Chapter 110: It's The Same For Me
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"Das? Are you awake?" Elena said, peeking from the half-opened door.
"Yes, I am awake"
"Can I come in?"
"Of course you can"
"Why is it so dark here?"
"Oh, sorry. I will turn on the light"
"No!"
"What?"
"No need to turn on the lights"
"Why?"
"It's okay"
I can clearly see everything but she can't.
"I will turn on the lights"
I turned on the lamp near my bed.
The dim light illuminated the room. She was sitting on the chair, staring at me.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, thanks for the lights"
"Why did you want them off?"
"Because"
"Because?"
"Because...I will see your face"
What's that supposed to mean?
Obviously she will see my face if the lights are on.
"What's wrong with that?"
"I don't want to see your face"
"....."
What?
"Huh? What did I just say...no! That's not what I meant. I was saying, I don't want to see your face right now"
What's the difference?!
"Are you angry about something?" I asked.
She shook her head.
"Then why do you not want to see my face?"
Elena stared at me and said, "Can I...sit on your bed?"
"Go ahead"
Her face is a little flushed.
She sat on my bed...huh?
What's wrong with her?
Usually, she would sit beside me, but she is sitting on the corner of the bed right now.
"What's wrong, Elena?"
She is acting weird.
"Das"
"Yes?"
"Have you ever thought about doing it with me?"
"Doing what?"
"You know...s.e.x"
"Well...I have"
"Do you want to do it now?"
"Why are...you--"
"Das, it's the same with me"
"Huh?"
"I love you so much that when I am with you, I always have l.e.w.d thoughts about you.
"....."
"For the past few days, I have been acting too bold. I even promised to have s.e.x with you on your birthday"
"Do you regret it?"
She shook her head and said, "I want to do it with you. I won't mind even if we do it now"
"So..."
"Hey Das, tell me. When you are with me, do you have l.e.w.d thoughts about me?"
"I...do"
"I see. So it's normal to have l.e.w.d thoughts about the person you love"
"Yes, I think it's normal"
"As you said, you have l.e.w.d thoughts about me and I have l.e.w.d thoughts about you"
"Hmm"
"Nowadays, when I am near you, I feel like I will die if I don't touch you. I can't control myself"
"Hmm"
"Even now, I want to jump and hug you and kiss you and do many other things with you, but I am scared"
"Scared?"
"I feel insecure when I think that you might leave me one day"
"Elena, how many times do I have to say that? That's the one thing that will never happen"
"I know, but when I think like that, I feel so broken"
"Can I hug you?"
She nodded.
I hugged her. Her face was already teary, but when I hugged her, I could feel how much she was trembling.
"The reason you allowed to share me is because you think that I might leave you one day, right?"
"Mmm"
She wrapped her arms around me.
"Even if you didn't allow that, or now that you have allowed that, my love for you will never end"
"...."
"You are irreplaceable. No one can take your place"
"I am not that good for you"
"Didn't I say not to say that? If you ever say that again, I will stop talking to you"
"I am trying my best for you"
"...."
"I am trying my best to become a better girl for you"
"...."
"I am also studying every night"
"You don't need to. You don't have to try harder. You don't have to study. You don't have to do anything"
"But-"
"You are fine just the way you are"
"I really love you"
"Yeah, I love you too"
She calmed down after some minutes.
I can't blame her if she feels insecure. She is the one who allowed me to be with other girls, so it's my turn to pay her back.
"Hey Elena"
"Hmm?"
"Let's get engaged once I turn 18"
"Wha..."
"You don't want to?"
"Are you fine with me?"
"It has to be you"
"What about Serah?"
"I will engage her later"
"What about your cousin?"
"I don't know"
"Why did you suddenly propose to me?"
"It's the same for me"
"Huh?"
"I also feel insecure"
"You don't need to"
"I can say the same for you"
"It's different with me. You already have other girls"
"You think I will leave you for them?"
"I don't"
"Then do you think I will leave them for you"
"Will you?"
"I won't. I can't do that, so make sure to hold me tight"
"I am never letting you go"
"That's my Elena"
"Yeah, I am yours"
"Keep that confidence and never say those words again, okay?"
"I won't. This will be my last time acting weak in front of you"
"I see"
She calmed down.
"Hey Elena"
"Hmm?"
"How will we tell our parents about other girls?"
Elena was resting on my c.h.e.s.t. She looked up and said, "Do we really need to tell them?"
"Well, we do"
They are family.
"We can keep it a secret. I don't think there is anything wrong with that as long as we both are okay with it"
"Fine. We will tell them when the time is right"
"Yeah, there is still a long way to go"
"Where is mom?"
