80 – That (ꈍᴗꈍ)
Translator: tamago
For the coming of this day, Xu Xiran had taken some time out of studying to do some preparation. Years of immersion in the second dimension had caused some deviations in his cognition, but he still had some basic common sense. He knew that fictional works could not be trusted, and to understand the real thing, he still had to watch real people.
But it was a pity that he didn’t watch much, mainly because he couldn’t hold himself physically and mentally. On the screen, the body of the bare-naked male on top made him slightly uncomfortable, and every second became torture once he substituted himself as one of them in his mind.
To this day, he has yet to have the chance to see Fang Mo fully naked. But he had seen his bare upper body many times before, and it was quite pleasing to the eye. He liked his fair skin, his straight and slender legs, his slightly caved-in belly when he lays flat, his beautifully shaped collarbone, and the two small fruits on his chest that have lately become brighter in color. As for a certain location, although he couldn’t say that he had the same amount of appreciation for it, as long as he knows it’s Fang Mo’s, he would also think it’s cute.
As a male, Fang Mo’s body was different than the other men in these videos, which made him feel a rush of arousal.
But no matter how aroused he was, substituting Fang Mo and himself in these videos still made him want to collapse. He had even had more than one nightmare, and in these dreams, a delicate Fang Mo who loved to cry would be sweating profusely on top of him while shedding tears.
After waking up, Xu Xiran would not be able to fall back asleep.
But this was not the reason why he bought the sleeping pills. He simply didn’t want to face what was to come and wanted a way to escape. If he had a choice, he would even choose to be put under anesthesia. Once he was unconscious, Fang Mo could then be able to do whatever he wishes. In any case, he did not want to be conscious during this experience.
While watching these videos, because he was unable to hold onto the progress bar, he had accidentally seen a high-definition and uncensored close-up of a blossoming chrysanthemum, and at that moment his stomach instantly turned.
As he thought about how such scenes would appear on his body in the future, Xu Xiran was about to lose his will to live.
No matter how much mental preparation he did, he still couldn’t completely convince himself. In the end, he ultimately couldn’t hold back and decided to express his own opinion to Fang Mo.
He thought about how it was because he liked Fang Mo that he was willing to make such a tragic sacrifice, so if Fang Mo also valued him the same way, maybe he would also give in.
~
Just like how there will always be a way through when the car gets to the mountain1, past the dark willows and the flowers in bloom lies another village2. He never would have expected that things would go this smoothly.
He had walked out of school like he was going to an execution ground, and now he unexpectedly was able to top Fang Mo.
Xu Xiran, whose legs had seemed like they were in cement, suddenly became light as a swallow, and walked in strides. Fang Mo, who was holding hands with him, was very quiet and followed him quickly without a word.
The two entered the hotel with no time to waste, took out their ID cards, got their room cards, and went upstairs. When they finally opened the door, the two were welcomed with a double bed.
Xu Xiran, who felt a bit eager and impatient at first, now felt a little shy for some reason. Just as he was about to say something to ease the atmosphere, the person next to him hugged his neck.
Fang Mo made no secret of his anticipation of what was to come and smiled as he came over to kiss his lips.
And as a result, all the reserved and shy thoughts in Xu Xiran’s mind instantly went away.
He passionately responded to this sweetness and then stumbled towards the bed with him. Because he didn’t look at his feet, he accidentally tripped over the edge of the bed, and fell with both his arms around him.
This scene, which would seem very romantic in an idol drama, made them hit each other’s teeth.
On top of each other, the two of them gasped, grimaced in pain, and then laughed together.
“Does it hurt?” Xu Xiran asked.
Fang Mo shook his head, “No, I’m okay.”
After he said this, he leaned over to kiss him again. They have always liked kissing. The feeling of mingling his lips with the one he loved was just too good that it made him addicted. Xu Xiran felt that there would be nothing wrong with just letting them kiss like this for hours without doing anything else.
But the man in front of him had a different idea. Fang Mo raised his thigh a bit and rubbed it against him. Seeing that he reacted quickly, he immediately laughed.
