his chest. He blinked again and his eyes landed on Tia as she was murmuring something under her breath with her eyes closed.
Blink.
His eyes landed on his mate. The curly lad had forgotten that he was an Alpha of a pack and he had to keep it together. He was sobbing, looking at Zadkiel and kissing his hand that was sandwiched between his own two hands.
He didn’t get to blink another second as the consciousness started to slip away from his hands and he couldn’t command his eyes to stay open anymore. It all turned blank and then everything stopped.
The last thing he saw was his mate kissing his hand and mouthing ‘I love you’ repeatedly to him with tears flowing down his face.
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Zadkiel and Irvin both were at Sean's house to pick up Abel but it was one hell of a job because now they had to listen to Abel and Sean banter. Well, I told him not to put his shoes in the upper portion of the closet! Sean scoffed as he was wrapping Abel's foot in the bandage. Now look what you did to yourself! He scolded Abel. Umm guys, I- Zadkiel tried but was cut off by them for the millionth time. You could've saved me by using your werewolf ass and grabbing my shoes for me, Abel argued back. Or you could've saved yourself by not putting the shoes on the upper most portion of the closet! Sean spoke while tightly wrapping the bandage. Well, too tightly. Ow! Abel yelped in pain. Hey, be careful! Zadkiel hissed at Sean. Sorry, Luna. Sean apologized before turning to Abel to apologize. Listen, I ca- Zadkiel was cut off again. First, you refuse to get my shoes for me because you were too busy doing absolutely nothing and when I hurt my foot by falling while grabbing my shoes, you scold me like a mother. If that wasn't enough, you hurt me wrapping a bandage. And you guys say that you care for your mates. Abel scoffed, rolling his eyes. I didn't get you your shoes because when you were putting them in the upper most shelf of the closet I told you not to. Sean sighed. Cut with the argument, I- Zadkiel was cut off again and this time he decided to not open his mouth again. Well, I barely use these shoes that's why I put them on the upper most portion! Abel huffed, folding his arms on his chest. Sean was done with the bandage. Guys we're getting late. Irvin carefully spoke, sneaking a glance at Zadkiel. They both were just awkwardly standing in the corner. You know what, I'm done talking to you. I'm going. Abel stood up but as soon as he put the weight on his foot, he yelped in pain. You idiot! Why would you stand on your feet?! Sean rushed to help him and so did Zadkiel. Abel pushed away Sean and grabbed Zadkiel's hand. Because to walk you have to stand on your feet! Abel hissed at him. Why are you being too snappy and emotional today? Sean frowned, giving him a scolded child look. Oh, let me think maybe because my best friend is gonna get his HEART STOPPED TODAY! Abel yelled at him for no reason. He was overwhelmed with emotions today. Zadkiel turned him to face him and glared at him. Are you out of your mind? What's his fault in this? He scolded his best friend. He understood what was going on with Abel but taking it out on others wasn't acceptable. It's his fault. It's all of these people's fault. Abel cried, getting overwhelmed with too many emotions. Zadkiel understood what he meant so he pulled his best friend in a hug. It's going to be alright. I'll be alright. I promise. Zadkiel murmured in his ear while rubbing his back. Zadkiel pulled apart and wiped off the tears from his best friend's face, giving him a reassuring smile. He grabbed Abel's hand and closed his eyes. His expressions changed as his face was as if he was in pain and then his face relaxed. He opened his eyes and smiled at him. Oh yeah, you could heal. You could've saved us from an argument by saying that. Abel shook his head, chuckling and stating as if it was Zadkiel's fault when the lad was trying to say that for an hour. Zadkiel stared at him blankly before rolling his eyes. Let's go. He spoke, dragging him. Can we do this tomorrow? I'm not ready today. Abel stated, giving a pleading look to Zadkiel. You're not the one who's going to die. It's me. I'm ready and I want to get over with it. So move your long legs. Zadkiel responded. Abel sighed before turning around and running to Sean. He gave him a peck on the lips and apologized to him before joining Zadkiel and Irvin. Once they were at Tia's house, Abel just looked around and questioned Zadkiel through his eyes if she really was a witch and Zadkiel answered through a nod of his head. Abel couldn't believe that a witch lived in such a big posh house. Zadkiel! The most beautiful man I've ever laid my eyes on. Tia exclaimed, opening her arms for him. Zadkiel chuckled and hugged her. I missed these eyes so much. She spoke, pulling apart and staring deep into his eyes. Why thank you. Zadkiel giggled. She greeted Abel and Irvin. Let's go! She grabbed his hand and started walking. Ahem! Irvin cleared his throat. She made a boring face before letting go of Zadkiel's hand. Stop being so jealous. It's not like I can steal your mate from you. Tia rolled her eyes and kept walking. You can never steal him from me. Irvin grabbed Zadkiel's hand and smirked. Whatever, Ford. She opened the door to the same old dark room. Whoa! Now it feels like a witch place. Abel commented, looking around in the dark room which now had candles