Chapter 2
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Chapter 2
What should I have done to erase that awful tragedy? What choice should I have made during a life-and-death crisis so that everyone could live? These were questions that have been haunting me every single day for the past five years.
I could give dozens—no, hundreds, thousands of answers to that question. Frankly, the most definite and perfect answer among them all was nothing special.
“Step on the accelerator!”
“Huh, what, yeah!”
Yeon-Hoon should have stepped hard on the accelerator. At that time, Yeon-Hoon had frozen in shock when the truck suddenly came rushing in. It wasn’t something anyone could blame him for, as most people would freeze in such an unexpected situation.
And this time as well, I thought, ‘He’s frozen!’
I saw Yeon-Hoon looking out the window while being completely paralyzed. In the end, I had no choice but to step up.
I shouted, “Yeon-Hoon! Step on the accelerator!” This composition is securely entrenched in n0v*lbin★
“Huh? Y-yeah!” I pressed Yeon-Hoon’s right thigh as hard as I could, and the accelerator pedal was pushed all the way in.
Whoosh! The car rushed forward.
“Ahhhh!” Yeon-Hoon hurriedly turned the steering wheel at the sudden increase in speed. Since the car would have crossed the centerline, Yeon-Hoon made the right decision to turn the steering wheel. Soon after—
Baaaaaaaam!
We heard a loud explosion. The truck that missed us by a hair’s breadth crashed into a wall.
“That’s insane.”
“Aghhhhh, what the hell!”
“What’s with that crazy truck!”
“Ahh, ugahhhhhh, oh my god.”
Four people except me screamed and made a fuss in unison. Amongst this clamor, only I was calm.
Sigh. No, my mind was just blank.
[Mission accomplished.]
[You have saved all the members of Siren.]
The dream that I have imagined again and again—the wish that I earnestly desired to make if I could make just one wish— became a reality.
“...It came true.” Originally, all of my group members in the back seat died, and Yeon-Hoon, who was at the wheel, fell into a coma. The accident that took away the dreams and lives of five people in an instant just narrowly missed all of us.
“Ah...” I had just acted reflexively but managed to save all my team members.
“T-Tae-Yoon?”
“What the.”
“Are you crying, Tae-Yoon?”
“What, he’s crying?”
“Tae-Yoon is crying?”
It was only then did reality hit me. I wiped away my tears. This was not the time to be crying.
“Tae-Yoon, are you ok?” Yeon-Hoon turned around and asked me, but I wasn’t able to say anything and just stared back.
I was too moved to be able to see him move again. I turned my head; there were my other group members sitting in the back.
Kang Do-Seung.
Lee Woon.
Park Dong-Jun.
All of my group members were alive and well.
“Hey, why are you crying? Crying doesn’t suit a big punk like you.”
“Come on, don’t be like that. Poor kid must be shocked.”
“Do-Seung is so cold-hearted. Such a meanie. Boooo.”
Was this reality? I couldn’t shake off this question as I looked at my group members who were alive. However, they were real no matter how he looked at it, and everything was too vivid for it to be someone’s prank.
Yeon-Hoon said, “Here. Wipe your tears with a tissue, Tae-Yoon.”
“Ah, thank you.” I could clearly feel the tissue in my hand, the car seat hugging me, the seat belt gently pressing down on my shoulder. There was no way these senses could be fake.
Whoosh. I took a deep breath.
“Are you feeling better now?” Yeon-Hoon looked at me with worried eyes and asked.
“Tae-Yoon, are you okay?” Woon looked at me with worried eyes and also asked.
“It’s my first time seeing Tae-Yoon cry~” Dong-Jun’s voice was as carefree as ever.
“Yayyyy!”
“Pweh.”
Our dorm was technically a two-bedroom house but...
“Let’s put down the blanket first and quickly go to bed. I’m dead tired.”
“Do-Seung, wash up first and go to bed.”
“I’m not going to wash up.”