"She got out from the bath. She said she will call mom--"
Ring~~ Ring~~
Elena phone rang.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"I don't know. Let me see...oh!"
"Who is it?"
"It's mom"
"Are they missing you already?"
"I will pick it up"
"Yeah"
"Hello, mom...what! But! Why?! No! No! I don't want to! Why?! No! Okay fine!"
"What did she say?"
"My dad is on his way to pick me up"
"Why?"
"Selena came home. Mom wants me to spend my time with her"
"..."
Knock~~ Knock~~
"Elena, your father is here"
"Okay"
Elena picked up her bag and said, "Sorry, Das. I really want to stay but mom said I have to come back so..."
"It's okay"
There will be a next time.
"Goodbye Angela"
"Goodbye. Take care on your way home"
"You too. Go to sleep. Goodnight" my mom said, closing the door.
Sigh~~
In the end, I was excited for nothing.
I glanced around. The light orb wasn't there. It disappeared when Elena came in.
I rolled on my bed for minutes, hoping to get some sleep, but I couldn't.
I am meeting Selena this Sunday.
I still don't know how I should meet her, but well, there is still one day left.
"I will practice tomorrow and--"
RIng~~ Ring~~
It's from Elena.
"Elena? What's wrong?"
[Are you free tomorrow?]
"Yes, I am"
[Can we schedule our Sunday meeting to tomorrow?]
"Why?"
[Selena has something important to do on Sunday, so she was asking if we can meet tomorrow]
"Okay. I don't mind"
[Thanks. I love you. Bye. Goodnight]
"Good night"
Dammit!
"Nothing happens as I want!"
And so, I am going to meet Selena tomorrow.
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"Das? Are you awake?" Elena said, peeking from the half-opened door.
"Yes, I am awake"
"Can I come in?"
"Of course you can"
"Why is it so dark here?"
"Oh, sorry. I will turn on the light"
"No!"
"What?"
"No need to turn on the lights"
"Why?"
"It's okay"
I can clearly see everything but she can't.
"I will turn on the lights"
I turned on the lamp near my bed.
The dim light illuminated the room. She was sitting on the chair, staring at me.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, thanks for the lights"
"Why did you want them off?"
"Because"
"Because?"
"Because...I will see your face"
What's that supposed to mean?
Obviously she will see my face if the lights are on.
"What's wrong with that?"
"I don't want to see your face"
"....."
What?
"Huh? What did I just say...no! That's not what I meant. I was saying, I don't want to see your face right now"
What's the difference?!
"Are you angry about something?" I asked.
She shook her head.
"Then why do you not want to see my face?"
Elena stared at me and said, "Can I...sit on your bed?"
"Go ahead"
Her face is a little flushed.
She sat on my bed...huh?
What's wrong with her?
Usually, she would sit beside me, but she is sitting on the corner of the bed right now.
"What's wrong, Elena?"
She is acting weird.
"Das"
"Yes?"
"Have you ever thought about doing it with me?"
"Doing what?"
"You know...s.e.x"
"Well...I have"
"Do you want to do it now?"
"Why are...you--"
"Das, it's the same with me"
"Huh?"
"I love you so much that when I am with you, I always have l.e.w.d thoughts about you.
"....."
"For the past few days, I have been acting too bold. I even promised to have s.e.x with you on your birthday"
"Do you regret it?"
She shook her head and said, "I want to do it with you. I won't mind even if we do it now"
"So..."
"Hey Das, tell me. When you are with me, do you have l.e.w.d thoughts about me?"
"I...do"
"I see. So it's normal to have l.e.w.d thoughts about the person you love"
"Yes, I think it's normal"
"As you said, you have l.e.w.d thoughts about me and I have l.e.w.d thoughts about you"
"Hmm"
"Nowadays, when I am near you, I feel like I will die if I don't touch you. I can't control myself"
"Hmm"
"Even now, I want to jump and hug you and kiss you and do many other things with you, but I am scared"
"Scared?"
"I feel insecure when I think that you might leave me one day"
"Elena, how many times do I have to say that? That's the one thing that will never happen"
"I know, but when I think like that, I feel so broken"
"Can I hug you?"
She nodded.
I hugged her. Her face was already teary, but when I hugged her, I could feel how much she was trembling.
"The reason you allowed to share me is because you think that I might leave you one day, right?"
"Mmm"
She wrapped her arms around me.
"Even if you didn't allow that, or now that you have allowed that, my love for you will never end"
"...."
"You are irreplaceable. No one can take your place"
"I am not that good for you"
"Didn't I say not to say that? If you ever say that again, I will stop talking to you"
"I am trying my best for you"
"...."
