Chapter 142: 142 – Dr. Gordon’s Task
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Pax and Dr. Gordon entered the house almost at the same time as Ren and Fang.
Steward Paul and Chef Jules were waiting anxiously for them.
"Master Ren! Young Master Fang! Are you all right?" Steward Paul asked in a panicked voice as soon as he caught sight of them.
Fang's face was still pale, and the four babies were still clinging desperately to their Papa. More often than not, it was Ren they clung to, but this time, all four had latched on to Fang, and even Ren was hovering protectively around Fang.
"We are all right," Ren said. "Wolf and the Blue Wolves saved us. However, I am afraid that we are dealing with some stubborn people this time. They won't let go of Fang so easily."
Pax narrowed his eyes. "You mean…" he started saying, but then trailed off.
Ren sighed and nodded. "Yes, I am afraid that this might relate to Fang's biological parents," he murmured. "I don't see any other reason why they would be so desperate to get hold of him and try to separate us like this."
Fang, who had been looking down until now, raised his head and stared at Ren in disbelief.
"My – my biological parents?" he asked in a shocked voice.
Ren nodded and caressed Fang's face. "I didn't want to tell you until we knew for sure," he said softly. "Pax, Wolf and I have been looking into it for over a year now, but we haven't been able to find anything concrete yet – but now it seems like the truth has come to find us instead…"
Fang frowned. "But no one knows about my biological parents. I was left at the Orchid Orphanage when I was a baby," he said. "I have no memory of anything else…"
Ren pressed a soft kiss to Fang's brow. "Don't worry, my little darling. We will find out the truth sooner or later," he said gently. "Let's have Dr. Gordon take a look at you first, all right?"
"Not just Fang, I'm going to take a look at all of you," Dr. Gordon said. "But yes, I will have a longer conversation with Fang."
Pax had briefed Dr. Gordon on the way, and the middle aged doctor was worried about the young man he had come to regard as a nephew or godson of his own. Even if Fang was doing phenomenally better now, it didn't mean that he would not be affected at all when he was forcefully reminded of his terrible past – and it had barely been more than a year since he had come out of that hell.
The babies were quickly looked over and handed to Pax, and then Ren was cleared off.
Ren wanted to hang around with Fang while Dr. Gordon checked him, but Dr. Gordon threw him out.
"Fang and I need to talk, and he won't be able to talk freely with you buzzing around him like an annoying bee," Dr. Gordon told Ren and pushed him out of the door.
"But…" Ren began.
Dr. Gordon glared at him. "You little kid, remember that you have been studying medicine only for a few months – and I have been a full fledged doctor longer than you've been alive!" he snapped. "Also – don't you have things to investigate?" he asked pointedly.
"I do," Ren said. "But nothing is more important than Fang."
"Your little Fang will be fine, there's no need to fuss so much," Dr. Gordon said. Then he lowered his voice and whispered softly so that only Ren would be able to hear what he said, and Ren realised his intentions and quickly cast a spell to muffle the sound from Fang's ears, just in case Fang was paying attention to their conversation with his magically enhanced hearing.
"You have successfully distracted him from the trauma of the past by revealing this new issue," Dr. Gordon whispered quietly. "Are you sure that there is something to investigate along these lines? It would be very useful for Fang's psyche to have something else to think about. Even if it is not pleasant, at least it will be better than what he experienced at the hands of those scum…"
Ren nodded. "It is definitely worth investigating, and we have been trying to get more information on the matter of his biological parents since last year," he said. "It's just that we haven't found anything. But I have a gut feeling that what happened today is really related to Fang's origins, and not what happened at Orchid Orphanage."
Dr. Gordon clapped Ren's shoulders and said, "Then you go and find out about the truth."
Ren nodded and stepped out.
Dr. Gordon took in the sight of Fang's slumped shoulders and sighed. He walked slowly back to where the young man was sitting and pulled up a chair in front of him.
"Young Fang," he murmured. "Do you want to speak to me, or should I call one of your therapists?"
Fang shook his head. "I'm all right, Dr. Gordon," he said in a small voice.
"Of course you are not," Dr. Gordon said. "You would be a robot if you were all right in this situation."