“Come here,” he whispered to Xu Xiran.
Xu Xiran’s heart skipped a beat. He turned over, pressed Fang Mo under him, looked down at him, kissed his forehead, and asked, “Are you really willing?”
Fang Mo raised his head and smiled at him, then did a little nod.
He did not hold back his expression and he was full of anticipation and joy, with no reluctance at all.
Xu Xiran suddenly felt a bit of self-blame surge in his heart. He thought about how Fang Mo must really like him very much to be willing to make such a big sacrifice without complaining. In contrast, it seemed disgraceful for him to struggle and hesitate for so long, only to retreat before battle and make excuses to beg for mercy.
“…You can be on top if you want,” Xu Xiran said.
Fang Mo was stunned for a moment, then immediately said: “I want to do things with you that make you happy.”
Xu Xiran felt so moved: “Me too!”
“You actually don’t want to bottom at all, do you?” Fang Mo asked tentatively.
Xu Xiran didn’t know whether or not he should admit this. He was afraid that Fang Mo would want to take care of his emotions and neglect himself.
“You can’t force yourself,” Fang Mo put his arms around him, allowing him to press on his body, and then softly said in his ear, “I want all of your memories with me to be happy ones.”
Xu Xiran thought to himself, your very existence makes me happy.
~
【Deleted here is an intimate scene that is not too passionate but rather sweet】
~
After having a full-body sweat, he indeed felt sleepy.
Xu Xiran was shrouded in tiredness and couldn’t open his eyes, but he didn’t want to sleep. When Fang Mo’s skin was slightly damp, it became smoother and softer to the touch, and it felt so comfortable that it made him reluctant to let go. Their hands and feet were entangled with each other, their body temperatures and breaths became one, and they became lazy together for a good while.
“Xu Xiran,” Fang Mo softly said his name.
“Mn?” Xu Xiran responded with his eyes closed.
Fang Mo didn’t say anything back and only lightly smiled. After a moment, he called him again, “Xu Xiran.”
“Mn,” Xu Xiran responded again.
Xu Xiran was savoring this moment of tenderness, when he suddenly thought of something, and opened his eyes.
“There’s a question I’ve been meaning to ask you,” he said.
Fang Mo nodded with his eyes closed, motioning for him to continue.
“Why do you like me?”
Fang Mo was quiet for a while, and then finally said, “I don’t know.”
“You have so many other people chasing you that you don’t even want, so why is it me that you like?” Xu Xiran questioned him closely.
“Because you’re handsome,” said Fang Mo.
Xu Xiran couldn’t help but laugh: “Be a little more serious now.”
“Being with you makes me happy,” Fang Mo spoke again.
“That’s it?”
“I just like you,” Fang Mo opened his eyes, and rubbed Xu Xiran’s face with his nose, “You’re easy on the eyes, and I like everything about you. How else do you want me to compliment you?”
Xu Xiran was teased into a smile: “Then when did you start?”
Fang Mo didn’t speak again.
“Are you embarrassed too?” Xu Xiran asked.
Fang Mo held back for a while before he opened his mouth: “Maybe it’s because… you call me your wife all day, that you made me feel a strong sense of association, and then without meaning to…”
“……”
“Right, why don’t you call me that anymore?” Fang Mo asked.
Xu Xiran’s face turned red.
Back then, the reason why he used to make these jokes with Fang Mo was because he didn’t think of it that way before. He was only able to say these things without holding back when he didn’t take any of this seriously. Things were now different, and the things he called him now were genuine, so calling him that now would feel embarrassing.
What’s more was that he had thought that Fang Mo wanted to be the one on top. So in that case, wouldn’t he be the wife?
When he thought about this, he suddenly panicked again.
They had just enjoyed their time to their heart’s content, and it had felt incomparably wonderfully. But for next time, wouldn’t they have to switch?
Xu Xiran suddenly stopped breathing.
