Fu Wang stayed as a little bun for an entire half a month. If it wasn’t so inconvenient to make traps, refine pills and concoct medicine in that form, he would’ve continued staying that way. After all, in that form, Shu Yu was almost always indulgent towards him. It was something that made him feel joyful most of the time.
Although Shu Yu rarely refuted him on a normal day, during those times it was because of her respect and trust in him, as she mainly regarded him as a friend or mentor – an adult she could speak with on equal grounds. But when he was a small bun, Shu Yu’s treatment of him could be seen as pampering.
Yes, extremely affectionate and pampering.
Whenever he wanted to kiss her, he was allowed to kiss her; he would never get rejected and sometimes she would even initiate first. Whenever he wanted to cling to her, he only had to stretch his arms, tilt his head and ask for a hug, and no matter what Shu Yu was doing, she would immediately come over and hug him. Whenever he wanted to hear her say that she liked him, he just had to show her a pleading face and she would immediately fulfill his wish, calling him sweetheart, hugging him while sleeping or resting, her every word and action overflowing with affection.
To be honest, Fu Wang was somewhat disheartened. When it came to Shu Yu, he would always feel emotions he had never experienced before.
Just thinking about it, whenever he approached Shu Yu in his adult form, even if it was to hold hands, she would freeze up. If he said he liked her, she would determinedly avoid his eyes, ducking her head lowly and looking as if no matter what he said, she would never initiate anything. If he wanted to hear her say she liked him, that was basically impossible. Even earlier when they hadn’t confirmed their relationship, she practically ducked around his advances, being extremely restrained with herself.
When Fu Wang thought about how his two forms were treated very differently by the one he adored, he really wanted to sigh. Sometimes he even wondered if Shu Yu saw him as two different people since it produced such a big contrast. One side was relaxed and affectionate, and the other was cautious and stiff.
On one hand he envied how his child form could get closer to Shu Yu, and on the other hand, he was relieved she was so fond of this appearance of his. He struggled between being indecisive, happy, and conflicted. However, whether it was frustration or delight, as long as it was related to Shu Yu, it would leave him savoring its aftertaste.
Just like now, being able to live intimately and peacefully together, only the two of them. He no longer had to think of his revolting past. He didn’t have to stress about how to live for a bit longer or with more dignity. He only had to focus on the present, paying attention to whether Shu Yu slept well last night or what she did today. Then whenever she looked at him, he would give her a well-prepared smile, seeing her lightly blush and turn away pretending to be calm, as she internally squirmed over his teasing.
For the first time in his life, he was truly tasting what it meant to be alive.
Every moment was exhilarating. With Shu Yu around, he couldn’t even concentrate on other things, her figure filling his sight and heart. His rationality warned him against this, but his body didn’t have the strength to resist. He was like a drunkard – clearly delirious but subconsciously wanting for more.
Fu Wang stayed as a little bun for half a month and when he turned back into a young man, he bemusedly noticed Shu Yu’s gaze instantly turn from affectionate to alarmed, as if constantly wary he would drag her to bed. Seeing how she looked like someone who was bitten by a snake once and became afraid of ropes for ten years, Fu Wang was amused and dejected, as well as slightly vexed.
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It was so frustrating that he wanted to do things that would make her a bit angry, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it, afraid that he’d scare her farther away from him.
Actually, he didn’t plan to always keep Shu Yu in their bed, but it was his first-time seeing Shu Yu so immersed in passion, her watery eyes bewitching him endlessly. That’s why he couldn’t control himself at the time and pestered her for so long, becoming one with her over and over again.
He liked that feeling of absolute intimacy. But in reality, because of growing up in the Qing Family, that absurd place that was overflowing with lust, he wasn’t fond of this kind of thing. However, when the other person was Shu Yu, he didn’t have any aversion and thoroughly let himself enjoy that bliss, basking in the wonders of their union with his beloved.
Therefore… Right now, aside from when he turned into a small bun who couldn’t do those things, Shu Yu wouldn’t approach him. Fu Wang looked at the sky, slightly saddened.