Fang remained silent. "I know Ren said that this is probably not about what was happening with me at the Orchid Orphanage until last year – but – but I'm not sure, Dr. Gordon," he said in a trembling voice. "And even though I ignore it and nowadays I hardly even remember it, actually – the truth remains that I really was a filthy rent boy and there is no way I would ever be worthy of Ren."
Dr. Gordon sighed. "Have you ever told Ren that you feel this way?" he asked.
"He knows that I don't feel worthy of him, and he gets very angry or very upset whenever I say this – and he thinks the world of me," Fang muttered. "But his eyes are always biased in my favour…"
"What if Ren told you that he feels unworthy of your love? He is older than you, and you started a relationship on an unequal footing. It could simply be gratitude instead of love on your part. After all, you are very young," Dr. Gordon pointed out. "Ren wouldn't be wrong if he felt this way."
"No!" Fang protested immediately. "Ren is the best!"
"But your eyes are biased in Ren's favour, aren't they?" Dr. Gordon pointed out, using Fang's words back at him. "You don't trust Ren's heart and his judgement that you are worthy of his affection – so how do you expect him to trust your judgement on whether he is worthy of your affections or not?"
Fang stared at Dr. Gordon in dismay. "But Ren and I are different…" he mumbled.
"How are you any different, except that he is a little older than you? Aren't you both brilliant and prodigious young men? Aren't you both very good looking and successful? Aren't you both very attractive?" Dr. Gordon demanded, leaning back in his chair and propping up his chin with his hand.
Fang didn't respond, but his eyes brightened.
"And if you ask me, the two of you are so perfectly well matched that you wouldn't find another one as suited to each other as the two of you even if you went looking all over the world with the brightest lamp you could buy," Dr. Gordon added lazily.
"Really?" Fang asked in a frail voice.
Dr. Gordon nodded. "In a way, you are even more extraordinary than Ren, and I think Ren knows it himself, and that's why he always encourages you to do what you want to do. He's a good businessman and a good partner – so he wants you to maximise your potential. Ren already had a head start – until he was fifteen, he was brought up well, and even after he was abandoned, he still had his inheritance. You, on the other hand, have risen up from ashes – and that is much more laudable than Ren's achievements," he said in a matter of fact voice. "I think everyone sees this other than you, and this is why Ren gets angry when you belittle yourself. He's immensely proud of you, you see, and it's natural for him to be upset when his precious treasure is considered to be dirt by the precious treasure himself."
Fang remained silent, clearly not convinced.
"It's all right," Dr. Gordon said mildly. "There is absolutely no rush. You don't need to convince yourself into believing anything – that wouldn't be of any help to any one. What I want you to do this make a list of what you have achieved in the last one year. Write it down on a sheet of paper. List all your achievements – academics, business, work, relationships, love life, personal habits, emotions – anything and everything. Try and list things from a neutral perspective, not your own views on yourself.. Make factual statements, not your own views or opinions, all right? I want you to do this today, and then we will speak again tomorrow when we have this list."
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Pax and Dr. Gordon entered the house almost at the same time as Ren and Fang.
Steward Paul and Chef Jules were waiting anxiously for them.
"Master Ren! Young Master Fang! Are you all right?" Steward Paul asked in a panicked voice as soon as he caught sight of them.
Fang's face was still pale, and the four babies were still clinging desperately to their Papa. More often than not, it was Ren they clung to, but this time, all four had latched on to Fang, and even Ren was hovering protectively around Fang.
"We are all right," Ren said. "Wolf and the Blue Wolves saved us. However, I am afraid that we are dealing with some stubborn people this time. They won't let go of Fang so easily."
Pax narrowed his eyes. "You mean…" he started saying, but then trailed off.
Ren sighed and nodded. "Yes, I am afraid that this might relate to Fang's biological parents," he murmured. "I don't see any other reason why they would be so desperate to get hold of him and try to separate us like this."
Fang, who had been looking down until now, raised his head and stared at Ren in disbelief.
"My – my biological parents?" he asked in a shocked voice.