He kept telling himself, Fang Mo treats you so well, you can’t be this untrustworthy. He had been calling him his wife for so long that there had to be some kind of payment. If he couldn’t even give him his chrysanthemum, how could he even say that he loves him? Fang Mo’s size was a bit smaller than him, so when the time comes, he probably wouldn’t have to suffer too much.
“Hey, hey,” Fang Mo pushed him, “What are you thinking about?”
Xu Xiran shook his head with force, “Nothing, it’s nothing.”
Although Fang Mo seemed suspicious, he didn’t pry, and continued the topic from before: “Why don’t you call me that anymore?”
Xu Xiran felt a little nervous, but also felt a bit of anticipation: “Am I allowed to call you that?”
Fang Mo immediately frowned when he heard those words: “Who else were you thinking of calling that to?”
Seeing his expression and his tone, Xu Xiran’s heart suddenly lit up.
“…What are you smiling for?” Fang Mo was a little unhappy.
Xu Xiran opened his mouth. He wanted to immediately say “wife”, but when the words came to his lips, he suddenly felt very embarrassed for some reason.
He cleared his throat and asked back, “If I call you my wife, then what do you call me?”
After saying this, the two of them looked at each other close at range for a while, but neither of them spoke.
Fang Mo’s cheeks gradually turned red, and in the end, he was defeated first and looked away.
“What do you call me?” Xu Xiran learned Fang Mo’s way of questioning him.
Fang Mo bit his lip and blushed, and then finally opened his mouth, which then turned out to be of a completely different topic: “Are you planning to go home for the new year3?”
This topic change was too sharp of a turn.
Xu Xiran was amused: “Are you embarrassed now? What are you embarrassed about?”
If he was able to grasp these moments accurately, he would bully Fang Mo to his heart’s content. Xu Xiran had only recently become aware of some wrongful parts of his personality and especially liked seeing his beloved in shame.
Fang Mo’s face turned red, completely ignored his words, and continued to ask: “When break is over, are you going back to your dad’s place?”
Xu Xiran set his heart on making him shy, purposely ignored him, and insisted on asking: “What do you call me?”
Fang Mo pursed his lips with force, then quickly said: “Husband, are you going home for the new year?”
His first two words4 had been held in his mouth, and when he said them, they sounded vague and unclear.
Xu Xiran cleared his throat, then finally answered him: “I.. during… the new year…”
He couldn’t stop laughing as he spoke, his shoulders trembled and his voice became incoherent.
Fang Mo blushed: “Say it clearly!”
Xu Xiran tried hard to hold back a smile and nodded.
He thought to himself, what do I do? What’s going on? I can’t even fathom that there’s someone this cute in this world. What a miracle.
“Are you going to tell me or not?” Fang Mo was anxious.
“I haven’t decided yet,” Xu Xiran finally recovered, “My dad told me on the phone a few days ago that they don’t want to run away from relatives during the new year, and so they plan to use the vacation to travel abroad, and want me to quickly get a visa.”
“…Oh,” Fang Mo nodded, with a slightly disappointed expression, “That’s pretty nice.”
“But I don’t really want to go,” Xu Xiran said, “And I don’t know why, I obviously like my stepmom and my younger sister, but I just don’t want to spend all my time with them. I feel a bit reserved.”
“Do you feel like a guest?” Fang Mo asked.
“A little bit,” Xu Xiran said, “My stepmom is too polite with me, which instead… makes me unable to feel close with her.”
He didn’t mention these words to Fang Mo last time. At the time, he was worried that it would be strange to say this kind of stuff, but now, he felt comfortable in telling him whatever was in his heart.
He was originally worried that after hearing those words, this crybaby Fang Mo would randomly start to cry. However, he didn’t expect this guy to laugh.
“I know,” Fang Mo said, “You like it when others are not polite to you.”
Xu Xiran raised his eyebrows: “What logic is this?”
Fang Mo smiled at him: “That’s why you’re close to me and you love to be with me, right?”
Xu Xiran froze for a moment, then smiled.
Fang Mo might be right.
