Chapter 179: Fears, We All Have Them
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He shouted at her, sternly, more than he intended but he shouted. Never before had she seen Severus this incensed with her. Scarlet thought about how much she was dragging him down, it seemed. How much her ill lacking attitude at times probably disappointed him but he patiently continued to teach her. But even then, while she was grateful to him for everything, what he said was not right and she needed to clear the air before the training could be furthered on.
"Severus," she said slowly, "You said it yourself that other female reapers eat the hell fruit because they want to reproduce so this means I am not the only one that has hope. I am not alone in this desire to have a child, thousands of female grim reapers are just like me, so do not dismiss their hope simply because to you, it's something that can be done naturally and easily whenever you please." He could decide to father a few hell hounds today and he would be successful but it was not the same for her.
"Also," she added, "if it was as dangerous as you make it sound, Lythia would not be feeding hell fruits to female reapers. Unless it's all a lie that is." She looked at him with a steely eyes gaze and asked, "Is it a lie?" Were the female reapers being given false hope?
A few of her words made him feel quite embarrassed by his outburst. He just wanted her to prioritize and top priority should be increasing her soul strength. She was also indecisive when it came to what kind of reaper she wanted to be, whether it was warrior or guardian. At this rate she was going to be one of those reapers that belonged to no side. The ones who hovered in between factions, never belonging anywhere. Those ones leveled up their soul power slowest, they rarely existed on the leaderboard and in small words, they were preyed on the quickest and easiest. Belonging somewhere was important in the underworld because there were worse things in the world than soul eaters and there was strength in numbers. Severus however had no intention of apologizing because his beliefs were still intact.
"I could have phrased my language better." he said. "Let's just train and if you want to talk about the child thing I will take you to my mother." You can trace the roots of this content at n0v@lbin
Still, she didn't blink or back down. "That doesn't answer my question, are the hell fruits a dead end for female reapers?"
"I don't know." he said in an exasperated tone, "I am not a female reaper or female anything. There is no information on the hell fruit on the forum apart from it's name. I now owe my mother a favor for going to her with all these questions in an attempt to help you. Do you know when I last spoke to my mother?"
Naturally, Scarlet shook her head. Of course she did not know, he rarely spoke about his personal life to her.
Her body was stiff and she could not move, something was coming from behind and she was trapped inside of her own body, denying her a means of escape. Her breathing increased, she could feel it in her bones, the fear, it was crawling on her skin, surrounding her like a python and then swallowing her into the darkness of it's belly. She wanted out!!!... nothing had attacked yet but she wanted out. And just as soon as the hallucination started working, she opened her eyes.
Hyperventilating, Scarlet calmed herself and mumbled, "Not real, not real." She chugged down a bottle of water so fast that it choked her, tickling her throat that she had to spit the water out.
"Son of..." Severus yelled. "It was working!!"
"Too well." she took a few deep breaths and bent over, holding her knees with her hands. "Maybe I should try a new skill because even though I know in the back of mind that I can't die, I am terrified. Are grim reapers allowed to feel fear?"
"We all have things to fear." Severus replied and he laid down and surrendered, today was not the day to excel at this skill.
"What do you fear?" She and walked down and joined him on the ground. "Aside from your mother and fatherhood."
"One, I don't fear my mother and two, I dislike fatherhood, not fear it. There is a difference between the two things." He corrected her wrong understanding. "But I fear the same thing you and every other creature that works for the deities fears, the deities themselves. Should they ever decide to have no need of us, we will all stop existing. We take our immortal abilities for granted and sometimes we find them exhausting but when faced with the decision to stop existing, we all choose to stay because the thought of simply not being alive is terrifying. I have seen thousands of humans begging gods for life on their sick beds when they know fully well that they are terminal. I always wonder why they don't beg for death, it seems like the easier option to escape all that pain. But even when they beg for death, you can see the fear and hesitation in their eyes just before they die. They don't want to go, no one ever does."
Scarlet wanted to say she did, when she died, she wanted it. Her bracelet terminal vibrated with a message informing all governors that all mecha warriors must return to the capital the next day.