unlike before. You changed the decorations? Zadkiel stated, looking around. The stretcher type bed was still there in the middle of the room. Yeah. Arranged a little candlelight date for us. She answered, chuckling. Shall we, beauty? She turned around and extended her hand for Zadkiel but Irvin led him to the bed, ignoring her. And her beast. She muttered under her breath. Zadkiel just giggled before lying down flat on the stretcher. Abel stood beside him. So, what? You gonna get some surgery or something? Abel questioned. Or something, Tia answered, chuckling. Remove the coat, genius. She said to Zadkiel who sat up to remove the coat but Irvin was quick to help him. You do realize he has his own hands, don't you? She rolled her eyes at Irvin. Of course, I do, Ms Know-it-all. Irvin gave her a sweet smile. Zadkiel lied back. Tia ignored Irvin and placed her hands right above Zadkiel's heart as if giving him CPR in the wrong place but that's what it looked like. She took a deep breath before closing her eyes and it seemed like everything stopped for a moment. Zadkiel looked up at Irvin and Abel both standing on either side of him. He was nervous as fuck. He didn't know what to expect from this. He had no idea if he would feel pain or not. He just wished it would end before he got to feel anything at all. He entwined his hands with both his mate and his best friend. His eyes held fear and tears. His throat was clogged and dry like a desert. His eyes locked with Abel who also had tears in his eyes and he was clutching Zadkiel's hand. He gave him a small smile. Only he knew how much effort that small smile took. He turned his gaze to Irvin who was not crying but his eyes held fear and he was biting his lip so hard. He tried to calm his own nerves a bit to talk to Irvin and assure him that he'd be fine but as soon as he was relaxed, he could hear two hearts drumming so loudly. He knew one was Irvin's and the other one was Abel's. Wait! He yelled and Tia retreated her hands instantly. He sat up and pulled Abel in a bone-crushing hug. He just wanted to make sure that if anything bad happens, he could say he hugged his best friend for the last time at least. He then pulled apart, giving him a pat on the back and a courageous smile to uplift him. He turned to his mate who was holding his hand even when he hugged Abel, refusing to let go of his hand. He tugged his hand and pulled him down to his face level. Irvin stared at him through his green orbs. Zadkiel pressed their foreheads together and closed his eyes. All he sensed in Irvin was fear. Fear of losing him. He opened his eyes to stare at him again and questioned himself, did he just read his emotions? He shook off all the thoughts and felt guilty for always doubting Irvin and his affection towards him. He leaned forwards and pressed his lips against his mate's plump and smooth lips. They didn't move their lips or take a step further. It was just lips against lips. A touch that lingered and said all the words that they couldn't say at the moment but Zadkiel knew he had to use words, in case he never had a chance to say them So, he parted but kept their foreheads pressed together. Irvin He whispered. Every emotion in his body was heightened and he was panting with the overwhelming emotions in his chest. He kept staring at him with teary eyes. I I love you. He whispered and didn't even wait for Irvin's reply as pecked his lips before lying back on the bed. He turned his gaze to Abel, fearing to look at Irvin. Abel instantly entwined their hands as Tia placed her hands back on his chest. He let out a breath and closed his eyes. But then he felt a tug in his hand. The hand that Irvin was holding. He slowly opened his eyes and averted his gaze at his mate who was staring at him with so much adoration in his eyes. I love you. He mouthed to Zadkiel who smiled back in return. He had no doubt that Irvin did love him. He'd think about other things later but right now he believed Irvin's words and the thought Irvin wanted him to make it out of it. Irvin brought their entwined hands to his mouth and kissed Zadkiel's hand which made butterflies flutter in Zadkiel's stomach. But soon that feeling went away as he started feeling like someone was squeezing his heart. His breaths started to pick up and he started to inhale deeply. He could feel his strength leaving his body and his limbs going numb. A scorching pain throbbed through his chest, leading its way to his left arm. The next thing he knew, he was losing his consciousness as a state of dizziness overrode him. He tried to keep his eyes open for as long as he could. He blinked and looked at Abel who was now crying harder than before. Tears were flowing down his cheeks as he kept clutching his hand to his chest. He blinked again and his eyes landed on Tia as she was murmuring something under her breath with her eyes closed. Blink. His eyes landed on his mate. The curly lad had forgotten that he was an Alpha of a pack and he had to keep it together. He was sobbing, looking at Zadkiel and kissing his hand that was sandwiched between his own two hands. He didn't get to blink another second as the consciousness started to slip away from his hands and he couldn't command his eyes to stay open anymore. It all turned blank and then everything stopped. The last thing he saw was his mate kissing his hand and mouthing I love you' repeatedly to him with tears flowing down his face.