Shu Yu had gone out early in the morning. Previously, using his smaller form he had clung and wrangled Shu Yu into staying home for many days. Every day they cuddled together reading books, watching snow fall or making new snacks, and even exchanging meaningless, teeth-rotting words. But after turning back, Shu Yu ran out without a second word. And since her excuse was how she hadn’t practiced for a while and needed to exercise, he didn’t have a reason to stop her.
He sighed deeply. Fu Wang himself didn’t expect to become the more infatuated half out of the two of them. From the moment Shu Yu agreed to be with him, he didn’t want to leave her for even a moment. Perhaps because the object of his desires was finally close at hand, he was too anxious over this hard-earned warmth, which made it difficult to release his hold in any way, to a point where even he found it terrifying whenever he thought about it.
Shu Yu was no longer in his sight, but his heart couldn’t calm down.
Fu Wang looked at the puddle of ink under his hand. He finally put down his brush, shrugged on a robe as he stood up and walked outside the stone cave. He folded his arms and looked at the grayish sky.
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The snow hadn’t melted completely yet, it was silvery white everywhere and from looking at sky, it seemed that heavy snow would fall again in the evening.
Breathing in the clean crisp air of the outside for a while, he felt the despondence in his gut slightly disperse. Fu Wang bent over and dug a handful of clean snow and rubbed it between his fingers, until it melted into cold water that trickled down his wrist and into his sleeves, and it was then that Fu Wang came to his senses. He dried his hands and took one glance at the skyline in the distance, then kneaded his forehead as he entered the brightly lit stone cave.
He had to restrain himself, there were many things he had to prepare for in advance. He couldn’t afford to indulge himself anymore.
At the very least, by the time they left the Clear Wilderness, he needed to find a way to disguise the abnormality of his body. As his power increased, his identity as someone who became a Devil was more likely to be recognized. He must find a way to disguise himself. If he still wanted to be with Shu Yu, then he had to make it so even those Fox Clan Elders couldn’t see through him.
Otherwise not only would he be in danger, but Shu Yu would also be dragged down because of him.
In reality, Fu Wang wasn’t the only one having complicated thoughts, Shu Yu herself was also freaking out. Once she left, she sprinted for a long while on the vast snowfields until she ran into a vicious demon beast hunting for food. After fighting with it, she finally stopped in her tracks and fell backwards on the soft snow.
Half a month ago, those three days of nonsense had broken the limits of Shu Yu’s shame, and even now she still hadn’t fully processed it. Touching the base1 after just agreeing to get together, and even using different positions to do it —— heavens, how could such degenerated acts exist in this world. (Vacant face)2
When Fu Wang was in the form of a small bun, she couldn’t see the face that did this and that to her in those three days, so she was a little more relaxed. She wasn’t a perverse person after all, there was no way she’d think weird things of a little bun, so it was easier to relax. On the contrary, as soon as Fu Wang changed back, upon seeing him Shu Yu couldn’t help but recall those three days.
Even after such a long time, she still occasionally recalled those moments in her dreams. She would suddenly wake up because of those seemingly endless sensations and feel all sorts of embarrassments, and then be unable to look at Fu Wang. Shu Yu really didn’t know how Fu Wang could go about his days as usual, seeing him being so carefree with his usual smile and showing affection like normal. There was no sign of discomfort to be seen.
Shu Yu couldn’t do it. She couldn’t look straight at him when he was in the form of a young man. Once she got close, her body would remember the madness of that time and involuntarily freeze up. It wasn’t fear, much less disgust, but it was just something too embarrassing to admit. She didn’t want to act so awkward either, but she couldn’t control her body’s reactions, it made her internally panic.
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It was so frustrating to be in love! They were in this kind of relationship now, she didn’t want to avoid Fu Wang either, but she couldn’t help it. By the time she noticed it her body had already reacted. Sometimes seeing the helplessness in Fu Wang’s eyes, she also got a little worried, wondering if Fu Wang would get tired of her this way.