If someone is too polite and friendly when getting along with them, it is actually harder to have heart-to-heart conversations with them. When Fang Mo first hit him up online, he felt very easy to talk to, and his words were sincere and straightforward, which made them immediately open up a conversation and quickly get close.
Xu Xiran knew that he was quite a secular person at heart, and could not learn the reason for treating people as guests, and did not hold back with the people closest to him. All his gentleness towards Fang Mo came from his heart rather than simply being polite. If he said he was fine, he was truly fine without holding any grudges, and if he praised him, his praises were genuine. He would also laugh at Fang Mo whenever he was being dumb, occasionally roast him, and bully him at certain times. The side he showed him was his true self.
Fang Mo was not the kind of person who could hide his thoughts very well, and his emotions could always be seen on his face. Xu Xiran didn’t have to worry about him saying he was fine while having a smile on his face but bitterness in his heart. This kind of relationship felt very effortless and secure.
His father’s wife was a gentle and kind woman, and Xu Xiran believed that she wanted to get along with him from the bottom of her heart and that she had no bad intentions. It was just a pity that they would probably never feel like a real family to him. Every time he went home, he was always just like a guest.
“Then if you don’t go with them, where are you going to stay for the new year?” Fang Mo asked.
“I originally was thinking that it would be fine for me to stay home alone after they leave,” Xu Xiran said, “But then I thought… If that’s the case, there’s no need to go back, right?”
Fang Mo looked at him with his eyes bright: “So? What’s your plan now?”
“I’ve mentioned to you before, I have a house here and I usually don’t live there,” Xu Xiran said. “It’s not very close to the school, so I don’t often go there. I can live there during the new year.”
Fang Mo looked at him, blinked his eyes twice, and hesitated to speak.
Author’s note:
【Deleted part overview: They did that (ꈍᴗꈍ)】
1
An idiom that means something like “everything will turn out for the best” or “we’ll cross that bridge when we get there”
2An idiom that means something like “at one’s darkest hour, there is a glimmer of hope” or “there is a light at the end of the tunnel”
3Chinese New Year
4Lao gong (老公) or husband is two words in Chinese
80 – That (ꈍᴗꈍ)
Translator: tamago
For the coming of this day, Xu Xiran had taken some time out of studying to do some preparation. Years of immersion in the second dimension had caused some deviations in his cognition, but he still had some basic common sense. He knew that fictional works could not be trusted, and to understand the real thing, he still had to watch real people.
But it was a pity that he didn’t watch much, mainly because he couldn’t hold himself physically and mentally. On the screen, the body of the bare-naked male on top made him slightly uncomfortable, and every second became torture once he substituted himself as one of them in his mind.
To this day, he has yet to have the chance to see Fang Mo fully naked. But he had seen his bare upper body many times before, and it was quite pleasing to the eye. He liked his fair skin, his straight and slender legs, his slightly caved-in belly when he lays flat, his beautifully shaped collarbone, and the two small fruits on his chest that have lately become brighter in color. As for a certain location, although he couldn’t say that he had the same amount of appreciation for it, as long as he knows it’s Fang Mo’s, he would also think it’s cute.
As a male, Fang Mo’s body was different than the other men in these videos, which made him feel a rush of arousal.
But no matter how aroused he was, substituting Fang Mo and himself in these videos still made him want to collapse. He had even had more than one nightmare, and in these dreams, a delicate Fang Mo who loved to cry would be sweating profusely on top of him while shedding tears.
After waking up, Xu Xiran would not be able to fall back asleep.
But this was not the reason why he bought the sleeping pills. He simply didn’t want to face what was to come and wanted a way to escape. If he had a choice, he would even choose to be put under anesthesia. Once he was unconscious, Fang Mo could then be able to do whatever he wishes. In any case, he did not want to be conscious during this experience.
While watching these videos, because he was unable to hold onto the progress bar, he had accidentally seen a high-definition and uncensored close-up of a blossoming chrysanthemum, and at that moment his stomach instantly turned.
As he thought about how such scenes would appear on his body in the future, Xu Xiran was about to lose his will to live.