It was more reasonable to describe it as two small spaces like storage rooms attached to a large studio. The two spaces attached to each other were not large enough for an adult man to lay down. Thus, we used the two spaces as a closet and storage room and slept together in the living room with a blanket on the floor. I hadn’t thought it was very uncomfortable at that time, but this was exploitation no matter how hard I thought about it.
‘This is going to be so uncomfortable.’ Furthermore, I was 19 years old at the time. It was a given that I had no right to privacy. Someone might ask how this kind of life could exist even in 2022, but...
‘Well, all sorts of bizarre incidents happen all the time.’ Moreover, if a company representative was not aware of their company’s practices, these kinds of extraordinary situations occurred.
“Tae-Yoon, hurry and wash up. I’ll lay down the blanket while you guys wash up.” Yeon-Hoon smiled at me and started laying thick blankets on the floor. I felt sorry that a skinny guy like Yeon-Hoon was pulling a blanket that looked thicker than him.
I said, “Give it to me. I’ll do it.”
“What?”
Even at this point, I was taller than Yeon-Hoon. I was probably 184 cm at this time. When I first joined the entertainment agency, I was about the same height as Yeon-Hoon, but I grew nearly 10 cm in a year. Now, my height was somewhat similar to that of Do-Seung, who was the tallest in the team. Perhaps, I was a little taller.
“Our kid’s all grown up after coming back from a trip.”
“Didn’t he used to have a childish feeling about him?”
“Tae-Yoon~ Your older bros are sad that you’re growing up so fast~”
I smirked and laughed as I listened to their voices. It felt strange; they were older than me, but they all felt younger than me at the same time.
“Yes, I got it.” After laying down the blanket, I went to the bathroom and washed up briefly. The other group members, who had finished washing up, were already lying down in the living room in a row after changing into their pajamas. Yeon-Hoon even had a face mask on. I remembered him saying he needed to take good care of his skin so his age wouldn’t show on TV—even though he was only 23 years old.
“Tae-Yoon! Quickly come here!” Yeon-Hoon said, tapping the seat next to him with his palm.
“Yes.” I went over there and lay down.
Five grown men were all sleeping in one room. Although it wasn’t a common sight, it had a strange advantage; there was a strange sense of security.
“It was so much fun today. We almost got into an accident today, but except for that, it was the best day ever.” Yeon-Hoon said as he took off his mask pack.
“Yeah, it was fun.”
“The meat was super delicious. Wish I can eat it again.”
“You’re going to get fat.”
“What in the world shall we do that with sociopath, Kang Do-Seung?”
“What? Kang Do-Seung? How dare you address your hyung so rudely, you punk?”
“Do I have to treat you like a hyung just because you’re one year older?”
“You bastard...”
“Ackkk! Kang Do-Seung is hitting people!”
I quietly watch Dong-Jun and Do-Seung squabble. Today was probably the day we all traveled to Sokcho together, saying that today was probably the last day before our debut. I didn’t remember the trip well because it was five years ago, but I remembered that the meat I ate back then was delicious.
“What about you, Tae-Yoon?” Then, Woon asked me how I felt.
“Yeah, that’s right. Tae-Yoon is strangely quiet today.” Yeon-Hoon agreed.
“I...” I wondered what to say. “It was good. Really good.” This was the most honest answer. There could have been no better day than today as I was able to save my group members, return to the dorm, and all lay under the same blanket. However, that was also why I needed to say something that couldn’t be postponed any longer.
I said, “But I have something that I need to tell everyone.”
“Hmm?”
“What is it?”
“Why is that kid suddenly getting serious?”
“Did something happen?”
After getting up and sitting down, I looked at my group members, who were all lying down in a line. They were only raising their heads while lying down.
I almost laughed for a moment because of how funny they looked, but I made a straight face and said seriously, “I’m going to quit being an idol.”
“Huh?”
“What?”
“Tae-Yoon?”