Ren nodded and caressed Fang's face. "I didn't want to tell you until we knew for sure," he said softly. "Pax, Wolf and I have been looking into it for over a year now, but we haven't been able to find anything concrete yet – but now it seems like the truth has come to find us instead…"
Fang frowned. "But no one knows about my biological parents. I was left at the Orchid Orphanage when I was a baby," he said. "I have no memory of anything else…"
Ren pressed a soft kiss to Fang's brow. "Don't worry, my little darling. We will find out the truth sooner or later," he said gently. "Let's have Dr. Gordon take a look at you first, all right?"
"Not just Fang, I'm going to take a look at all of you," Dr. Gordon said. "But yes, I will have a longer conversation with Fang."
Pax had briefed Dr. Gordon on the way, and the middle aged doctor was worried about the young man he had come to regard as a nephew or godson of his own. Even if Fang was doing phenomenally better now, it didn't mean that he would not be affected at all when he was forcefully reminded of his terrible past – and it had barely been more than a year since he had come out of that hell.
The babies were quickly looked over and handed to Pax, and then Ren was cleared off.
Ren wanted to hang around with Fang while Dr. Gordon checked him, but Dr. Gordon threw him out.
"Fang and I need to talk, and he won't be able to talk freely with you buzzing around him like an annoying bee," Dr. Gordon told Ren and pushed him out of the door.
"But…" Ren began.
Dr. Gordon glared at him. "You little kid, remember that you have been studying medicine only for a few months – and I have been a full fledged doctor longer than you've been alive!" he snapped. "Also – don't you have things to investigate?" he asked pointedly.
"I do," Ren said. "But nothing is more important than Fang."
"Your little Fang will be fine, there's no need to fuss so much," Dr. Gordon said. Then he lowered his voice and whispered softly so that only Ren would be able to hear what he said, and Ren realised his intentions and quickly cast a spell to muffle the sound from Fang's ears, just in case Fang was paying attention to their conversation with his magically enhanced hearing.
"You have successfully distracted him from the trauma of the past by revealing this new issue," Dr. Gordon whispered quietly. "Are you sure that there is something to investigate along these lines? It would be very useful for Fang's psyche to have something else to think about. Even if it is not pleasant, at least it will be better than what he experienced at the hands of those scum…"
Ren nodded. "It is definitely worth investigating, and we have been trying to get more information on the matter of his biological parents since last year," he said. "It's just that we haven't found anything. But I have a gut feeling that what happened today is really related to Fang's origins, and not what happened at Orchid Orphanage."
Dr. Gordon clapped Ren's shoulders and said, "Then you go and find out about the truth."
Ren nodded and stepped out.
Dr. Gordon took in the sight of Fang's slumped shoulders and sighed. He walked slowly back to where the young man was sitting and pulled up a chair in front of him.
"Young Fang," he murmured. "Do you want to speak to me, or should I call one of your therapists?"
Fang shook his head. "I'm all right, Dr. Gordon," he said in a small voice.
"Of course you are not," Dr. Gordon said. "You would be a robot if you were all right in this situation."
Fang remained silent. "I know Ren said that this is probably not about what was happening with me at the Orchid Orphanage until last year – but – but I'm not sure, Dr. Gordon," he said in a trembling voice. "And even though I ignore it and nowadays I hardly even remember it, actually – the truth remains that I really was a filthy rent boy and there is no way I would ever be worthy of Ren."
Dr. Gordon sighed. "Have you ever told Ren that you feel this way?" he asked.
"He knows that I don't feel worthy of him, and he gets very angry or very upset whenever I say this – and he thinks the world of me," Fang muttered. "But his eyes are always biased in my favour…"
"What if Ren told you that he feels unworthy of your love? He is older than you, and you started a relationship on an unequal footing. It could simply be gratitude instead of love on your part. After all, you are very young," Dr. Gordon pointed out. "Ren wouldn't be wrong if he felt this way."
"No!" Fang protested immediately. "Ren is the best!"
"But your eyes are biased in Ren's favour, aren't they?" Dr. Gordon pointed out, using Fang's words back at him. "You don't trust Ren's heart and his judgement that you are worthy of his affection – so how do you expect him to trust your judgement on whether he is worthy of your affections or not?"
Fang stared at Dr. Gordon in dismay. "But Ren and I are different…" he mumbled.
"How are you any different, except that he is a little older than you? Aren't you both brilliant and prodigious young men? Aren't you both very good looking and successful? Aren't you both very attractive?" Dr. Gordon demanded, leaning back in his chair and propping up his chin with his hand.