As Shu Yu thought about it, messy fragments of that time flashed in her mind. The dim ambiguous light of the cave, Fu Wang’s sweat-covered chest, the black hair tickling her cheeks, that heart-racing gaze that seemed to want to devour her and the movements that didn’t stop.
Shu Yu flipped over, motionlessly laying there, burying her face in the snow. After a moment the snow was melted by the heat of her face, so her head sank deeper and deeper into the snow. She looked like a groundhog or a bright red flower blooming in the snow.
The sky darkened. Fu Wang looked outside a few times, but didn’t see Shu Yu coming back, and felt worried in his heart. It’s not that he was afraid Shu Yu would meet anything dangerous, but he was worried she really would hide from himself.
It was possible Shu Yu would do it. Fu Wang sighed and stopped what he was doing, rising and walking outside, following the route Shu Yu often took. He didn’t have to walk for long before seeing Shu Yu in the distance. Her red clothes were striking amidst the snow, easily seen from far away.
Her head was lowered as she trudged on the snow, seeming to think of something. She didn’t use a faster mode of going home and was instead dragging on slowly. As he approached, she felt the presence of someone nearby and her head snapped up, but seeing it was Fu Wang, she instantly ducked her head and stopped in her tracks.
Since she wouldn’t move, Fu Wang walked towards her. He instantly saw her hair was still damp, caked with a layer of frost, with the tips still dripping water.
“What happened? How did you get your hair wet? On such a cold day, although demons need not fear it, you should still be mindful.” Fu Wang hurriedly approached. He stroked her hair and murmured, “Hurry and dry your hair.”
Hearing his voice so near her ear made her shiver. Shu Yu made an affirming noise with her head lowered, controlling spiritual energy to dry her hair. Her brain was a mess, so she didn’t pay attention to her hair, however Fu Wang noticed it, he would definitely be upset again.
If she didn’t take care of herself, Fu Wang would always become upset.
Thinking of this, Shu Yu tentatively peeked at Fu Wang, and locked eyes with his clearly indulgent gaze. Her head instantly erupted with smoke, and she ducked her head even lower, but she couldn’t completely lower her head when Fu Wang raised his hand and held her in place.
He half-forcibly lifted Shu Yu’s head so she could meet his gaze. Fu Wang focused on those clear eyes, his voice slightly coaxing, “From now on, can Shu Yu lock eyes with me every day for a little bit? You will have to get used to it sooner or later, and… I want you to look at me, hmm?”
After saying that he didn’t wait for Shu Yu’s response and let go, taking two steps back and walking in front of Shu Yu. He turned his head with a small smile. “It’s getting late, let’s go home.”
He understood that, after confirming their relationship, Shu Yu wasn’t familiar with these kinds of interactions yet and was being overcautious, but he would make her get used to it. He couldn’t pressure her too much yet though. Shu Yu was the type who’d back away the more she was pressured. The right move in this case was to concede in order to advance.
The two walked two steps apart in the snow. The surrounding was very quiet, even the whistling winds had stopped. After a while, delicate snowflakes started to drift from the sky.
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As Fu Wang walked, he suddenly felt his sleeve was being pulled. He turned to the side and saw Shu Yu had somehow, at one point, stuck very close to his side, one of her hands pulling his sleeve.
His eyes flickered with a faint smile. Fu Wang gently brushed away the snow on her shoulders and grasped her hands.
Chapter Description: Single dogs or whatever, just increase the count whenever one gets beaten down.
Author’s Note:
Yelling for fluff when there’s no fluff, but when fluff comes y’all start angrily screaming about burning it. Troublesome little beauties, what should I do about you all! 【doge】
上垒; baseball term for touching one of the bases probably, slang for intercourse.
2眉庄脸, the direct translation is having the face of Shen MeiZhuang(沈眉庄). She is a famous character in Empresses in the Palace (甄嬛传). It’s said Shen Meizhuang’s beauty was neither bewitching nor innocent, her eyes slightly vacant and perhaps unfocused, making people wonder where she’s looking at, and the manner she spoke was faint or weak, as if she had no strength in her. No desire, no ambition. So her face = vacant face.