“What the hell is wrong with that punk?”
The easiest way to solve all the problems we would have to face in the future was this: to not even start it in the first place.
1. Maknae refers to the youngest of the group. ?
2. 119 is the emergency number in South Korea. ?
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Chapter 2
What should I have done to erase that awful tragedy? What choice should I have made during a life-and-death crisis so that everyone could live? These were questions that have been haunting me every single day for the past five years.
I could give dozens—no, hundreds, thousands of answers to that question. Frankly, the most definite and perfect answer among them all was nothing special.
“Step on the accelerator!”
“Huh, what, yeah!”
Yeon-Hoon should have stepped hard on the accelerator. At that time, Yeon-Hoon had frozen in shock when the truck suddenly came rushing in. It wasn’t something anyone could blame him for, as most people would freeze in such an unexpected situation.
And this time as well, I thought, ‘He’s frozen!’
I saw Yeon-Hoon looking out the window while being completely paralyzed. In the end, I had no choice but to step up.
I shouted, “Yeon-Hoon! Step on the accelerator!” This composition is securely entrenched in n0v*lbin★
“Huh? Y-yeah!” I pressed Yeon-Hoon’s right thigh as hard as I could, and the accelerator pedal was pushed all the way in.
Whoosh! The car rushed forward.
“Ahhhh!” Yeon-Hoon hurriedly turned the steering wheel at the sudden increase in speed. Since the car would have crossed the centerline, Yeon-Hoon made the right decision to turn the steering wheel. Soon after—
Baaaaaaaam!
We heard a loud explosion. The truck that missed us by a hair’s breadth crashed into a wall.
“That’s insane.”
“Aghhhhh, what the hell!”
“What’s with that crazy truck!”
“Ahh, ugahhhhhh, oh my god.”
Four people except me screamed and made a fuss in unison. Amongst this clamor, only I was calm.
Sigh. No, my mind was just blank.
[Mission accomplished.]
[You have saved all the members of Siren.]
The dream that I have imagined again and again—the wish that I earnestly desired to make if I could make just one wish— became a reality.
“...It came true.” Originally, all of my group members in the back seat died, and Yeon-Hoon, who was at the wheel, fell into a coma. The accident that took away the dreams and lives of five people in an instant just narrowly missed all of us.
“Ah...” I had just acted reflexively but managed to save all my team members.
“T-Tae-Yoon?”
“What the.”
“Are you crying, Tae-Yoon?”
“What, he’s crying?”
“Tae-Yoon is crying?”
It was only then did reality hit me. I wiped away my tears. This was not the time to be crying.
“Tae-Yoon, are you ok?” Yeon-Hoon turned around and asked me, but I wasn’t able to say anything and just stared back.
I was too moved to be able to see him move again. I turned my head; there were my other group members sitting in the back.
Kang Do-Seung.
Lee Woon.
Park Dong-Jun.
All of my group members were alive and well.
“Hey, why are you crying? Crying doesn’t suit a big punk like you.”
“Come on, don’t be like that. Poor kid must be shocked.”
“Do-Seung is so cold-hearted. Such a meanie. Boooo.”
Was this reality? I couldn’t shake off this question as I looked at my group members who were alive. However, they were real no matter how he looked at it, and everything was too vivid for it to be someone’s prank.
Yeon-Hoon said, “Here. Wipe your tears with a tissue, Tae-Yoon.”
“Ah, thank you.” I could clearly feel the tissue in my hand, the car seat hugging me, the seat belt gently pressing down on my shoulder. There was no way these senses could be fake.
Whoosh. I took a deep breath.
“Are you feeling better now?” Yeon-Hoon looked at me with worried eyes and asked.
“Tae-Yoon, are you okay?” Woon looked at me with worried eyes and also asked.
“It’s my first time seeing Tae-Yoon cry~” Dong-Jun’s voice was as carefree as ever.
“Yayyyy!”
“Pweh.”