No matter how much mental preparation he did, he still couldn’t completely convince himself. In the end, he ultimately couldn’t hold back and decided to express his own opinion to Fang Mo.
He thought about how it was because he liked Fang Mo that he was willing to make such a tragic sacrifice, so if Fang Mo also valued him the same way, maybe he would also give in.
~
Just like how there will always be a way through when the car gets to the mountain1, past the dark willows and the flowers in bloom lies another village2. He never would have expected that things would go this smoothly.
He had walked out of school like he was going to an execution ground, and now he unexpectedly was able to top Fang Mo.
Xu Xiran, whose legs had seemed like they were in cement, suddenly became light as a swallow, and walked in strides. Fang Mo, who was holding hands with him, was very quiet and followed him quickly without a word.
The two entered the hotel with no time to waste, took out their ID cards, got their room cards, and went upstairs. When they finally opened the door, the two were welcomed with a double bed.
Xu Xiran, who felt a bit eager and impatient at first, now felt a little shy for some reason. Just as he was about to say something to ease the atmosphere, the person next to him hugged his neck.
Fang Mo made no secret of his anticipation of what was to come and smiled as he came over to kiss his lips.
And as a result, all the reserved and shy thoughts in Xu Xiran’s mind instantly went away.
He passionately responded to this sweetness and then stumbled towards the bed with him. Because he didn’t look at his feet, he accidentally tripped over the edge of the bed, and fell with both his arms around him.
This scene, which would seem very romantic in an idol drama, made them hit each other’s teeth.
On top of each other, the two of them gasped, grimaced in pain, and then laughed together.
“Does it hurt?” Xu Xiran asked.
Fang Mo shook his head, “No, I’m okay.”
After he said this, he leaned over to kiss him again. They have always liked kissing. The feeling of mingling his lips with the one he loved was just too good that it made him addicted. Xu Xiran felt that there would be nothing wrong with just letting them kiss like this for hours without doing anything else.
But the man in front of him had a different idea. Fang Mo raised his thigh a bit and rubbed it against him. Seeing that he reacted quickly, he immediately laughed.
“Come here,” he whispered to Xu Xiran.
Xu Xiran’s heart skipped a beat. He turned over, pressed Fang Mo under him, looked down at him, kissed his forehead, and asked, “Are you really willing?”
Fang Mo raised his head and smiled at him, then did a little nod.
He did not hold back his expression and he was full of anticipation and joy, with no reluctance at all.
Xu Xiran suddenly felt a bit of self-blame surge in his heart. He thought about how Fang Mo must really like him very much to be willing to make such a big sacrifice without complaining. In contrast, it seemed disgraceful for him to struggle and hesitate for so long, only to retreat before battle and make excuses to beg for mercy.
“…You can be on top if you want,” Xu Xiran said.
Fang Mo was stunned for a moment, then immediately said: “I want to do things with you that make you happy.”
Xu Xiran felt so moved: “Me too!”
“You actually don’t want to bottom at all, do you?” Fang Mo asked tentatively.
Xu Xiran didn’t know whether or not he should admit this. He was afraid that Fang Mo would want to take care of his emotions and neglect himself.
“You can’t force yourself,” Fang Mo put his arms around him, allowing him to press on his body, and then softly said in his ear, “I want all of your memories with me to be happy ones.”
Xu Xiran thought to himself, your very existence makes me happy.
~
【Deleted here is an intimate scene that is not too passionate but rather sweet】
~
After having a full-body sweat, he indeed felt sleepy.
Xu Xiran was shrouded in tiredness and couldn’t open his eyes, but he didn’t want to sleep. When Fang Mo’s skin was slightly damp, it became smoother and softer to the touch, and it felt so comfortable that it made him reluctant to let go. Their hands and feet were entangled with each other, their body temperatures and breaths became one, and they became lazy together for a good while.
“Xu Xiran,” Fang Mo softly said his name.
“Mn?” Xu Xiran responded with his eyes closed.
Fang Mo didn’t say anything back and only lightly smiled. After a moment, he called him again, “Xu Xiran.”