She sighed and spread her arms out.
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He shouted at her, sternly, more than he intended but he shouted. Never before had she seen Severus this incensed with her. Scarlet thought about how much she was dragging him down, it seemed. How much her ill lacking attitude at times probably disappointed him but he patiently continued to teach her. But even then, while she was grateful to him for everything, what he said was not right and she needed to clear the air before the training could be furthered on.
"Severus," she said slowly, "You said it yourself that other female reapers eat the hell fruit because they want to reproduce so this means I am not the only one that has hope. I am not alone in this desire to have a child, thousands of female grim reapers are just like me, so do not dismiss their hope simply because to you, it's something that can be done naturally and easily whenever you please." He could decide to father a few hell hounds today and he would be successful but it was not the same for her.
"Also," she added, "if it was as dangerous as you make it sound, Lythia would not be feeding hell fruits to female reapers. Unless it's all a lie that is." She looked at him with a steely eyes gaze and asked, "Is it a lie?" Were the female reapers being given false hope?
A few of her words made him feel quite embarrassed by his outburst. He just wanted her to prioritize and top priority should be increasing her soul strength. She was also indecisive when it came to what kind of reaper she wanted to be, whether it was warrior or guardian. At this rate she was going to be one of those reapers that belonged to no side. The ones who hovered in between factions, never belonging anywhere. Those ones leveled up their soul power slowest, they rarely existed on the leaderboard and in small words, they were preyed on the quickest and easiest. Belonging somewhere was important in the underworld because there were worse things in the world than soul eaters and there was strength in numbers. Severus however had no intention of apologizing because his beliefs were still intact.
"I could have phrased my language better." he said. "Let's just train and if you want to talk about the child thing I will take you to my mother." You can trace the roots of this content at n0v@lbin
Still, she didn't blink or back down. "That doesn't answer my question, are the hell fruits a dead end for female reapers?"
"I don't know." he said in an exasperated tone, "I am not a female reaper or female anything. There is no information on the hell fruit on the forum apart from it's name. I now owe my mother a favor for going to her with all these questions in an attempt to help you. Do you know when I last spoke to my mother?"
Naturally, Scarlet shook her head. Of course she did not know, he rarely spoke about his personal life to her.
Her body was stiff and she could not move, something was coming from behind and she was trapped inside of her own body, denying her a means of escape. Her breathing increased, she could feel it in her bones, the fear, it was crawling on her skin, surrounding her like a python and then swallowing her into the darkness of it's belly. She wanted out!!!... nothing had attacked yet but she wanted out. And just as soon as the hallucination started working, she opened her eyes.
Hyperventilating, Scarlet calmed herself and mumbled, "Not real, not real." She chugged down a bottle of water so fast that it choked her, tickling her throat that she had to spit the water out.
"Son of..." Severus yelled. "It was working!!"
"Too well." she took a few deep breaths and bent over, holding her knees with her hands. "Maybe I should try a new skill because even though I know in the back of mind that I can't die, I am terrified. Are grim reapers allowed to feel fear?"
"We all have things to fear." Severus replied and he laid down and surrendered, today was not the day to excel at this skill.
"What do you fear?" She and walked down and joined him on the ground. "Aside from your mother and fatherhood."
"One, I don't fear my mother and two, I dislike fatherhood, not fear it. There is a difference between the two things." He corrected her wrong understanding. "But I fear the same thing you and every other creature that works for the deities fears, the deities themselves. Should they ever decide to have no need of us, we will all stop existing. We take our immortal abilities for granted and sometimes we find them exhausting but when faced with the decision to stop existing, we all choose to stay because the thought of simply not being alive is terrifying. I have seen thousands of humans begging gods for life on their sick beds when they know fully well that they are terminal. I always wonder why they don't beg for death, it seems like the easier option to escape all that pain. But even when they beg for death, you can see the fear and hesitation in their eyes just before they die. They don't want to go, no one ever does."
Scarlet wanted to say she did, when she died, she wanted it. Her bracelet terminal vibrated with a message informing all governors that all mecha warriors must return to the capital the next day.
