I have an interest to the birth of life.
But it’s not an interest in the manner of simple biology.
It’s an interest toward emotion that spring forth incidentally.
Since I was born, I have never harbored any special feeling toward life other than myself.
Human is just a life-form.
A system called human body that is created from cell and genetic. They are thinking, moving, and carried out information transfer with other individual as their function.
I recognized them as an elaborate and exquisite system from that.
But, they aren’t special existence.
Any talks that explained the importance of life are illogical.
Consciousness and emotion are nothing more than result that is outputted by information transfer from cell and electrical signal.
There isn’t anything special there.
The thing called heart, or emotion, or life aren’t things that have high value like human thought.
What is called soul doesn’t exist.
But, I know that there are a lot of cases where change of awareness happen due to creating a new life using one’s own body.
The emotion of loving a child as parent become strong and the maternal instinct is also getting stimulated strongly.
Will such phenomenon also happen to this me?
Perhaps a change of awareness will occur by making a child using this body.
It’s something that is hard to imagine, but interest is welling up inside me.
And then I carried out experiment.
I made two attempts.
Nothing changed.
Even my child is no different from other specimen.
I cannot even feel the emotions called affection or motherhood.
Why does no emotion well up inside me?
Am I lacking some kind of function?
Perhaps,
Does other humans aren’t behaving normally in the first place?
Or perhaps,
Am I the form of an even more evolved living thing──.
I have an interest to the birth of life.
But it’s not an interest in the manner of simple biology.
It’s an interest toward emotion that spring forth incidentally.
Since I was born, I have never harbored any special feeling toward life other than myself.
Human is just a life-form.
A system called human body that is created from cell and genetic. They are thinking, moving, and carried out information transfer with other individual as their function.
I recognized them as an elaborate and exquisite system from that.
But, they aren’t special existence.
Any talks that explained the importance of life are illogical.
Consciousness and emotion are nothing more than result that is outputted by information transfer from cell and electrical signal.
There isn’t anything special there.
The thing called heart, or emotion, or life aren’t things that have high value like human thought.
What is called soul doesn’t exist.
But, I know that there are a lot of cases where change of awareness happen due to creating a new life using one’s own body.
The emotion of loving a child as parent become strong and the maternal instinct is also getting stimulated strongly.
Will such phenomenon also happen to this me?
Perhaps a change of awareness will occur by making a child using this body.
It’s something that is hard to imagine, but interest is welling up inside me.
And then I carried out experiment.
I made two attempts.
Nothing changed.
Even my child is no different from other specimen.
I cannot even feel the emotions called affection or motherhood.
Why does no emotion well up inside me?
Am I lacking some kind of function?
Perhaps,
Does other humans aren’t behaving normally in the first place?
Or perhaps,
Am I the form of an even more evolved living thing──.