Our dorm was technically a two-bedroom house but...
“Let’s put down the blanket first and quickly go to bed. I’m dead tired.”
“Do-Seung, wash up first and go to bed.”
“I’m not going to wash up.”
It was more reasonable to describe it as two small spaces like storage rooms attached to a large studio. The two spaces attached to each other were not large enough for an adult man to lay down. Thus, we used the two spaces as a closet and storage room and slept together in the living room with a blanket on the floor. I hadn’t thought it was very uncomfortable at that time, but this was exploitation no matter how hard I thought about it.
‘This is going to be so uncomfortable.’ Furthermore, I was 19 years old at the time. It was a given that I had no right to privacy. Someone might ask how this kind of life could exist even in 2022, but...
‘Well, all sorts of bizarre incidents happen all the time.’ Moreover, if a company representative was not aware of their company’s practices, these kinds of extraordinary situations occurred.
“Tae-Yoon, hurry and wash up. I’ll lay down the blanket while you guys wash up.” Yeon-Hoon smiled at me and started laying thick blankets on the floor. I felt sorry that a skinny guy like Yeon-Hoon was pulling a blanket that looked thicker than him.
I said, “Give it to me. I’ll do it.”
“What?”
Even at this point, I was taller than Yeon-Hoon. I was probably 184 cm at this time. When I first joined the entertainment agency, I was about the same height as Yeon-Hoon, but I grew nearly 10 cm in a year. Now, my height was somewhat similar to that of Do-Seung, who was the tallest in the team. Perhaps, I was a little taller.
“Our kid’s all grown up after coming back from a trip.”
“Didn’t he used to have a childish feeling about him?”
“Tae-Yoon~ Your older bros are sad that you’re growing up so fast~”
I smirked and laughed as I listened to their voices. It felt strange; they were older than me, but they all felt younger than me at the same time.
“Yes, I got it.” After laying down the blanket, I went to the bathroom and washed up briefly. The other group members, who had finished washing up, were already lying down in the living room in a row after changing into their pajamas. Yeon-Hoon even had a face mask on. I remembered him saying he needed to take good care of his skin so his age wouldn’t show on TV—even though he was only 23 years old.
“Tae-Yoon! Quickly come here!” Yeon-Hoon said, tapping the seat next to him with his palm.
“Yes.” I went over there and lay down.
Five grown men were all sleeping in one room. Although it wasn’t a common sight, it had a strange advantage; there was a strange sense of security.
“It was so much fun today. We almost got into an accident today, but except for that, it was the best day ever.” Yeon-Hoon said as he took off his mask pack.
“Yeah, it was fun.”
“The meat was super delicious. Wish I can eat it again.”
“You’re going to get fat.”
“What in the world shall we do that with sociopath, Kang Do-Seung?”
“What? Kang Do-Seung? How dare you address your hyung so rudely, you punk?”
“Do I have to treat you like a hyung just because you’re one year older?”
“You bastard...”
“Ackkk! Kang Do-Seung is hitting people!”
I quietly watch Dong-Jun and Do-Seung squabble. Today was probably the day we all traveled to Sokcho together, saying that today was probably the last day before our debut. I didn’t remember the trip well because it was five years ago, but I remembered that the meat I ate back then was delicious.
“What about you, Tae-Yoon?” Then, Woon asked me how I felt.
“Yeah, that’s right. Tae-Yoon is strangely quiet today.” Yeon-Hoon agreed.
“I...” I wondered what to say. “It was good. Really good.” This was the most honest answer. There could have been no better day than today as I was able to save my group members, return to the dorm, and all lay under the same blanket. However, that was also why I needed to say something that couldn’t be postponed any longer.
I said, “But I have something that I need to tell everyone.”
“Hmm?”
“What is it?”
“Why is that kid suddenly getting serious?”
“Did something happen?”
After getting up and sitting down, I looked at my group members, who were all lying down in a line. They were only raising their heads while lying down.