"I am trying my best to become a better girl for you"
"...."
"I am also studying every night"
"You don't need to. You don't have to try harder. You don't have to study. You don't have to do anything"
"But-"
"You are fine just the way you are"
"I really love you"
"Yeah, I love you too"
She calmed down after some minutes.
I can't blame her if she feels insecure. She is the one who allowed me to be with other girls, so it's my turn to pay her back.
"Hey Elena"
"Hmm?"
"Let's get engaged once I turn 18"
"Wha..."
"You don't want to?"
"Are you fine with me?"
"It has to be you"
"What about Serah?"
"I will engage her later"
"What about your cousin?"
"I don't know"
"Why did you suddenly propose to me?"
"It's the same for me"
"Huh?"
"I also feel insecure"
"You don't need to"
"I can say the same for you"
"It's different with me. You already have other girls"
"You think I will leave you for them?"
"I don't"
"Then do you think I will leave them for you"
"Will you?"
"I won't. I can't do that, so make sure to hold me tight"
"I am never letting you go"
"That's my Elena"
"Yeah, I am yours"
"Keep that confidence and never say those words again, okay?"
"I won't. This will be my last time acting weak in front of you"
"I see"
She calmed down.
"Hey Elena"
"Hmm?"
"How will we tell our parents about other girls?"
Elena was resting on my c.h.e.s.t. She looked up and said, "Do we really need to tell them?"
"Well, we do"
They are family.
"We can keep it a secret. I don't think there is anything wrong with that as long as we both are okay with it"
"Fine. We will tell them when the time is right"
"Yeah, there is still a long way to go"
"Where is mom?"
"She got out from the bath. She said she will call mom--"
Ring~~ Ring~~
Elena phone rang.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"I don't know. Let me see...oh!"
"Who is it?"
"It's mom"
"Are they missing you already?"
"I will pick it up"
"Yeah"
"Hello, mom...what! But! Why?! No! No! I don't want to! Why?! No! Okay fine!"
"What did she say?"
"My dad is on his way to pick me up"
"Why?"
"Selena came home. Mom wants me to spend my time with her"
"..."
Knock~~ Knock~~
"Elena, your father is here"
"Okay"
Elena picked up her bag and said, "Sorry, Das. I really want to stay but mom said I have to come back so..."
"It's okay"
There will be a next time.
"Goodbye Angela"
"Goodbye. Take care on your way home"
"You too. Go to sleep. Goodnight" my mom said, closing the door.
Sigh~~
In the end, I was excited for nothing.
I glanced around. The light orb wasn't there. It disappeared when Elena came in.
I rolled on my bed for minutes, hoping to get some sleep, but I couldn't.
I am meeting Selena this Sunday.
I still don't know how I should meet her, but well, there is still one day left.
"I will practice tomorrow and--"
RIng~~ Ring~~
It's from Elena.
"Elena? What's wrong?"
[Are you free tomorrow?]
"Yes, I am"
[Can we schedule our Sunday meeting to tomorrow?]
"Why?"
[Selena has something important to do on Sunday, so she was asking if we can meet tomorrow]
"Okay. I don't mind"
[Thanks. I love you. Bye. Goodnight]
"Good night"
Dammit!
"Nothing happens as I want!"
And so, I am going to meet Selena tomorrow.