Fu Wang stayed as a little bun for an entire half a month. If it wasn’t so inconvenient to make traps, refine pills and concoct medicine in that form, he would’ve continued staying that way. After all, in that form, Shu Yu was almost always indulgent towards him. It was something that made him feel joyful most of the time.
Although Shu Yu rarely refuted him on a normal day, during those times it was because of her respect and trust in him, as she mainly regarded him as a friend or mentor – an adult she could speak with on equal grounds. But when he was a small bun, Shu Yu’s treatment of him could be seen as pampering.
Yes, extremely affectionate and pampering.
Whenever he wanted to kiss her, he was allowed to kiss her; he would never get rejected and sometimes she would even initiate first. Whenever he wanted to cling to her, he only had to stretch his arms, tilt his head and ask for a hug, and no matter what Shu Yu was doing, she would immediately come over and hug him. Whenever he wanted to hear her say that she liked him, he just had to show her a pleading face and she would immediately fulfill his wish, calling him sweetheart, hugging him while sleeping or resting, her every word and action overflowing with affection.
To be honest, Fu Wang was somewhat disheartened. When it came to Shu Yu, he would always feel emotions he had never experienced before.
Just thinking about it, whenever he approached Shu Yu in his adult form, even if it was to hold hands, she would freeze up. If he said he liked her, she would determinedly avoid his eyes, ducking her head lowly and looking as if no matter what he said, she would never initiate anything. If he wanted to hear her say she liked him, that was basically impossible. Even earlier when they hadn’t confirmed their relationship, she practically ducked around his advances, being extremely restrained with herself.
When Fu Wang thought about how his two forms were treated very differently by the one he adored, he really wanted to sigh. Sometimes he even wondered if Shu Yu saw him as two different people since it produced such a big contrast. One side was relaxed and affectionate, and the other was cautious and stiff.
On one hand he envied how his child form could get closer to Shu Yu, and on the other hand, he was relieved she was so fond of this appearance of his. He struggled between being indecisive, happy, and conflicted. However, whether it was frustration or delight, as long as it was related to Shu Yu, it would leave him savoring its aftertaste.
Just like now, being able to live intimately and peacefully together, only the two of them. He no longer had to think of his revolting past. He didn’t have to stress about how to live for a bit longer or with more dignity. He only had to focus on the present, paying attention to whether Shu Yu slept well last night or what she did today. Then whenever she looked at him, he would give her a well-prepared smile, seeing her lightly blush and turn away pretending to be calm, as she internally squirmed over his teasing.
For the first time in his life, he was truly tasting what it meant to be alive.
Every moment was exhilarating. With Shu Yu around, he couldn’t even concentrate on other things, her figure filling his sight and heart. His rationality warned him against this, but his body didn’t have the strength to resist. He was like a drunkard – clearly delirious but subconsciously wanting for more.
Fu Wang stayed as a little bun for half a month and when he turned back into a young man, he bemusedly noticed Shu Yu’s gaze instantly turn from affectionate to alarmed, as if constantly wary he would drag her to bed. Seeing how she looked like someone who was bitten by a snake once and became afraid of ropes for ten years, Fu Wang was amused and dejected, as well as slightly vexed.
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It was so frustrating that he wanted to do things that would make her a bit angry, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it, afraid that he’d scare her farther away from him.
Actually, he didn’t plan to always keep Shu Yu in their bed, but it was his first-time seeing Shu Yu so immersed in passion, her watery eyes bewitching him endlessly. That’s why he couldn’t control himself at the time and pestered her for so long, becoming one with her over and over again.
He liked that feeling of absolute intimacy. But in reality, because of growing up in the Qing Family, that absurd place that was overflowing with lust, he wasn’t fond of this kind of thing. However, when the other person was Shu Yu, he didn’t have any aversion and thoroughly let himself enjoy that bliss, basking in the wonders of their union with his beloved.
Therefore… Right now, aside from when he turned into a small bun who couldn’t do those things, Shu Yu wouldn’t approach him. Fu Wang looked at the sky, slightly saddened.