She sighed and spread her arms out.
He shouted at her, sternly, more than he intended but he shouted. Never before had she seen Severus this incensed with her. Scarlet thought about how much she was dragging him down, it seemed. How much her ill lacking attitude at times probably disappointed him but he patiently continued to teach her. But even then, while she was grateful to him for everything, what he said was not right and she needed to clear the air before the training could be furthered on. "Severus," she said slowly, "You said it yourself that other female reapers eat the hell fruit because they want to reproduce so this means I am not the only one that has hope. I am not alone in this desire to have a child, thousands of female grim reapers are just like me, so do not dismiss their hope simply because to you, it's something that can be done naturally and easily whenever you please." He could decide to father a few hell hounds today and he would be successful but it was not the same for her."Also," she added, "if it was as dangerous as you make it sound, Lythia would not be feeding hell fruits to female reapers. Unless it's all a lie that is." She looked at him with a steely eyes gaze and asked, "Is it a lie?" Were the female reapers being given false hope?A few of her words made him feel quite embarrassed by his outburst. He just wanted her to prioritize and top priority should be increasing her soul strength. She was also indecisive when it came to what kind of reaper she wanted to be, whether it was warrior or guardian. At this rate she was going to be one of those reapers that belonged to no side. The ones who hovered in between factions, never belonging anywhere. Those ones leveled up their soul power slowest, they rarely existed on the leaderboard and in small words, they were preyed on the quickest and easiest. Belonging somewhere was important in the underworld because there were worse things in the world than soul eaters and there was strength in numbers. Severus however had no intention of apologizing because his beliefs were still intact. "I could have phrased my language better." he said. "Let's just train and if you want to talk about the child thing I will take you to my mother." You can trace the roots of this content at n0v@lbinStill, she didn't blink or back down. "That doesn't answer my question, are the hell fruits a dead end for female reapers?""I don't know." he said in an exasperated tone, "I am not a female reaper or female anything. There is no information on the hell fruit on the forum apart from it's name. I now owe my mother a favor for going to her with all these questions in an attempt to help you. Do you know when I last spoke to my mother?" Naturally, Scarlet shook her head. Of course she did not know, he rarely spoke about his personal life to her. Her body was stiff and she could not move, something was coming from behind and she was trapped inside of her own body, denying her a means of escape. Her breathing increased, she could feel it in her bones, the fear, it was crawling on her skin, surrounding her like a python and then swallowing her into the darkness of it's belly. She wanted out!!!... nothing had attacked yet but she wanted out. And just as soon as the hallucination started working, she opened her eyes.Hyperventilating, Scarlet calmed herself and mumbled, "Not real, not real." She chugged down a bottle of water so fast that it choked her, tickling her throat that she had to spit the water out. "Son of..." Severus yelled. "It was working!!" "Too well." she took a few deep breaths and bent over, holding her knees with her hands. "Maybe I should try a new skill because even though I know in the back of mind that I can't die, I am terrified. Are grim reapers allowed to feel fear?" "We all have things to fear." Severus replied and he laid down and surrendered, today was not the day to excel at this skill. "What do you fear?" She and walked down and joined him on the ground. "Aside from your mother and fatherhood." "One, I don't fear my mother and two, I dislike fatherhood, not fear it. There is a difference between the two things." He corrected her wrong understanding. "But I fear the same thing you and every other creature that works for the deities fears, the deities themselves. Should they ever decide to have no need of us, we will all stop existing. We take our immortal abilities for granted and sometimes we find them exhausting but when faced with the decision to stop existing, we all choose to stay because the thought of simply not being alive is terrifying. I have seen thousands of humans begging gods for life on their sick beds when they know fully well that they are terminal. I always wonder why they don't beg for death, it seems like the easier option to escape all that pain. But even when they beg for death, you can see the fear and hesitation in their eyes just before they die. They don't want to go, no one ever does." Scarlet wanted to say she did, when she died, she wanted it. Her bracelet terminal vibrated with a message informing all governors that all mecha warriors must return to the capital the next day. She sighed and spread her arms out.