"Das? Are you awake?" Elena said, peeking from the half-opened door. "Yes, I am awake" "Can I come in?" "Of course you can" "Why is it so dark here?" "Oh, sorry. I will turn on the light" "No!" "What?" "No need to turn on the lights" "Why?" "It's okay" I can clearly see everything but she can't. "I will turn on the lights" I turned on the lamp near my bed. The dim light illuminated the room. She was sitting on the chair, staring at me. "Are you okay?" "Yes, thanks for the lights" "Why did you want them off?" "Because" "Because?" "Because...I will see your face" What's that supposed to mean? Obviously she will see my face if the lights are on. "What's wrong with that?" "I don't want to see your face" "....." What? "Huh? What did I just say...no! That's not what I meant. I was saying, I don't want to see your face right now" What's the difference?! "Are you angry about something?" I asked. She shook her head. "Then why do you not want to see my face?" Elena stared at me and said, "Can I...sit on your bed?" "Go ahead" Her face is a little flushed. She sat on my bed...huh? What's wrong with her? Usually, she would sit beside me, but she is sitting on the corner of the bed right now. "What's wrong, Elena?" She is acting weird. "Das" "Yes?" "Have you ever thought about doing it with me?" "Doing what?" "You know...s.e.x" "Well...I have" "Do you want to do it now?" "Why are...you--" "Das, it's the same with me" "Huh?" "I love you so much that when I am with you, I always have l.e.w.d thoughts about you. "....." "For the past few days, I have been acting too bold. I even promised to have s.e.x with you on your birthday" "Do you regret it?" She shook her head and said, "I want to do it with you. I won't mind even if we do it now" "So..." "Hey Das, tell me. When you are with me, do you have l.e.w.d thoughts about me?" "I...do" "I see. So it's normal to have l.e.w.d thoughts about the person you love" "Yes, I think it's normal" "As you said, you have l.e.w.d thoughts about me and I have l.e.w.d thoughts about you" "Hmm" "Nowadays, when I am near you, I feel like I will die if I don't touch you. I can't control myself" "Hmm" "Even now, I want to jump and hug you and kiss you and do many other things with you, but I am scared" "Scared?" "I feel insecure when I think that you might leave me one day" "Elena, how many times do I have to say that? That's the one thing that will never happen" "I know, but when I think like that, I feel so broken" "Can I hug you?" She nodded. I hugged her. Her face was already teary, but when I hugged her, I could feel how much she was trembling. "The reason you allowed to share me is because you think that I might leave you one day, right?" "Mmm" She wrapped her arms around me. "Even if you didn't allow that, or now that you have allowed that, my love for you will never end" "...." "You are irreplaceable. No one can take your place" "I am not that good for you" "Didn't I say not to say that? If you ever say that again, I will stop talking to you" "I am trying my best for you" "...." "I am trying my best to become a better girl for you" "...." "I am also studying every night" "You don't need to. You don't have to try harder. You don't have to study. You don't have to do anything" "But-" "You are fine just the way you are" "I really love you" "Yeah, I love you too" She calmed down after some minutes. I can't blame her if she feels insecure. She is the one who allowed me to be with other girls, so it's my turn to pay her back. "Hey Elena" "Hmm?" "Let's get engaged once I turn 18" "Wha..." "You don't want to?" "Are you fine with me?" "It has to be you" "What about Serah?" "I will engage her later" "What about your cousin?" "I don't know" "Why did you suddenly propose to me?" "It's the same for me" "Huh?" "I also feel insecure" "You don't need to" "I can say the same for you" "It's different with me. You already have other girls" "You think I will leave you for them?" "I don't" "Then do you think I will leave them for you" "Will you?" "I won't. I can't do that, so make sure to hold me tight" "I am never letting you go" "That's my Elena" "Yeah, I am yours" "Keep that confidence and never say those words again, okay?" "I won't. This will be my last time acting weak in front of you" "I see" She calmed down. "Hey Elena" "Hmm?" "How will we tell our parents about other girls?" Elena was resting on my c.h.e.s.t. She looked up and said, "Do we really need to tell them?" "Well, we do" They are family. "We can keep it a secret. I don't think there is anything wrong with that as long as we both are okay with it" "Fine. We will tell them when the time is right" "Yeah, there is still a long way to go" "Where is mom?" "She got out from the bath. She said she will call mom--" Ring~~ Ring~~ Elena phone rang. "Who is it?" I asked. "I don't know. Let me see...oh!" "Who is it?" "It's mom" "Are they missing you already?" "I will pick it up" "Yeah" "Hello, mom...what! But! Why?! No! No! I don't want to! Why?! No! Okay fine!" "What did she say?" "My dad is on his way to pick me up" "Why?" "Selena came home. Mom wants me to spend my time with her" "..." Knock~~ Knock~~ "Elena, your father is here" "Okay" Elena picked up her bag and said, "Sorry, Das. I really want to stay but mom said I have to come back so..." "It's okay" There will be a next time. "Goodbye Angela" "Goodbye. Take care on your way home" "You too. Go to sleep. Goodnight" my mom said, closing the door. Sigh~~ In the end, I was excited for nothing. I glanced around. The light orb wasn't there. It disappeared when Elena came in. I rolled on my bed for minutes, hoping to get some sleep, but I couldn't. I am meeting Selena this Sunday. I still don't know how I should meet her, but well, there is still one day left. "I will practice tomorrow and--" RIng~~ Ring~~ It's from Elena. "Elena? What's wrong?" Are you free tomorrow? "Yes, I am" Can we schedule our Sunday meeting to tomorrow? "Why?" Selena has something important to do on Sunday, so she was asking if we can meet tomorrow "Okay. I don't mind" Thanks. I love you. Bye. Goodnight "Good night" Dammit! "Nothing happens as I want!" And so, I am going to meet Selena tomorrow.