Fang didn't respond, but his eyes brightened.
"And if you ask me, the two of you are so perfectly well matched that you wouldn't find another one as suited to each other as the two of you even if you went looking all over the world with the brightest lamp you could buy," Dr. Gordon added lazily.
"Really?" Fang asked in a frail voice.
Dr. Gordon nodded. "In a way, you are even more extraordinary than Ren, and I think Ren knows it himself, and that's why he always encourages you to do what you want to do. He's a good businessman and a good partner – so he wants you to maximise your potential. Ren already had a head start – until he was fifteen, he was brought up well, and even after he was abandoned, he still had his inheritance. You, on the other hand, have risen up from ashes – and that is much more laudable than Ren's achievements," he said in a matter of fact voice. "I think everyone sees this other than you, and this is why Ren gets angry when you belittle yourself. He's immensely proud of you, you see, and it's natural for him to be upset when his precious treasure is considered to be dirt by the precious treasure himself."
Fang remained silent, clearly not convinced.
"It's all right," Dr. Gordon said mildly. "There is absolutely no rush. You don't need to convince yourself into believing anything – that wouldn't be of any help to any one. What I want you to do this make a list of what you have achieved in the last one year. Write it down on a sheet of paper. List all your achievements – academics, business, work, relationships, love life, personal habits, emotions – anything and everything. Try and list things from a neutral perspective, not your own views on yourself.. Make factual statements, not your own views or opinions, all right? I want you to do this today, and then we will speak again tomorrow when we have this list."
Pax and Dr. Gordon entered the house almost at the same time as Ren and Fang.Steward Paul and Chef Jules were waiting anxiously for them."Master Ren! Young Master Fang! Are you all right?" Steward Paul asked in a panicked voice as soon as he caught sight of them.Fang's face was still pale, and the four babies were still clinging desperately to their Papa. More often than not, it was Ren they clung to, but this time, all four had latched on to Fang, and even Ren was hovering protectively around Fang."We are all right," Ren said. "Wolf and the Blue Wolves saved us. However, I am afraid that we are dealing with some stubborn people this time. They won't let go of Fang so easily."Pax narrowed his eyes. "You mean" he started saying, but then trailed off.Ren sighed and nodded. "Yes, I am afraid that this might relate to Fang's biological parents," he murmured. "I don't see any other reason why they would be so desperate to get hold of him and try to separate us like this."Fang, who had been looking down until now, raised his head and stared at Ren in disbelief."My my biological parents?" he asked in a shocked voice.Ren nodded and caressed Fang's face. "I didn't want to tell you until we knew for sure," he said softly. "Pax, Wolf and I have been looking into it for over a year now, but we haven't been able to find anything concrete yet but now it seems like the truth has come to find us instead"Fang frowned. "But no one knows about my biological parents. I was left at the Orchid Orphanage when I was a baby," he said. "I have no memory of anything else"Ren pressed a soft kiss to Fang's brow. "Don't worry, my little darling. We will find out the truth sooner or later," he said gently. "Let's have Dr. Gordon take a look at you first, all right?""Not just Fang, I'm going to take a look at all of you," Dr. Gordon said. "But yes, I will have a longer conversation with Fang."Pax had briefed Dr. Gordon on the way, and the middle aged doctor was worried about the young man he had come to regard as a nephew or godson of his own. Even if Fang was doing phenomenally better now, it didn't mean that he would not be affected at all when he was forcefully reminded of his terrible past and it had barely been more than a year since he had come out of that hell.The babies were quickly looked over and handed to Pax, and then Ren was cleared off.Ren wanted to hang around with Fang while Dr. Gordon checked him, but Dr. Gordon threw him out."Fang and I need to talk, and he won't be able to talk freely with you buzzing around him like an annoying bee," Dr. Gordon told Ren and pushed him out of the door."But" Ren began.Dr. Gordon glared at him. "You little kid, remember that you have been studying medicine only for a few months and I have been a full fledged doctor longer than you've been alive!" he snapped. "Also don't you have things to investigate?" he asked pointedly."I do," Ren said. "But nothing is more important than Fang.""Your little Fang will be fine, there's no need to fuss so much," Dr. Gordon said. Then he lowered his voice and whispered softly so that only Ren would be able to hear what he