Shu Yu had gone out early in the morning. Previously, using his smaller form he had clung and wrangled Shu Yu into staying home for many days. Every day they cuddled together reading books, watching snow fall or making new snacks, and even exchanging meaningless, teeth-rotting words. But after turning back, Shu Yu ran out without a second word. And since her excuse was how she hadn’t practiced for a while and needed to exercise, he didn’t have a reason to stop her.
He sighed deeply. Fu Wang himself didn’t expect to become the more infatuated half out of the two of them. From the moment Shu Yu agreed to be with him, he didn’t want to leave her for even a moment. Perhaps because the object of his desires was finally close at hand, he was too anxious over this hard-earned warmth, which made it difficult to release his hold in any way, to a point where even he found it terrifying whenever he thought about it.
Shu Yu was no longer in his sight, but his heart couldn’t calm down.
Fu Wang looked at the puddle of ink under his hand. He finally put down his brush, shrugged on a robe as he stood up and walked outside the stone cave. He folded his arms and looked at the grayish sky.
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The snow hadn’t melted completely yet, it was silvery white everywhere and from looking at sky, it seemed that heavy snow would fall again in the evening.
Breathing in the clean crisp air of the outside for a while, he felt the despondence in his gut slightly disperse. Fu Wang bent over and dug a handful of clean snow and rubbed it between his fingers, until it melted into cold water that trickled down his wrist and into his sleeves, and it was then that Fu Wang came to his senses. He dried his hands and took one glance at the skyline in the distance, then kneaded his forehead as he entered the brightly lit stone cave.
He had to restrain himself, there were many things he had to prepare for in advance. He couldn’t afford to indulge himself anymore.
At the very least, by the time they left the Clear Wilderness, he needed to find a way to disguise the abnormality of his body. As his power increased, his identity as someone who became a Devil was more likely to be recognized. He must find a way to disguise himself. If he still wanted to be with Shu Yu, then he had to make it so even those Fox Clan Elders couldn’t see through him.
Otherwise not only would he be in danger, but Shu Yu would also be dragged down because of him.
In reality, Fu Wang wasn’t the only one having complicated thoughts, Shu Yu herself was also freaking out. Once she left, she sprinted for a long while on the vast snowfields until she ran into a vicious demon beast hunting for food. After fighting with it, she finally stopped in her tracks and fell backwards on the soft snow.
Half a month ago, those three days of nonsense had broken the limits of Shu Yu’s shame, and even now she still hadn’t fully processed it. Touching the base1 after just agreeing to get together, and even using different positions to do it —— heavens, how could such degenerated acts exist in this world. (Vacant face)2
When Fu Wang was in the form of a small bun, she couldn’t see the face that did this and that to her in those three days, so she was a little more relaxed. She wasn’t a perverse person after all, there was no way she’d think weird things of a little bun, so it was easier to relax. On the contrary, as soon as Fu Wang changed back, upon seeing him Shu Yu couldn’t help but recall those three days.
Even after such a long time, she still occasionally recalled those moments in her dreams. She would suddenly wake up because of those seemingly endless sensations and feel all sorts of embarrassments, and then be unable to look at Fu Wang. Shu Yu really didn’t know how Fu Wang could go about his days as usual, seeing him being so carefree with his usual smile and showing affection like normal. There was no sign of discomfort to be seen.
Shu Yu couldn’t do it. She couldn’t look straight at him when he was in the form of a young man. Once she got close, her body would remember the madness of that time and involuntarily freeze up. It wasn’t fear, much less disgust, but it was just something too embarrassing to admit. She didn’t want to act so awkward either, but she couldn’t control her body’s reactions, it made her internally panic.
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It was so frustrating to be in love! They were in this kind of relationship now, she didn’t want to avoid Fu Wang either, but she couldn’t help it. By the time she noticed it her body had already reacted. Sometimes seeing the helplessness in Fu Wang’s eyes, she also got a little worried, wondering if Fu Wang would get tired of her this way.