“Mn,” Xu Xiran responded again.
Xu Xiran was savoring this moment of tenderness, when he suddenly thought of something, and opened his eyes.
“There’s a question I’ve been meaning to ask you,” he said.
Fang Mo nodded with his eyes closed, motioning for him to continue.
“Why do you like me?”
Fang Mo was quiet for a while, and then finally said, “I don’t know.”
“You have so many other people chasing you that you don’t even want, so why is it me that you like?” Xu Xiran questioned him closely.
“Because you’re handsome,” said Fang Mo.
Xu Xiran couldn’t help but laugh: “Be a little more serious now.”
“Being with you makes me happy,” Fang Mo spoke again.
“That’s it?”
“I just like you,” Fang Mo opened his eyes, and rubbed Xu Xiran’s face with his nose, “You’re easy on the eyes, and I like everything about you. How else do you want me to compliment you?”
Xu Xiran was teased into a smile: “Then when did you start?”
Fang Mo didn’t speak again.
“Are you embarrassed too?” Xu Xiran asked.
Fang Mo held back for a while before he opened his mouth: “Maybe it’s because… you call me your wife all day, that you made me feel a strong sense of association, and then without meaning to…”
“……”
“Right, why don’t you call me that anymore?” Fang Mo asked.
Xu Xiran’s face turned red.
Back then, the reason why he used to make these jokes with Fang Mo was because he didn’t think of it that way before. He was only able to say these things without holding back when he didn’t take any of this seriously. Things were now different, and the things he called him now were genuine, so calling him that now would feel embarrassing.
What’s more was that he had thought that Fang Mo wanted to be the one on top. So in that case, wouldn’t he be the wife?
When he thought about this, he suddenly panicked again.
They had just enjoyed their time to their heart’s content, and it had felt incomparably wonderfully. But for next time, wouldn’t they have to switch?
Xu Xiran suddenly stopped breathing.
He kept telling himself, Fang Mo treats you so well, you can’t be this untrustworthy. He had been calling him his wife for so long that there had to be some kind of payment. If he couldn’t even give him his chrysanthemum, how could he even say that he loves him? Fang Mo’s size was a bit smaller than him, so when the time comes, he probably wouldn’t have to suffer too much.
“Hey, hey,” Fang Mo pushed him, “What are you thinking about?”
Xu Xiran shook his head with force, “Nothing, it’s nothing.”
Although Fang Mo seemed suspicious, he didn’t pry, and continued the topic from before: “Why don’t you call me that anymore?”
Xu Xiran felt a little nervous, but also felt a bit of anticipation: “Am I allowed to call you that?”
Fang Mo immediately frowned when he heard those words: “Who else were you thinking of calling that to?”
Seeing his expression and his tone, Xu Xiran’s heart suddenly lit up.
“…What are you smiling for?” Fang Mo was a little unhappy.
Xu Xiran opened his mouth. He wanted to immediately say “wife”, but when the words came to his lips, he suddenly felt very embarrassed for some reason.
He cleared his throat and asked back, “If I call you my wife, then what do you call me?”
After saying this, the two of them looked at each other close at range for a while, but neither of them spoke.
Fang Mo’s cheeks gradually turned red, and in the end, he was defeated first and looked away.
“What do you call me?” Xu Xiran learned Fang Mo’s way of questioning him.
Fang Mo bit his lip and blushed, and then finally opened his mouth, which then turned out to be of a completely different topic: “Are you planning to go home for the new year3?”
This topic change was too sharp of a turn.
Xu Xiran was amused: “Are you embarrassed now? What are you embarrassed about?”
If he was able to grasp these moments accurately, he would bully Fang Mo to his heart’s content. Xu Xiran had only recently become aware of some wrongful parts of his personality and especially liked seeing his beloved in shame.
Fang Mo’s face turned red, completely ignored his words, and continued to ask: “When break is over, are you going back to your dad’s place?”
Xu Xiran set his heart on making him shy, purposely ignored him, and insisted on asking: “What do you call me?”