said, and Ren realised his intentions and quickly cast a spell to muffle the sound from Fang's ears, just in case Fang was paying attention to their conversation with his magically enhanced hearing."You have successfully distracted him from the trauma of the past by revealing this new issue," Dr. Gordon whispered quietly. "Are you sure that there is something to investigate along these lines? It would be very useful for Fang's psyche to have something else to think about. Even if it is not pleasant, at least it will be better than what he experienced at the hands of those scum"Ren nodded. "It is definitely worth investigating, and we have been trying to get more information on the matter of his biological parents since last year," he said. "It's just that we haven't found anything. But I have a gut feeling that what happened today is really related to Fang's origins, and not what happened at Orchid Orphanage."Dr. Gordon clapped Ren's shoulders and said, "Then you go and find out about the truth."Ren nodded and stepped out.Dr. Gordon took in the sight of Fang's slumped shoulders and sighed. He walked slowly back to where the young man was sitting and pulled up a chair in front of him."Young Fang," he murmured. "Do you want to speak to me, or should I call one of your therapists?"Fang shook his head. "I'm all right, Dr. Gordon," he said in a small voice."Of course you are not," Dr. Gordon said. "You would be a robot if you were all right in this situation."Fang remained silent. "I know Ren said that this is probably not about what was happening with me at the Orchid Orphanage until last year but but I'm not sure, Dr. Gordon," he said in a trembling voice. "And even though I ignore it and nowadays I hardly even remember it, actually the truth remains that I really was a filthy rent boy and there is no way I would ever be worthy of Ren."Dr. Gordon sighed. "Have you ever told Ren that you feel this way?" he asked."He knows that I don't feel worthy of him, and he gets very angry or very upset whenever I say this and he thinks the world of me," Fang muttered. "But his eyes are always biased in my favour""What if Ren told you that he feels unworthy of your love? He is older than you, and you started a relationship on an unequal footing. It could simply be gratitude instead of love on your part. After all, you are very young," Dr. Gordon pointed out. "Ren wouldn't be wrong if he felt this way.""No!" Fang protested immediately. "Ren is the best!""But your eyes are biased in Ren's favour, aren't they?" Dr. Gordon pointed out, using Fang's words back at him. "You don't trust Ren's heart and his judgement that you are worthy of his affection so how do you expect him to trust your judgement on whether he is worthy of your affections or not?"Fang stared at Dr. Gordon in dismay. "But Ren and I are different" he mumbled."How are you any different, except that he is a little older than you? Aren't you both brilliant and prodigious young men? Aren't you both very good looking and successful? Aren't you both very attractive?" Dr. Gordon demanded, leaning back in his chair and propping up his chin with his hand.Fang didn't respond, but his eyes brightened."And if you ask me, the two of you are so perfectly well matched that you wouldn't find another one as suited to each other as the two of you even if you went looking all over the world with the brightest lamp you could buy," Dr. Gordon added lazily."Really?" Fang asked in a frail voice.Dr. Gordon nodded. "In a way, you are even more extraordinary than Ren, and I think Ren knows it himself, and that's why he always encourages you to do what you want to do. He's a good businessman and a good partner so he wants you to maximise your potential. Ren already had a head start until he was fifteen, he was brought up well, and even after he was abandoned, he still had his inheritance. You, on the other hand, have risen up from ashes and that is much more laudable than Ren's achievements," he said in a matter of fact voice. "I think everyone sees this other than you, and this is why Ren gets angry when you belittle yourself. He's immensely proud of you, you see, and it's natural for him to be upset when his precious treasure is considered to be dirt by the precious treasure himself."Fang remained silent, clearly not convinced."It's all right," Dr. Gordon said mildly. "There is absolutely no rush. You don't need to convince yourself into believing anything that wouldn't be of any help to any one. What I want you to do this make a list of what you have achieved in the last one year. Write it down on a sheet of paper. List all your achievements academics, business, work, relationships, love life, personal habits, emotions anything and everything. Try and list things from a neutral perspective, not your own views on yourself.. Make factual statements, not your own views or opinions, all right? I want you to do this today, and then we will speak again tomorrow when we have this list."