I almost laughed for a moment because of how funny they looked, but I made a straight face and said seriously, “I’m going to quit being an idol.”
“Huh?”
“What?”
“Tae-Yoon?”
“What the hell is wrong with that punk?”
The easiest way to solve all the problems we would have to face in the future was this: to not even start it in the first place.
1. Maknae refers to the youngest of the group. ?
2. 119 is the emergency number in South Korea. ?
Chapter 2 What should I have done to erase that awful tragedy? What choice should I have made during a life-and-death crisis so that everyone could live? These were questions that have been haunting me every single day for the past five years. I could give dozensno, hundreds, thousands of answers to that question. Frankly, the most definite and perfect answer among them all was nothing special. Step on the accelerator! Huh, what, yeah! Yeon-Hoon should have stepped hard on the accelerator. At that time, Yeon-Hoon had frozen in shock when the truck suddenly came rushing in. It wasn't something anyone could blame him for, as most people would freeze in such an unexpected situation. And this time as well, I thought, He's frozen!' I saw Yeon-Hoon looking out the window while being completely paralyzed. In the end, I had no choice but to step up. I shouted, Yeon-Hoon! Step on the accelerator! This composition is securely entrenched in n0v*lbinHuh? Y-yeah! I pressed Yeon-Hoon's right thigh as hard as I could, and the accelerator pedal was pushed all the way in. Whoosh! The car rushed forward. Ahhhh! Yeon-Hoon hurriedly turned the steering wheel at the sudden increase in speed. Since the car would have crossed the centerline, Yeon-Hoon made the right decision to turn the steering wheel. Soon after Baaaaaaaam! We heard a loud explosion. The truck that missed us by a hair's breadth crashed into a wall. That's insane. Aghhhhh, what the hell! What's with that crazy truck! Ahh, ugahhhhhh, oh my god. Four people except me screamed and made a fuss in unison. Amongst this clamor, only I was calm. Sigh. No, my mind was just blank. Mission accomplished. You have saved all the members of Siren. The dream that I have imagined again and againthe wish that I earnestly desired to make if I could make just one wish became a reality. ...It came true. Originally, all of my group members in the back seat died, and Yeon-Hoon, who was at the wheel, fell into a coma. The accident that took away the dreams and lives of five people in an instant just narrowly missed all of us. Ah... I had just acted reflexively but managed to save all my team members. T-Tae-Yoon? What the. Are you crying, Tae-Yoon? What, he's crying? Tae-Yoon is crying? It was only then did reality hit me. I wiped away my tears. This was not the time to be crying. Tae-Yoon, are you ok? Yeon-Hoon turned around and asked me, but I wasn't able to say anything and just stared back. I was too moved to be able to see him move again. I turned my head; there were my other group members sitting in the back. Kang Do-Seung. Lee Woon. Park Dong-Jun. All of my group members were alive and well. Hey, why are you crying? Crying doesn't suit a big punk like you. Come on, don't be like that. Poor kid must be shocked. Do-Seung is so cold-hearted. Such a meanie. Boooo. Was this reality? I couldn't shake off this question as I looked at my group members who were alive. However, they were real no matter how he looked at it, and everything was too vivid for it to be someone's prank. Yeon-Hoon said, Here. Wipe your tears with a tissue, Tae-Yoon. Ah, thank you. I could clearly feel the tissue in my hand, the car seat hugging me, the seat belt gently pressing down on my shoulder. There was no way these senses could be fake. Whoosh. I took a deep breath. Are you feeling better now? Yeon-Hoon looked at me with worried eyes and asked. Tae-Yoon, are you okay? Woon looked at me with worried eyes and also asked. It's my first time seeing Tae-Yoon cry~ Dong-Jun's voice was as carefree as ever. Yayyyy! Pweh. Our dorm was technically a two-bedroom house but... Let's put down the blanket first and quickly go to bed. I'm dead tired. Do-Seung, wash up first and go to bed. I'm not going to wash up. It was more reasonable to describe it as two small spaces like storage rooms attached to a large studio. The two spaces