As Shu Yu thought about it, messy fragments of that time flashed in her mind. The dim ambiguous light of the cave, Fu Wang’s sweat-covered chest, the black hair tickling her cheeks, that heart-racing gaze that seemed to want to devour her and the movements that didn’t stop.
Shu Yu flipped over, motionlessly laying there, burying her face in the snow. After a moment the snow was melted by the heat of her face, so her head sank deeper and deeper into the snow. She looked like a groundhog or a bright red flower blooming in the snow.
The sky darkened. Fu Wang looked outside a few times, but didn’t see Shu Yu coming back, and felt worried in his heart. It’s not that he was afraid Shu Yu would meet anything dangerous, but he was worried she really would hide from himself.
It was possible Shu Yu would do it. Fu Wang sighed and stopped what he was doing, rising and walking outside, following the route Shu Yu often took. He didn’t have to walk for long before seeing Shu Yu in the distance. Her red clothes were striking amidst the snow, easily seen from far away.
Her head was lowered as she trudged on the snow, seeming to think of something. She didn’t use a faster mode of going home and was instead dragging on slowly. As he approached, she felt the presence of someone nearby and her head snapped up, but seeing it was Fu Wang, she instantly ducked her head and stopped in her tracks.
Since she wouldn’t move, Fu Wang walked towards her. He instantly saw her hair was still damp, caked with a layer of frost, with the tips still dripping water.
“What happened? How did you get your hair wet? On such a cold day, although demons need not fear it, you should still be mindful.” Fu Wang hurriedly approached. He stroked her hair and murmured, “Hurry and dry your hair.”
Hearing his voice so near her ear made her shiver. Shu Yu made an affirming noise with her head lowered, controlling spiritual energy to dry her hair. Her brain was a mess, so she didn’t pay attention to her hair, however Fu Wang noticed it, he would definitely be upset again.
If she didn’t take care of herself, Fu Wang would always become upset.
Thinking of this, Shu Yu tentatively peeked at Fu Wang, and locked eyes with his clearly indulgent gaze. Her head instantly erupted with smoke, and she ducked her head even lower, but she couldn’t completely lower her head when Fu Wang raised his hand and held her in place.
He half-forcibly lifted Shu Yu’s head so she could meet his gaze. Fu Wang focused on those clear eyes, his voice slightly coaxing, “From now on, can Shu Yu lock eyes with me every day for a little bit? You will have to get used to it sooner or later, and… I want you to look at me, hmm?”
After saying that he didn’t wait for Shu Yu’s response and let go, taking two steps back and walking in front of Shu Yu. He turned his head with a small smile. “It’s getting late, let’s go home.”
He understood that, after confirming their relationship, Shu Yu wasn’t familiar with these kinds of interactions yet and was being overcautious, but he would make her get used to it. He couldn’t pressure her too much yet though. Shu Yu was the type who’d back away the more she was pressured. The right move in this case was to concede in order to advance.
The two walked two steps apart in the snow. The surrounding was very quiet, even the whistling winds had stopped. After a while, delicate snowflakes started to drift from the sky.
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As Fu Wang walked, he suddenly felt his sleeve was being pulled. He turned to the side and saw Shu Yu had somehow, at one point, stuck very close to his side, one of her hands pulling his sleeve.
His eyes flickered with a faint smile. Fu Wang gently brushed away the snow on her shoulders and grasped her hands.
Chapter Description: Single dogs or whatever, just increase the count whenever one gets beaten down.
Author’s Note:
Yelling for fluff when there’s no fluff, but when fluff comes y’all start angrily screaming about burning it. Troublesome little beauties, what should I do about you all! 【doge】
上垒; baseball term for touching one of the bases probably, slang for intercourse.
2眉庄脸, the direct translation is having the face of Shen MeiZhuang(沈眉庄). She is a famous character in Empresses in the Palace (甄嬛传). It’s said Shen Meizhuang’s beauty was neither bewitching nor innocent, her eyes slightly vacant and perhaps unfocused, making people wonder where she’s looking at, and the manner she spoke was faint or weak, as if she had no strength in her. No desire, no ambition. So her face = vacant face.