Fang Mo pursed his lips with force, then quickly said: “Husband, are you going home for the new year?”
His first two words4 had been held in his mouth, and when he said them, they sounded vague and unclear.
Xu Xiran cleared his throat, then finally answered him: “I.. during… the new year…”
He couldn’t stop laughing as he spoke, his shoulders trembled and his voice became incoherent.
Fang Mo blushed: “Say it clearly!”
Xu Xiran tried hard to hold back a smile and nodded.
He thought to himself, what do I do? What’s going on? I can’t even fathom that there’s someone this cute in this world. What a miracle.
“Are you going to tell me or not?” Fang Mo was anxious.
“I haven’t decided yet,” Xu Xiran finally recovered, “My dad told me on the phone a few days ago that they don’t want to run away from relatives during the new year, and so they plan to use the vacation to travel abroad, and want me to quickly get a visa.”
“…Oh,” Fang Mo nodded, with a slightly disappointed expression, “That’s pretty nice.”
“But I don’t really want to go,” Xu Xiran said, “And I don’t know why, I obviously like my stepmom and my younger sister, but I just don’t want to spend all my time with them. I feel a bit reserved.”
“Do you feel like a guest?” Fang Mo asked.
“A little bit,” Xu Xiran said, “My stepmom is too polite with me, which instead… makes me unable to feel close with her.”
He didn’t mention these words to Fang Mo last time. At the time, he was worried that it would be strange to say this kind of stuff, but now, he felt comfortable in telling him whatever was in his heart.
He was originally worried that after hearing those words, this crybaby Fang Mo would randomly start to cry. However, he didn’t expect this guy to laugh.
“I know,” Fang Mo said, “You like it when others are not polite to you.”
Xu Xiran raised his eyebrows: “What logic is this?”
Fang Mo smiled at him: “That’s why you’re close to me and you love to be with me, right?”
Xu Xiran froze for a moment, then smiled.
Fang Mo might be right.
If someone is too polite and friendly when getting along with them, it is actually harder to have heart-to-heart conversations with them. When Fang Mo first hit him up online, he felt very easy to talk to, and his words were sincere and straightforward, which made them immediately open up a conversation and quickly get close.
Xu Xiran knew that he was quite a secular person at heart, and could not learn the reason for treating people as guests, and did not hold back with the people closest to him. All his gentleness towards Fang Mo came from his heart rather than simply being polite. If he said he was fine, he was truly fine without holding any grudges, and if he praised him, his praises were genuine. He would also laugh at Fang Mo whenever he was being dumb, occasionally roast him, and bully him at certain times. The side he showed him was his true self.
Fang Mo was not the kind of person who could hide his thoughts very well, and his emotions could always be seen on his face. Xu Xiran didn’t have to worry about him saying he was fine while having a smile on his face but bitterness in his heart. This kind of relationship felt very effortless and secure.
His father’s wife was a gentle and kind woman, and Xu Xiran believed that she wanted to get along with him from the bottom of her heart and that she had no bad intentions. It was just a pity that they would probably never feel like a real family to him. Every time he went home, he was always just like a guest.
“Then if you don’t go with them, where are you going to stay for the new year?” Fang Mo asked.
“I originally was thinking that it would be fine for me to stay home alone after they leave,” Xu Xiran said, “But then I thought… If that’s the case, there’s no need to go back, right?”
Fang Mo looked at him with his eyes bright: “So? What’s your plan now?”
“I’ve mentioned to you before, I have a house here and I usually don’t live there,” Xu Xiran said. “It’s not very close to the school, so I don’t often go there. I can live there during the new year.”
Fang Mo looked at him, blinked his eyes twice, and hesitated to speak.
Author’s note:
【Deleted part overview: They did that (ꈍᴗꈍ)】
1
An idiom that means something like “everything will turn out for the best” or “we’ll cross that bridge when we get there”
2An idiom that means something like “at one’s darkest hour, there is a glimmer of hope” or “there is a light at the end of the tunnel”
3Chinese New Year
4Lao gong (老公) or husband is two words in Chinese