attached to each other were not large enough for an adult man to lay down. Thus, we used the two spaces as a closet and storage room and slept together in the living room with a blanket on the floor. I hadn't thought it was very uncomfortable at that time, but this was exploitation no matter how hard I thought about it. This is going to be so uncomfortable.' Furthermore, I was 19 years old at the time. It was a given that I had no right to privacy. Someone might ask how this kind of life could exist even in 2022, but... Well, all sorts of bizarre incidents happen all the time.' Moreover, if a company representative was not aware of their company's practices, these kinds of extraordinary situations occurred. Tae-Yoon, hurry and wash up. I'll lay down the blanket while you guys wash up. Yeon-Hoon smiled at me and started laying thick blankets on the floor. I felt sorry that a skinny guy like Yeon-Hoon was pulling a blanket that looked thicker than him. I said, Give it to me. I'll do it. What? Even at this point, I was taller than Yeon-Hoon. I was probably 184 cm at this time. When I first joined the entertainment agency, I was about the same height as Yeon-Hoon, but I grew nearly 10 cm in a year. Now, my height was somewhat similar to that of Do-Seung, who was the tallest in the team. Perhaps, I was a little taller. Our kid's all grown up after coming back from a trip. Didn't he used to have a childish feeling about him? Tae-Yoon~ Your older bros are sad that you're growing up so fast~ I smirked and laughed as I listened to their voices. It felt strange; they were older than me, but they all felt younger than me at the same time. Yes, I got it. After laying down the blanket, I went to the bathroom and washed up briefly. The other group members, who had finished washing up, were already lying down in the living room in a row after changing into their pajamas. Yeon-Hoon even had a face mask on. I remembered him saying he needed to take good care of his skin so his age wouldn't show on TVeven though he was only 23 years old. Tae-Yoon! Quickly come here! Yeon-Hoon said, tapping the seat next to him with his palm. Yes. I went over there and lay down. Five grown men were all sleeping in one room. Although it wasn't a common sight, it had a strange advantage; there was a strange sense of security. It was so much fun today. We almost got into an accident today, but except for that, it was the best day ever. Yeon-Hoon said as he took off his mask pack. Yeah, it was fun. The meat was super delicious. Wish I can eat it again. You're going to get fat. What in the world shall we do that with sociopath, Kang Do-Seung? What? Kang Do-Seung? How dare you address your hyung so rudely, you punk? Do I have to treat you like a hyung just because you're one year older? You bastard... Ackkk! Kang Do-Seung is hitting people! I quietly watch Dong-Jun and Do-Seung squabble. Today was probably the day we all traveled to Sokcho together, saying that today was probably the last day before our debut. I didn't remember the trip well because it was five years ago, but I remembered that the meat I ate back then was delicious. What about you, Tae-Yoon? Then, Woon asked me how I felt. Yeah, that's right. Tae-Yoon is strangely quiet today. Yeon-Hoon agreed. I... I wondered what to say. It was good. Really good. This was the most honest answer. There could have been no better day than today as I was able to save my group members, return to the dorm, and all lay under the same blanket. However, that was also why I needed to say something that couldn't be postponed any longer. I said, But I have something that I need to tell everyone. Hmm? What is it? Why is that kid suddenly getting serious? Did something happen? After getting up and sitting down, I looked at my group members, who were all lying down in a line. They were only raising their heads while lying down. I almost laughed for a moment because of how funny they looked, but I made a straight face and said seriously, I'm going to quit being an idol. Huh? What? Tae-Yoon? What the hell is wrong with that punk? The easiest way to solve all the problems we would have to face in the future was this: to not even start it in the first place. 1. Maknae refers to the youngest of the group. ? 2. 119 is the emergency number in South Korea. ?
